Tuesday, 30 June 2009
day today was boring ):
mehhh~ todayyyyy.. 10am-2pm. BORING LAH.
accounts tutorial, realised i never bring my stupid lecture notes and tutorial. SHIT. i come to class for what sio :/ too forgetful alr. and then i was like, stoning in class lor ): OH WELL~
csa lecture.. aiyar, prepare to get full marks for the lecture quiz again okay HAHA.. :/ cos our class was openly discussing the questions AGAIN. haha. ;D
togetherness = power yo ;DDD
project, studied, went home at 7.30pm. what a boring life.
but all thanks to huimiaomiaomiao i managed to get in my standing order for june 2009! PHEW~
i told of my glory at 10:18 pm
Monday, 29 June 2009
alright. have been wrestling the stupid excel thingy. formula sheet. formula SHIT more like it. grrr~ now then gonna start on my comm skills and econs. SHUCKS.
anyways a quick update,
i got back csa paper today. kinda pleased over my results. or rather, more than pleased. HAHA. i got 39/50 for my mid-sems test paper, 14.5/15 for my excel online class test, and 10/10 for my last monday's lecture test ;DDD
all hail huifang haha. im so damn happy cos it's the subject that ive the least confidence to do well in. i remember i said during the mid sems "if csa is the cause of why i cant get my gpa of 3.5, im gonna do something really really drastic okay.." and well, i dont have to alr ;D
the new csa tutor's pretty alright. but she's faster than a bullet train. trust me yo. i had much difficulty catching up cos i was scribbling down instructions while she taught the step-by-step of dreamweaver. and i heard crystal say "jotomateh! jotomateh!" (wait up!) idk how many times today HAHA. but well, i think dreamweaver's a pretty cool software. makes making websites a piece of cake ;D
but i still like html. HAHA.
and winston is darn random -.-
but oh well.
huifang's birthday is coming soooon (: meaning winston's birthday is also coming soon.
AND huifang's going for license soon ;DDDDD
and FUCK, TMR IS LAST DAY SUBMISSION AND I HAVENT SUBMITTED STANDING ORDER FUCKKKKKK! i got lesson 10-2pm and counter closes at 3pm. DAMN!
I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if winston didnt mention it, i doubt i'd even remember it -.-
one word to describe how im feeling now- SHIT.
i told of my glory at 11:42 pm
Sunday, 28 June 2009
just came home and bathed. phew~ had a long day today. not of studying.. of fun. (:
it helps is relaxing th nerves yo. i felt like myself today. at last :/
went to meet julian at city hall mrt at 2pm. stupid darren ps us cos eric chao kuan late. zz. haha. in the end, me julian were like some lost souls at marina sq waiting for zhiliang and eric to come. and well, liyan and shiyun also stunt, ends up i was the only girl ZZZ! zheng ting also joined us at kbox.
they were really funny when they sang esp when eric zao xia and he give the -ve face LOL.
sang from 3.30pm till 6.30pm. good-voice today (or yesterday lol) (: whee~ and well, julian got a not-bad voice yo ;D sounded abit weird when singing duet w eric cos his voice was to rock-punk luh! HAHA.
then went to this pub called 56 bonkers at tanjong pagar where jianhui and wind joined us. some random pub there. and well, sang abit, drank not VERY abit, almost concussed lah, scary. after tio straight 3 shots of tequila (not mixed) within a span of less than 3 minutes, and plus those shots id drank b4 that, suddenly things were abit blurry and i saw two erics o.o zhiliang still thought my eyes were that watery-looking cos of contacts. heng jintian brought calplus in her bag. think the calplus helped me gain abit more consciousness. zz.
and i took pictures with zhiliangliangliangliang! ;DDD super long since i last saw him okay!
and wa, im damn damn damn tired now.
i think tmr it's back to my normal routine again.
but at least, i think im glad for this one day of fun all thanks to eric and gang :D
off to sleep soon yo! :DDDD
maybe i shouldnt have to explain too much after all.
life goes on with or without, aint it?
move on, wrt life. you said that yourself.
if i can live without you, it's pretty obvious you can live without me. so it's up to me to decide. thanks. thanks...
i told of my glory at 2:15 am
Saturday, 27 June 2009
all i need is for you to understand.
i dont wanna control.. i just dont wanna worry..
i told of my glory at 1:09 am
Friday, 26 June 2009
sometimes weird things happen without a reason. when we're ready to rectify our mistakes, yet unconsciously repeat the mistake..
i turned up for class late today, very late. i was late for my lecture for 1 hour 45 minutes. class was supposed to start at 9am. but i thought it started at 11am. body is willing but mind made a mistake. i woke up early. i only slept less than 4 hours.. cos i went into my room at 3.30am, and only fell asleep at 4.50am, and i had to wake up at 8am..
i was really really really darn shocked when i called yvonne at 10.45am when i reached, and when i asked her where is 11am's lecture venue, she said "huh? 11am one is tutorial.." and at the background was a lecturer's drone. only then did i know that id once again screwed up yet another friday..
this time, it's 100% unintentional and unintended.
oh hell, i almost broke out in tears after i found out the truth when i met my classmates. but thanks to their support, i still smiled. yea.
went to toys r us at tampines today. ransacked the whole maisto shelf there. but there wasnt the thing i wanted. close enough, but not the thing i wanted.
kinda pissed cos there was no sales staff i could ask about the thing i was looking for too. zz.
and well, i just checked the maisto website. they didnt even release what i was looking for. fuck sio.
and i had a highly-disturbing sleep on the bus 22 journey home. i was tired, and anticipating reaching home cos i was feeling like so much emotions were cooped up within and the stupid sushi buffet with classmates didnt make me feel better. decided to do something drastic, and when i alighted, i alighted 3 bus stops away. yes, not the usual 2, but 3 bus stops away. and i took the long route home- i walked through the park. i went home and changed my shorts for college pe shorts and went down again, yes, another drastic move, to the park to run.
crazy yea? huifang EXERCISING? the intention wasnt that.
theres too many reasons behind that that i dont even feel like typing them out.
and my stamina sucks. when eric called me he thought i was having an asthma attack cos i was panting so much.
on a sidenote, there're a couple of distinctions in class for organisational behaviour, but also a couple of failures.
how else am i to uphold my image if im not one of the distinctions?
what if something unexpected happens, like how i screwed up my accounts?
lets see if huifang falls,
or rises..
many backspaces and re-typing. but i have to make my day sound like it wasnt that bad. cos after all, too many people are watching me.
