Monday, 31 January 2011
Rain rain rain.. Whole day it has been raining, wouldn't have left my hoodie if not for work =X
Dramatic day today- chiong-ing PFP submission, missing 99% of CBK lecture in the end. Hais. Went to talk to Mr Chong about my NGP and he says he wants to hear of reasons why he should give me a 2nd chance.. Cried lo, what else.. He didn't seem willing and he reprimanded me =( Well, not like I didn't deserve it. But I apologized and I'm putting in effort... =( Keeping my fingers crossed for the best.
IF lecture was terrible. Stupid idiots from a particular course are freaking childish and rowdy. How to concentrate in lecture with such people??! Damn. Shouldn't let them crash our lecture lo LOL. =P
Tutorial with D after was... Okay lah. Challenged me in front of the whole class to sell him something lo. Just cos he said my resume is OUTSTANDING.. Hahhahahha =P Ended up was a rather funny situation. He's an awesome tutor but.. abit uncomfortable sometimes eg today LOL. =X
Then again, today evening I knew that I'm regaining my touch, and I'm about to have regained my focus. Thanks to idiot(s) whom cause me to lose focus, you all can go die!! =( I'm going to emerge even stronger this time round.... Teehee!
i told of my glory at 11:06 pm
Saturday, 29 January 2011
Blog isn't just blog anymore.
Some people just dont seem to BOTHER or even CARE. Haiyoh, quite disappointing when I think I can do it and put in so much effort, having FORCED myself even, to attempt to accomplish tasks I would never have set myself to do, and then I fail and no one really bothers. Lol.
Yah, my GPA is going down down down down down. And my mood isn't going up anywhere or any day soon. FML.
Work on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, packed with revision lectures, makeup lessons due to CNY, and some unexciting people. I'm not looking forward to work. Insensitive people are not helping either. I wont waste time on people like you- meeting me just for the sake of doing so and waiting for time to past. WTF. I have better things to do.
I have so many things to do- work, company, studies. I still have to prove to Mr Chong that I'm not worth the 1.0 non-graded. I can't afford to have m GPA down any further.
Sometimes, all I need is for someone to talk to at night. And thanks C, for being that person tonight! :) Now I know why I'm able to comfortably tell the clique today "Nah, what like? It's just being used to having someone special in my life. Time passes like moving on." and I'm glad I met the clique today for The Green Hornet! :)
Oh you know what? Project tomorrow in school too. TMD :(
i told of my glory at 11:18 pm
Friday, 28 January 2011
Never felt so in my life, that my life would be in isolation after I step out of the school.
Studying is done alone,
tutorials done alone,
going for CDS alone even.
Too bad, no one's in my same CDS. Thank God for this awesome CDS class where we shared our stories over the weeks and got closer. I still dont know what's that guy's name, but he waved at me when I entered the class and I felt so much happier. Yah lah handsome guy, but it's not the kind of unique happiness but the kind of happiness that I know I belong with this class. And all the year 1s in the CDS class whom never fail to brighten up my day with a smile even though I dont know if they know my name. :) Our final assignment due very soon, and we had a really short lesson today. For once, I felt sad. Cos I know I'll miss this class, whereby we weren't close, but yet had that thing in common- we knew of one another's stories.
Studying mood is starting to really bring my mood down on a whole. I dont even feel the need to doze off or stone off in class. I hate how I really have to be forced to sit down and listen to something that I know nothing about.
Just give me time off from everything to catch up with my studies, can?
I need to study for International Finance test, catch up at least 5 chapters of FOI and PFP, and finish up PFP project. What kind of weekend is this? Thank goodness I've given up the show to PW and Hayden instead.
I just need... More time.... And more motivation..
As sweet as their love, their song, perfect.
i told of my glory at 1:27 am
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
Still pondering over how to settle this problem. Seems minor maybe to everyone else, but it's a mega problem for me. Didn't want to post it here but I have no other alternative. I don't have a diary.
Dont read on if you dont wish to ensure rubbish ranting from me.
