Monday, 29 October 2007
BOO! AWW SWEET YET HEART WRENCHING!! =x
http://video.baidu.com/p?word=%D4%DA%CB%AE%D2%BB%B7%BD&pos=3&s=4
somehow becoming a daily unkickable habit,
how am i going to survive when i can no longer see you all the time next year?
oh man, now im hooked on ZJYJ.
imagine your lover turning out to be your half sibling. :(((
oh no, gui long is still that handsome. I WANT!!
and han is such a cool drummer.
REALLY COOL!
seniors, all the way for ur A levels (: im sure all of you seniors are smart peeps xD
i told of my glory at 10:59 pm
Sunday, 28 October 2007
BOO!
鬼龙
http://youtube.com/watch?v=e5UACj6C9o8
boooo. if only he could do that
to me...
aww.. somehow the relation is there, yet not the love..
i told of my glory at 4:57 pm
BOO. alright yesterday i was actually dealt this "blow" which came that unexpectedly. someone is leaving the company. alright. and he's one of the only few reasons i'd go back there despite having the worst ever experiences there last year. then suddenly, 5 days after i went back to fill in the form, he msg-ed me telling me he'd been transferred o.O ALRIGHT fine. transferred to SUNTEC. wth. such an inconvenient place. HAIIS.
howhowhow?
if i go back i dont want to go to english and stat.
if i go back i'll only have ernita judy and saripah left.
if i go to suntec they'll make things sound worse as it already is.
HOW??!?!
i told of my glory at 12:10 pm
BOO! today was bball playing the whole afternoon xD hehs. just tired and tired and tired. yawns =x
AWW someone unglam-ed during dinner today xD
some kookoo who eats a french fry with a big glob of mayonnaise and leading to the glob dropping on his hand. HELL UNGLAM xD keep pointing away before he wants to do smth stupid but he didnt do it in time today and thus i saw it xD UNGLAM UNGLAM!!
and AIYAH! macs $2 offer is DOUBLE cheeseburger not SINGLE cheeseburger :((( lost a cheeseburger bet LAH. ahhh BLEH! hahahs.
i told of my glory at 12:15 am
Thursday, 25 October 2007
OH MY GAWD LAH! 鬼龙 is SOOOOOOO handsome!! SO COOL!! AHHHH!!!! xDDDDD
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
BOO! today was probably my worst encounter playing basketball. LOL. hit on the stomach by law's saved ball, elbowed by gary's friend right on my left cheek when we jumped for a rebound and somehow his elbow landed with impact, and being stepped many times. lol. alright the step part is common :) but OUCH, the elbow part. ARGHHH!!!
and my dark eye rings got noticed cos i was asking if they could see any orhbakah! AIYOH! and i myself never noticed much about the dark rings so ARGH!
and ahhh, im still thinking sadly about next year. ehhs, cannot have lessons and fun with my lovely 23 :((( EH EH! i still love my 23 ok. lol.
this friendship no one believes true is not something i'd give up upon being retained. much as though studies would bring about this physical seperation, i still believe in our friendship cos it's just that rare to find someone whom i really unknowingly put my heart into this friendship between us. i definitely hope it wont end just because im retained, or just because you're eventually going to graduate. as time passes i know someday i'll end up at the back of your mind, no longer lingering as a portion of your daily school life. yet somehow, i know you will not leave my mind, nor my heart. though the possibility of you reading this is near zero, somehow i just have to let this off my mind. you mean too much to me as a friend such that whatever they say doesnt matter at all and eventually i know you'll still be one who will always be there for me.
i appreciate your friendship and concern and all you've done for me this year. giving me constant encouragement, never forgetting me when there's fun to be shared and never once leaving me feeling all alone.
though at times it gets tiring when i feel that im putting in too much finances into this friendship and it seems im using this method to keep you by my side, i know im thinking too much. there are friends out there who do take advantage of such a side of me, but i know you dont.
who cares about scandals? we're happy that's all that matters. :)))
cos im just THAT scandalous and people do tend to misunderstand my intentions. o.O LOL!
well, it may end up you're thinking im referring to someone who it may not be :)))
i told of my glory at 9:46 pm
Wednesday, 24 October 2007
BOO!
no wait. please not at this point of time. not now, not next year. much as im hoping for some miracles to happen, im hoping not. such an irony. im still in the state of confusion yea. hell. this is getting VERY much on my nerves. even bball today lost its fun. my back. the pain is back. like what the hell, just when im about to go back to that place next week, this has to happen AGAIN.
alright i was talking about 2 different matters. ARGH! NOOOOO. somehow i know that will become a constant distraction. NOOO!!! PLEASE NO!!! but why is it so that im thinking... a yes?