是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
i never once left, and will never leave.
and till then, i'll still be here, where you left me standing and waiting..
at the same time, im wondering what im doing with my life.
but i know i'll pull through, since ive done so with your help before.
i'll be independent this time round..
yea it's already 11.30pm. i know i took long enough on this post.
i told of my glory at 10:11 pm
huifang has never left your side, and never will.
i told of my glory at 9:53 pm
for the first time in this month ever since mid-sems, i feel damn tired after my whole day today. i only reached home at 11.59pm. sounds like cinderella right. HAHA. but too bad, im not as chio as cinderella. thats the reason behind many things which have happened, i guess? (:
on the bus home after studying, typically youd have expected huifang to be sleeping in a very-much-unglam fashion on the bus 22 but cos i was actually enthusiastically expecting to receive calls from 2 people, i actually remained awake for the whole journey. none called. i kept awake on that bus journey, thinking about alot of stuff.
school has re-opened for a week and im starting to feel the strain on myself already. over-stress placed on myself? no. im feeling the strain cos i feel very NO LIFE. wenliang's msn nick is so true i feel. haha. for the past week, ive been deprived of 1. better food 2. fun 3. excitement and i feel that omg im feeling damn lifeless already. laughter has been aplenty with 1b21 and when studying with darren. SOMEHOW, this pretty boy has a way to really make me laugh till i really relax yea (:
and well, out of 5 of my modules this sem ive gotten back only 2 of them. it's not the fright or the kick i get out of bad or good results. but it's just that i dont like waiting.
hi, im huifang, a person who has no tolerance for ambiguity and has little patience towards this thing called waiting-for-results.
i also thought of my classmates. i thought of how hoebin reacted yesterday in class. when i said he's got no manners for mrs lee, i meant it as a joke. cos she wanted to pass him something, and rather than going down to get from her, he waited for her to climb up the steps of the LT to pass it to him. and well, when she passed the paper to him, he bowed a 90 degree bow, cos i said he's impolite for making her walk up. HAHA. he's hilarious alright ;D but damn cute. these are the kinda funny things my classmates do. and we watched charice pempengo with celine dion and even with kyun hun during our APEL class. even my APEL tutor is cool yo (:
plus now, i think life is having a pretty interesting twist with some additional education taking place. nah, it's no longer about education on nutrition for the moment. HAHA. it's on other external stuff which i think are pretty interesting.
and guess what, me and darren have known each other for friggin one year alr ;D thats kinda fast. with darren i feel that time seems to pass damn fast lar, and poof!~ one year alr! so many things have happened and one-year-ago's-huifang and one-year-ago's-darren are so different from huifang and darren today (: haha. good or bad? i think it's a neverending topic (:
this saturday, im meeting up with quite a number of ex-ve agents. darren's going also. cant believe eric keng-ed him successfully. ahha. but i guess it's gonna be a pretty cool gathering with so many people i know but usually dont talk to. haha (:
and at the same time, im missing some people already. promises sometimes are unwillingly broken when we get all busy with life. i think sometimes, it's not that we dont want to fulfil them. it's just that life forces us to do otherwise. i just hope things dont get too bad..
while im missing you, and thinking of you, are you thinking of me too?
as TV mobile's quotes today inspired me,
"Friendship is not a big thing, but a million small things put together.."
"The gift that cannot be bought is the best present of all.."
im not doubting anyone now. but why, at the other corner of the world, things are so different for me and you?
and well, in the meantime, im glad ive got darren to study with me. (:
will be going for BSC audition with darren 2 weeks from now.
once i enter BSC, i most probably will withdraw from the poly orchestra. (i feel it kinda sucks and is darn boring..)
back to listening to vivaldi. dont say im acting ATAS. classical music kinda makes me feel like theres something else that i still have in my life beside studies.
and winston, im feeling so damn fucking negative just thinking about how busy you are with your attachment cos while im busy, youre busy; and while im free, youre tired from attachment. life's boring, really. ): ): ):
please take care of yourself while im too busy to nag at you alright. ):
MEH MEH MEH.
2am already. i think i wont go for accounts lecture tmr. i might just go there and sleep in the lecture. zzz. shall see how things go..
i told of my glory at 1:36 am
Wednesday, 24 June 2009
what else today. didnt get back econs cos mr fong was quarantined, and i got B+ for comm skills. alright. i think i was one of the highest alr. no complaints there.
proof reading helped me. ;D
essay sucked okayyy -.-
MEH MEH MEH MEH.
i told of my glory at 9:49 pm
i just saw wai seng aka josh's prom pics. OMG DAMN HANDSOME LEHH. white suit yo! ;D DAMN HANDSOMEEEEE!!
OOPS!!
cos it's wai seng aka josh's birthday todayyyyayyyy!1 (: (: (:
i told of my glory at 12:41 am
i kind of thought things through i guess?
just in this one day..
what will come will come.
i fought hard, i worked hard,
for this result today.
whether or not it's a Z, an A, a B or a C,
it's still me- huifang's effort.
no matter i do well,
do bad,
ace in all subjects,
or suck at all subjects,
i know i deserve it.
yea, i worked hard, i studied hard.
but maybe just not hard enough.
weak, can?
people put in 100%.
huifang will put in 200% to make up for all loss.
because
I CANT AFFORD ANY MISTAKES.
i got no more time left..
whether my results win winston or not,
whether my results win LSC or not,
whether i get top in class or not,
whether i get any distinctions or not,
whether i enter the director's list or not,
the results' mine.
those are my aims, i admit. who doesnt aim that way?
but my results,
it's not for you to criticise, not for me to cry over, but for me to USE. as a starting point for year 1, sem 1, 2nd half of semester.
it's weird how ve's teachings about mindset and thinking made my whole behaviour and thinking change so much (: im glad.
and im so happy i spoke to mr steven today.
im so happy i spoke to mr mengwee yesterday.
cos they make me feel i havent left ve, and i dont feel out of place after all.
and my takeaway from there?
a change in behaviour in me.
it's called LEARNING.
where a permanent change in behaviour is observed.
you make me feel that the world is perfect and nothing is bad.
because you gave me hope and gave me faith and gave me the best thing is this world- joy.. (:
i told of my glory at 12:01 am
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
i got back my accounts mid-sem results today.
how? disappointing. AIYOH, but still okay lar. HAHA. no A, but at least a B+. meh meh meh.
if you look at my paper from a point of view of separating q1 and q2, i did outstandingly well for q2- the balance sheet and journal entries.
and for q1? i got ZERO. a fucking ugly and fat zero.
what's the ALMIGHTY q1 that makes huifang get her first ever ZERO in poly accounts?
