Sunday, 31 January 2010
Today I woke up impossibly late- exactly 10 minutes before show time. How to rush down to Orchard? In the end, Kien took over my Games after his Magic show ended cos I wasnt there yet. I was already outside Regency Park when he sent me the msg telling me he'd done the games for me. But then again, it's my fault. Though I reached at 11.15am, he was already done, though I dont know how. I guess he started his magic early, thats why he moved on to the games early enough.
So instead, I went back to Bishan to prepare for the GOF later on with Xinyan. Today's crowd at Thomson was also as enthusiastic as yesterday (I seem to run out of English expressions. Keep using 'enthusiastic'!) And well, once again, gave out EVERYTHING I prepared. And there was still so many people! Madddd. Someone whacked my GOF's head and I totally WTF-ed the person. HELLO, THERES A HUMAN INSIDE MAN. An adult still not being able to think for the poor GOF. Whacking GOF's head does not give you luck. It makes you DAMNED cos you whacked his poor head. If you sayang, still get luck please. Zzz!
Tiring much. Then went to pass Winston some stuff before returning the car.
I feel a sense of relief from there. It's like my life is more back to normal. MORE, not entirely, yet. I do hope that as often as before I drove, the calls still come in that often; I do hope that as often as the concern was there when I drove, it continues. But then again, friendship is never consistent, I guess. Some things are only there when there's that something else, but gone when something else is gone. Everyone is still material after all. Hahahha. For evidence, take a look at whats gonna happen in class tomorrow and we'll all understand what I mean.
Nothing beats having someone with you on the way home after a tiring day, especially when knowing they care just makes the whole day, no matter how wrong, just all right. :)
Addon: Just talked to Kien online about charity shows. He says he wants to adopt a charity but cos there's lack of support, he still hasnt done so. Will wait for further discussion on his matter :) Cos well, I'm glad he shares my stand on wanting to do something for those kids.
They never fail to make me smile no matter how bad my days are.. :)
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On a sidenote, I looked through some FB pictures today, and realised that I really left too much undone when I left, in a much unorderly fashion.
Hahahha. I do not miss JC life, but I miss my classmates :) Well, at least they had fun during graduation day. Looking at those pics, I smiled, even though I wasnt in any of them. Hahahha.
i told of my glory at 11:52 pm
Saturday, 30 January 2010
Busy busy tiring day today.
Morning woke up and already worrying about how to get to HPB for my show. Worries werent uncalled for cos I really did get lost. Already memorized directions from exit of CTE but still took the wrong turn then realised, and had to go one big round before I could u-turn. Ended up 15 minutes late. Kids were great though. Really enthusiastic, almost climbing over me. Ahh! Chaotic but great party. Cakecutting with the adorable birthday boy and all, cheers. A great party though it started out wrong with my lateness.
Rushed down to pick up Xinyan and GOF before going down to Thomson Plaza. Saw Benny doing balloons :) GOF today was good. Kids were mad over him and adults were so happy to see him that even those working there came to take pictures and asked for luck.
Went over to Elaine's house thereafter for the 0820 bbq. Saw all those guys and girls I havent seen in quite awhile. Edel's private driving instructor's style is weird man, totally. Taking her to slopes and u turns during first few lessons for a totally beginner driver. Lol. And there's even a dont-know-what-safety-thing fee of $70 only refundable when you PASS your TP with them. Weird!
Too tired to go over to Tampines to meet class people. :(
I still have to prepare things for tomorrow's shows.
Im afraid to tell people I miss them, cos no one ever takes me seriously.
I dont like to tell people I love them, cos no one ever takes me seriously.
Can you sense that I need some help?
Nice song by James Morrison, singer of Broken Strings.
Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone
i told of my glory at 11:56 pm
I was just reading some stuff online, I realised that no matter how close two people used to be, they can drift VERY far apart once one party meets someone new, or meets some people new; when their priority changes..
I miss you, friend, but you remember me only when you need me. When I worry about your results, because I know that Poly means as much to you as to me, but you can always find 89223 reasons not to study. That is very painful because I dont feel the friendship and trust anymore. Each time I try to walk away to move on, you'll pull me back just when I want to let go, and I never knew how to really let things go.
I think some friendships cannot stand through problems, while some do. Recently, I keep experiencing those that cant, and each day I fear that one day, it's him I'm gonna lose.
Sometimes I dont want to know what tomorrow holds because I dont know what to expect. Will I one day wake up and find that he decided to leave, or will I wake up and find him still by my side? I dont seem to know what friendship is anymore, because people come and go.
I somehow feel so insecure and doubtful against everything and everyone now. I dont even know what I want anymore.
Haha, I think it's the work stress getting into me. I dont want to study, but yet I dont want to play. I dont want to talk to anyone but I want to tell someone about my problems. But yet the only person whom I want to speak to is too busy with their own life to have time for me, or to be concerned of me.
As always,
Why is it that I'm always the one who is giving people hugs and encouragements?
Why is it that I'm always the one whom is assuring people that everything is gonna be alright?
When was the last time you gave me a hug, to tell me that everything would be fine, you gave me a pat to tell me good job, to assure me that you'll always be there, or you texted me to show me some concern?
It's been a long time since the two of us went out together.
I realised.. Haha.
Like what Winston once said, "Yah, Huifang wont be angry for long one ma, forgive people very easily one". I think that statement is what kills me, and is what is holding me back from letting go of alot of matters. Probably the day I really do, is the day that I really give up on any connections to do with you. It's gonna hurt, and I dont want the day to come either, ever. But youre holding me back from moving forward to my future while youre happily moving forward.
I dont like that. You forgot me and left me behind.
You and you, two people.
I've been living in the past for too long now.
i told of my glory at 3:19 am
Today was a tiring dayyyy. Man, Bstats test, thought I could get full marks -.- But apparently, I THINK I forgot to define X1 in some part. Okay lah, like maybe one mark gone. But nevermind, I think this 5% was manageable. Classmates made some careless mistakes here and there, things we already were prepared for yesterday. Oh well, we're all gonna do better for Final Exams man :) Show that teacher that even though our class is like, especially mad every Friday, but we can still do well yo :P
Shopping at Orchard after that with Yifang, Ka, Von and Xinyan. Wanted to meet Winston one, but didnt in the end. Then supposed to meet parents after that one, but in the end didnt cos it was too late -.- Zzz. Bought new shorts today from NF. Claim from mummy la! Financial crisis now lei -.- Zzz. But at least NF standarize their prices now, unlike how they used to charge by per size. Boings.
Went to Ikea for dinner later (Yah, I think I'm mad also. Petrol isnt free sio.) and the girls paid for my dinner, because the parking cost at Orchard was $18. WTF.. But well, day ended quite well I guess..
And well, some things dont change, and never will change, especially some differences, which cannot be solved. I can never catch up with you because we are different.
I lack the ability to.
Sorry, there are so many things I do not understand now.
This song made me cryyyyy. Ya, like mad. Listen once can cry once all over again. It's really nice. I cant give it to anyone now, cos no one wants me, sadly. Hahaha. -.- I like this version by Shania Twain and BSB.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdlsj8D1mH4
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
Like some fucking lovesick creature. No more of such rubbish please.
Ever considered how it feels like telling someone you miss them but yet they just ignore you, time and again?.
i told of my glory at 12:28 am
Thursday, 28 January 2010
Got a call in the morning while I was at BAccounts lecture today from my IO Tan. So I went down to TP Headquarters in the afternoon after lectures ended to pay my TP fine. $200 plus 9 demerits.
People whom are cursing me to lose my license and get a court case blah blah, sorry. TP decided that I didnt kill someone, so I've incurred the abovementioned.
People whom have shown their concern to my case and accident, thanks. I've at least settled half the problem. I'm just awaiting the claims from the motorist's insurance side. That, is another problem, but at least TP side case closed.