OH NO.
i want to go to JR's house!! i want to see my huqin-ers!! I WANT TO SEE MY LONG TIME NO SEE SENIORS!!
somehow i cant feel how he feels. it feels weird why im not feeling the same way as him. maybe he just has that major difference that is the reason why he feels more :( than me. maybe the love is deeper there? aha, he has another obligation. oh well, at least we have the same target :) yes. oh no, im already slower than him by a day. ARGH OK NO ONE ELSE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT! :))) hehs. oh well, i never expected i'd ever talk to him that much in my life xD but errrr, you know, somehow the admiration remains even after almost a year has past xD AHEM, admiration as in you know, sort of idolise, but OF COS DIFFERENT from idol's idolism :)))
AH RANDOM! TBR!!
i told of my glory at 10:12 pm
Tuesday, 23 October 2007
BOO! im a happy girl today. despite whatever setbacks i have to face in the year to come, i dont care. i will do what i think is right and work for what i want from today onwards.
i believe 0723 has its share of nice and caring friends after all. despite what people may say about 23 having its share or hypocrites and backstabbers, yea i listen, but what i see today is the side of my classmates which really touched me deeply.
i cried when i got my result slip. yes. i did. i just couldnt hold back those tears of disappointment and the feeling just somehow rushed through me and the next second, i was crying. silently. i knew i had to accept this as i had expected it and i'd already given thought to it. yet i felt so alone. SO alone.
after talking to mrs lim, i wanted to go to find law and others to play bball, only to meet janelle, ivy, and others at the canteen. it was then that i really understood that i had to leave 0723 for good physically. ivy asked me something about my results. i shouldnt have cried then. it made it seem like her fault and i think she got a shock. but i just couldnt stand that dilemma in my mind. my parents' disappointment, my own ego, my friends, my class, my phoenix exco, my combined house exco, my 38s, repeat j1 or go poly, blah, blah... i really felt my mind was going to explode and die there and i just started bawling =x ZZZ. super unglam. alright. but i just felt very lost. i felt so alone. then they told me to sit down and they really consoled me, talked to me. i really felt much better after that and finally realised that my class is good after all. them who made me smile, made me cheer up and listened to me rant on for like half an hour. i felt really much better after ranting everything to them though maybe it didnt make much sense cos i was pretty much jumping from one topic to another. lol. but there they were, patiently listening to me.
heidi also came over and i did the same thing to her. rant rant rant. haiiis. WELL, when im feeling horrid, i rant. non-stop. lol. following that, i received a call from jessly. all these concern from friends, i really felt so much better already.
went to play bball after that for 6 hours. now im a lobster. FACE ONLY. zzz. but today's bball was fun. hahahs. kah kin and his yin cheong joined us today hahas. oh well, KK quite funny lah xD he stand in front of me pass ball to me tell me shoot. like about 5 or 6 times, then i asked why and he said cos he's standing in fornt of me to pressurize me xD LOL. hehs. well, he's one funny guy lah! bleh. hehs. and today i shot a couple of high-angle balls the tou1-xue2-ZZ-way lol. other than the butt must qiao4 part. lol xD
and well, today i msged a few of my seniors that im being retained. yet someone didnt reply me at all. why. why didnt he reply. he doesnt care? my senior. not caring. :((( and thanks simon for the encouragement too :))) one of the nicest seniors i have from nyco :)))
and wow. idol luo jun is super cute lah can. :)))
when i replied his sms asking why he knew i had been retained, he replied-
"actually the fan should know everything about the idol lo, in this case is the other way round -.- three reasons why i know:
1. im smart.
2. im clever.
3. im ur idol."
