Wednesday, 13 July 2011
Seriously,
So what if she did apologize for her outburst, it was towards you.
She still said I'm not suitable for you. That isn't anywhere near her acceptance of me.
I am, indeed, nowhere near suitable. People are talking too.
To her, you're the perfect son, with awesome grades, filial, good in Table Tennis, what else- you're almost the perfect son, seriously.
Me?
I'm a JC dropout, I'm in Poly and not doing awfully well,
I'm a clubber, I project a bad image,
I drink, I gamble, I play Mahjong.
So what if I have my own company, many don't see that. And behind all those bad points, it's enough to turn any mother away from me.
Even though I had spent half the afternoon mopping the floors of the chalet with you and Alex, and I had attempted to help with your chalet.
Mind you, I never do anything to help make my own house cleaner. I only make it messier and dirtier.
I know you appreciate all my help and concern but knowing that you have to endure through all of that just to be together with me isn't what I want my relationship to be like.
I don't doubt you when you say that you will do anything it takes to make things right. I just doubt my own ability to stand through all these and still be the same person for you. People whom love me bring out the best in me, people whom detest me shape me to whom I become.
Why can't I ever be in a relationship happily?
i told of my glory at 2:44 am
Monday, 11 July 2011
Boyf's birthday chalet over just like that.
1st day when we reached, Alex, Boyf and I spent the whole afternoon cleaning up the chalet, mopping the floors and cleaning up dirt cos the unit was so dirty =x Argh. Then Tiff, Chee Sheng his OG mates came, Cyndi, Miao Xian and Jacky his colleagues too. And yay cos Zhenwen and Zhixiong came toooo! :D
Had drinking games cos his club/ mahjong friends were there too. Kinda funny cos they wanted to make Boyf drink but after 3 cup I said I tank. Cos I hadn't drank anything at all ;) Goodie at the games muahhaha. Mahjong/ poker etc etc after, went for a short walk with Boyf to attempt to catch sunrise but side gate was locked =x So in the end, 6-9+ am nap :)
2nd day was less busy, spent the afternoon playing Monopoly Deal with Boyf while waiting for his JC mates to come and the rest of his OG in the evening. His friends are really nice people! Had dinner together with them when the caterer came and played some warm-up no bet mahjong :) Cakecutting was okay, except Boyf's mummy didn't let me take a picture with him. Boyf was still blur blur and didn't know what to do. :( Oh well.
Night was yet another mahjong but this time round I played with them. Not bad, won quite a bit considering we weren't playing very big bets.
But after that was when some problems came in :( Went up to the room to sleep and Boyf's mummy came in and started screaming at us. Or rather, at Boyf, about her being traditional and not being able to comprehend us sharing a room despite being in seperate beds. :( Ended up both of us went downstairs to sleep in the living room cos I was afraid of sleeping alone and he didn't want to leave me alone. Felt super bad, cos he had to endure through the pain of sleeping on the hard ground too. But so blessed to have a Boyf whom would do anything for me.
Came back, thinking about things, and we're still faced with problems. Meeting Boyf tomorrow, can't wait to see him. Guess I really should thank God for such an awesome guy in my life.
Till tomorrow.
i told of my glory at 1:18 am
Wednesday, 6 July 2011
So again a really busy day.
Went to Farrer Park MRT to meet Alan for lunch near his place and then drop by his place for awhile to let his mummy "see me for the first time". Ahh, funny ley. Awkward much. But quite wasted cos the 3 stalls that he wanted to bring me to eat at are closed :(
Headed out for a chat before he dropped me off at TPY for me to go meet Zijie and Heidi for movie and supper! :D So anyways, these 2 buddies of mine are really awesome :) Watched Something Borrowed, to which I fell asleep in the seat next to some random crazy girl whom laughs super loudly.. =x Wasn't that all a waste, I think I had a good rest! :P
XLB buffet dinner/ supper after that, which was mad shiok cos I hadn't had that in ages! :D Too bad Alan didn't join cos mummy wanted him home =x Ahh. Hehehehe. So yea.. Came home a happy and full girl :D
As much as Alan and I haven't been together for very long, we've had minimal issues and disagreements so far, which is really fortunate for me.. Even during the wrong-time-of-the-month, he's the one to comfort me and tell me to go home early to rest. True, that's the kinda thing a Boyf would do of course, but there are Boyfs whom don't bother and don't care. But I'm glad I have someone whom does. As much as his mummy has told him something that he doesn't like to hear, and of course also something that I don't like to hear, but I'm glad he's firm on his stand.
A text to tell me about his disappointment in that statement that someone had made, and consolations later, Facebook greets me with this from him:
"Things might come crashing down on us at times. But we have the power to make things right ♥"
I like "we". So I know I'm not alone..
i told of my glory at 1:34 am
Sunday, 3 July 2011
Had an awesome time at Shangri-La Rasa Sentosa! :D
Transformer 3 after school yesterday was quite nice, but when Bumblebee almost got killed I was sadddddddd! Bumblebee is cute and me likes!
Da bao-ed dinner back to the resort and after dinner, took a walk down the beach (not for long cos of the post-dinner interesting TV program hahhahahah) and ended up at Alan's office. Met his colleagues Miao Xian and Cyndi whom are really friendly people :D And all was fine until he met someone apparently quite up there and said he was there to "WASH FACE" Whattttttttt the =x LOL. Super funny. So went to the Rec Room where there was Foosball and Pool and yeaaaa, was fun too! :D
Chillax, bathed, and headed down to Powerhouse :) Alan was a sad case of cough so nice me took the drink his friend offered for him. Lol. Idk what drink though. Me no likey Movida anyways. Bad bad happened though, cos I fell down one step at PH and hit my tailbone. Damn damn painful and Boyf had to help to support :( Ouchhhh.
Went back to the resort early but ended up eating light supper cos stomach was growling like maddddd :P
Then again, didn't really sleep well but ohman, bed was MAD comfy, except the pillows were... Not our type =x Hhahahaha!!
On a sidenote, Ryna's birthday and they're at Grand Copthorne! Gahhh, stay home Saturday~
i told of my glory at 1:28 am