THEORY.
i screwed up my theory questions. 10 marks. i got zero. ended up i got only a B+ for that paper. HAIS. first paper no A already. meh meh.
but still, i went to register for BTT today after studying in school with darren ;DDD yayyy.
haha.
and online, this funny pig made me stunned with his lame joke luh.
cos we were talking about acupuncture, i said im scared of needles poking me :/
[10:06:20 PM] Winston says: coz u scary sheep
[10:06:26 PM] huifang says: THEN IM SITTING THR TO ENJOY AIR CON HUH
[10:06:29 PM] huifang says: wad scary sheep??!
[10:07:04 PM] huifang says: anw
[10:07:07 PM] huifang says: i stil feel traumatised
[10:07:10 PM] huifang says: zero for theory
[10:07:12 PM] huifang says: haha wtf pls o.o
[10:07:14 PM] Winston says: coz u meh meh
[10:07:15 PM] Winston says: so sheep
[10:07:19 PM] Winston says: so scary sheep
scary sheep? o.o
i wanna sing like charice ):
i cried cos i knew i failed someone who believed in me..
but i smiled, cos i knew there was still someone who believed in me.. (:
thank you..
i told of my glory at 9:54 pm
day one in school alr sucks ): (alright ytd, cos past 12am)
no binggo= sad life. damn sad okay!
and the school doesnt wanna give us back our csa paper this week cos they gotta check thru again cos our paper was marked by binggo before he left. hais.
the stand-in teacher today also one kind of sucks lar. attitude ass. lol. but well, life goes lah hor? die die also must dong through today's dreamweaver cos winston doesnt take dreamweaver so theres no one to help me on this :/
then went back to office today.
i kind of miss my car achiever lols. oh well. had a chat with him today lar, mostly talk cork, but still, i dont know. made me think i guess, on whether my choice is right.
i shall leave that, for some other time..
but well, im glad i went back today (: to submit sales for my downline, and to meet up with people ive been wanting to see.
tmr im getting back my accounts paper.
pray hard for me that i get an A.
an A is enough..
is it too late for me to ask for it?
when i feel like im a shooting star,
ive surpassed what i aimed for,
and no one can tell me no, or where to go next,
they think im only dreaming.
but when im up here,
everything's so crystal clear.
it feels like,
an entirely new world.. (:
can you take me there?
are you up here with me? (:
i hope youll be the one to take me up there.
indescribable feeling..
i told of my glory at 1:19 am
Saturday, 20 June 2009
damn funny how things happen sometimes.
i burned the suncal tablet 2nd aunt gave to my mom sometime back. it turned black in 2 seconds. why did the other aunt say it didnt turn black when she burnt it? o.o zzz. did 2nd test- add the tablet into boiling water. i didnt even bother pounding it, and i stir stir stir, stir till hand tired still one tablet there with ugly disgusting particles floating around it in the water. my mom was damnnnnnn disgusted by it.
showed her magic- calplus. and i drank it. she shrieked. HAHA. hilarious was her expression i tell you.
later in the afternoon, i was at tampines initially, and decided to go to office to clear out more stuff from my locker. asked dad if he can fetch me from there and he said yes. OMG. o.o i was at b1, dad parked at smoking area, i came up lift with mr bryan and upline, i walked out to smoking area with mr bryan, and i saw my dad park behind mr jimmy's bmw 320i and jimmy was standing at his car on the phone. HAHA. took the chance to tee up, then i saw mr kit! tee up also! saw miss sarah! tee up also! and also tee up mr bryan. HAHA. and apparently, my mom walked around level 1 while i hadnt come up and she seems quite impressed yo ;DDD dad still skeptical, but.. never mind. HAHA.
weird, two things in one day? enough yo. thanks. (:
i told of my glory at 10:47 pm
Friday, 19 June 2009
i took 2 hours to register for stupid CDS this morning.
choices offered suck big time. i die die dowan take language, and business choices only got 3- ebiz, calculus and prc culture. damn cock. what kinda lousy choices are those? no event planning, HR stuff etc which were shown in the tp website. tio scam? haha!
ended up choosing..
1. basic calculus (BUS)
2. fundamentals of public speaking (HSS)
3. basics of nutrition (ASc)
4. basics of ebiz (BUS)
5. intro to socialogy (HSS)
i dont und why public speaking is considered a HSS subject, i dont know why i chose nutrition cos i dont think it benefits my marketing course (unless i got a marketing project on nutritional foodstuff in future ha) and i pray hard i dont get socialogy cos pukuang said before that it's gonna kill my gpa cos i'll spend too much brain power on socialogy.
but basically, i feel safe now. cos i chose what im strong/ already have background knowledge and training in- maths, public speaking, nutrition. ;D
i hope i get my first 3 choices.
and WA, BTT $16.70 if i dont take elearning! ;DDD
TIRED. tmr shall be a day of fun fun fun ;DDD
,,
nice song yo (:
love the lyrics, how true. whee~
day after day
time pass away
and i just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
i hide it inside
i keep on searching but i can't find
the courage to show
to letting you know
i've never felt so much love before
and once again i'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go
i will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will i ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will i know
if i let you go
night after night
i hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart
i'm too shy to ask
i'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later i've gotta choose
and once again
i'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out
but if i let you go
i will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will i ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will i know
if i let you go
if i let you go, oh baby
oooh
once again i'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go
i will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will i ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will i know
if i let you go
but if i let you go
i will never know
(oh baby)
will i ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will i know
(how will i know)
if i let you go
i told of my glory at 10:54 pm
i jumped out of my bed at 9.56am, when i received yvonne's msg to wake up to choose CDS. and you know what,
I CANT FUCKING GET THE LOGIN PAGE AT TP! KNN!
keep getting error!
and yvonne cant login either! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH SCREW YOUUUUUU!
i told of my glory at 10:05 am
Thursday, 18 June 2009
im looking forward to driving on the road. daytona's just too lousy a toy.
i want my license.
now i know why winston always says he misses driving, and wants to turn 18 asap.
oh man,
LET ME DRIVE SOON! PLEASE GIMME A GPA OF 3.5!!
and i didnt get to see my emo-looking-dearie panda bear today, cos my key canot open zihui's locker, and zihui wasnt in office when i went there today ):
MEH MEH.
never mindddd. tmr! ;D
i told of my glory at 10:05 pm
suddenly am reminded of my cute emo-looking-dearie panda bear who is currently residing in L.. i dont know whats the locker number. i hope my emo-looking-dearie panda likes his new home, and i hope he feels that his new home smells like his old home..
this panda is special (:
because this will remind me of the april 2009 house-of-red cruise trip to redang islang.