IDOL! YOU'RE THAT AMAZING TO KNOW ABOUT THAT LAH!
and others who expressed their concern too, too many lah i cant name all. but really i appreciate it alot. :))) huifang is a strong girl who will press on and next year will be a better year!!
i told of my glory at 9:47 pm
Monday, 22 October 2007
BOO! today must have been one of my best days in nyjc :))) I ACTUALLY SUCCEEDED IN MAKING LAWRENCE FEEL LIKE A LOSER TWICE IN A DAY!! xD
1. at macs, he was trying to act smart by pointing somewhere else. then when we turned away, he pointed his finger upwards at his nostril. we laughed, we diao-ed, yea. but smart me PUSHED his arm upwards and he ended up poking up his own nostril xD YAY. he was super malu cos of that :)))
2. my phone rang. the ping pong song. he heard it cos the beginning was the ping pong sound. he was shocked and told ming. then they both listened out for it. but my phone had stopped ringing cos it was an sms. then law REALLY looked around for it from shop to shop xD until i told him :))) YAY.
it's SO difficult to EVER ga jiao law and i have NEVER succeeded b4 in this whole 9 months i knew him xD YAY TODAY HAS BEEN FUN :)))
TBR!
i told of my glory at 8:15 pm
Sunday, 21 October 2007
BOO. i miss him alot :( BLEH.
the constant encouragement, the bball games, the nagging and those happy times :)))
never again i guess. HAIIS. that's a friend i miss so.
off to TBR!
i told of my glory at 11:30 pm
BOO! havent been updating much. im getting lazier as each day pasts. alright friday was just any other normal day, bball after school. and we kept laughing for like more than 15 minutes while playing at the same time cos zhen zhi couldnt stop imitating the ads for mocca.com and the mumbai thing. lol.
then at night went to meet linda and law. and after that ming and audrey joined us. went to law's house for a movie marathon. BLEH stupid "alone" disc had problems lah! NO SOUND. in the end we watched resident evil 1 and 2. whoo~ super nice and cool xD in the end we slept from 4.45am till 11am. ahems. we were intending to sleep till 10 only. lol. but i woke up and off-ed my alarm when it rang =x lol. anyways, think it was quite fun luh. lol. and his sis, brought her old main cards out xD super funny game xD lol.
then saturday whoa, i think im crazy. instead of sleeping i went out with my parents. lol. ALRIGHT. im just not someone who can be confined at home lah. o.O so today im like you know, STUCK at home. blah. i havent had my lunch. go audi, dota, tbr, whateverrrrrr~
i told of my glory at 2:49 pm
Thursday, 18 October 2007
BOO! today was a day which left me totally speechless at how brainlessly some people talk and how some people dont actually use their brains to think before doing what they shouldnt do- disgrace themselves (refer to tagboard) no censorship (unlike what idol said of my tagboard previously) now, cos im PRETTY sure who the culprit is :)
eh but first things first, can i know, in what way am i despo??! LOL. i dont think i go around telling guys "i like you" and asking them to be my boyfriend right? LOL xD
alright, went for company A's interview today. please luh like this is the first time in my life im having a job interview. i joined tn with no interview required :) so this company has an interesting way of holding their interview. unfortunately, it ended with me feeling OH-SO-INSULTED and totally turned off by this company. this company A has 2 people holding the interview. fun, interesting, funny yea. but one of them started pinpointing our mistakes in our self-intro and description of job experience earlier. alright, the comments were mainly "hear-able" but know what he said of popular which turned me off?
"LET ME TELL YOU. POPULAR, IS ZERO SERVICE. POPULAR IS NOT SERVICE YOU KNOW?"
wtf o.O so what if company A is a major company? does that allow you brainless employee to insult other companies? wow. so the SERVICE counter in popular branches are fake eh o.O WTF LAH. damn that company A. and they are like, such a major company but offering a measly pay of $5.40 per hour. i'd rather take the 5 bucks from popular and work where people use their brains.
and WELL, CELESTINE KOH! thanks so much for your introduction to STAT COUNTER, a anon-proof method which allows me to track who is the anon tagger :)
step 1: go to my statcounter
step 2: look at the time the person tagged and estimate the time the person entered my site
step 3: look at where the person came from (and this usually darn useful)
step 4: go to where the person came from (usually through a link)
step 5: look whether the person tagged at the came-from site with his/her name
step 6: verify ip address entry with tag ip address
and BOO! the culprit is out! :) PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT SO DUMB AFTER ALL! :)
and anon tagger, i wont say your name. but are you smart? cute? if yes, be my man! be my woman! like WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!??!
i told of my glory at 8:48 pm
Wednesday, 17 October 2007
BOO. alright i havent been updating. just spent 2 hrs playing a new map with law and ming o.O BLAHS. my pw is done but leader nvr accept file. BLEH! haiis.
alright one thing i hate most is being indirectly accused of being guilty of something i never did. i dislike that feeling. ever since i knew how to think for myself, i've disliked having friends who would say senseless things that they feel is nothing but i feel is everything the what-the-hell matters.