The last I'll see of IO Tan, but I think he was really a nice police, not like the female TP whom threatened that I'd lose my license. Police are there to help us, not harm us. I think IO Tan did that perfectly.
Went back to school to chiong BStats. Was a pretty good mugging session. Cos I could do all the questions. Or rather, maybe I already knew but just lost my mind for a moment when I answered Ka's question wrongly -.-
Thought of alot of issues on the car drive back today. I went at 80kmph over the flyover. It finally felt like I was driving a car. Wenliang said that day "At least you wont like, have a phobia of driving.." I thuoght he was right, but I guess not entirely true. Having settled things at the TP side, I felt that it was actually a load off my mind. I suddenly felt like I was actually driving, rather than not so. Hopefully in time to come, the claims from insurance will bring me back to where I had left off before the accident on 23rd January..
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And I think I'm a sore loser much when it comes to competitiveness in studies :)
But then again, I'm sorry, JC made me this way.
I dont study at home, because I dont see the point in attempting to do so while I'm 294% distracted at home.
I have high hopes on myself because I know that they are things I can accomplish, and I am supposed to accomplish.
As long as I am able to do the questions and get the correct answers justified, I think it's enough done for myself. I feel that that is sufficient for me to get an A or even at least a B+.
Bstats, I'll get an A tmrw. ;)
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Our mistake is in being unable to let go.
And my additional mistake is in taking him as a substitute of yours.
I'm currently hooked onto this song on my replay list :)
Been so for the past week and still going strong. The lyrics that first caught my ears are in bold yo :)
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
Loves much :)
i told of my glory at 11:42 pm
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
I dont know what is going on with my life recently. Someone asked me "Arent you worried about the accident those stuff?" I thought I can detach and concentrate on school. But while I'm studying my mind isnt occupied by studies. It already isnt occupied by the accident because I tell myself that all of that will be handled when they come, and I'll be guided. But my mind seems to always be in a whirl trying to settle problems that arent even existent, problems that arent even of a top priority.
Bstats test is on friday and I'm not doing anything in preparation for it. The chapters covered are all 50:50 understood IMO.
I hold on so tight, because I know that if I lose you for once, it's forever.
I dont want to let you go..
I have my lovely Godbro whom keeps making me smile each time he skypes me cos he's always doing soemthing lame :)
Yayyyy love much!
i told of my glory at 10:47 pm
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
I suppose some people dont understand the meaning of mutual respect lo. They think they know everything and only know how to assume. But then again, it's people with big heart whom can accomodate people with small heart like them :) I thought the people I'm socialising with were beyond that kind of childishness of tagging without name and getting a kick out of it, thinking it'll affect me. But then again, we never know ;)
I'm glad I got my class with me in this kind of tough periods. I know I'm not alone. Some of them actually said things that I would never have imagined them say. But I really appreciate all of their love. If needed, I would want to rely on my own abilities to overcome this obstacle too.
I've gotten enough people involved as it is.
Now, I can only just take one step at a time, and await tomorrow to arrive.
I know I've been a burden to you because of this,
and I know when to stop.
It's now time to.
No one deserves to be affected by my problems.. :)
Calculus project.
i told of my glory at 10:47 pm
Monday, 25 January 2010
Econs presentation today was horrible for me. Totally not prepared at all, and stuttered. Forget it, what's done has been done..
So few things happened today, but my mind is so packed.
I really want to settle the accident issue asap and not let it drag any further. Even when I was sitting down at NYP Macs studying, my mind drifted off to the accident, the claims, the fine, the insurance.
And, I realised, the IO was pretty forgetful. He actually forgot to ask the motorcyclist to call me on Saturday, which has led to dire consequences. That motorcyclist brought his bike to the workshop today, which submitted the claims for insurance against me, TODAY AFTERNOON. Good job IO, youve gotten me into more trouble now. Motorcyclist called me up, he said he wanted to settle privately, but cos I didnt contact him, he sent his bike for insurance claims.
I dont know what to do next. And I've pulled Winston into enough trouble as it is. I dont want to give anyone anymore trouble. They say, to go through weal and woe, but well, I dont know. It's just crap. Why should I affect those around me whom are gonna have their exams soon? It's no one's fault for mine that I should get into this problem.
Now I guess it's just up to me, and I've been asking for His help.
Lord, hear my prayers.. :(
i told of my glory at 10:24 pm
Sunday, 24 January 2010
Show today was good. Professy Messy was great :) I think cos of the kids' enthusiasm, Winston's confidence also went up sky-high. Bro, maybe youre not aware, but I felt today was a really good show! :D
Felt really touched when I saw how Jay's mother and maid helping him with whatever he did. His mind is perfectly well, he could answer Winston's questions. But his actions are not really coordinated. But yet, he has his friends'/classmates' support.
Throughout the show, the pinata and the cake cutting, his smile was there most of the time. I think despite his disabilities, he was a really good boy, participating and answering questions whenever Prof Messy posed questions to the crowd. Im glad Winston did take the patience to listen to him too :) Could see that Jay enjoyed the whole program today as much as the other kids and myself. I wonder did Winston enjoy himself too? :)
Well, if people whom have disabilities are working so hard to overcome them, what are we normal people doing, lamenting about FML and Life Sucks? :) Learning point.
I am no leader, yet most people want to follow me.
You have never seen me, yet I have always been with you.
I am well protected, but I get hurt easily.
I am not a door, yet only one person holds the key to me.
You cannot live without me, yet you are so eager to give me away.
And once you do, i will be returned to you broken.
In total silence, all you will hear is me,
as I am in your heart..
i told of my glory at 10:48 pm
I had a nightmare this morning.
After being on the line with Winston ytd night, and realising that my accident didnt just cause implications to myself, but also one him, affected his parents' decision on buying a car. There's nothing that can be done to reverse this implication. Did I just, the previous night, say something about not wanting to regret? I think I did. But the next day, I've already spoiled it. Even though ytd I was telling my friends of how thankful I was to have him help me, I didnt expect that there would be so many complications..
I dreamt that I got a female friend- I dont know who, whom was about to go off for an exchange program overseas for 2-3 months. Sending her off was another guy, Winston and me. Of cos, me being me, would definitely be crying like some mad idiot over a friend not gonna be by my side for 2-3 months. Blah blah blah, then suddenly the scene jumped to the guy friend leaving for I-dont-know-what-country for I-dont-know-what-reason.
Not enough?
Like a few days or weeks later, Godbro suddenly told me he's going overseas for attachment. To some super faraway place, from February till November. And cos of this, I think I was hysterical much, and I woke up crying. Zzz.
As if I hadnt had enough tears yesterday.
Some things are beyond our control, but we should not do things that would lead to such uncontrollable situations.
I not only screwed up my life yesterday.
Sorry Winston.
i told of my glory at 10:20 am
Some unpleasant things happened today. Took the excitement of my free exchanged-for IU. Yes, car accident, 23/01/2010/ 12.30pm.
Me and the motorcyclist.
I hate motorcyclists. Theyre really too much protected they dont worry about anything and just travel on their bikes like some bastards hogging the road.
I was turning right from KB Rd 4 to KB Ave 5. And this motocyclist was right beside me, banged into my car, and now it's my fault.
Liable to court case should there be any complications in his condition. Minimum a $200 fine and 9 demerits.
Gonna ask erika's cousin to take the car back earlier. I'm not driving anymore after this month, until I pass one year of clearance, or only when needed to.
