Tuesday, 31 July 2007
BOO! today was... i dno. a bad day with a nice ending xD
ALL THANKS TO MY NICE NICE SENIOR which is a bird xD YAY!!!
ok there was a nice ending cos i had sm1 to pei me study n go home xD YAY!! :))) THANKS DEREK!! c lahs, in the end it's stil the senior who's best. ;))) was doing stupid maths in co room until wanna puke blood cos im supposed to b able to complete the assignment in less than 30 minutes but i spent 30 minutes on 3b!! ARGHHS~ do until... o.O so msg-ed derek say ltr wil go find him. hahas. then chiong zuo wen first. lalala. n he came to co room instead xD YAY. surprise surprise!! other than XIAO CHUANG (rmbr my imaginary fren at the co room?) got derek to pei me today!! hahas. but i think i disturb him lo. talk talk talk. hahas :ppp i feel GUILTY again. awww. hahas. though derek say his fren give him de notes is not wad he wanna study. hahas. n he was cr8ting noise pollution with the liuqin too!!! hahas. stayed in co room until 9.30pm. oh n the qn 3b. not i stupid lahs. is UN-DOABLE. lols. even derek's SUPER ZAI fren say canot b done. hahas! in the end he stil pei me walk go out sia. hahas!! THANKS ALOT!! xD lalala. :)))) but...
he's stil a bird fr the streets yea? hahas xD aiyyyya. huifang is so nice, of cos she's just joking la!! xD
YAY!!
oh n the bad day thing. ahhhh. typed in my phone lahs. super sianned can??!
despite my anger, i felt that weak n powerless. i couldnt hit anything in anger. couldnt do anything. wasnt that anger i felt??! i knew it was anger. y do u treat me like........
some fOOking big joke that just walked past.
do u think im desperate for u?
do u think i cant survive without c ing u for one day?
FOOK OFF MAN. im not smth u can dulan at for no fOOking good reason alright. wad ppl want to say is their business. i dont give a damn. if u find it a disgrace n feel insulted, get those fOOking idiots to shut up then! cos in the first place it's NOT my fault if they're talking abt it this way. DO U NOE HOW UR FOOKING MIDDLE FINGER SPOILT MY WHOLE DAMN DAY??!
on the bright side, im happy now :)))))
drumset!! HERE I COME!!~
TIAN SHAN TMR!! OMG MAN. IM SO.... LOOKING FORWARD!! xD YAY!!! CO!!!
i told of my glory at 10:43 pm
Monday, 30 July 2007
BOO! wahhs. stupid mugger lei.
today chiong whole day NEVER EAT (only one slice of sandwich AHHH PATHETIC) until 4pm then eat sia. wooohooo. NICE ONE. i so love this lifestyle o.O spent my aftrnoon till night in co room. lalalas. my 2nd home xD air con + silence + my new best fren = PERFECT :D oh yea, my new best fren. his name is xiao chuang n he spent the whole aftrnoon til night in co room with me. but i locked him in when i left. he's the second window fr the front, creaking or squeaking or wadevrr u call it, evry half an hour to remind me of his existence. HAHAS! :))) DAMN. im weird today =x
n im proud to say, i've started on revision for my week 8 chem test. WALAO EH. HUIFANG SIAO ALR LAHS. studied ENTHROPY. something so foreign. ahhh. n i managed to understand!! YAY!! :)))) only had 2 qns. which i think r pretty weird. HAHA. went to ask derek b4 leaving college n I TELL U MY QNS WERE WEIRD LAHS cos he couldnt answer. lol. his fren managed to answer one for me though xD DEREK U KUKU!! :D
AHHHHH. i so love my prince charming xD
hey u man! dont so stress lahhhhs!! dont even have time for me alr can??! =x IM ANGRY ALR!!