being at the bus interchange today with a bunch of unmentionable secondary school students curse and swear out loud like nobody's business thinking they're so DAMN cool and looking around to see if anyone was looking at them, makes me feel thankful i was born in 1990 and not later. and mind you, the BOYS were still wearing shorts. not long pants. so i look at the class i took when they were just innocently adorable sec 1s fresh into zhss, and compare them now. well, all gone to different classes, still as bonded, but definitely different. maybe that's part of growing up. they change with the friends they hang out with. influenced.
and, IM TIRED.
i told of my glory at 12:08 am
Saturday, 13 October 2007
BOO.
i just read a classmate's blog, and ok i admit, i almost broke down. as the truth takes time to sink in, i gradually think and feel more. im not sad that i may have to repeat j1. im not sad that i have to leave 0723. im not sad or worried that i'd be ostracised.
im sad to leave my friends from 0723- zijie, lawrence, may, cel, weiyi, ivy, chris, etc etc. such friends who never fail to brighten up my day by making me laugh, encourage me to move on when im about to give up, stand by me to help me, give in to me despite me being unreasonable at times, and also never fail to forgive me when i do things wrong.
im sad to leave my combined house exco- danielle, kris, jia hao, dansu, etc etc, nd most importantly shi pei and chris. these people who never fail to go out of point during meetings and make meetings fun. though there were times when there were conflicting ideas and pushing of blames, we have come a long way through our planning of events and our forum. accomodation of all our differences bonded some of us together and i'll never forget the times we reflected upon our screw up of the event together, the atmosphere tense in a circle, no one was blamed. we thought of our faults in the process of planning and implementation. we reflected, we were down. but we picked ourselves up as an exco and pressed on. the open house was pretty successful in our one-minute challenges. however, time was already running short for us as some of us were potential leavers. when we're finally together, it's time to go. why...
og18 and sir gareth somehow became lost in my life. im still awaiting the day we get together again. but
things are never the same somehow...
im already used to seeing you everyday without fail. turning around to find you there always beside me. any questions and you'd answer me at best. and work i dont know and you'd be there to help me. though many times im standing at the losing end, it doesnt matter to me. you've been such a great friend to me despite having been through a rough patch at the beginning, we're still this way after so long. i sure hope this friendship doesnt fade off if i really do get retained. but i will never forget having had a friend like you. you made a great difference to me. you changed me to be a better person. thanks for always being there for me.
i told of my glory at 8:05 pm
Friday, 12 October 2007
BOO! results + open house. not an exactly nice combination eh?
HAPPY THINGS FIRST!! open house ended with a high note. hahas. mass dance, traditional dance and superstar dance. hahas. well. so love the college for the common dance we all share xD cel ps me! ARGH. lucky got simon and xiang feng there. and his friend aaron whom OH WELL, helped him to bully me X.X BAH BAH BLEH. hehs. mass dance is SO FUN LAH xD everyone go crazy tgt xD so without cel, danced with 3 different ppl! LOL! simon, DANIELLE! and xiang feng. hahas. FUN FUN + FUN = FUN FUN FUN! :))) YAY. but kookoo simon just cant stop ga jiao-ing me LAH. idiot keep tickling me x.x BLEHS. hehs. xD then after that i went to the container classroom to find luo jun, simon and xiang feng and we played bridge. LOL. i kept losing. and then came 2 rounds when i got 3 A and quite a number of K and Q. IMBA! could get 7 sets after bidding no trump xD YAY. damn fun. 2 rounds consecutively lei! HEHE. YAY.
BUT I DIDNT GET TO TAKE PHOTO WITH IDOL :(((
IDOL I DONT CARE!! SOMEDAY MUST TAKE PHOTO BEFORE YOU TAKE YOUR A LEVELS!!! :)))
ok so the sadness blah...
