WHAT I DESIRE..

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Winston plagiarise from my blog. He copied my December 23rd post. BOING :P He is so lazy!! How come I got such a lazy bro! :)

PROFESSOR MESSY! WHERE'S MY PRIZE? :)

i told of my glory at 1:47 AM

Can they ever please succeed in not making my blood boil with anger once? I'll be very much thankful and not have a headache each time I open that module folder. I dont even feel like doing that module's project if not for my own grades.

I cant believe one whole day of work only produced a 1.5 page of work on Microsoft Word. Seriously, I'm left speechless. I'm slogging like mad at home, producing 4 pages worth of report and there you are. Thank you people, thank you.

And you know what, last week of holidays. I'm gonna enjoy it like nobody's business. All the projects can just rot in my laptop ohkay. After tonight, unless I have a VERY STRONG DESIRE to do project, otherwise I wont touch it.

Holidays are REALLY starting for me. And I believe it'll last till NEXT WEEK. I dont care. I'm gonna pon school like nobody's business.

i told of my glory at 12:49 AM

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Boing! :D
Just woke up! WOOHOO! I made it to wake up in the morning today! Went for Night Cycling with Winston and Charlene yesterday night. Hehehe. Almosttttt didnt manage to cos Mrs Tang was nagging at Winston about the weather. :P Madness yesterday though, mobile dinner doesnt taste that good and makes me wanna puke now :/ Don't ever attempt to eat MOS Prawns and Sprite while cycling :/ Zzzz. But nevertheless, cycling yesterday night was gooooooood :) Just that first time THAT injury can be so painful during cycling :/ Moodspoiler cos I was so nuah after that.

OHKAYYYY! The rest of my day yesterday! :) Went to look for Winston at YCK in the morning cos he had driving lesson, and I didnt have anymore coupons so I couldnt park to my house lah. Had to leave the parking lot by 8am. I played stunt and went up at 8.30am praying hard I didnt get a fine :/ Hehe then I ate breakfast in my car! WOOHOO! But anyway, our plan was that I will tailgate his car. But BOING! when his teacher stopped the car to let him take over the wheel, I promptly overshot and drove all the way until Lentor and Yishun. HAHAHHA. WTF. Half an hour later, Winston called me when his teacher was taking a toilet break and I didnt know where he was even though he told me his location! Double-LOL ness. So aiyah, I just went to nuah somewhere somehow, and then went to SSDC to fetch him after his lesson ended :P

Drove to CDC to look for my almighty Mr Teo :) But didnt manage to find him! ): Then to Parkway for lunch, and drove to his place after petrol :D Initial plan was to return the car at 2pm cos that's the In time. But the person called us up and said we can return the car at 6pm, cos he's letting us extent for freeeeee :D So when we got to his place, there was an unknown car inside! Wa, his sis was like having a lunch get-together with her 4 friends and hahahaha, one of them is Yean Chiang sio! So coincidental! In the end, lunch 2nd round there :/ But I didnt eat muchieeee. Full alr! ): Charlene and her friends are super funny people I tell youuuuu :P Boingggggg! :P

After that Winston drove to my place. (Ya, he drove my car) Wheeeeee! :) I came home to bathe and I cant believe my mom decided to show him my ADORABLE baby pictures -.- Zzzzz! Meh meh! Apparently, my mom's 2nd time seeing Winston only. Cos 1st time was when we were going Gentingggg. :P And stupid Winston lo that MEH MEH! Bluff me say we tio summon cos never put coupon (Winston says it's cou-poon) :/ Went to return the car after that and bussed back to Winston's place again, and I totally nuah-ed with his brother Wilbert watching Goofy the Movie. HAHAHAHAHAH :X Serious I almost fell asleep on the sofa cos I was so tired! :/

135-ed over to ECP and realised the bike rental shop we always go to closed right at the moment I reached it. I RAN ALREADY! ): Stupid Winston la.. Say "What if close ah? What if we walk till there then the shutter close right in our face ah?" And it really happened. Grrrrr. Went to another shop further down. And the rest of the night, cool :)

Came home at around 4.12am and saw Kien's offline message for me that there's 2 shows to run on 24th ): Workshops from 7.30pm-9.30pm. Gahhhhh! So last minute ): But oh well, I left him an offline message too that I can go lorrrrr. So Bernard called me this morning. Only woke up on his 4th call. Hahahah. He called me 3 times, messaged me, but I couldnt be bothered to wake up LOL :P But oh sheeeeeeet, Christmas party plans are affected. Zzzzz. ): Better think of a solution, FAST!