it's what my dearest downline jintian, and winston bought for me on their cruise trip to redang islang. i was unable to go for that trip, due to personal reasons of a person. not MY personal reasons. due to the person's personal reasons, the person made a choice, and i wasnt ALLOWED to go for the trip. they didnt fulfil that purpose of barring me from going though. because what they didnt want me to do, still happened on the cruise, not my fault though. and well, it was really sweet of them to still think of bringing something back for me from that trip. (:
oh yea, and i remember jintian seemed so afraid to give it to me when she came back, because of some things that happened on the cruise which made people talk. and made me lose faith in both her and winston, and i got so dulan-ed with her. and what made it worse, was my ability in hiding my displeasure from her eyes. she did not know how i felt, until i told her sometime later.
but thinking back, i was a tad too dumb to simply believe in what others say, rather than trust my dearest bro and sis.
haha, nice try, people out there.
but now i know that despite how rare true friendships are in ve, i know that i have trustables like jintian, winston, zihui, ernest, darren, eunice, cynthia and diming with me, and jiao wey kakis like myron, eric etc, and love like i never loved before, whether or not they are still in the company. but it's there that i found them (:
im feeling happy that my takehome from venture era is not just on mind and skills development, but also such friendships like theirs. i can say that in fact, in my whole life, ive never realised that such friendships were that important. as the saying goes, that when at home, we rely on relatives; when outside, we rely on friends. good friends i trust with my life. i shall complete my ve reflection tmr ;D bet you all never knew i was doing it all along.
but anyways, tmr i shall go visit my panda is his new home ha (:
or rather, later.. ;D
i told of my glory at 2:24 am
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
when i get to meet managers from other teams and have a chat with them, i find out some interesting stuff which i never knew, learnt of happenings which i never knew existed, and learnt more about some matters which didnt involve me therefore i never knew much of.
had a chat with cheeyong and abhi at ytf shop there. cos i was walking back with zihui and well, we saw them there and decided to join them for a chat. hahas. yvonne, her downline and alisah had gone back to office before me and ZH cos they were rushing for appointment. and well, that chat with cheeyong and abhi lasted longer than i expected haha. talked about mr nick's car and alot of other issues like about competitors too. haha! ;DDD and well, abhi actually thought winston is my downline -.- WTH!
cos that kookoo winston is annoying me by acting cute online. stupid pig is acting cute over skype zzzzz -.-
i told of my glory at 11:11 pm
when i fall in love
it will be forever
or i'll never fall in love
in a restless world
like this is
love is ended before it's begun
and too many
moonlight kisses
deem to cool in the warmth of the sun
when i give my heart
i give it completely
or i'll never give my heart
and the moment i can feel that you feel that way too
is when i fall in love with you
either i give all, or i dont give.
and ive chosen to give, whether you choose to receive it or not.. (:
i told of my glory at 3:51 am
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
alright, i admit, yesterday i was being a temperamental bitch cos of my illness and plus someone accidentally-unintentionally-unknowingly stepped on my "tail", making me feel more annoyed.
but anyways, yesterday was an interesting day in office ;D an interesting sldieshow, rather. we celebrated venture era's birthday for the first time in 8 years ;DDD sang birthday song, management cut birthday cake, but i left after that cos SICK LAR, cant tahan staying too long in enclosed area :/ and i was praying hard that the lift come up to the level 3 asap, but well, i tio caught by mr mengwee and tio commit to go office today. HAHA. so i went lar, with downline too. i tio commit so i commit my downline ;D tmr one rec each. hope both come (:
saw somebody while on my way home. if he had the guts, he'd probably be able to look at me in the eyes and talk, rather than look away while talking to me.
nope, im not referring to ryan. ryan congratulated me on my MM position when he met me. but someone else yo. haha.
that person wont read this. but i feel, once made a mistake, always a mistake, always an impression there, especially if no effort was taken to rectify the mistake.
i make an effort to do no one wrong in my life.
but life goes on, whether or not others have his same way of thinking as me :D
11.54pm now, IVE COMPLETED MY EXCEL PROJECT ;DDDD (except for the last missing "IF" function ;D)
i told of my glory at 9:45 pm
Sunday, 14 June 2009
when my body is weak, i react strongly to caffeine.
got high on caffeine after a cup of voltage at gloria jeans, felt like eyesight was blurred and had a puking sensation. kept my eyes focussed on excel, trying hard despite totally being unable to see anything already, downed 3 glasses of ice water and 2 calphytos before i finally slowly recovered.
yoshinoya dinner made me happy, i dont know why, but anyways, went to IT show (again) with yvonne before going home after crystal left first.
and well, me and yvonne parted at 9pm, but i only reached home at 10.30pm. this is because..
162m from my place stops outside suntec city. so logically, the one which goes back to my house is opposite right? but i conveniently forgot that 162m does not go one round, but goes straight to esplanade from suntec. so i dont know why i actually walked opposite to the bus stop, saw no 162m, PERSISTENTLY (i dont know what went into me) attempted to walk in the opposite direction hoping to get to a bus stop with 162, and ended up walking thru conrad hotel, millenia walk, and to some ulu construction place. wtf. i dont know whats wrong with me today. didnt occur to me to even attempt to take a cab too, and i ended up walking one big round around... i dont know whats that place, but i ended up at marina square exit. knnbccb. 162m came just when i walked back to the bus stop where i started walking from. looked at the time, 9.30pm.
i spent 25 minutes walking around to nowhere, result is displacement zero.
i think fever and sorethroat made my mind abit..... weird. lol. totally off-rational.
but still, no love for huifang. sad. ):
i told of my glory at 10:48 pm
just came home and bathed from meeting heidi, zijie and clarence. tiring day yo. went to IT show today again. didnt get to buy a cheap, slim, but chio mp3 player cos i didnt see much brands around ): didnt walk to level 6 also lar LOL. nvm, i shall add that to my wishlist so i rmbr to get it the next IT show, or when i go down to sim lim. lol.
anyways, i think winston damn cute lar, as in funny-cute you know. cos well, i came home late today. was on the line with him from board 162 till reached home bathe. so i told him to go sleep if he felt tired, no need wait till i come online lar, even though it's kind of like, used to it alr. but he was like okay lar okay lar, in the end, when i came online,
[12:23:12 AM] huifang says: i no cal plus at home ):
[12:23:15 AM] huifang says: throat v pain. hais
[12:25:04 AM] Winston says: ...
[12:25:06 AM] Winston says: can i go sleep
[12:25:06 AM] Winston says: =X
[12:25:26 AM] Winston says: i'm fighting w. my body to stay awake
[12:25:27 AM] Winston says: -_-
[12:25:51 AM] huifang says: lol if u didnt reply me id call u alr..
[12:25:58 AM] huifang says: you go sleep lo.. told you if tired go sleep le wad.. haha
[12:26:02 AM] huifang says: go lar go lar..