morning started off great. i so love getting back results. hurhur. was so glad that i cleared GP despite having ppl who fail it. however, the BADs came right after. maths, econs, chem, cse, chinese. the only thing im proud of is chinese. i got a B. which is you know, smth difficult for me to achieve in jc. but well, the rest were. hahs. left me speechless. and yea, i admit i did cry. but i didnt because i was sad i failed, or i was sad i was to be retained. it was because i felt really lost. what exactly went wrong? why did i deprove compared to so many others who improved? is it just my way of studying or my me that's just plain stupid? but i realised, i was this way, due to much bball, too much distractions, and the wrong kind of motivation. therefore, i left the hall smiling today. this retain serves as a wake up call for me. so please dont try to be sarcastic and ask me why am i so happy despite being retained. :)))
open house was a screw i think. our co performance was imba, a lack of coordination, and abit messy i guess. plus the transition between the songs was not smooth bcos of some unforeseen circumstances. haiis. well but i saw a couple of my juniors and quite a number of zh-rians. wells. hahas. dont know about exco side, cos i wasnt there most of the time. but when i went down, mr william yeo asked me "so how?" OH MAN! screwed. hahas. so i just told him lo. ARGH. i think the combined exco is falling apart. SERIOUSLY. as in, if the situation doesnt change from what we know of today. WELL. i got nthg much to say about that.
class informal picture. you dont have to say it out that 0723 is cute :)))
argh. unclear cos i dont have a scanner but someone wants to have a look at it xD
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a sidenote to add,
that's why i dont like to organise major outings for example chalet. it ruins friendships. this issue so difficult to settle especially when problems arise. i have my difficulties. but at times it's difficult to explain. i dont wish to bring about any problems just because of such trivial matters. im sorry if i really appear irritated and pissed at times. but it gets really tiring. im sorry.
and well, i think somehow i just can never change that bad habit of mine.
and this cute he said hi to me twice today, of his own accord! xD OH MAN. such a great reason to smile :)))
i told of my glory at 8:26 pm
BOO. know what? DOTA IS FUN xD x hero siege is so cool can. just spent like uhhh. close to 2 hrs. lol. NICE ONE.
i told of my glory at 12:37 am
Thursday, 11 October 2007
BOO. i have an interesting idol.
"我们没有缘啦，不能勉强
but, i think, 要勉强也是可以的，只是。。。。
可能会遭天遣！
天打雷劈哦！"
o.O well idol, i've said you're funny xD
and it's true! HEHE. you owe me a picture now!! OPEN HOUSE!! :)))
i told of my glory at 12:49 am
Wednesday, 10 October 2007
BOO! I THOUGH I ALMOST DIED FROM THAT BAD HEADACHE WHICH LASTED ME FROM YESTERDAY EVENING TILL TODAY NOON =X
didnt go to school for pw today :( HAIIS. wth lah i almost wanted to die this morn can. until now im still feeling abit blur as in seeing things quite unclearly. boo.
went back to school for WOOHOO co practice and ALMOST WANTED TO FAINT. cos i was laughing so much at luojun and ming kwang's spasticity o.O ming kwang zi-high ing and trying to prevent IDOL from hitting the timpani by using his head to block o.O went to meet lawlaw and joey at queensway after that.and when we'd settled the jersey, law and i chiong-ed through many shops and FINALLY found me long-wanted finger sleeve. YAY.
then chiong-ed to clementi to meet ryan chris and baoyu. wahh. already felt like i was about to faint. haiis. but i cannot put aeroplane lah! alright so we went to have dinner with chris. ahhh. LONGGGGG time didnt see him alr. still the same old chris :))) he treated dinner, ryan treated lan and arcade and baoyu also treated arcade. THEN ME LEI! omg lahs. really paiseh one lah! then on the way back i mentioned smth about yeow chong and they started blah blah blah blah non-stop. and guess what, he called baoyu to tell her smth about school o.o SO QIAO CAN!
oh well, pw and mass dance tmr!!
and then i realised, i still think the way i do about you like how i did ten months ago. where were the times we sat there and talked and talked and talked like nobody's business? where were the times you consoled me when i was feeling down?
yes that friend i so miss.
i told of my glory at 10:03 pm
Tuesday, 9 October 2007
i just want you to give in to me always.
FANG²
i told of my glory at 11:16 pm
BOO! let me see. yesterday was co in college, had a bad time and i shant elaborate. finally got my atm card and received my late bday present xD a box of chocs which cost 15 bucks =x ZZZ. so ex. bleh. but oh well, nevertheless, thanks cel xD (and did zijie pay you back? if he did then thanks zijie too xD)
today went to lawlaw's house. hahas. spaghetti screw up xD LOL. edible but somehow now very yummy. hehs. arghhh. then went to meet elizabird, zijie, cel and brabra for gelare at city hall xD HEH. nice time with them. miss birdy soooooo much.