Off for project! Time check: 12.30pm. And I think Winston and Charlene are not awake yet :P

WINSTON AH, I WANT TO GO OUT AND PLAY SOMEMORE :)))

i told of my glory at 11:30 AM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

IT WAS A GREAT DAY TODAY :D

Oh well, to sum up my day, I drove around alot today :) But it wasnt simple to get to that!

Early in the morning, I was informed that the Manual Toyota Vios I wanted at $55 was not available ): Nevermind, I was offered an Auto Lancer Glx at $60. But horror! the person called Winston up 1 hour plus later to say that it wasnt available too! Horror TTM! It was already 11am and I wanted a car that afternoon. Very last minute indeed! But as a last resort, I passed Winston the number of rentcarsingapore.com. The charges were slighty higher as compared because they charge an extra for P-plate drivers. And blah blah, I'm one. Hehehe. They had an Auto Nissan Sunny for rent. Was told to transfer deposit over, but but but! They called me half an hour later to say that they Sunny wasnt available already! Apparently, someone beat me to it :/ GRRRR. So they gave me an Auto Kia Picanto. Negative at first! But the car turned out adorable enough to make me happy :)

Collected the car with Winston at Bedok. Super taken to it upon close look cos it's CUTE! :D Finally drove it off after paperwork, and went with Winston to an open-spaced carpark to tryout parking. CHUI LIKE CANNOT! :P No wonder Zijie said he cant park his dad's Mazda. I already had problems parking a buttless car! :P Ends up I realised it's much easier to park between cars then at a lot where there's no cars around me at all cos it's thougher to gauge :)

Sent Winston to Bedok for his lasik (oops, typo earlier) appointment, then Von and girls said they wanna go to Tampines Mall for food and want me to fetch them! Ah, okay lah. So went to school to pick them up :) I was still getting used to the car's power and all, and well, I seriously had problems getting used to it cos it's so different from my dear teacher's Toyota Vios! BOING :/ But was good still! Hahha.

Left Tampines Mall at 5 odd pm. Jokes started happening! Yifang has a bad sense of directing people, seriously. She'd say "Also can" when asked for directions. GRRR. In the end I went one big round around Tampines. LOL! Seriously very funny! Cos Tampines area seemed to have a lack of Uturns which I can use! :P

Then after multiple circles around the Tampines area, I was about to drive Crystal and Pam to Town area already when Winston called. ARGH!! In the end, detoured to his place to pick him up. Due to the bad traffic, my car which lacks power, and my inability to recognize directions well, we ended up having to make a detour to Shell after picking Winston up cos Crystal had to use the toilet :P Hehehe. My bad!

Town area had a super super bad jam and I reached Somerset to drop Pam and Crystal off only at close to 7pm. ARGHHH!! Then rushed down to Park Mall to park car before going over to Sakura to meet the rest. Jintian, Eunice and Ernest! YAY! Liek super long since I last saw them even though it may be just a few months! :D Had a great dinner, celebrated JT's birthday belated with a cake we bought, and took pictures! :D Love them TTM yo! :)

Drove JT home, followed by Ernest, then followed by Winston. :)
Zham-ed accelerator after turning out from Winston's porch and he called me saying I'm being damn noisy cos of the engine. HAHHAHAH :/ Hurry t get home marrrr!

But it was a good day nevertheless.
Meeting Winston tomorrow morning for another round of drive drive before we return the car at 2pm :)

Thanks to friends whom believed in my skills,
Thanks to Pam for lending me her cashcard,
and Thanks to Winston the best-Bro-one-can-ever-ask-for. for paying for my petrol today, for helping me look out for cars and telling me when to filter lane, for being my GPS (i suck at directions!), for controlling my steering wheel for me while im smsing (LOL!), for teaching me how to drive an auto car (i swear its different from manual!), guiding me on parking, and getting the coupons from ur mom's car for me! :) Hehehe.
And I feel the love lorrrrr! With someone nagging at me to drive carefully! :) :) Thanks Bro! Really! :)

YAY! MANY LOVES PEOPLE :) Huifang loves car car! :D

And I just received Kien's email that I've gotten the logcake thingy! Hahhaha! Im actually like one of the Top 6 for numbers of hours clocked in for December! Benny's also within the Top 6! LOL :P And Winston is like, within the Top 10 also but not the Top 6 HAHAHHAH :D Boingggg. So he got some Cheese Spread thingy. I think it sounds yummy either way :P Yay! See, my Boss got many loves for his employees toooooo! :)

Off to sleep!
Pictures tmrw! :)

i told of my glory at 1:57 AM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

I think..