Luckily, Winston's dad came to help me today. I was frantic much, called Winston, crying over the phone. He and his family were at Bugis at that time :/ And they rushed over to help me. Winston's dad actually told the female TP off, in a way for being so firm on me and scaring me :/ Cos the guy TP was actually consoling me to cool down and asked me if I had already called for someone to pick me up. Then, Winston's dad drove me to TP Headquarters cos I was supposed to have my statement taken down there. Investigation Officer was really nice, really asked for all the very minute details and all, and told me of what to expect. He even told me the victim was alright, no fracture, only abrasions, to be discharged today. Then Winston and his dad came to pick me up, brought me to IDAC, to report for insurance (in case needed). Turns out they only pay if it exceeds $3.1k for my case cos of age, P plate, and non-owner of car. Zzz. And I thought it was really thoughtful of Winston to bring along some biscuits and a banana for me cos his dad knew I hadnt taken lunch.
Whole process, 12.30pm-4.30pm.
Thank God the victim is fine. I was really really scared and well, even though I'm not a really devoted Christian, I have been to church quite a number of times before. And each time I asked for His guidance, it always worked. Yes, I've never told anyone before. Just now, I asked for His help. I promised that I wouldnt drive recklessly or carelessly, wouldnt speed and wouldnt drive without obeying the rules if I can keep my license. And now that I know that there is 99% of chance that I can (Based on what IO said), I asked for help again, that if I get this settled ASAP without getting into any more trouble, like just a fine, and the victim getting compensation from me, then I wouldnt drive anymore after this month, until I clear one year after this incident, because I intend to ask Stanley to take the car back next week.
Lord, please help me.. :(
Visited Timo at his place after that, cos he had his knee op. Poor Timo cannot walk :( But well, at least he'll be fine after this. :)
I know He will help me because I will honour my promises..
Just now, someone, I forgot who, told me, to just believe in the Lord and He'll help me.
i told of my glory at 12:50 am
Friday, 22 January 2010
Future:
I dont want to end up regretting I ever did things wrongly.
Firstly, I'm gonna put in a little more effort to finish up those 2 final irksome projects,
I'm gonna put in 28933% effort into studying for the final semester exams which are in 3 weeks time,
I'm gonna put in 900284% effort to maintain my grades at this "safe" level,
I'm gonna put in finally more effort to do well in Mr Bottle's Kidaprty because I want to maintain and even raise the reputation I have temporarily built up.
Women look ugly when they're angry or sad.
So I shall always smile, because I know, I love his smile. When he doesnt smile, I dont know what the sun is like. But when he does, I know my whole world has brightened up. :)
And I want others to see my smile, so that our worlds are brightened by happiness everyday.
I am gonna own my own car in 5 years time. I dont know how I'll get there but I know I'm planning for it, and I want to do it.
I am gonna do very well at Mr Bottle's by April this year (meaning half a year in his company).
I am gonna enter the university of my choice because I have an outstanding GPA with DHL certs to support.
I dont care, this are my aims, not yours. You dont have to agree with me, but you do not have the right to demoralise me, if youre not better than I am.
What Joseph once told me is true.
"We look at and chase the people whom are running in front of us,
not turning back to see who is behind us.
Because while we turn back to look,
those in front are running even faster already,
and as we slow down,
we'll find it so tough to catch up with them as time pasts,
and at the end of the day,
we're the ones whom suffer."
Joseph, you never left my life :) I still remember what you once taught me! :)
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Rushed off after school today.. Details another day.
But anyways, later in the afternoon, I went to meet Winston to go on a Testdrive spree again :) Mitsubishi Lancer EX, Kia Cerato Forte and Toyota Vios AUTO! :P Conclusion? Toyota Vios Auto is NOT NICE TO DRIVE! :( Disappointment TTM. I miss Mr Teo's Manual Vios sio. :( But anyways, Kia Cerato Forte was unexpectedly good :) Quieter than Lancer EX, and like more zhai also. I like! And it's really cheaper by much and has so many interesting unique add-on features! :DDD Oh anyways, the Lancer EX was pretty disappointing. So noisy! But pretty nevertheless :D But yea, I think my opinion of Kia Cerato Forte has changed 360degress much! Cos HUIFANG LIKES! :) Even Winston's dad was +ve of it after he told him about it and wants to go take a look tomorrow :) Hahahha. Too bad, Huifang is a poor lil kid who can't afford a car yet. Gahh!
Headed down to office to collect God of Fortune after that, but to Clementi central to get some super late lunchie first! And guess what, when I entered the carpark the cashcard IU was working fine. After lunch, I came back to find it dead! Argh! Winston said we can always insert the cashcard at the exit itself, but the stupid exit didnt allow it! :/ Jammed the exit. And jammed the entrance cos the carpark was full and if a car didnt exit, the entry barrier wouldnt open! :( Argh. Wasted like close to half an hour frantic-ing with Winston! But luckily the road there was wide enough and we shifted the car to the side. After trying many unsuccessful numbers, finally got in contact with the person whom was at the office controlling the barriers! Phew!
Went to office finally, to get the God of Fortune mascot. OMGz. Hilarious TTM I tell you. Winston was helping me with it to try it on to see if it looked any way like God of Fortune. Apparently, it looks more like Super Mario with a red hat then GOF :P Hahahahahha! Go to my FB for the picture with Kien's standing poster! :P
So yea, long day, tired much,
PROJECT NOW!
i told of my glory at 9:56 pm
Thursday, 21 January 2010
I am so tired and drained that I dont have the energy to blog much or say about anything.
Im sorry bro.
I feel effing guilty and bad, over some issues.
On the other hand, some other random issue that got me annoyed the whole day, cant she just fucking get out of his life if she cant fit in? Stop wasting his time and giving him hope that anything will happen ever again. Move on.
Im tired.
i told of my glory at 11:47 pm
Wednesday, 20 January 2010
Projects are hell when things dont come out the way we want them to. Marketing project feedback was lousy, really lousy. I think I didnt really put in sufficient hard work in the right way.
Hard work to produce rubbish and hard work to produce good work/ results is different.
Im so drained by projects these few days that I dont feel like I've time for myself. Von said I got no life, quite true. My life now is just projects, 1b21, Winston. There's even no room for revision and tutorials. Hahahha. AIYOH! Please lah, let me finish up these 2 projects fast and get rid of them SOON :(
I love my current lifestyle, yet I hate my current lifestyle.
On a sidenote, something funny happened outside Winston's school this morning :P
Usually when I stop the car, he will change the gear to Neutral for me. so I released the clutch TOTALLY without looking at the gear. Turns out he itchy hand today, change to Gear 1. And I stalled even without moving. 0.o Damn. And he blames me for not looking properly before releasing the clutch :(
i told of my glory at 10:45 pm
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
There's a reason why I fear being alone when the lights arent that bright as how the sun shines. The car was lost in Timbaktu just now when I walked out of the library to the darkness. We already walked very fast, into the Engineering block. Too fast, that I walked down when I hadnt reached the end of the block where I'd park. Yes, frantic much, and control wasnt working well. Didnt beep when I pressed the button. Thinking that I parked nearer towards Biz block, I walked back towards where I had come from. Bad choice, I didnt manage to find it. Was about to break into tears if not for friend whom was calm enough to assure me everything would be fine. Walked again towards the end of the block, then found my car at the really really end of the end of the block. Yes, I screamed when I found it. Cos I was really that blind in the dark to even see my car at the left of me when I'd first gone down to level 1.
Dumb school has so many freaking rich people whom park the car in school so early in the morning. Bored. But still, I'm gonna go early tomorrow to get a lot at Biz block, or even the very least, at IT block. Engineering block out of the question.
Yah yah, bad things one whole chain please. Morning was also bad. Went to pick up my Baby Brother for school :) But guess what, problem occured. Spilt my new box of foundation all over the passenger seat and half my seat cos I didnt realise I didnt cover it well at home. Attempted to put it back in my bag and it opened up. Zzz.
Nevertheless, day in school was alright. BAccounts teacher says I got the potential to get an A. Maybe just cos I said "Not everyone hates BAccounts" But then again, yesterday's paper wasnt that all encouraging.