SCREW LAH IM GETTING MY PRIORITIES WRONG!! ARGH FORGET IT!!!
he wont see this anyway. lol. but i think im doing things the wrong way. VERY wrong. =x HAIIs.
i told of my glory at 10:51 pm
Sunday, 7 October 2007
BOO! lawlaw was being a bitch today cos he made me wait 1 and a half hours for him, ming, and linda x.x blah blehs~
so ate at burger king, went to tiong b cc to play bball and WHOA i think dota is fun xD after finally having the patience to sit down and observe a game xD YAY. hahas. and im so gonna learn it! WOOHOO!! so blahs, we went home and then came out again. stupid lawlaw. =x ming and i were spam calling him lah. cos he was still aslp at 6.20pm when we were supposed to meet at 6.30pm. o.O in the end we met at 7pm and lawlaw had to wait for us. hehs. oops =x then went to eat dinner and k pool. hong kai and ernest came at about 10pm, only to lose the only 2 games they played. one against lawlaw + ming and one against me + linda. hehs. spiderman-style sia! and WOOHOO!! MET VERA!! xD LONG TIME NO SEE LAH! after my promos i keep meeting my sec sch friends all around. ming han, grace thiam, vera, who's next? xD
came home only at 11.30pm. zzz. haiis. i feel guilty. stay out till so late despite having school tmr morn at 7.40am o.O ZZZ. blah blehs~
and i found out, my favourite phrase having said it at least 50 times since ystd "what the hell!"
LOL lahs.
AHHHH ATM CARD TMR!!! xDDD
CO PRAC TMR!!! xDDD
BBALL TMR!!! xDDD
i still miss the day you held my hand. yes the whole day. however, i know it will never happen again. not even for a minute... i've not let go...
i told of my glory at 11:51 pm
Saturday, 6 October 2007
BOO! today was a nice day of audi-ing and bball-ing :))) and ... HELL YEA BBALL WAS FUN TODAY! XdxDxDXdxD
hahas. well, bball today was basically 70% laughing. cos of someone hilarious xD ok he doesnt wish for anyone not present today to know of his actions today so let's just refer to him as Y. when i went to college today, i saw zhen zhi and Y and Y's friend playing. as in just shooting hoops. so i joined in. less than 10 min later, SAMUEL (yes that samuel, lol xD) and his friend came down so we played a game. and HAHA quite a funny game too. lol. shant say why. at this point of time, Y hadnt displayed the unseen crazy side of him YET. after samuel left, he then started. lol.
it started with him trying to do a header with the bball. and mind you, he took the one i had, which is the softer one. zhen zhi saw, and tried. and the ball he used was his own, which is DAMN hard. so you can imagine what happened :))) then we continued shooting hoops, and Y stood at the side to shoot. *shoot *rebound *shoot *rebound *shoot *rebound. as there were 2 balls, he shot one after another consecuively cos they always went back to him. and he did that for 7 times WITHOUT A SINGLE ONE ENTERING THE HOOP xD LOL. damn a load of laughs. then he started complaining that he felt tired today, and continued playing with the ball doing headers. o.O and then he used the HARDER bball, and me and zz almost died laughing lah can! he started "suffering" from loss of memory and pointed to me asking "why are you here? are you my toy? i dont think i play barbie doll lei." OMG LAH. o.o zz and i REALLY almost died laughing our butts off. OH MAN. and there was this small kid, 11 yrs old and his 3 pointers are SO accurate. blehhs. oh sidetracked. well, back to Y. he's REALLY crazy today lah, saying he's better check his temperature when he'd gone home cos he thinks he's really gone crazy o.O ahahs. and there was once, he shot then it rebounded back to him when he was alr preparing to shoot the other ball, so he stopped the ball between his legs. as in, between his knees lah! and that was zz's ball. LOL. TOO BAD xD and for the whole time he KEPT doing funny things which made me laugh like some idiot xD and at the end he was SO worried that i'll tell chris of his funny today xD
and definitely saw a side of him i never knew existed. hahas. but i think i played horrible when he was in the game. =x HAIIS.
oh well, not joining lawrence and company for the sleepover at his house today, but i'll still be seeing them tmr!! ARGH. one day without seeing them feels WEIRD cos i've been spending EVERY SINGLE DAY WITH THEM THE PAST FEW WEEKS!! =x
you dont have to do anything special for me just because im treating you special. sometimes it's just a one-sided thing that will never be reciprocated.