i told of my glory at 10:45 pm
Sunday, 29 July 2007
BOO! home from csco concert. OH MAN. im so inspired to join an external orchestra aftr it!! ARGHHS. HEY EVRYONE, any to recommend? anyway anyways, the pic i took with derek is awful lahs!! KUKU. hahas. somehow somehow. well, wad do u expect fr a human taking a pic with a bird. lols!! jkjk derek xD
the songs were nice. jiang jun ling, yao zu wu qu, long de chuan qi, then thr was this chun xia qiu dong- 4 diff songs. hahas. :))) felt tt the songs were really nice lo. though thr was aid by sco tchers n ppl fr ruan zu, but it's very.... magnificent? the sight was gr8. 12 dizi players. OH MAN. n their percussion is..... wow. thr's this girl who plays the drum n marimba like it's some toy. damn. PRO lahs. i was... speechless. hahas. as wad derek say, my new idol! LOL. LAMENESS~ i only think she looks pro lo. hahas. xD
eeee. i really think i ruined the pic cos i think this is the best picture derek ever took with me normally!!! as in.. without doing kuku stuffs. hahas. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!
im no longer the huifang u used to know.
one n a half yr ago, she was. half yr ago, she wasnt.
he chgned her.
he thot he was being nice to her. but he made her a rebellious kid.
she's now a problem student with bad attitude n 70% unattentiveness.
i told of my glory at 10:25 pm
BOO! i went to zhenwen's blog n heard a song.
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...
truly madly deeply is such a nice song.........
anyways, anyone has this song? can let me know if u have ahhh :))))
Swing, Swing (the All-American Rejects)
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
[Chorus]
(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again
Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)
[Chorus fades till end]
(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again
i told of my glory at 2:57 pm
Saturday, 28 July 2007
boo. listening to jun ma ben chi that kel sent jess n jess sent me today, i realised i have a nvr ending list of songs i want to learn. it makes me feel so...... i dno lahs. just lousy. =x i somehow know y i've stopped improving in my erhu, n m moving backwards. quote kel-
"i doubt i will reach any prime. i wont have 2 primes...
i'm lousy le..
gettit?"
it applies to me too. damn. i really feel so speechless abt it. how to articulate how i feel, how to express my remorse. how i nvr made use of my prime to the best. well. his prime is definitely of a standard much above mine. but when i was at my best, i led, i succeeded with the juniors, but the syf had alr passed, the seniors had stepped down. no doubt i was recognized to a certain extent. but those phrases of "talent in music", "good job" n "leader" r no longer heard fr authority above. not that i want that, nor m i desperate for that. but it's a source of motivation. no praises, no past records, no recommendations, i started off new in nanyang co. new n unknown to others. how others would nvr understand how i feel. how i was afraid i wouldnt fit it. i fit in. but stil no one understands how i exactly feel.
have u ever considered y i keep saying i really really want to go to percussion?
have u ever considered y i keep saying i want to go back to playing dizi?
have u ever considered y i kept saying i want to go play gaohu aftr ming kwang steps down aftr syf, yet i've not even mentioned gg over now?
oh forget it.
im running away. i dont want to face my pathetic erhu skills.
pathetically pathetic. that they're so hopeless.
DO u ppl know my rationale behind joining the chinese orchestra? to decide to play the dizi? to decide to transfer to the erhu? to apply thru the dsa scheme? to continue my teenage life in co? do u know wad i want out of all these?
im not taking those rubbish fr those arnd me. i used to nag, to somehow advise them. skip co? dont lahs. dont lahs. go la. go la. blah blah blah. now, take that with me n i'll just say "ok lo." n turn arnd with my back at u saying the standard "I CAN NVR UNDERSTAND Y PPL JOIN A CCA WITHOUT PASSION FOR IT" how many times have i said it this yr? countless. it's none of business anyway, so i feel so nonchalent abt it n do it the way that it doesnt seem to matter. nthg but a pathetic little asst SL. not that im desperate for the SL postn of to b the pres, or wadevr. but wad the hell man. i cant even do my own bit for the orchestra in a positive way. i teach my fellow j1s how to play sai ma, i feel like dung. i felt like i was talking to myself trying to decipher wad i wanted to say. this kind of feeling is shit. y cant i effectively express wad im trying to say. i felt weak n helpless. hearing kelvin next door, hearing dizi a few doors away, i felt so lost. without a direction. blindly taught 50 smth bars of sai ma. wow. that's an achievement for me.