And today, I didnt expect some things to turn out as so unexpectedly bad. I took that hour during my break- I could have slept like what YF did, I could have completed my Econs. But I chose not to, because I wanted something special for you, and I took that hour to do it. Handwritten, heartfelt thoughts. But I guess it was my fault, for not letting you know earlier. :) Maybe, some other day, it would be a more appropriate time. Though I cant ever think of any day better.
Projects getting too much into my head. Maybe.
I dont want to walk alone in the darkness, not always, but not at all.
Wont you be here to walk with me, every single day?
i told of my glory at 11:02 pm
Monday, 18 January 2010
Day was great I think :)
Yay cos I got a nice bro who wakes up earlier to come send me to school :D See, BET YOU DONT HAVE! NYAHAHAHAH! POM presentation was good, though we didnt achieve the intended comical effect cos Wenliang was too tired to act retarded enough to make them roar with laughter :P Nevertheless, smoothly completed! :) One project officially down!
Left with: Econs, Marketing.
Was really tired the whole day though, sleeping in between classes at the library :(
Had BAccounts test in the evening. Started so late lahh :( In the end, I rushed through the paper to the best of my abilities and left early woooots! First time I'm the first out of the exam hall from my class HAHAHA :P Met Von's mom while I was waiting for Winston to come pick me up. Ends up Charlene also came along for a car ride lol.
Went to da bao ban mian gan! Finally I get to eat it! :))) Yay! Then went over to Boss' place to collect paycheque from him and shun bian visit him cos he's sick and going to Dubai tomorrow! Haiyoh! My boss is unglam much though :P Hahahha.
So yeaaa, tomorrow morning it's gonna be my turn fetching my baby brother to school instead :) Wheeee! :)
Stay if you wanna love me,
Stay.. :)
i told of my glory at 11:17 pm
Took this off a friend's blog:
Things are to be used, and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is ,
that people are used, while things are loved.
Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,
People are to be loved.
Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
When you look me in the eyes, I know we're back to the beautiful past.
Sometimes I wonder, what is it, that brings us together.
Is it the love between people, or is it the thing which we love?
Is it so tough just for you to tell me once that you love me?
:)
i told of my glory at 1:58 am
Sunday, 17 January 2010
Today, project followed by 2 shows.
First session at Stevens Road Pinesclub's Games was good, except that I was late by 5 minutes. Thought why would Benny call me, until I reached and saw him. YAH LAH DIE, because today, face no cover up at all. Count the pimples for me yo :( But well, he was niceeeee :) Kept offering to help me! Hahahha *shy!* But the Games was good. The kids were so active and jumping around, even those whom were so small they didnt know what was going on were raising their hand to volunteer for the games! :)
OH YES, one bad thing happened. As I was rushing out of the house today, I realised I forgot to bring the Goodiebags along for the Games! :( Called Kien and I think he was annoyed cos he had to postpone appointment with client to go home and get Goodiebags for me :( And I only realised it when I was reaching Pinesclub! Sorry bossssss! :(
Then drove down to Yishun for next show. Wa, problem big big ah! I already had problems finding Block 711. Turns out the show was at 771 instead! Make one big round! Zzz. Cos the Admingirl typed Block 711, but postal code was ***771. Whew! Lucky I called Winston up to check my email for me. Boings! But anyways, went there like, LATE. Argh! But anyways, I had fun with the kids for Treasure Hunt :) Charlene was nice too! Hahahha. She's like 26 but super dont look like! Oh man!
Dropped her off at her place (Cos she stays near there) and then came home :) Hehehhe. BAccounts test tomorrow! Geeeez!
i told of my glory at 9:47 pm
Semester 1.2 Mid Sem Results all out finally :)
POM- 80%, A 4.0
Bstats- 82%, A 4.0
Marketing- 80%, A 4.0
Microecons- 76%, B+ 3.5
BAccounts- 76%, B+ 3.5
BCalculus- 62%, C 2.0
Yes, my BCalculus chui. 13 marks = 26% lost to careless. a + b + c can copy as a + b - c. t/x can copy as 1/x. Ohkay, since I was a kid, this problem never left. Thought I'd done something to combat it, but well, epic failure. My grade shouldve been an A!
POM, Bstats, Marketing, good job done, but seriously expected better for these 3. Nevertheless, it was good seeing an A :) BAccounts, I thought was fine :) Cos I knew there were mistakes here and there which would kill my A already.
Microecons was disappointing, considering that I'm a JC H2 Econs student (Yah, fail, but at least I studied it before 2 years ago!) On the other hand, this paper was tough, as what teacher said too. So maybe, not too bad :) Only 2 As, I remember. Sadly I wasnt one of them lo. Hahahha.
Final conclusion?
3.56 GPA this mid sem.
Hahahha, funny hor, miss my target by 0.4.
BUT THERE FREAKING ARE PEOPLE GETTING 4.0 IN MY CLASS. OMG. I must not slow down. I gotta buck up, like seriously. Alright, go to sleep, please.
i told of my glory at 3:06 am
Today (Oh yesterday, since it's past 12am) was a good day? Bad day? I dont knowwww!
1. Got the car!
2. Got a $50 summons!
3. Got stuck on the road cos my car somehow died on me?
4. Stalled on the AMK Hub Carpark slope and seriously effing scared
5. Went to meet Weijian for supper with Winston
6. Got home at 1am
So am I supposed to be happy or sad?
Number 3 and 4 were best.
I got stuck and I dont know why, until now! Somehow or other, the handbrake made the engine stall even though my left leg was on the clutch. Then the whole car suddenly moved forward and jerked! I was scared shit! Serious! Then I tried finding biting point and failed to and the car jerked violently! Drama car I tell you. In the end, I was so freaked out I just off-ed everthing and started the car from off engine. Zzz!
Then there was the 'stuck on slope' thing. Scary again! I almost cried on the car cos I was so scared what would happen if I really couldnt go up :( Want to call Winston for help also cannot! What happened was that on the super steep slope up out of the carpark, I stopped somewhere towards the top, because of the traffic. And I knew I was gonna face some problem starting it, and bingo, that was what happened.
1st try: Hadnt reached biting point, roll backwards abit.
2nd try: Past biting point, engine stalled, roll backwards abit more.
3rd try: Cannot find biting point, roll backward even more. Panic attack!
4th try and 5th try all fail.
Until 6th try, I knew I couldnt do it already. So I just zham-ed the accelerator all the way till 7k rpm. :/ That was the only possible power to move the car upwards. Seriously broke out in cold sweat within that 10 seconds! Luckily the driver in the car behind was so understanding an patient to reverse to make space for me, and didnt horn me! Super nice! But I was traumatised for abit after that :/
Just submitted my appeal to void the $50 summons :( I pray hard that this will get through. I wont dare to do it so blatantly again. :(
Day Figures:
Stalls? Countless.
Progress? Ability to move off and change gear smoothly.
i told of my glory at 1:39 am
Saturday, 16 January 2010
Just wanna know who's on your mind, right now.. :)
Even if it isnt me..
i told of my glory at 2:40 am
Friday, 15 January 2010
Finally Bstats and POM project are handed up. Heave a sigh of relief peopleeee :)
Preparation for Monday's presentation today. Ah, never ending! But finally a day that we're not rushing for project! :) So we went to Geylang to eat dinner. Ate dimsum and tauhuayyy. DIMSUM LOVE :) Seriously, eat till damn full! Hahhaha but finally good food yo :)
Went there with Wenliang, Von, Xinyan and Yifang. :) Sat there, and had a good chat after our meal.