What I told YC off for,
is what's happening to me now.

No solution,
thus choosing to run away.

But I think, as long as we're better this way,
no answers to the many questions,
maybe this temporary kind of happiness might just take me for another 2 months..

Until then,
my girls will suffer under my never-ending rants for one night again. :)

就算彼此沒時間相見
電話簡訊也不會斷線
我能感覺我的明天
都是你笑臉填滿我

Why wouldnt I believe in His help?
Always when I'm lost, I will turn to him for help, I'll ask Him the questions, and He'll guide me on what to do. I feel at ease because before I slept, I asked for His help, and I know that tomorrow, He'll tell me a solution already.
Like what whats-her-name told me, as long as you believe that He can help you, and you believe in Him, He will help you.
I havent been to church for quite some time :)

我們一起走到永遠, ok?

i told of my glory at 7:16 PM

Just finished another mascot show at Thomson Plaza.

Client was pretty demanding. Kept calling me to ask me where my Bear was.
Met nice people,
met nice parents,
but crowd was pretty disappointing because there were not that many kids as compared to other places I guess.

The kids made me smile, really.

Life goes on, I guess.

靜靜站在你的身邊
感覺擁有全世界
想抓緊所有的一切
不讓走遠

幸福在我們的眼前
溫暖每一寸心扉
雖然笑起來很媔靦
你總是很瞭解
你總是很體貼
我們一起走到永遠

我們許下美麗的心願
心願許下我們的明天
不管多遠遠到天邊
我們總肩並著肩

就算彼此沒時間相見
電話簡訊也不會斷線
我能感覺我的明天
都是你笑臉填滿我
記憶裡的畫面

記得騎車的下雨天
你說有甜蜜的感覺
每張記憶裡的照片
有快樂的側臉
有音符在跳躍
所有的回憶全是甜

我們許下美麗的心願
心願許下我們的明天
不管多遠遠到天邊
我們總肩並著肩

我們記得每一次見面
相擁幸福不想說再見
我能感覺我的明天
不讓你流淚不傷悲
我唯一的心願

Sweet..

i told of my glory at 4:52 PM

Maybe stress is again taking control, thats why I'm reacting this way. I love my job, but I start to detest whats happening around me.

Maybe all along I was just seeking solace in a non-existent relationship,
waiting to be taken on a journey of fun, with companionship I could really relate to.

When finally, having someone whom I could treat with respect and trust, thats why I do things the wrong way..

To me,
you are in my present and my future.

Havent said this for some time.
HAIS. Lol.
No one can ever love a sister/brother more than a person who doesnt have one, then finally found one whom she could. :)

Hold my hand and take me through this life journey..

i told of my glory at 11:52 AM

I guess all along, I was just a lonely child,

looking to someone whom I could see as a sibling, as a Brother.
I never called others Brother. :)

But maybe, typo error.

Maybe, what Erika says is true.. :X

i told of my glory at 3:52 AM

Glenn's commissioning parade today (Alright, yesterday since it's past 12am). It was very very interesting being at that parade itself. Glenn looked handsome! :) And I guess, this is the kind of prestige they'd been fighting for all along.

Went for dinner at JP, and went to Cafe Iguana after that. Even though plans to club were foiled this morning, Cafe Iguana was equally good. Glenn's bro's treat. As usual, I'll always have someone among the group whom dont know their limits. Happily gulp tequila until after a break he said he was giddy and felt like he was floating. Thank God I'm a person whom knows how to think for myself. Playing 5 10 with them, but knowing when to stop. Rejected more drinks cos I knew I should stop. Tequila is always my killer, seriously. But AT LEAST I KNEW WHEN TO STOP Because I know that I got a show the next day and I shouldnt allow myself to have a hangover. They understood. I hope the person who didnt really think he had a limit learnt his lesson though. Like how Glenn's bro described the guy who was dead drunk at Supper Club. -.-

Itching to approach Zirca the whole time cos we were so nearby there. They said to go in with my VIP tix and to go in again some other day on Ladies' Night. It's my holidays, I should be enjoying Ladies' Night TTM. And now I even know, Butterfact serves free drinks to BOTH guys and girls, free. Except guys have to pay a cover charge I think?