[12:26:07 AM] Winston says: tmr then talk to u
funny right ;D
so yea, back to today. was intending to go kgarden or kbox with them, in the end.. so ex -.- kbox $25++ per pax and kgarden $70 for total yo? so not worth it. so me and heidi fixed another day to go w/out the ns-men ;D haha! too bad lah zj and clarence. lol. ended up playing pool, met wei en there, and saw this ah lian. alamak. i tell you, that ah lian from the next table, damn classic one..
she was taking aim, when i accidentally knocked into the end of her cue stick cos i wasnt looking at whr i was going :/ so of cos, huifang the polite-innocent-lil-girl said "sorry!". little did i expect this look-old-dress-ah-lian-but-i-expect-is-a-17-year-old to be a sulky-whiney-tantrum-bitch. she dumped her cue stick on the table and openly SULKED at her boyf. her boyf had to put in quite alot of effort into coaxing her.
c'mon lah girl, you dont look cute enough to sulk. and whats worse is, i just looked away and walked to the other end of the table. looking to make me annoyed and afraid that you'll get ur boyf to bash me? wait on. her boyf looks like some lanky teen who prolly doesnt even know what's the world like. not that i know of the world, but definitely more than him ;D
around 3 minutes later, when it was my turn on the table, she stood behind me taking aim, and i knew that such a sulky-whiney-tantrum-bitch would definitely do something immature. so i stood there, and moved to the side a lil just when she tried to hit the ball. haha. you go girl, nice try to whack my back with the stick. too bad i predicted her move ;D cos she did this exaggerated move whereby she pushed her stick far too backward.
told ya you hadnt seen the world girl. prolly she hasnt even encountered this thing called maturity and is still living in a world of emo-heartbreaks-sobbs-lurrbexx-steadylovelove-break-patch but well, she kept sulking at her boyf upon unsuccessful attempts to make me look her way and kb her for trying to assasinate me. -.-
even when i laughed out loud, shed give a pained face. i think she prolly should start worrying about her negative facial expressions which make her look uglier-older-unappealing-sulky. and whats worse is, her boyf never even gave a damn. HAHA.
thats one hilarious thing i encountered. heidi was pretty fascinated by that too.
i guess jc and poly being called tertiary education, and venture era's teachings are really somethings that makes us different from secondary school and people from the outside huh. ;D
oh man, excel project tmr with yvonne and crystal. think i'll just die on the spot from my throat hurting too much ):
somebody save my throattttttttttt!!!): ): ): ):
and whats worse is, NO MORE CAL PLUS AT HOME OMG ):
editted at 1.38am:
winston, this is to prove my intelligence ;D
3 attempts later, i still had a 4th attempt of 49. and it's always careless mistake ): dont believe, you go the account check. 4 records of 49 mine okay ;D
1.59am. alright. to bed ;D
i want that man yo ;D
hell yea..
i told of my glory at 12:30 am
Friday, 12 June 2009
just a short update,
1. my dumbass laptop almost died on me. on-ed it 5 or 6 times still blank screen with nothing on it. lucky winston called me and saved my dearest laptop. woohoo! have back-ed up all my data ;D
oh yea, now winston tells me that i should also include how he directed me to resuscitate my laptop. HAHA.
"pluck out the battery, pluck out adapter, then hold on to the on button for 50 seconds......"
wa. genius yo ;D what would i do without him to help save my laptop. prolly i'd freak out and cry cos my excel project and pictures are all inside ):
LOL.
2. i just got 47/50 for BTT online simulator. walao. still canot win winston cos he also got 47/40 in his latest attempt. HUMPHHHHHH! lol.
IM VERY LAZY TO DO MY EXCEL PROJECT!
on the other hand, i have another interesting wednesday night to look forward to next week le ;D HAHA. YAY!
i told of my glory at 11:31 pm
my mom's cool. HAHA. wth please. i randomly had this hilarious conversation with her.
hf- "eh whats the name of ur that colleague who goes for ladies night uh?"
m- "kasey lor. aiyah, she say only one lah."
hf- "orhh. anw, that day i went zouk lei. you know, the one at tiong bahru. ladies night lar."
m- "zouk? thought that one more of adults go one. teenagers also go there meh?"
hf- "yar. so so lah. i think arena those kind better though."
m- "yah lah! go where more youngsters go ma! go those of ulu place zouk.. go raffles there got more than one, all near near, can go different one see see lor.."
hf- "eh yah i also think so. anyway, i saw two girls drunk till concuss one. lol. scary yo."
m- "yah lah, like xue ling jiejie that time like that. somemore hospitalised." (XL is my cousin)
hf- "yea, so you okay with me going to clubs right. haha."
m- "aiyah, just dont get drunk till like xueling jiejie lah. somemore hospitalised."
HAHAHA. cool yo? ;DDD
and on a sidenote, i just remembered smth winston told me ytd. his mom actually knows that he has a friend referred to as "bishan girl" by her. OMG. his mom knows me by such an interesting name yo. X.x LOL.
i guess some things, are not meant to be said,
not meant to be written down as a memory,
but only meant to be kept in my mind..
for me to look back and smile at in future (:
i told of my glory at 3:50 pm
Thursday, 11 June 2009
went to IT show at suntec with winston today at around noon. saw someone i shouldnt have seen there i guess? lol. i dont know why but though this mr THY guy has nothing against me, ive seen too much of his patterns, too much of his ugly, that i wanna sabo him when i saw him working at the IT show. when he saw me walking towards him, he looked at me just at the moment i looked at him, and immed turned away. cant hide. winston saw him too. after that, i got pretty pissed, so i decided to walk past him again to di siao siao. he couldnt hide this time though he saw me coming over. so he just gave a sheepish smile and waved. darn funny yo. i went to say hi to yifang too ;D haha! and i bought new creative in-ear earphones ;D quality good yo. and winston managed to get his speakers. haha. i listen.. though im not a very IT person or a person who can really judge this kind of sound quality, i just told him that that speaker was nicer among the rest and it looked CHIO-er than the rest also ;D so he bought it. $69. quite cheap yo? HAHA. but too bad, if i get those speakers, i'll probably drop them off my com table also LOL! then when we were leaving, saw mr THY again. he was sitting on the floor somewhere along the corridor. looked bit pathetic, but then again, wanna do wrong thing must also know how to cover up right -.- why get seen at such a public event?
then went to macpherson cc play badminton. walao. i somehow got a feeling i just got thrashed LOL. i kind of lost in all 3 games yea? HAHA. aiyar, you know lar, huifang just flew off her bike 2 days ago. poor thing leh, havent recover yet.. stupid winston still always smash the shuttlecock downwards/ to the other end of the court/ IN MY FACE. asshole right asshole right asshole right? nah, he gonna call me sore loser if i say yes to that. HAHA. but aiyar, was fun lar, though i feel liek my arms have turned to jelly. HAHA. :/
AND WALAO, registering for basic theory at cdc is $91+. knn. have to wait for results out liao. bo bian.. ):
well, time proves some things i guess..