I dont like to work with someone whom freaking looks like a replica, except a taller version of his ex girlfriend. I feel like a loser standing next to her because it reminds me of things she probably had that I have never gotten. I dont like to work with this girl not because I detest her but because each time I look at her the two people I see are you and your ex girlfriend. It's irritating because each time I think about it it gets me 1000x more upset than how I should be feeling. There's no point in me enduring through all these cos at the end of the day, I know I wont be able to see her as a true friend, as part of the family.
Sorry but I'm a sore loser. I probably cant endure working any day alone with her. Sorry JE. I just gave up trying after meeting you for the 1st time today.
I dont/wont like working with you.
i told of my glory at 3:14 am
The expression in your eyes is so full of beauty, taking away my heartbeat
Your gentleness is so close, taking away my heartbeat
Time turns back to the beginning, can I have just one more second?
Waiting for that day when you too will think again
Of that happiness suspended in our memories
:)
i told of my glory at 1:56 am
HAHAHHAH been neglecting this best friend of mine. Awww sorry bloggie :P HEHEHEHHEHE..
I really need to blog about today cos it's such a ...... EVENTFUL day. Gel extensions, work, stupid irritating customers whom took down my tidied-up-closing-soon-furniture, taxi I was in almost got into a major accident, and GETTING AN ERP FINE FROM LTA.
Omg mega funny. I received a letter for a fine for driving through a gantry at Cairnhill Road, on 19th Nov 2010, 4.20pm. HELLOOOOO, I didn't drive for like 2-3 months before December's Subaru okayyyyy!?!??! Texted neo immediately and he rectified it for me. 15 minutes later called me and said that it was their admin whom made a mistake. Tmd.....
AND STOP IT LAH STOP FORCING ME!! I DONT WANT TO TRAIN ANYONE I DONT WANT MY DOUBLE PAYRISE I DONT WANT ANYTHING ELSE EXCEPT FOR SOME THANKYOU AND ABIT MORE LOVE. :(
Yah, stressed at work.... FML.
Need. To. Study :)
i told of my glory at 12:01 am
Saturday, 22 January 2011
Had a reeeeeeally awesome night studying :)
The past week has been madness ttm. Tried very hard to get into the mood of studying but I can't just seem to settle down! :( Lots of madness~
Today's plans to study from 1pm till evening epic fail, cos WJ called me to go Town. Wellllll, so I went of cos. HAHAHAH.. Evening then study, so Thomson Plaza Starbucks for the first time! :) But omg, no aircon! D: But the atmosphere there was rather good :) Just a wee bit dim :X Hahahha and what a coincidence, I met Wanwin there! What a surpriseee, after not seeing her ever since after O levels I think? HAHAHHA!! She was there to mug too! Finance ftw :P And I was kinda pressurized to study cos she was like... Mugging too! Hahaha and can see she's super serious in her revision...
And I think I got drunk on International Finance lar, 4 hours, 3.5 chapters. Madness one :X But I am proud of myself! I'm 1/2 prepared for next Saturday's test already! Another 1/2 will be ready after I contact Mr Phua for consultation ;)
i told of my glory at 12:02 am
Monday, 17 January 2011
http://www.wildhoney.com.sg/10/index.htm#c
BREAKFAST CALLING OUT TO ME HAHAHAHA!!
i told of my glory at 1:23 am
Saturday, 15 January 2011
Hi Dear blog,
I do not know what to do with my horrendous PFP and IF grades. International Finance is a 25% weightage, which means I will never be able to get an A for International Finance even if I get full marks for my end-sem paper already. Wrong concepts, wrong procedures, I can't believe I was so careless in studying for it..
PFP is such a disappointment because I don't even know what wrong I made to deserve such marks. And tutor seems so unwilling to return our paper.
2 failure is enough. No more of such rubbish in Poly. I'm supposed to be one of the smartest in the course, what happened? :( Ohwell.
i told of my glory at 3:16 am
Had a great time today with the awesome people :) Went to school early in the morning to finish up CBK project for submission. Phew~ Finally over :D Then headed down to Cathay for lunch with them at Astons! :)
Kbox after at Scape. Omg mad heavy rain! :( But it was really funny cos we had sorethroats and were just...... zao xia-ing. LOL! But Nic has a rather good voice! Got the Jaychou style :D
Dinner at Chinatown after. Gosh, Chinatown has KOI! :D Soooo awesome! Hehehehe. Steamboat buffet was madness lar, stupid Zijie and his muttonsxz. D: Nic and I almost died tasting the Chicken soup turned Mutton soup! D: EEEEEW MAX!