I think it's the choices we make in life,
that show our weaknesses and strengths.
I know my own weaknesses.
And it's pretty hopeless.

But then again, who cares? I thought you cared, even just as a FRIEND. That word is tough to get out of my mouth. :) But I guess it's not just Disappointment walking through the door tonight. That was an understatement.

If you thought that was fun,
If you thought that was what you wanted,
If you thought that was what I wanted to happen,
I wouldnt have bothered,
I wouldnt have nagged,
I wouldnt have told you to stop,
I wouldnt have told you not to.

But my words fell on deaf ears.
It doesnt matter.
If that's what you want, go on.
I wont stop you no more.
In the first place, I didnt have a right to meddle. I didnt even have the right to stop, to nag, or anything at all.
I'm sorry, it was my fault all along, cos nothing beats kinship. One stupid brother, no?

I stopped clubbing for two reasons. Such reasons so important to me I could choose not to do what my friends were doing weekly without me.
But yesterday, I found a reason to go on with it. Why bother?
Those whom say they care dont even bother, so why should I?
Next stop, Butterfact, Zirca & Rebel.

Crushed, came through the door today, just right at this moment.

There comes a point, where I wouldnt even want to talk to anyone, anymore.
When the pain I feel, pierces through my heart, It's not the kind of normal disappointment in boyfriends, disappointment in oneself, but the kind of unexplainable crushed trust that had been so carefully nurtured and cherished.
Although there's awkwardness present in some silence, but I still enjoy his company and presence.

At least I came home, just merely tired.

I trusted you, everything, every single part of me. You won that.

i told of my glory at 2:34 AM

Friday, December 18, 2009

Event at Hitachi today morning was great! Kids were adorable, program was smooth, everything was splendid! (Except the last minute unexpected screwup that the newly-ordered microphone could not be used on the spot)
After the balloon sculptures, caricatures and facepainting, Kien did his Christmas Magic Show and conducted games for the kids. Totally dazzling with charmmmmm :) Thats why kids love Mr Bottle! As a finale, I brought approx. 40 kids with me to different parts of the office to sing Christmas carols. Was told to prepare 4-5 songs but we ended up just singing Jingle Bells cos thats the best they could do together. They were given more sweets, chocolates etc for singing so well :) It's really encouraging when they react, respond, and sing along out loud. Really love them too bits! Noticed some exceptionally cute kids like Huishan, whom chased after Santa Claus and got scared when Santa decided to turn around and chase after her. Haha! Adorableeeee :)
Being coordinator is fun. But being involved to bring them around to sing carols is even better! Christmas Christmas! :DDD

Project later on, neutral enough.
Did what ought to be done, enough.

Went to Winston's show at Suntec. Was pretty good I guess. Jiayou bro :) Im proud of you!

--

When I had that dream yesterday night, I felt that Hope had never left me, and Waiting had never been gone. Hope was always there to motivate and allow me to know that I still have Hope with me and thus am not alone. And I always had someone to turn to.

I thought Waiting had gone, when I knew I had no choice but to give up. Then when some things happened, the overwhelming wrenching pain started all over again, and brought me down on my knees, begging you not to go. But it was futile, it didnt work. It never wouldve worked. You yourself destroyed Hope, and brought along Disappointment. I could never have begged Disappointment, nor could I have bargained with them. I didnt even want to hold on to Hope, not letting him go, because Disappointment had always been waiting for his chance to invade. Today you forced Disappointment through the door, when you made the decision to be bought over.

I dont even know what to say anymore.

I wont forgive, because you made no mistake. I was the mistake right from the start. Waiting should never have happened and Hope always only came back when the winds out there were too strong.

And when Hope got bought over, Disappointment is who i sleep with tonight..