or rather, all things..
im glad (:
i told of my glory at 9:53 pm
phew. just reached home not too long ago. TIRING YO!
yesterday morning.. met up with winston and jintian at somewhere ;D
main thing was the stupid car winston drove was so fast. after i took over the wheel, was equally fast and shiok. but someone whined and acted emo and pouted to want back that car for the last round. WELL~ so i gave back that car to him. haha. in the end, he got stuck at the top of the slopes cos his car no petrol alr -.- hilariously dangerous i would say..
second thing was the stupid boat boat that made me so wet mehhhh~ whether i sit with jt or winston, i still get bullied nevertheless ): esp winston lah, i think people see we two walk out from the boat they dare not sit alr, cos was really dripping wet okay -.-
in the evening, went to vivo for dinner, followed by phuture/ zouk. wa, met zhenli outside st james (detour plan from vivo) and met may and mich ma at phuture. LOL! what a coincidence please. and mich was like "WHEN YOU START COME OUT CHIONG ONE!"
lol! after one apple shooter, one apple vodka, one lime vodka and some rum with coke, my face was damn hot please -.- but didnt get to the dance floor cos it was SO packed i almost tripped walking out of it. meh..
saw girls drunk like dead, friends had to carry them out to take cab. lol.
and i was damn tired. yawning like madddd. shouldnt have attempted to wait for the dance floor to get a lil bit more crowded at zouk. NO CHOICE LA, PEOPLE FIRST TIME GO ZOUK CAN!?
i still prefer arenaaaaa. but, IM TIRED! NOW 2.04AM ALR! tmr gotta wake up at 10am for healthy activity! LOL ;D
i love today ;D or rather, yesterday..
pictures tmr or something. LOL!
i told of my glory at 1:53 am
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
wow. thats the only thing i can bring myself today. yesterday ever since i left house was non-stop action till 11plus in the morning when i reached home today after NYCO chalet.
alot of things happened..
starting from the timing i stepped into office, i thought i could avoid whoever i wanted to avoid. but in the end, i met someone i couldnt really avoid either. haha. i met mr mengwee at b1. he talked to me abit. and well, i somehow or other feel that it's back to the old mr mengwee i knew in 2007 till mid 2008?
then the climax. when i was walking out of office via back road route cos i wanted to take 15 to parkway parade to meet weijian, 10 steps out past the carpark exit and boss' PEARL WHITE MASERATI stopped beside me.
first thought- how the hell does boss recognize me?!
second thought- why did he stop?!
in the end, mr dewey unwound the car window, asked me where i was going and gave me a lift ;DDD wahhh, let me tell you, i was practically trembling from head to toe HAHA. never been in boss' maserati before, LET ALONE TAKEN A LIFT FROM MR DEWEY! and he's super nice too. and on the car he was talking to me about my studies and how typically, ve people after going through trainings will start to pick on lecturer's lecturing abilities. LOL. hell true ;D but yea, i think the part of sitting in a maserati and getting the feeling of thrown back into my seat each time he accelerates, shiokkkkkkk! ;D how many people actually have a chance to sit in a maserati, and let alone in boss' car taking a lift from mr dewey! that was the PROBABLY-ONLY-GOOD-THING that day.
went to nyco chalet with weijian after that. dropped by a pet shop, saw cute baby siberian husky howling, then went to the arcade, had fun ;D he looks funny when he dances para para. like conductor lo really. it's in his blood i guess. and many of us rented bikes overnight also. then then then, winston called me when he was back in SG and said he's coming for overnight cyclingggggggggg ;DDDD YAY. stupid pig wanted to hear me say im happy he's coming. oh well, okay lah, but right, he made me fall downnnnn ): ): ): ):
and alot of bad things happened during that period of time of 10 plus onwards!
first bad situation was like this: FLYING off my bike ):
we were going back to the chalet after arcade and waiting for winston to join us there. then, i decided to pick up speed so that i could glide further. stupid winston came to di siao siao and cut infront of me with his bike. in the end, his back bike wheel got "tangled" with my front wheel, and being unable to break or touch ground with my foot easily (cos the fucking bike was so HIGH), I FLEW OFF MY BIKE trying to stop. no exaggerations. weijian and yiling were behind and they saw everything that happened. STUPID WINSTON! ): no love. i landed on my right side and my whole right arm was full of scratches, right thigh was badly injured with scratches, 2 open wounds and 1 red patch that feels like an orbakah cos it's damn pain but theres no cut there. my palms are injured, got internal blood clot and abrasions, then my left knee also got wound and my left leg got 2 scratches okayyyyy ): meh meh meh. DAMN FUCKING PAIN OKAY. i thought it was the end of my life lah! HOW LONG SINCE I HAD SUCH A BAD THING HAPPENING TO ME!??! damn pain lar, but dont know why, didnt cry. meh..
and thats not all to my agony.
when we were back at the chalet, we went for food, and to put calplus on my wound. the moment the calplus touch my wound... i kind of forgot who i am. the pain was TOTALLY excruciating okay, had a rest outside the chalet, then took our bikes out again to 711 cos WJ and YL wanted to buy alcohol. back to chalet level 2 to enjoy aircon! ;D BUT,
knnbccb. in the aircon room i also prone to accident. the queen bed and single bed joined at this part where in my whole life i wouldnt have fancied sitting at. and wow, i was at the queen size bed when SOMEHOW OR OTHER, my rest was disrupted and when i turned over my back was at the joined line and the TWO BEDS ACTUALLY SEPARATED COS WJ WAS PLAYING! WTH. i totally freaked out okay. really really freaked out. i was feeling so miserable over my leg injuries and something else had to ALMOST happen. really is scare my balls off lor ): and i dont know why somehow or other there were tears. haha. i think i was too shocked =.= and winston was like damn scared cos he thought i was crying. HAHAHA. =.= but aiyar, DAMN SCARY LAH KNNB!
after that, we cycled to simpang bedok to eat prata. BUTT PAIN! LOL. but we went down that damn steep slope again. woohoo~ damn shiok alrights! then had prata, cycled to some ulu playground that was supposedly nice to slack at but sucked, then went to that standard bus stop to nuah, NO LOVE FOR HUIFANG! ): hah! then stupid weijian suggested me to join him and YL to suspend in mid air =.= damn lame. but well, he got the heart lah huh. LOL.