Next week, more food? :P Definitely. Cos Huifang finally gets the vroomvroom :DDD
And they were nice enough to wait for my bus with me! But I was so tired I slept till I reached the interchange and the bus captain woke me up :/ Embarrassing TTM! But that bus ride was cool, I like :) Went past Godbro's place's bus stop and thought back of some VE stuff.. :)
So yea, one topic my class never gets sick of talking about- "When I first saw you during orientation......... *blah blah* " :)
I LOVE MY CLASS :)
And something lame from my Godbro today afternoon :)
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
adopt a sheep, but you must first grow grass at home
HUIFANGƃuɐɟınɥ (: says:
hhahhah
whatever
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
because meh meh chi cao
ci cao
HUIFANGƃuɐɟınɥ (: says:
chi cao lah
hahah
i buy hay can liao
you wanna buy me a stable for my christmas?
so i keep my meh mehs in
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
hay is prawn eat one
HUIFANGƃuɐɟınɥ (: says:
NO!
hay is horse!
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
prawn
prawn in hoKkien call what?
HUIFANGƃuɐɟınɥ (: says:
heh
not hay
:D
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
same pronouciation
hay prawn eat one
:D
i told of my glory at 11:30 pm
Thursday, 14 January 2010
Chiong round 2.
Stats completed at 11:30pm. (AT LAST!)
Fighting with POM now. I just realised there's more undone than what I expected!
Carry on, be strong, cos youre loved. :)
It was her 21st birthday. He gave her twenty roses.
She asked for the last. He took out a fake red rose and whispered into her ears
“I will love you, until the last rose dies.”
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Wednesday, 13 January 2010
I dont even have time to do anything else today!
1pm-5.30pm chiong project after Marketing lecture ended at 1. Chiong until 5.30pm I really see blur already I stop. And anyway netbook was about to die off.
Now, continue Part 2 of chionging Bstats. And the more I do it, the more I feel like killing somebody, anybody. Cos the words I see get lesser and lesser and I gotta really crack my brains over this more and more.
But then again, my fault for not being at project meetings to ensure they do what's required. So no complaints. Just do.
It's already this kinda timing.
And I still have to do POM next.
On the other hand, I think I did great for today's Calculus Group Project. I love Maths, yes I do. :)
Fuck, I dont have to sleep tonight.
Someone save me :(
NICE SONG :)
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me
Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me
Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me~
i told of my glory at 11:30 pm
Today, stupid brother made me worry for one moment. Okay not one, maybe two.
Okay I think more than that, which so explains the previous post. Boings.
Recently super careless, accident-prone, sick-prone, whatever you call it. First the incident at Suntec, then getting flu, then a high fever, then now a sprained ankle. Please lah Winston Tanggggggggg, be careful and take care of yourself can? :(
Meh meh leh. In the end, never do any project tonight. No mood to already. And plus I was teaching my mom Excel :D Waaa, my Distinction not fake one okay! :)
But now, preparing to sleep. Calculus fight tomorrow. A PLEASE! :)
Sidenote: I miss Resonance Man's show alreadyyy :( Super long never see his show le!
Alright, shall go sleep SOON :D
--
Yesterday (11/1 Monday), Classmate W told me something that made me have a much lingering question mark questioning myself and that other person. Apparently, Classmate Y was told of it and she felt Classmate W should tell me about it too. I guess no one else was aware of what Classmate W saw cos everyone was just looking at him at that point of time rather than at the other person. I think Classmate W was hallucinating. But some facts point sharp arrows towards that one person.
Lol. I already made a commitment that I wont be bothered at all about what some people want out of friendships with me, where this would take us to, etc. But sometimes, it's not that I dont wanna be bothered and get negative. But you are the one whom make me involved all over again. Hahha, you suck. *sticks out tongue at you angrily*
Oh well, I guess I'm happy with how life this way is too. When youre happy, I'm here for you. When youre not, you can gladly push me aside and forget about me. Anyway, thats what some people already see Huifang as. As can be seen from my very good friend example already. He's forgotten about me- conveniently.
Disclaimer: Other person in paragraph 1 is not equal good friend in paragraph 3. :)
i told of my glory at 12:44 am
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
What happened to you?
Yessss my little baby brotherrrrrr, where have you disappeared to and what happened to youuu? :(
i told of my glory at 10:02 pm
Headache..
When rent from Bedok Res View shop, headache cos dumbshit cute car.
When rent from Motorz Xiaobai, headache cos buang bumper.
When rent from Motorz AhbengTTM5459, headache cos dont know how to // park.
Now, still headache..
:(
Why is driving so tough for me. :(
Nobody's fault but mine. I shouldve studied hard in JC and gone to Uni, maybe already driving a car of my own..
In future,
I have a new sidejob in future already. I'm gonna buy a car and rent it out (if I'm rich, of cos) because car renters can earn farrrrrking alot of $$$ ohmygoodness, cos I just realised it less than an hour ago. Roarrrr!
WEH!
i told of my glory at 1:08 am
Monday, 11 January 2010
My Monday is almost "great":
1. Woke up at 4.30am and realised I was breaking out in sweat in the air-conditioned room feeling like I was in the toaster, stumbled out of my room and took my temperature, dont wanna say it cos it scares myself too, downed 2 cups of ice water and went back into my room to lay in bed.
2. Argued with POM teacher over his logic of School Pledge = National Pledge. I dont know why I bothered to argue with that rubbish person also. Until when I said MY SEC SCHOOL HAD A STUDENT PLEDGE BESIDES THE NATIONAL PLEDGE LAH. Then did he shut up, but I found it almost pointless that I argued with him, considering that I argued with this teacher. Zzz!
3. I KO-ed in school 3/4 the time and only recovered during POM tutorial cos the room was of the perfect temperature for me to rest and recover in.
4. I should have learnt to overcome my fright of balloons and become a Balloonist.. Looking at the whole long lists of shows that Xinyin sent, NEGATIVE TTM! A whole long list of Balloonist assignments like twice weekly but no news of Games till February 21st! DAMNNNNN :( Super hope that there will be more new assignments that I can take up! :(
Yeaaa, like great, right? And to think I decided not to take an MC despite being 3/4 dead in the morning. Zzz.
On the bright side?
One less day to the day yo :)
i told of my glory at 9:40 pm
Sunday, 10 January 2010
This morning was a bitch, seriously. The client wasn't that all nice and pleasant and the kids were not really willing to be involved but preferred to stand there and see. :( Nevertheless, thank goodness there were at least 3-4 kids whom were responsive and played along with me. Ended late cos client dragged my time. Then rushed down to Marina Barrage to meet that gangggg to celebrate Chengzhong's birthday. :)
Ate, played Heart Attack, Asshole Daidee, Taboo etc. Wa, totally adrenaline-rushing I tell you! But it was funnnnnnn :) Cos we had fun doing retarded stuffs like putting a styrofoam cup on your head, raising your right hand up straight etc. Ahh, madness. Love them much :)
Took alot of photos! Camwhored like no tomorrow. And the stupid Indian security guard was looking at us lo -.- Like really standing there looking straight at us. Zzz! Went to attempt Jumpshots after that. Tak glammmmmm :P
Had dinner at Ion :P KO-ed there. Seriously, I dont know why I felt so chui after leaving Marina Barrage. Slight fever, then bussed 162 home and slept the whole journey. Came home, and tio scolding for a Warning Letter from the school. Thanks ah Econs teacher.
Waiting for Abi to upload ALL the pics, to let someonesomeone know that we've been meeting up THAT often! :P Ya, on purpose.
Im feeling weak much now. Body aches and blur vision.
And there's damned school tomorrow at 9am.
FML for awhile.
i told of my glory at 10:25 pm
Saturday, 9 January 2010
Was a great day today :) Enjoyed Winston's show + "Workshop" and my own show even though I was sneezing away like sneezes were free (well, they are) and talking with a bad flu!