Im going to Zirca tomorrow night.
Meet me on the dancefloor.

i told of my glory at 11:00 PM

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Preparing for my show tomorrow :D At the same time worrying for my two girls' Driving Basic Theory Test! It's tomorrow and erika has only passed ONCE on the single online simulator and yvonne not a single one yet! ARGH! But then again, Christmas is round the corner! :)

I havent looked forward to Christmas as much as this year before. Maybe cos I havent had the habit of celebrating it ever before. Even during the last two years, it was just going out with my then-colleagues. This year is so gonna be different! :)

Being already involved by participating in Christmas parties in homes, malls or companies due to the nature of my work.. Singing Christmas carols, bringing Santa Claus and Christmas Bear around to give candies and hugs to kids, coordinating parties etc. IT'S JUST SO GREAT AND FUN! :) Happiness yo!

And I'm still looking forward to the two Christmas parties this year! :) 24th and 25th Dec are gonna be busy days this year!

OH yes, based on Bernard's wrong tabulation, I actually qualified for one of the top 10 number of hours clocked in for this month. But after sending Kien my editted hours, I think I'm quite.. lacking in confidence over it! HAHAHA OOPS :( But then again, I know I'm enjoying it, that's all that matters. And when Boss and other colleagues give me compliments, it's great encouragement :)

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby (:

i told of my glory at 10:12 PM

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I think sometimes having dreams can make one negative of reality! So I ought to be able to maintain the right mindset to always be positive :)

When I thought of all the effort I put in into achieving something I thought I could get within the next few years, I knew I didnt do myself injustice. Because I put in my best efforts and know that whatever the outcome, I'm prepared at the very least, for a further goal :) I've gotten my license, and what's the next step? And I realised today, that no matter how similar two people can be, how similar we want to be, the non-existing physical social class is still there between two people. Communication, no matter how hard we tried, never worked 100% of the time.

Projects, enjoy the process.
Because while I'm working hard at this end of my world, he's also doing so at the other end. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and suspense makes passion stronger. When we meet unexpectedly, is when the impact's greatest. I can only predict, assume, and pray hard for the next time I meet him and have a chance to work with him again :) And this is why, next week is full of "opportunities"!

Sometime I realised, having someone by your side is not everything either. He was happy than sad, she was trapped than totally happy. He didnt want to let her go, she didnt want it to end. She was caught in the middle of nowhere and didnt want a solution, he knew he had to do something but never bothered looking for a solution. It was always all talk, no action, with many but two casualties. Many casualties whom shouldve been happy than trapper with them. All it took, was for one party to understand, was for one party to either give up or give in. Since either couldnt give in, what was the point holding on to something that wouldnt blossom or die, but always half-hanging? Walking away isnt always bad, isnt always negative. If it could bring both parties happiness than just being with ONE loved one, that should be how it is. Others always said, "Love isnt about keeping the one you love by your side, but just seeing them happy would make you contented."

These days, I've been talking about moving on. Yifang said that would be good for me. Yvonne is not one bit convinced cos she says my ".. True love still doesnt change." Haahaha. Xinyan also gives a skeptical look. But c'mon man friends, Friendship is food for the heart, for the mind, for the soul. You guys are my best medicine, not any new guy to replace anyone, no matter how good looking he is, how adorable he is, how gentlemanly he is, or whatever car he drives. :) Time heals all wounds, true. But true love never dies, just like how true friendship doesnt. :)

Accompany me to the future,
don't let go of my hand,
even if the world is gone one day,
tell me you'll still be there right beside me.

Project world is how it is like,
money supports this world.

And I bring along with me the happiness of bringing joy to others. :) :) :)

i told of my glory at 11:51 PM

Simple, short and sweet, but inspiring (:
This never fails to make me believe..

Story of Mr Bottle

Once upon a time, there was a very shy child. So shy that he did not dare to talk to anyone in school. One day, his father bought a bottle of magic for him. "In it, is a potion that will make you grow brave and strong."

Every morning, he would open the bottle for some magic. Day by day, he began to make more friends. One day, he saw his good friend cornered by Billy, the big bully. Believing in the magic, he chased Billy away.

Many years later, he discovered that the bottle was actually an empty bottle. Believing in the magic has changed his life. This child is none other than Mr Bottle the Magician, who believes that nothing is impossible.

-end-

I've told Kien before that he makes children happy. That's why, no matter what happens, the whole team is always behind him because he has brought joy to so many people.

I still have a long way to go in Mr Bottle's company.

But I believe that with each show, I will improve, I will learn, and I will grow.