And in all, I still find it wonderful that I've got these friends from such random places! Heidi, Sarene, Zijie, Nicholas, Luther, Clarence, Bobby, Jamie, and all of us come from different backgrounds.. But we got to know one another at Zijie's 21st, attended Nic's 21st altogether, attended Jamie's 21st altogether too. :D Up next is now the 90 kiddos' birthday celebs :) Teehee! :D
On a sidenote, CBK project down, marketing advertisement down, this weekend is for me to RELAX and REJUVENATE! Cos next week onwards, my study plan is officially LAUNCHED.... ;)
i told of my glory at 1:27 am
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
Photoshoot with Today's Parents was good today. The kids are so adorable and totally go gaga over the balloons :) Some miscommunication within their own company, ended up sponsoring only half the items they wanted. Hmm. But in the end, I became their free labour also so yah, my efforts are evident! Anyways, the kids are super adorable :) Super smart and eloquent too! And apparently, it's some shoot for some Gucci thingy I think cos the kids were wearing Gucci clothes from the rack. But then they were also wearing Oshkosh. Hmm :) Still, CUTE! :D
So yea, started late, delayed, in the end I couldn't go for presentation. :( Hahha but it was a great experience I think, minus the hiccups it could've been perfect. Ohwell! At least we ended on a good note!
Damn tired now, gonna sleep early tonight since tomorrow's gonna be a 9am thing. :( Goodnight world. Huifang is very sad cos business is slow..
i told of my glory at 11:04 pm
Seek solace in lyrics. Always songs are the final audience that never leave. :)
散場的擁抱 我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮 拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬 不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢
散場的擁抱 混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵 還能道歉和好
我知道 妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案 卻撕掉 不要
Shopping today was fun :) Ended up with another outerwear heehee. Well at least it gives me more reason to wear all the sleeveless/ very short sleeved tops! HAHAHAA.. Had dinner with Weijian, his mom and Ashlynn. Ashlynn is really super adorable! Everyone came to talk to her and play with her lar! Even when after that we were walking around Far East, so many people talked to her and waved to her! Mini-star hehe :) Only loot today was that outerwear cos I saw so many tops and bottoms which I didnt like! Looked rather good in when I tried on, but not something I'd wear on a regular basis cos it's so not me :(
CBK project report now. At least, FOI submission is over :) One less subject to worry about! :D
Oh did I mention, Monopoly Deal is addictive! :) So fun strategizing and plotting against one another hahaha..
Alright, off to finish up my CBK report, then prepare my balloons for tomorrow's photoshoot le!
All unhappiness will be over once the day is over.. :)
i told of my glory at 12:15 am
Monday, 10 January 2011
I'm supposed to feel enthusiastic over a great deal clinched, right?? Right?? Right??
But I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that deal... Haha. -.- So I'm going to seek help from someone I think. I dont know who though. So yah. :X
And yes, I'm supposed to feel happy for Cheryl that she's done well for her O Levels right? Okay yes I am. Lol.
11/1/11 and I'm praying so hard for something significantly nice to happen. It doesn't even have to be special. Just to make me smile. :) Please?
i told of my glory at 11:41 pm
Sunday, 9 January 2011
Yesterday night was a random night of meetup with girls and we ended up at Zouk D: ARGHHHHH!!
Anyways, yesterday's experience walking into stupid Nee Soon Camp was madness laaaaa, early morning, hot weather, WALKED ALL THE WAY IN :( But it was a great show cos we ended early cos the crowd left early hahha! And then it started to drizzle too :P Headed down to Nex lunch with Abi, and then to Singpost for the monthly thingy :) Again, the promoter was interested to join us. HAHAHAH.. He looks like the typical poly-kia but he's aiming to enter VJC :X Hurhur. Never judge a book by its cover manzzzz. But yea, was a good show too! Not too much of a crowd like JP! x)
Headed home wanting to sleep but ended up doing Winston's project. Lol. Super jialat cos I spend 20 min reading something which I can only make 1 minute worth of sense out of :( Which is TERRIBLE.... Thank goodness my project isn't THAT tough :X Else I don't know who to turn to for help hahahhaha.