Winston's show was good, but workshop ended up with kids distracted and running over the place after the cakecutting and food. So we taught those few kids interested in the workshop, realised we forgot to bring glue, and then just showed some Close-up Magic :) No choice, the kids are more entertained by Magic than Science :/ Gahh, but either way, it was my first time performing Magic in front of people I do not know! Their reaction was my fuel for further persuing magic man :) Woohooo! And of cos, I really appreciate it and it was really all thanks to Winston's patient teaching that I've mastered some simple tricks :) And I took some pictures of my handsome Godbro! YAY! :)
Winston's mom then picked us up after Winston's show and dropped me off at Serene Centre Macs :D Super nice of herrrr! Was only intending to get a lift till the bus stop at the main road :P But well, YAY! :D And I finally sat in their family's Sonata! :)
Did Econs project stuff till 7 and cabbed over to next venue, Immuno Building. Ohmygeesh, it was super ulu there that even the cab driver told me "Inside here sure no cab out one, unless you call, or unless you very heng that someone come in here and alight." NEGATIVE :( But in the end, my parents came to fetch me :D Initial plan after realising that there would be no cab later was that Kien would fetch me out. And worse thing is, I wanted to text Winston to tell him that, but ended up texting Kien. Ahh, sheeet :/ My show was good nevertheless, the kids were responsive and really volunteered alot for the games :)
Tired day, happy day, but also sick day! ARGH! Gotta rest early cos I still got a show tomorrow! (Sadly, no replacement available!)
But anyways, this is a post I typed thia afternoon while on 24. Very lengthy post, but just at least read through it. Singapore has humanity still :)
Today when I was on bus 24, I saw an uncle faint on the bus. When the bus driver stopped his bus and everyone was going towards that uncle to help him, he promptly stood up and said he's fine. Everyone thuoght he had just lost his balance that's why he fell. But it wasn't that easy, apparently. Even after he moved in to the standing area and held on to the horizontal railing, he crumbled to the floor in less than half a minute. Definitely as commuters on the same bus, everyone was curious and were suggesting ways to help him already. But he stood up again and walked to the exit door, saying he is alighting at the next stop. He looked fine, smiling. Less than half a minute later, he fell to the floor again. The bus driver stopped the bus at the bus stop, and told everyone to make a transfer because he had to call for an ambulance for this uncle.
As I was one of the last few to alight from the bus, I assisted that guy making a call to the ambulance by describing our location. Sims Avenue, bus 24, at Eunos MRT Station bus stop, opposit block 800+. When I alighted, there was also anothe guy whom was on the line, calling for an ambulance. At first, what I realised was that hey, this country may be moving at such a fast pace, but there's still humanity in everyone. There are people whom step forward and take initiative to help this man, by making call for an ambulance, by offering his some medicinal oil. But then again, we always wait for something to have happened before we realise that that person's life is in danger. Isn't it?
Recently mummy failed her health check because the doctor said her heartbeat was irregular. He didn't give her her applied-for license because of so. When he counted her heartbeat, he said, he counted 1.. 2.. 3.. and then he lost track for a few seconds because he couldn't detect a beat for that few seconds. When she told me about this a few days back, I still laughed at her and said the doctor is retarded. Maybe the doctor really is retarded. But this kind of issues, I feel, shouldn't be left unattended to.
This uncle, only in his late 50s or early 60s perhaps. He looked perfectly fine, really. When he stood up from the floor, both times, he was smiling. He looked just like any typically fine uncle you would see at coffeeshops, at void decks, playing chess, enjoying coffee. But what is his body condition like, nobody knew. I overheard 2 mothers, telling their own sons, "See, when old already we don't know what will happen. That's why, you must grow up healthily. So you won't end up like this when you're old." Education starts young. Everyone is aware of how dangerous, unhealthy, destructive and pollutive-to-body our lifestyle is. But how many people practice what they preach?
I was once in VE, I was once in the health industry. But I commit to live healthily today, and lose the momentum the next day. I educate potential customers on health threats in the society today, and meet customers whom are already suffering from the most painful illnesses. Even my most health-conscious friend, is eating the food that can be really really disease-causing, and turning a deaf ear to my words. My parents, object to using VE products which can be illness-preventive. But they don't choose to listen to my alternative offered, which is to eat healthily.
And to end off, the result was that the bus 24 driver was talking to the uncle whom had fainted, assuring him that all was fine and the hospital was coming soon. I waited there for 10 minutes for my next bus, but stil, when I had left on the next 24, the ambulance was nowhere in sight yet.
Sadly,we're all going to end up the murderes of our own bodies if we continue at this rate. But this humanity I witnessed in the commuters of bus 24 today, was very encouraging indeed. My whole day's mood was affected, because I'm afraid of what will happen to the people around me. And I believe this is why, people will turn to Him for assurance and help. :)
As a sidenote, I feel that working in VE made me grow up a lot when I met those adults. I want to go back there. My current job is to make kids happy, but I also want to help adults get a healthier lifestyle. I remember the kind of satisfaction I achieved after each sales appointment gone well, even if I didn't close any sales, because they, at the very least, had heard what I had to say to them about health. Even though I never got pass my Health Analysis Team Basic Cert, I know that helping others is something I could put in effort to learn to do in. But I dislike the person I'm under after the rearrangement of teams. I am a Falcon, and I am always a Falcon, not a Mako. My learnings were from my leader of Falcon, not you.
i told of my glory at 11:35 pm
I appreciate all youve given me, because it was only until what happened yesterday night, that I know someone closer to you than me, doesnt even know anything about whats happening in your life.
POM project,
Workshop,
Show,
Night out?
What a busy day :)
Paint my love,
you should paint my love
It's the picture of a thousand sunsets
It's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby, you should paint my love
Since you came into my life,
the days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life,
everything has changed :)
i told of my glory at 10:36 am
Friday, 8 January 2010
I got an A for Bstats. Thank God, seriously, that I didnt screw up liek how I did for Calculus.
I went to Chevrolet showroom to test drive Chev Cruze with Winston and Erika, and trust me, it was GREAT :) The car, so so. But better than Lancer x100000 definite. Hahha. It's cool yo :)
Fun day,
I love my Godbro and friends TTM :)
I also love Melvados brownie :P
And 5459, 5954. :D:D:D
i told of my glory at 10:28 pm
Thursday, 7 January 2010
Had a great day today :)
Even though I woke up late and skipped Bstats lecture, I still went for Accounts lecture :D Went to collect car at 3pm at Roxy :)
Blue Lancer is pretty and ahbengTTM and in has a better exterior condition than Xiao Bai, but the steering wheel, seats etc, generally whole interior, OLD SCHOOL TTM! Lol! Steering a little bit sengeh leh. Keep drifting to the left. :/ Oh well.
Went to a few places with Winston after collecting car, then went to Tampines to pick up the Erika, Yifang, and Parkway to pick up Wenliang and Ken. Drove them to Commonwealth for dinner :) Nice food! Seriously~ The Butter Ribs, Omelette, Sambal Kang Kong, Hotplate Tofu, Oysters we ordered. Heavenly beyond words lah :) Now I know that's the place that Winston has been talking about all along :DDD
Then we went to Geylang for Dimsum, yah, like round 2. Damn it, had problems finding the place never mind, and HUIFANG GOT EMBARRASSED COS SHE COULDNT PARK IN A PARALLEL PARKING LOT BY THE ROADSIDE! Ah, @($(%(#%(@(@()^%$@!!! Very much! When I finally got down from the car to let Winston take over, everyone sitting outside the Dimsum stall was looking -.- Zzz! SORRY LAH, I passed with flying colours for Parking with Poles :/ I think I still need a lot of practice :P Hehehe. Luckily I can park reverse smoothly at least :D LOL!