i told of my glory at 9:06 pm
at this time at night, im accompanied by silence and just this dead screen staring. this life im leading now seems to never end. days of playing and days without mugging. somehow i know this life wont last long. when the results are thrown back at us next friday, i know i'll be one of those crying. whether in disappointment or in happiness. i cant say im anticipating anything at all. cos i really dont know how i'll do. this time, i know i've done myself justice. had my share of fun, hadmy share of studying hard. no matter what the outcome may be, i definitely hope he'll still be there supporting me.
despite what limited time we have left, i hope you know im really glad to always have you by my side all this while. despite what others may see, there's just this simple friendship which keeps me going. despite what miss hazel has said that i tend to care too much about how people see me, it's just an individual thing. i care how people see me, i dont deny. but we dont care how people see us. if you were to handle things the immature way, you'd have started avoiding me a long time ago. though there was a time when we did not talk to each other for 1 or 2 days, it soon blew over. and somehow i think this friendship is just improving by the day. such a friend is hard to come by. despite me always being the one to give in, much as though anyone would agree you should be one to, i find this friendship worth the maintainence and time.
and seeing my friends who have moved on to happier and more relaxed lives, i cant help but envy them. why did i land myself in jc? why? and now in jc, i cant withdraw even if im retained. cos im not giving up. andre's coming to nyjc, and i cannot imagine his reaction if i tell him "hey im going to be your classmate" like wth. no chances for regrets now, everything is too late. been there, done that. boys, love, friends, fun. no no no, jc has no lack of that. but why am i being so pessimistic about everything? i just cannot understand that.
now in jc, i tend to be unsure of who to turn to at times. i lose my way in this world where SELF is placed at top priority in many. this tends to get very tiring at time and i become so suspicious at times when i shouldnt. much as though i convince, and my friends convince me, that my thoughts are running too far away, this is when i realise the friends around me are doing so much for me too. the effort taken to keep the group going, the effort taken to not leave anyone out.
and that reminds me. i've definitely been feeling out of place lately at times. probably noticed by no one. but it doesnt matter much. im used to that. when you put one toe over the line and do smth wrong, no matter how much good you do, the mark will never be erased. this gets so tiring at times i just feel like walking away and giving up.
but still, and again, you keep me going. on and on.
i still know ilu after all this while. but it doesnt matter at all.
i told of my glory at 12:59 am
Friday, 5 October 2007
fck fck fck.
NEVER EVER cry for the same FCKING reason again.
give me peace... please im begging you...
the freedom you say i have is FUCK.
i told of my glory at 11:22 pm
BOO! HELLO!! I AM SUPER JIALAT CASE OF LOBSTERism!! A RESULT OF A WHOLE DAY OF BASKETBALL FROM 10 plus AM TILL 4.30PM!! of cos with lunch in between. LOL!! xD sunburnt till super bad lahhs!! xD and with my middle finger still as sprained as ever. blah. was hit again today. blah. LOL.
didnt update ystd. BLEH. play too much audi le lahhhs =x ystd hmm, went lan with ming, law, linda, zi can, zijie, bra, hong kai. LOL. nthg much. bleh.
so today. our beloved ct told us to go to college at 9.30am cos she wanted to see us regarding pw and told us to bring all our required pw stuff. she then called ivy at 9.40am and said she'll only be here at 10am. and BOO. at 10am, she came and told us about this open house thing she neede help with, then told us we were free to go o.O blah blehs, my group had done our share of pw ystd!! though with not much help from me =x errrrhs. lol. so went to play bball with weiyi, ivy and ruolin. WAH play with them super funny. they lau giu dont know how many times o.O then there was this dead bird. which ended up at the centre of the court. LOL. where did it come from, no one knew. lols. then rest of the day was bball with 38s, and lincoln and nicholas :))) HAHA yea right, the cute one. hah! but bball with them is definitely fun xD then went for lunch then bball again and off too BALLS OF FURY!! lol. damn funny movie xD hahas. loads of laugh and damn GAY. hah! :)))
tmr night off to lawrence's for stayover with a few 38s!! YAY!! xD
i told of my glory at 7:41 pm
Wednesday, 3 October 2007
BOO! had chem mcq today, GG LAH. alot from fys and BOO, i forgot everything alr. can even get 2 simple qns wrong just cos i thought my initial answer was wrong o.o but i was correct! ARGH!! dont matter anymore. blehs.
forget it. that is not so pressing a problem.