went back to chalet, collapse on the bed after bathing. disrupted sleep, but was still rest. until about 10am we left the chalet to return our bikes and i took bus home with winston. meh.
supposed to join huimiao, xinyi, lj and darren etc for zhengting's farewell meal at 6pm cos he's going for ns on the 11th. but i woke up feeling more pain than ever. ): though the mind is willing, the body isnt. so i decided to nuah at home for the whole evening. because, tmr is gonna be an early morning to late night out for fun again.
wow, i love the holidays.. ;D
winston tang, my hand still pain, my leg still pain, i dont care if ur butt still pain, but my injuriesss! WINSTON, I WANT COMPENSATION!! ):
i told of my glory at 3:57 pm
Monday, 8 June 2009
alright, call me mental. i took the online simulation test 5 times today. haha. told you i passed 45/50 2 times right? after that i passed once more, 45/50. winston says "anytime can fail one" but HEY WINSTON, LOOK WHAT I GOT AFTER YOU WENT TO SLEEP!
and to sum up my attempts today, one fail (by abit) and the rest all pass! YAY ;D
alright, shall go book my basic theory next week already. since i got closed by a fellow networker. zzz. but well, i think.. should be okay la hor? wont fail right. HEEHEE ;D
IM FEELING HAPPY OVER ALL THESE ;DDD
HAPPY TODAYYYYY! yay today's a good day. oh wait, it's past 12 already. LOL. but never mind, still happy!
sales coming in today too. HAHAHA. OMG DAMN HAPPY ;D
and NYCO CHALET!! ;D i miss them so much, esp my bitch chiaweijian! ;DDD
i told of my glory at 1:18 am
Sunday, 7 June 2009
current time, my basic theory simulator attempted online was a score of 42/50.
now i shall go attempt. will continue to update when im done with it. ;D
EXPECT A BETTER SCORE OKAY!
11:03pm now. 43/50! CBCBCB! I WANT TO PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ):
11.12pm now. i seen thru my mistakes. REATTEMPT AGAIN!!!
11.21pm! AHAHHAHA WTF I PASSED!!! LOL LOL LOL LOL. IM REALLY LAUGHING AT MYSELF IN JOYYYYY ;DDDDD 45/50 OKAY LAH, NOT REALLY OUTSTANDING, BUT I PASSED!
WINSTON TANG!! IM NOT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBBBBBB ;DDD
11.45pm! i buay tahan-ed and tried again! I GOT 45/50 AGAIN!! ;DDDD HAHAHAHAH.
winston, i never play cheat or refer to book okayyy!
i told of my glory at 10:45 pm
Saturday, 6 June 2009
i am very much annoyed by the fact that allowing my friends to know my friends will only bring me more worries and troubles.
it's just not worth it, right?
oh actually, is okay. i already know the answer to it.
fuck you cb hongsters. go burn in hell.
i told of my glory at 11:33 pm
Friday, 5 June 2009
went ktv with erika, yvonne and darren. not too bad, teo heng quite a good place ;D cheap and not bad. but hor but hor, i shldnt book the small room in future ): SO CRAMPED LOL. but today not really good mood to sing. zzz. no good throat also.
so after that, took bus down to city hall with yvonne. went to find crystallllll ;DDD fixed a date to do csa. and then headed off to meet jintian at orchard. (:
went to taka for dinner, then trained down to plaza sing for yami yogurt ;D HAHA. me and my dl's common love alright!~
peach yogurt from yami makes huifang feel happy (:
monday her customer coming down to swipe card. made me +ve awhile before i -ve when i found out something when i came home.. ):
and winston is crazy. he knew i was awake at 4am ytd. though i didnt blog, didnt sms or call him. weird how he can invade my mind at times, and meddle with it.. HAHA. ;D
i told of my glory at 11:40 pm
funny how your heart not desires.. (:
i told of my glory at 10:07 am
i have zero tolerance for ambiguity.
if you owe me an answer, better give it to me asap, whether i'll like that answer or not, whether after today i'll like you or not.
lest one fine day, i'll be walking down that long aisle of hatred, with you at the end.
bit funny that i wont bother to request for an answer on the spot.
cos i abhore for hatred.
and what leads me to it, is ambiguity.
you caused this.
zhe dou shi ni yi shou zao cheng de.
wu guai wo..
the one in the situation remains oblivious to everything,
but the one looking from the outside, sees it all.
dont assume too much. maybe im not even talking about someone you know.
but one sleepless night,
1km in 5 minutes. mental.
i told of my glory at 6:07 am
Thursday, 4 June 2009
today was a good day ;D
yay.
haha. FINALLY, mid sems have ended! ;DDD
but but but, i tell you. i spent 15 minutes re-doing my whole question 2 in accounts paper today. ends up, i never realised why my balance sheet was not balanced ): damn -ve. first time in poly my b/s cannot balance yo. in the end, left early still, but i felt damn stupid!! in the end, i only realised my mistake after calling erika, calling yvonne, and complaining to winston. I WROTE:
less: drawings.
but when calculating, i ADDED the amounts. SHIT PLEASE. at least i feel more consoled now that im gonna prolly just lose one mark due to that carelessness. lol. OH WELL~
then went to meet winston to go meet jintian and jimmy for movie. watched terminator salvation ;D DAMN GOOD MOVIE MAN! but i shrieked at one point. pretty irrelevant. but it only proves how humji i am lar hor. HAHA. stupid winston says it's "CLASSIC!" cos no one else in the cinema was scared by that -.-
WTH.
no love for huifang lor. WAHAHAHHA. ;D
tmr is ktv day with my girls + darren~ and aiyoh, limzijie has to jio me out for kbox tmr evening. LOL. too bad, got dinner appointment tmr with my loveliest ___ (: wahahhas.
TIRED YO!
and now, im gonna party liek a rockstar ;DDD
i told of my glory at 11:44 pm
SCARE MY BALLS OFF YO!
loNG JuN ™.. champion never give up.. they fight their ways back quietly.. says:
eh its time to fight after ur exam
loNG JuN ™.. champion never give up.. they fight their ways back quietly.. says:
my goal is 60k this month
loNG JuN ™.. champion never give up.. they fight their ways back quietly.. says:
a 1 month CA
loNG JuN ™.. champion never give up.. they fight their ways back quietly.. says:
are u with me to fight?
loNG JuN ™.. champion never give up.. they fight their ways back quietly.. says:
its your choice
HUIFANG- 约定 says:
60k!