When stress sets in, we finally realise we're not alone. (:

i told of my glory at 11:34 AM

i just did something wrong.

but i dont know why i dont feel like telling anyone about it except the person who maybe doesnt even bother with what just happened. haha. life never is fair, really is (:

people choose not to bother but i choose to be the one who does so.
thats what the guy at the youth forum classified as a leader. but no, im not one. im one who chooses to bother but people dont see it.
they see themselves as being the centre of their world, where all is right that they do.

i like how i wasted half the day away today.
but i cant keep myself in solitude.

for once, i hated my phone for having msgs and calls coming in every 15-30 minutes even though i didnt take the initiative to contact anyone.

maybe its time for another getaway. but then again, the people whom used to be, maybe just arent there anymore. but we move on with life. (:

--

the world is round.

no one can change a person.
only they themselves can..

we try all we can to influence, but dont forget, we may go home one fine day losing all we ever had if we try too hard.

no problem.. dont bother to care about what im thinking if you even doubted me once. i try so hard to be a friend who cares because i know of our age difference but all you tell me is a simple cover-up lie to bring over this topic.
time and again this happens,
i give up on you.

i believe im not alone on this.

--

why am i always thinking for others when they cant even be bothered themselves? why am i always the one fussing over them to ensure they're well and they're comfortable and they're getting the best?

i should just keep myself occupied with doing well for my studies and work, isnt this so?

i told of my glory at 12:20 AM

Monday, December 14, 2009

day today was BAHHHHHHHHHH! project project ): i think marketing project is a disaster. so many things to do! GAHH. i think i rather take the test 2 more times! -.- yes it's that bad. i kind of detest marketing project. not cos of the group, the group's splendid, but the content of project sucksssssss! ):

nevertheless, my group mates are crazy people. waiseng keeps saying that haseenah is malay and keeps speaking the same malay language phrase to her to annoy her. hahahha! and well, me and wenliang just 190% lost lor. HAHAHHHHAHA :X

went to pass winston the tickets for zirca and powerhouse for his sis and guess what, i met his sis at th bus stop. omg i tell you. wenliang was like "OHHHHHHHHH!" HAHAHAHHAHA! aiyarrrrrrrr, serious! all along i really thought she got problem with me mah, each time im in th house she like 280% black face TTM -.- but aiyarh, she was kinda friendly today. lol. i think maybe my misunderstood assumption? yah winston gonna say "assume assume assume, always only know how to assume" boingggggg -.- cos i took 135 with her to amk. but anyways, huifang is friendly to the world if the world is friendly to her :D

next show next sunday. walao. sian TTM please. i want go in mascot but bernard say want me be outside -.- boing. and my partner not bennyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ): my partner also not deliaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! RAWRRRRRRRRRR. BOINGGGGGGGGG!

xinyan's house party tmr :D YAY! i love to play ^^

"You can sleep now, because I'll be right beside you when you wake up" YES, that is the dream guy, assuring me that everything will be fine and he'll be there beside me.

i told of my glory at 9:48 PM

I AM SO TIREDDDD!

HAHHHAHHA my boss so funny. commented on my wall post ytd di siao siao me. BOINGGGGG! :P

went to singapore recreation club for workshop today. waaa, like full force show like that, facepainting, santaclaus, RESONANCE MAN! christmas magic show, gamesmaster. WOW :D sad sad that benny didnt manage t get car today ): RAWR. so since he couldnt pick me up, in th end my parents kb for 10 minutes, then decided to be nice to send me there. HAHA :P

workshop was great today (: cos benny, kien and snow were all helping me too. cos the crowd's like 37 kids whom majority are 6 years olds and they dont really follow th instructions :/ chaotic but got it well done than my last workshop (: kien said my self-invented ideas for glitter application were GOOD xD *claps!* wheeeeeeee (: but i think i was still abit slow from th start. haha. boing! (: stayed for kien's christmas magic show. it's nice i tell you! :D then darren's appearance as santaclaus! OMG hilarious TTM i tell you (: darren is like, skinny santa please! -.- but damn funny cos his beard and hat kept sliding down/ dropping off! HAHAHHAHA.