After that, sent them home already :) Again thanks to Godbro for being so nice to drive the car for me to his place cos I was tiredddd (I know you also wanna drive one heehee!) And I came home, SAFE! :D No buang-ing at parking lot, no dong-dong-dong-dong of antenna, and no parking at that darned lot :P
Bstats homework chiong-ing now. Photos to be up on FB when Erika gets it done :)
More fun tomorrow. Winston and I are going to buy Melvados brownie at Woodlands! :)))
i told of my glory at 11:11 pm
Google "huifang nyjc" to come look for my blog xi bo?
Friend, hello.
Not friend, hello.
FUNNY LEH, DONT KNOW HOW TO ASK ME FOR MY BLOG MEH. HAHHA.
I woke up late. Think I cannot reach school in time for Bstats lecture so I'm not going already. Later then go for Accounts lecture. Hahha! :/ Lazy TTM.
i told of my glory at 8:18 am
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
PLEASE ENVY ME FOR MY CHIO BLOGSKIN ALL THANKS TO MY BROTHER :)
MANY MANY LOVE K BRO!
I buy you Ice Milo tmrw night ohkayyy! :P
I asked for a new blogskin for a this new year and he did THIS for me! :)))
Happiness much! And look how he tried to get me to come to my blog.
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
dunno who tag on ur blog sia
HUIFANGƃuɐɟınɥ (: says:
heyyy i saw my new blogskin!!
tag?
hahahha
you meh meh
Winston. M3, S4, S5. says:
no la.. i bluf u one.. i only want u go ur blog
= =
:D
Am trying my very best to churn out all the data and statistical analysis for Bstats to hand down to my group so that they can do their part. AHHH, sheeeet. I'm very much not liking Bstats at the moment!
Ahhhh! Am gonna get my lovely blue ahbengTTM lancer tomorrow after school, then gonna bring my girls out for dinner :)
Yah you're not colour blind. The one in the above pic is WHITE. His name is Xiao Bai, he's blue ahbengTTM lancer's brother :)
In the meantime, let me romance Bstats, and on Friday we're getting our paper back! OMGSZ!
Hoping you will still love me when we wake up the next morning.. :)
i told of my glory at 10:35 pm
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
Kien's office was a mess and full of noise cos of Winston today :D No lah just kidding. We went to install the curtains etc for Kien's office today :) And helped him shift the fossil pieces (Yah, heavy!). Poor Winston, sweat like mad in the aircon room cos the fossil pieces were that heavyyyyy. :(
And Wisnton was using a mini hammer to hammer the nails in today :) Damn cute hammer! It's actually the one my kids use for fossil digging! CAN YOU IMAGINE?
Cos Kien couldnt find his hammer. HAHHA :P
Please look at the CUTE hammer and my even cuter brother :)
HEHE :)
Stats project, kill me please!
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Winston cannot stop disturbing cute Picanto's "dong dong dong dong dongggg...." of the antenna when it clashes against the ceiling of the multistorey carpark.
Even while he's browsing sgcarmart.com, he's still "dong dong dong dong donggg...."-ing. :P
i told of my glory at 12:24 am
Monday, 4 January 2010
Class was absolutely crazy today. Lots of rubbish jokes but at the same times hilarious enough to send the whole class laughing like mad. Got back Econs paper and Management paper. Econs B+, Management A. Barely there. I feel like I've deproved. Cos everyone's catching up and even though I'm maintaining at least a B+ in my core subjects like last midsem, there're people scoring A, people whom I wouldnt even expect to surpass me.
Maybe I'm being complacent, maybe it's because I keep pushing everything to "tomorrow". But I feel that I've been doing my part as per last semester. But because others are running forward faster than I am, I start to lag behind.
Then again, no one else's fault but mine.
And then again,
sometimes I just wonder what's happening around me,
am I still not good enough for them around me?
Is it a character problem,
a looks problem,
or what?
Why do people still choose to overlook my existence,
why do people choose to not give me a chance?
But no one's gonna tell me where's the improvement to be done. Because he dont bother, because she dont bother, because they dont bother.
Sometimes self-reflection stops somewhere. And I've stopped at that point. I'm just waiting for someone to tell me where I could do better.
Alright, I'm kind of thinking life sucks a little at this moment.
When you realise your chances are not just gone, but ALL GONE. Everywhere..
The only moments when I'm happy? When I'm driving.
It's an impulse move whenever I want to get a car. But when I think of the happy and carefree moments, the sacrifices I have to face eventually are just minor.
To me, it's just this moment, and just this day's happiness.
Lois just talked to me on FB. Hello Lois, I miss you, you were my leader, and always will be a leader I look up to despite what others have said about you..
I think life in the past was better, not having to worry about this, that, and everything.
Wasnt it?
When I still had a teacher to guide me, to teach me, to tell me where not to go wrong.
I didnt cry at a direct rejection. I cried because there was a sudden intense pain i hadnt realise was there, gradually increasing.. And I could only surrender at the end, because he didnt even bother that this pain was killing me..
Is there a life teacher, who can impart to me skills on dealing with such life troubles?
i told of my glory at 9:23 pm
Sunday, 3 January 2010
I think Winston a LITTLE bit bored :)
Thats my faithful tracker in action ;)
i told of my glory at 8:42 pm
The party at The Tessarina today was a blastttt :) And I really mean blast. The girls were so adorable and participative, so active and so LOUD! And hot guys by the pool! :P Hahahha KIDDING LAH :) I'm porrrr-fessiooo-nal ohkay!
Treasure Hunt was good :) I love to conduct Treasure Hunt, but hate it when my pieces go missing! One of the pieces from Kien's set went missing, and one of the pieces from my set was BROKEN! Grrr. Really can't leave my treasure pieces out in the area even though it's condo but OTHER kids running around steal my pieces away! BOINGS! Grr. Now I gotta go make 2 more new sets and Kien is so gonna keeeeeeeeeel me when he finds out. Hahahahha. :P
Fossil digging was good too :) Many kids broke their pieces into halves/thirds. But many did well too! Like really a perfect piece with their fossil :) Was a good experience. Even though I had to lug ALOT of things there. And I really mean alot! One bag of Tools, one bag of Blocks of fossils, my speaker, my bag of Treasure Hunt stuff and prizes. Many many! Thank goodness for Daddy and Mummy whom fetched me there and picked me up from there and even helped me to carry my stuff cos the Fossils were so heavyyyy! :( Gandongs much. But they help me earn an extra $20 transport also :D Hehhehe!
But well, I enjoyed, and I'm sure the kids too!
Some of them were exceptionally pleasant to even thank me after returning me the Tools and when I gave them a small present which was just some chocolates and snacks! :) One of them even said I'm 17 years old! :P Hehehhe.
Wanted to meet class for dinner. But was too tired to rush down to meet them. Gahh. I love my job, I really do! :)
We have come to the end of our Games for today. I hope you have enjoyed it as much as I did. I am Huifang from Mr Bottle's Kidsparty. Thank you and enjoy the rest of your day!
那是我们都回不去的从前
幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
世界尝试改变
当初的那个少年
那是我们都回不去的从前
当你站在那个夏天的海岸线
我们还是心里面
那个偏执的少年
We'll never want to grow up from our days today, do we?
i told of my glory at 7:43 pm
I think, up till today, 2010, you still have not forgotten her, right?
It's been so long more than a year, why cant you move on?
You two can never be together again, why cant you move on?
Sometimes, we have regrets.
I had regrets in 2008. Studies, work, life.
But I only have one regret in 2009.
Still, I think it's more of something for me to laugh at myself rather than to make changes to it. Because there's more than what there is to it than stupidity, over-confidence and self-centredness.
I realise I have failed to enter someone's life, yet.
But do I seem like the kind, who gives up so easily?
If I had decided I want you, you cannot escape me.. :)
I love 2009, but I know I'm gonna love 2010 more cos I now have 1b21, lovely Godbro, 4e6 clique and kids with me in action :)
i told of my glory at 1:49 am
Saturday, 2 January 2010
Ah, damn. Nightmares.