HUIFANG- 约定 says:
wow
i told of my glory at 12:05 am
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
i received a big gift in a box today.
no doubt i suspected it, but it was still a pleasant surprise nevertheless ;D
cos i didnt want to get my hopes high, so i chose not to think much about it.
but i was happy happy happy (: (: (:
csa written paper was a horror today. alright, a mini terror yo. what i memorized came out for mcq and what i just speed-read came out for short answers. oh shit please. but i think i kind of crapped my way through with logic that made sense to me lar. better than those people who actually chose to give up and not do it till the last minute before giving up :/ somehow or other, i squeezed out every ounce of common sense in IT for myself to complete the paper. got some marks deducted already, but i pray hard things come out to at least a B for me yea? PRETTY PLEASE. this is like, the only paper i havent had confidence to do well enough to convince myself that ive tried my best in. lol. blame it on myself. last minute mugging. ): my bad.
i realise my mistake already. shall change this bad side of me for the next half of the sem!
so yea, tmr's the last paper. accounts. how would that be. knowledge there, just pray hard i dont make any careless mistakes! ;D in the meantime, plan how to celebrate mid sem hols! HAHA ;DDD
fri- ktv with the girls, maybe clubbing at night?
next week: mon-wed- chalet nyco
wed- escape!
wed- watch terminator the movie!
and after csa just now, class went to tampines to eat while i brough erika's laptop to winston's place for him to install microsoft office for her. but her disc drive spoil larrrrr. meh meh meh. then went to tampines and went to gai gai with erikakakaka ;D i still cant find my desired heelsssss ):
glossy black colour, covered, 2.5-3 inch heel, SO DIFFICULT TO FIND MEH!?
and poor winston injured his finger with the 11 pound bowling ball just now. wehhhh~
lucky i wasnt there. otherwise i think i'll faint. :/
now his finger LOOKING horrible. cos got orh-ba-kah like that. eeyer. still dowan go see doc. tsk tsk tsk. maybe tmr his finger will drop off. HAHA.
isit obvious i was kidding anot? ;DDD
LOL. LAMEEEEEE. im just happy exams are almost over, and i got present ;DD
huifang loves presents and surprisesssss (:
i told of my glory at 9:47 pm
i feel like im using twitter rather than blogspot. lol.
lucky winston called me at 8.40am. otherwise, id probably still be asleep at my sofa with my csa book covering my face. LOL.
one last desperate attempt:
input and output devices.
software types, computer components and purposes, user-type recommendations.
what else have i studied? 5 chapters in my mind supposedly. but i feel empty. and blank ):
i cant fail.
i canot fail.
therefore i wont fail.
correct..
for once, i lack the knowledge. so i will need all the luck i can get in the world.
kind of like jc exam feeling again- worrying about pass, rather worrying about an A.
haha.
i told of my glory at 9:08 am
sometimes you make me wonder whether youre doing things on purpose?
or are you just oblivious to everything i feel in this world?
are my hints not obvious enough?
lol. there are so many people in my life now. how about making a random guess who?
one sleepless night.
due to one unsettled examination subject,
one unrequitted love.
blogging at an unearthly hour. haha.
always leaves me half hanging..
it doesnt matter.
nothing ever mattered i guess.
i just had to get my As in my studies and be with my girlfriends for life to be happy.
no windfall,
no relationship.
i guess i never could differentiate some things about love and friendship.
how funny (:
no love in this world?
maybe..
stop giving, then maybe i'll start to receive..
i told of my glory at 4:47 am
i never study for BTT before, but i got 37/50 for the BTT online stimulator. HAHA. improve by one mark. ytd i got 36/50 lor. wahahah.
stupid winston not being encouraging. he say me noob. meh meh.
wahahah.
i tell you arh, everyday improve by one, by the time i go for BTT i full marks ;DDD HAHA.
i told of my glory at 1:36 am
Tuesday, 2 June 2009
econs paper today was more or less alright. ahhas. i think.. it was okay la. HAHA. but i damn blur i think. left my matric card and ez link card on the table in the exam room. in the end, i had to go find mr fong to get the key to open the room to get it back -.- zzz. exam stress? haha. i feel quite relaxed yo ;D
so today, studied csa with darren at starbucks till 10pm. stoned on 3/4 the 22 bus journey home. tired like siao, one chapter still untouched. probably later, i'll mug, if im still awake. -.-
and im still damn tired.
it's damn tiring if on one hand, im trying so hard to excel in my studies, and on one other hand, im kio-ing all the shit for some fuckers.
am complaining to my "fairygodmother" online. haha.
do birds have worries?
i told of my glory at 11:33 pm
Monday, 1 June 2009
if im quarantined tmr, it'll be wenliang's fault. cos he pass swine flu to me. he's been displaying the symptoms of swine flu for the past 2 or 3 days already. and today, 2/3 of my time in school was with him in the same area as me. OH NOOOOOO!
anyways, today's OB paper was kind of a disaster, a mini one, to be exact. during the 10 minutes self-reading, i was cursing under my breath, cos the first short question was:
"..Discuss the 3 benefits of studying OB.." [9 marks]
WA KNNBCCB OKAY. who the hell bothers to study that?! c'mon. when you study a content subject, you prolly would study the content yo, not the INTRO PART! WTH. and the whole paper is 40 marks, which means that that fucking stupid question took about a quarter of my marks away already.
to secure an A in this paper, i have to get at least 32/40. SCREW YOU OB! THAT QUESTION MEANT I MISS MY A ALREADY! damn that setter please.
in the end, i wrote what i felt was logically correct. i wonder if the tutor marking my paper will give me some pittance marks for my effort, cos basically my answer didnt match the 3 benefits mentioned in the notes, just the rough idea. and i wrote super alot. for the other two short questions, i wrote a total of like, 4 pages? haha. but the lines were printed far apart. so yea, i used up all the space but rawr rawr rawr. im still, ANNOYED by that question. when the paper ended, i pratically screamed my head off at my annoyance caused by that stupid question!
mcq was okay though, and my mom was kinda encouraging to console me for my effort when i sms-ed saying my A is i-think-gone. ):
went to library to study econs after that. i almost died explaining why money wage rate increase will lead to a decrease in production, thus causing SRAS curve to shift to the left, to wenliang. haha. xinyan and i were trying super hard okay. lol. but at least i think he now understands... better? lol!
10:20pm now. wenliang is just having normal flu. so im safe from swine flu from him. HAHA.
ECONS TMR! ;D
i told of my glory at 9:59 pm
an interesting story to reinforce what ive been telling many: whether you give in to hardship/ problems, or you work hard to fight them back, to emerge stronger. like how i once succeeded to do so, fighting against a leader whom i had to work with but couldnt talk/ work with at all.. ;D
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A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Life seemed to always be about neverending problems and less happiness.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, 'Tell me what you see.'
'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that start s with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
May we all be COFFEE!!!
i told of my glory at 11:21 am