So yea, went out to Nex for Sogurt with the girls after that and we decided on going to Zouk (PS. No intention to go clubbing onezzzz) so by the time we reached Zouk was already freaking 11pm... Worse still, mad mad long queue. So of cos, I joined Citibank's Priority Queue and guess what, when it finally got close to my turn, like 4th from the front..... "Sorry Citibank entry quota has reached! We will be stopping Citibank with effect from NOW!" AIYOH MEGA SHIT LIFE LOL. Jumped over to Velvet queue and ended up me paying $3 more for entry than Abi and ZW -.- Zzz. Dash Berlin guest DJ and crowd was CRAZY at Zouk. That's not all- Phuture max cap and we couldn't enter also. MEGA FML lo. I think..... I should quit clubbing for the time being and not go. Zz. Cos also very FML, I wanted to order 2 GLASSES of Whisky dry, ended up with 2 FREAKING JUGS....... Tmd. And knowing full well how strong Whisky was, I had no choice but to gulpgulpgulp...... :X Ended up not in the toilet but like some siao za bor I think :X Hurhur. Eric and friends were also there :D Heeheeeeeee cos he's there for Dash Berlin. Aiyah, but half the time, we weren't with them also. Crowd was that terrible. Ended up I had to save myself when I got into some.... bad plight. Zz. Another hint that I should not club. But yea, Eric's friends all over the place too. Hahhaha. So ended up it was a really truly Girl's thing yesterday night :) Awesome girls I have! :D
PS. Our next outing shuold probably be Monopoly Deal, no more of clubbing please :( Everyone's gonna be displeased with me when I club...
i told of my glory at 10:38 pm
Friday, 7 January 2011
Had a great day- struggling through International Finance tutorial, sleeping in library, pangseh-ed by Storytelling class, cake discovering and making, and free dinner at Nandos.
Regjiejie's exboyf is quite not bad though hahahah :) And it's thanks to him we got free dinner too. Hahha but I still cant believe we went from USQ to Tanglin Mall just for it, and even got a FREE cab ride back LOL!
Oh by the way, USQ girls are having their own convo on Twitter NOW like MSN. Hahhahaa!
Mad tired now. Goodnight world. And Glenn must be in Japan already :)
i told of my glory at 2:21 am
Thursday, 6 January 2011
Nah, I just need to be part of their topic, talking about going crazy over some new guy.. The worries of having to keep it covered cos you don't want your friends to know, but yet you wanne tell someone... I'll just join in, act like I remember how it feels like, act like I'm going through it now. Hahhaha sorry I don't know how to 'reset' myself.
It's really funny how I can't ever seem to blend in, when last time I couldn't blend in cos they were talking about heartbreaks. Contrast topic. I can never seem to fit in perfectly with everyone.
Maybe there are things I just have to go through and learn before I'll grow up. Well, I haven't turned 21... Yet... But I don't have much time left, do I?
And now a good friend is going off for 5 months. I would seriously madly miss him. And I can't send him off, cos no one is going to cos of the unearthly hour. But seriously, I would. Hey, it isn't for a week man? But well. I'm never the trendsetter. So what if there is Facebook to keep in contact..
I don't like Facebook, period.
I always feel detached from any group I'm with, nowadays.
Maybe it's because I miss you. :)
i told of my glory at 1:03 am
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
It has been such a terribly hectic week!
Getting back PFP horror, getting back FOI encouragement, getting back..... Nah, nothing else for now. Oh well.
And I haven't seen brother for... Idk how long :( Weh!
And I'm still loving my USQ Scoopies :) Dinner today with them was so awesome! Pasta de Waraku really is as awesome as it seems :) Point proven! Hehehe.
Been so busy with projects and tutorials too. I've got to buck up. Otherwise, everyone will enter Uni and I'm really being left behind. I don't want to be left behind. I don't want to fail any subject. I need a minimum B for all my subjects. I cannot let any subject be the fucking black sheep and pull down all my other efforts!
Why the hell must I be involved in Open House zz.. I've got project to do -.-
i told of my glory at 12:38 am