I went back to sleep after waking up at 11am cos I was too lazy to get up, and guess what, NIGHTMARE! :(
It was pretty horrible considering how detailed it was and it involved the closest people I have :/
Back to yesterday night scene of dinner at some restaurant, then we went up to some slopey area. Looked kinda like Mount Faber, like ulu and slopes, and I can remember Abi, Winston, Noel and others (I cannot remember who) were there. I dont know how come Winston was there with us, but he was there. Then we were walking up when some car came by and stopped in front of us. This 50 year old plus man came over and said he's here to fulfil his job. Noel's phone rang and he had a msg, and freaking scary I can remember it said "The Santa costume you bought and left with me, I was you to put it on the proper way now and go down the slope. Your friends are mine."
Of cos, we asked about it, and he said "I'm sorry." Then that 50 year old plus man took out a sack from his car and passed it to Noel and he started putting on the Santa Costume, and instead of white gloves, he did this ritual-like thing by poking a toothpick through his two index fingers and tying a string round the end of the toothpicks. Then, he ties the ends of the strings to a girl whom was with us. I cannot remember who that girl is. But when he was done, he turned to the 50 year old plus man and said ohkay. In the meantime, somehow or other, I was attempting at attacking this man, but his power was 600,000 points but mine was only a dismal 60,000 compared to his.
In the end, when he was about to attack Noel, there was a booming voice (From I dont know where) and the 50 year old plus man disappeared. Wanting to run away,
MY MOM WOKE ME UP -.-
Wa thank goodness she woke me up. I was freaking out man. Even after waking up, my heart was racing. Hahahha. Like funny can! :P
I dont know why I had such a dream either! :P
Sidenote: Now I know why E likes to disturb WL about Speedos -.- Zzz!
i told of my glory at 1:52 pm
Today's Games was good :)
Conducted Treasure Hunt and Games at Citylights condo. It was a really interesting session, considering it my first official games and with Kien there. Hahahha! Hid the treasure pieces before the kids came. And they actually managed to find it so quickly! ARGHs. Smarto :) But Kien said probably because I hid them to easily. :P Well, nevertheless.. Treasure Hunt went great :) Except the girls had one piece missing and I only found it after the girls went in to the shelter when it rained :( Hahhas, but still, proceeded on with other games and it was generally well-done. The kids were splendid especially the girls whom were so obedient and participative!
And I caught Kien saying "Ohkayyyyyyy.." and he :X, Oops! HAHAHHA! :)
Next was the Pinata :) Fun like maddddddd! But I think I got disrupted childhood, cos I've never played it before! Boings! :(
Cake cutting and all, and I guess it was a splendid show today :)
Just read Kien's email, his feedback for my show today. The details per game, is for myself. But,
"I m impressed with the games you did today! For someone whom I haven’t trained, it’s very good!"
because I havent been trained for Games yet :P But Bernard just put me on it. Lol!
So I'm really happy! And I'll work on it to improve. Cos Boss actually typed a long email to give me feedback! :)
Went to Somerset after that to meet Abi and gang for dinner :P Had a fulfilling meal of Shellfish Delights at Spagheddies followed by sinful dessert at Ben & Jerrys. Ahhh, damn. How to save up for a car this way! :(
Off to project (Again!). Article analysis due on monday.. :(
I saw a F****** at the poolside at the condo today. But I cant possibly tell my Boss about that.. ):
i told of my glory at 12:14 am
Friday, 1 January 2010
2010! :)
2009 has been really a great year for me. I feel that after just one year, I've changed, I feel, for the better. I've become a more forgiving person, a person who will care more but at the same time not care for those who dont open their hearts to me, and I felt, a better friend. And well, I just felt I wanna spend some time thinking back about things that have occured in (to my best) chronological order in 2009 that have changed my life somehow or other :)
1. Jan: Befriended someone friendly :)
2. Mar: Went to Genting with Winston and Myron and relatives. It was a really really unique trip cos I had friends with me. Friendships became closer through that trip too. And I found someone I could really trust :)
3. Apr: I found 1b21, people whom I could love, live with, fight with, cry with, turn to, and go crazy with. They are really my support in school and I really love school cos I know I have the greatest class in poly :)
4. Aug: My best birthday ever. To date I still smile when I think about it :) It's that special!
5. Sept: F1, one memorable event. It's a really once-in-a-lifetime experience, the kind of running around on race grounds to ensure the whole team is fine, along with my own Magicians. This was also the time I met Kien, who is my current Boss. It was also through F1 that I met Rivermaya, whom till date, are still in contact with me :) Yes, the very popular band in Phillipines. I got their contact number, emails and all.
6. Also in Sept: Recruit Express, allowed me to see what stress at work really was. Meeting deadlines, quotas, and at the same time maintaining proper admin support to MYSELF!
7. Nov: My license. I LOVE YOU LICENSE! :)
8. Dec: Got drunk first time in my life.. Or so Winston insists :P Hehehehe.
9. Again Dec: The first Christmas in my life that I've felt so happy, because I'm so involved in bringing joy to others.
10. People whom never left my life: 4e6 clique, 0820 girls, zijie & heidi, JT and eunice. All of you have been so magnificent this year! :)
1b21 friends have been my support whenever I feel down, especially my 1b21 girls whom are there with me in school everyday.
Kien is the reason why I'm enjoying my job so much now, and the reason why I even have this job.
4e6 clique are always there to go crazy with me and even got drunk and high with me.
Godbro Winston has taught me alot of stuff that I wouldnt learn elsewhere :) I seriously feel that he changed me alot because he taught me alot of things. He's also the only one whom this year, has changed me to be a better person in future. He's also the reason why I even started my license in the first place.
And of cos, Him whom never failed to guide me back to path whenever I lost my way. It's because of Him that I've not given up on many friendships. Cos I'm given a solution, when I trust Him. :)
Though with the different people, there have been tough periods, quarrels, nights of tears and insomnia, days when I even feel like I'm just dead because things get really really bad, and times when I tell myself and those around me that I want to forget that particular person because of all they've done to me. But after all that, behind these tears are the biggest smiles you've ever seen on Huifang's face. The happiness I've gotten from each of them far surpasses any unhappiness. :)
And it's nice to have someone really close that shares and understands the same goals and hopes, even if they're not your boyfriend. Hopefully one day we both will reach our dreams, together. We have alot more obtacles coming our way in this friendship, and I hope that by the end of the road, one thing that doesnt change is the trust I forever will have in you. :) It has been awesome having you by my side for the whole of this 2009, as you never fail to brighten up my days and make me smile like smiles are free, pat my head and make me feel like a little girl, and always make me feel assured that I'm in safe hands.
The tears are forgotten, because you always made me smile again.
2010, people, please drug me everyday and make me dance till i become as sexy as Megan Fox ohkay? :P (Yvonne sure cut everyone's queue to be first! Hehe.)
爱一个人不代表要拥有他，而是希望他幸幸福福的..
我觉得我长大了.. :)
Let me share, this whole new world, with you..
i told of my glory at 1:48 am
My Art & Craft sessions were good today :) Was held at Hotel Pan Pacific, from 7.30pm till 9.30pm.
Met an Australian family at Level 4, at Brunch. Theyre here for holiday after having been to Hongkong for 5 days before this. :) The kids' mom sat down and talked to me, asking me about me and my job :) Nice and friendly of her! And her kids are totally adorable :)
Level 3 was good too. :) There were many buddings artists around I tell you, youll be shocked ;) Stayed till 9.55pm because there were really quite a number of kids around. But well, as long as they're happy! :) Because the smile on their faces totally makes me smile too! :D
Next stop, Gamesmaster tomorrow. And Boss gonna be there to partner me for emceeing and evaluate my performance :P
i told of my glory at 1:02 am