then went home to changeeee and put down stuff. gahhh, cabbed down to kallang leisure park to look for darren for his 2nd santa assignment. he like scared ghost lah! BOING -.- because of him i canot go watch resonance man at thomson plaza ): MEH MEH MEH. see, i nvr zhong se qing you. but nevertheless, i still wanted to strangle darren at th end of th day ^^ (lucky you darren, at least i think kien doesnt read my blog) gahhh.

went to vivocity after that to meet classmates for dinner (: supposed to meet them earlier to go sentosa tgt but i didnt manage to join them cos i was occupied with th event at SRC (:

ive decided, i want resonance man t be at my 21st birthday party! :D

all i want for christmasssss is youuuuu~
ohkkkkkk now the jingle's stuck in my head haha!
i want christmas bearbear! :D
TIRED AH!

and OH YEA, i wanna go for YOG2010! i missed out at th friendship camp LOR ): WALAO. so many mr bottle's personels there ): bahhhhh!

i told of my glory at 12:30 AM

Saturday, December 12, 2009

today was a good day :)

basketball in the morning with class people and yc's friend. fun leiii :D im like super missing bball cos i havent bball-ed in AGES! oh gosh, 1.5 years to be exact. HAHA. last time i did was during mid of my second j1 year i think??! cos after that i kind of QUIT bball LOL! but today was shiok lahhhh :D if not for my uncomfortable chui sports shoes. boing!

went to masquerade w darren after that. HAHA. i think he looks kind of cute in the toy soldier costume but at the same time kind of FUNNY! hehehehheeh :P but anyways, collected santa suit for himself and went homeeee.

then had mascot at thomson plaza at 7.30pm! :D hahha. CHRISTMAS BEAR!! (L) :D the christmas bear like damn exposed lo, can see benny's black shirt inside from behind! HAHAHHA :X but nevertheless, many kids were kinda happy and liked himmmmm (: so many kids gave him bear hug! *envious* boingggg. but he really sweat like madddddddd :/ hahahha. after that he sent me home though :D and waaa, first time got people fetch me ask me "hows th aircon, ok? everything ok?" waaaa he's damn nice please! :D
and he said if he can get th car tmr, he'll pick me up t go SRC tgt cos he got a show thr toooooo (:
boing!! :D HAHAHAHAH.

been preparing for my workshop tmr. ah, do a good one!
WINSTON! JIAYOU FOR UR SHOWS ALSO! (:

i told of my glory at 11:48 PM

Friday, December 11, 2009

i can smell temporary liberationnnnnnnnnn (:

marketing paper was not as tough as expected. i only screwed up one part, like just one teeny weeny part of the 12 marks qn. rest was ok, and super satisfied with mcq cos it was tricky but im quite confident to get at least 8 correct! :D haha!
i think the sense of satisfaction from this paper is highest among all modules because it's something we all thuoght we'd screw up. but really all thanks to wenliang's last minute help, his photocopied mainpoints-to-look-out-for taken during revision lecture. though there was like 38875984768594729 mistakes in it when we attempted to decipher it ytd in the project room, it helped me super alot today after i added in my own things-to-rmb-in-details.

went to cut hair after that.
and i like my hairstyleeeeeeeee :D the aunty is super nice and the hairstyle is worth every $$ i paid yo :D gonna go back thr to cut hair in future hahahaa!! she even helped us dry our hair such that it was so straight it looked rebonded!

bussed down to orchard after that. friggin bus ride took 2 hours and 15 minutes. and its a bus that went on expressway at eunos to novena -.- jam at novena to orchard suckedddddd, seriously! me and erika got so bored that we were entertaining ourselves on the bus with childhoos games :/ gahh. then went to far east, went to royal plaza at scotts to meet kien to pass him stuff and get stuff from him ^^
wanton mee dinner and home sweeeeeet home! :D

basketball tmr! OH I CANT WAIT :D

but f.. i just realised that someone came to my blog through googling "how to overcome sadness of being a retainee"
WA SERIOUSLY, FUCK OFF YOU NO-LIFER! basket, retainee very -ve meh? retainee are just people taking a 2nd chance please -.- i myself took that 2nd chance before too..
but how loser can you be to google how t overcome sadness??!

OKAY LAH, my nose is better today. but still blocked when in an enclosed area! :/ off to ZZZZZZZZZZ! :D

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话你就放得下 :D

able to, just jiayou..