went to suki with zijie and cel today. bleh. 37 plates/servings and out of which 8 plates were ice cream puffs and from which 5 were eaten by limzijie :))) WL LAH. the puffs were flying into his mouth xD LAUGHTER. unglam kookoo. hahahs. then went to play pool. declaring zijie as the "white-ball-in" king, cel as the "tyco-shyt" queen and me as the "miscue" queen. BLEH LAH. can miscue 3 times in a row. zzz. then went back to college to play bball!!
bball was fun. :))) haha. stupid lawrence keep asking me where i go for lessons how come i can improve so fast xD LOL. so played bball today until 8. with winson they all. cos ming they all left le. WELL. i got clobbered by the ball twice, hitted and chiong-ed at by "BULLET" countless times and got bullied by winson my fellow nv ren. bleh. he dribbled the ball up to me, then used his left hand to block my face and accidentally touched my forehead, scored with his right hand, and went around celebrating his victory. o.O BLEH! hahas.
but, facing a MAJOR problem now.
KEEP MY COOL. NOTHING'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME.
IM HUIFANG, NO. 13. I AM. I AM.
i told of my glory at 11:23 pm
Tuesday, 2 October 2007
BOO! CSE!! SCREW YOU LAHHS. xD OH MAN. this is like the o.o-est paper i've done. 4 essays in 2 hours, record holding essay- 1/2 page for 25 marks. LOL. COME ON LAH. who am i trying to kid. and i wrote out of point for that qn too. so it's basically pointless and worth maybe a pathetic 1 mark. HAHA =.=
played basketball like some siao today lah. more than 3 hours please o.o my soles are hurting and my back is hurting like hell. THANKS LAH. zzz. the last time my back hurt this bad was during the syf-chiong period when... haiis. oh well i so miss the times with them.
i think i was born to be a left hander:
1. i use my fork and spoon the left hander way
2. i use my fork and knife the left hander way
3. i shoot using my LEFT HAND and it's like damn accurate compared to me using my right hand
PLEASE LAH! even winson said his left hand is USELESS can??! BUT ME?! I SHOOT WITH MY LEFT HAND. comparing near air ball shots with my right hand and consecutive chops shot from far with my left hand. OH MAN.
im pretty special eh? xD WELL.
but im becoming complacent. HAHA.
SO WHAT? DO YOU THINK I CARE HOW YOU FEEL?
that's the ugly in me coming out to haunt you my friends. but it's alright, i control this monster to act according to how i wish to see this person :)))
CHOP! SONG LAH! xD
i told of my glory at 10:11 pm
Monday, 1 October 2007
BOO! bleh.
im having a headache now MAN. o.o spent half an hour on this
http://www.mofunzone.com/online_games/the_impossible_quiz_1.shtml#
try it!! xD
recommended by simon. i only got till qn 42 though, do tell me if you pass that qn :)))
AHHH. tmr is cse. HEHEHE. rape cse LAH. lovely~ and im so HAPPY after tmr cos it's LIBERATION DAY YAY!! that is, until next monday when i get back my results xD BLEH.
im tired o.o
and my middle finger is aching. YES MY MIDDLE FINGER. no no i dont point it often xD it's my right finger which was hurt in bball a few days ago. heehee. WELL.
and today's bball was... err... hurhur... what am i to say? hahas. AIYAH im being a sarcastic bitch today alright? and WOOHOO!! xD im happy though. YAY :))) had a fun time being so sarcastic. YAY oh and im definitely feeling apologetic if i somehow insulted someone somehow through my somewhat hurtful sarcasms. i dont feel the need to hide my feelings. but it's just sometimes people do SOMETHING i simply cannot condone, well. YOU KNOW. and there are somethings that people dont say but hide it between their words and you have to REALLY read in between the tiny lines and decipher what they are trying to mean. WELL. i just happen to be the one who speaks straight, but shoots a free shoot the hidden way.
somehow we seem to have become so distant. what happened to those never-ending talks we had? what happened to those gossiping sessions? what happened to those late night walks out of the college in the darkness? what happened to the laughter i so miss? what happened to the times when we laughed at one another's unglam-ness?
i so miss the times we had when there was no promo, no prelim, and when we were all chiong-ing towards the same goal, working for the same purpose and fighting for what we wanted. such existent are such barriers which stop me from talking to you, msging you often, and having those random gossips and craps.
i miss you and everything about you.
this senior and friend, who made a great difference throughout my one year in nyco. :)))
i told of my glory at 10:16 pm