--

some things,
are not within my consumable range,
are not within my consideration,
are not within my consuming power..
but it doesnt matter.
maybe thats what they call difference in SOCIAL CLASS, how people have preferences that suit their image, that cater to their class. (no, i havent enjoyed marketing enough)

i always knew i was born in the average class.
maybe thats why im just a weeeeeee negative now,
but i dont have a choice but to work towards what caters to the average class like me, to at least attain the highest level in being an average class before i emerge as something better, cos so many people keep saying i have the look of a high-position manager in the hotel industry. LOL.. :P
ok lah, im being over-sensitive over some issue just now. but then again, i think its just part of growing up- having to get used to the differences between you and those whom you so want to be so level with.

but i know that where i end up at in 10 years time will be no one else's decision but mine.
so afraid to try, but even more afraid to fail.

i fear the releasal of midsem results in 2 weeks time. but then again, thats life.
life's never fair- i remember winston once said this to me, right?

不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装

i told of my glory at 11:58 PM

Thursday, December 10, 2009

im down, seriously. GAHHH ):
i dont know whats wrong with me this year, i keep falling ill! ARGH!
think it's time to really commit to 2 servings of veggie and 2 servings of fruits. ok lah, maybe not all. ive been dutifully eating fruits and consuming fresh fruit juice the past 2 days ): shows how desperate i am to get well. but haiiiiis, last minute work dont neccesarily work yo. and im still spamming honey water + strepsils + mom's doc-prescribed lozenges + fruits + plain water + calplus!
CAL PLUS PLEASE SAVE ME!! ):

bad flu this time, add on to the already existing bad sore throat since sunday ): gahhhh. and best, this saturday and sunday both got show. ok at least saturday wouldnt require me to talk much. but sunday's workshop. oh good game, srsly. ytd i went to bed at 1am, and only fell asleep at 4am. i was sneezing and coughing and nosie was running miles away during the 3 hours in between. no peaceful sleep. today's bus trip to school= huifang stoning all the way. cos i was that sian lah ): but gahhh! i hate it when my nose is blocked! cos i cannot breathe D:

bstats paper was fine today. i thought myself a bit kuku to know realise what the standard deviation formula was, then i realised haseenah was even funnier cos she squared instead of squarerooting. LOL! but aiyah, thats just one part. it was good nevertheless.

mugging of marketing was a big joke, srsly. i booked the project room from 1pm-5pm. but turns out only close to 2 hours of productive studying i think. everyone was pretty -ve about having to even ATTEMPT to study marketing cos we're so HUHHHHHHHHH about the subject. LOL! but aiyah, i think, this time round, even im not motivated to study for it :/ i think if i can keep up the standard that i maintain in my tutorials, shouldnt be a problem. but im just afraid if i go blank tmr. lol.

but still,
last paper tmr! class has plans to watch new moon. and we got plans to go cut hair ^^ whee. but winston objects strongly to bangs cos he says it'll make me look super act cute. ebra says to cut moehog. that guy rubbish one lah. von and the rest keep asking me to cut bangs??! bahhhhhhhhhhh. i will only trim the ends and fringe, i'll decide tmr. cos i think id laugh at myself if i got bangs too! HAHAHAHA :P

saturday will be working with benny! woohoo! handsome guy lei von. HAHA :D
and ive got free entry tix to zirca and powerhouse! woohoo! :D
BOINGGGG. ): IM STILL HAVING DIFFICULTY IN BREATHING!

i told of my glory at 10:09 PM

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

today,
i woke up at 10.20am,
ran out of the house at 10.35am,
boarded a cab at 10.40am,
reached biz school level 1 at 10.59am,
ran up to 4th floor and reached classroom at 11.01am,

for 11am paper.

good job huifang, you made it in time. (:

studied stats and sneezed in library like sneezes had no costs,
nose ran away a few miles before coming back for a few moments and running away all over again.
spamming honey with water now but i dont feel any lasting effects. it wears off like, in 10 minutes ):

oh gosh, i feel like continuing on my econs article analysis, so i shall do so.
even though it's stats paper tomorrow.
and you know what? i love westlife and i love shane and nicky. i love their singing. i love guys who can sing, seriously. oh gosh, but please, i still prefer chinese guys. HAHA :D

BOING ):
oh, tomorrow's gonna be gang-up-and-mug-and-kill-marketing day, then down to boss' office :DDDDD

i want to drive ):

i told of my glory at 9:55 PM