i know nothing about music.
im not fit to play.
oh well, combined on wed. lets c who wil b the new gaohu player.
lester? me?
or will thr even b any?
mrs lim said im one who matures later. im stil not mentally in a jc despite being physically here. call me childish, call me slow. im not fit to deal with music either. it seems so wrong to b thinking abt music when i cant even deal with myself. my mentality, my thinking, my attitude. it's all wrong.
thinking back of wad ming kwang said, i know it's not that i took the wei shui qing performance over-seriously. i was thoroughly disappointed by that pathetic squeak i played on my qin. that SCREECH rather. so wad if ming kwang heard it? he was beside me. but even my mom who was sitting downstage n near the back heard it clear.
n i realised, he's said alot of stuff which pierce straight into my mind n stay thr. music stuff.
why is it so?
can he listen to me talk for once?
can derek listen to me talk for once?
can someone fr nyco listen to me
just for once?
my seniors, my spastics, anyone, pls?
damn. stop the emo-ing n move on.
cry ur heart out n no one wil care. im just left to die.
i told of my glory at 10:39 pm
BOO! home home home :))) went to KELVIN's CLUB just now. hahas ;))) actually is sm club in srgoon central. lols. went to study, do homework, blahs n kel was reading his harry potter book. hahas. with weijian n jess arnd, it's hard not to get crazy n spastic =x LOL. well well well. we used weijian's n jess' cam to camwhore. hhahas. at first the situation wasnt so jialats. was only weijian doing kuku stuffs. hahas. but aftr tt when we went to the FAMILY room cos we're one family. (hahas) WE WENT CRAZY MAN. was abt half an hour of laughing like some crazy ppl. LOLs. HALF N HOUR!! first time i saw kel laugh so much. REALLY! he collapsed on the sofa de lo. hahas! n weijian was really a silly kuku lahs!! UNGLAM. but he dont care. hahas. me n jess were infected by his kuku-ness n we were as spastic. hahas. DAMN. super unglamness~ but anyways, we had fun!! n jess is so accident prone today tt she keeps banging into stuffs EVERY corner of the room. hahas. but we were really laughing like..... omg man. hahas.
I LOVE MY CUTE KUKU CO MATES!!
CSCO CONCERT TMR!!! :)))))) wheeeees~ go zhi chi derek the BIRD. :))))
i miss ming kwang n derek!!
awwww my best seniors :))))
PICTURES!!! :D
weijian zi lian-ing :)))
weijian being SPAStic n taken by me :D
jess decided to join weijian in being cute. hahas.
the family in the FAMILY room. somehow weijian became my son =.=
dont u think kel looks super cute in this?? :D taken by jess.
weijian, omg man.
DAO-ed. I SO LOVE THIS PIC!! n the wallet o.O
US :)))) taken by jess.
weijian n kel's expressions read "HUH??!"
SPASTIC FOUR!!! :)))
i told of my glory at 9:35 pm
BOO! now at kelvin's house. hahas. stupid kboard. i kp typing wrongly. zzz. took weijian's grandpa's lorry here n was super funny n unglam. jess n i were at the back n using newspprs to cover ourself fr the rain. LOL. we went over a hump n we screamed, instinctively n a bunch of zhssrian guys lOOked at us. damn. =x LOLs. but anyways, now we're like rotting waitingfor weijian to chgn. hahas. then off we go to lunch!! :))))) wahahahas. thr goes my saturday to study ltr!! :))))
i told of my glory at 2:43 pm
Friday, 27 July 2007
BOO! nice one. i forgot to update ystd. DAMN.
took class photos today. fun-ness. n mrs lim actually went siao with us with the cam aftr the phototaking cos 23 had own PT session. o.O welll!!!
anw, today was meet the parents. thanks ah mrs lim.
i walked out traumatised. once again, im accused of not having studied for my mid yrs n SPECIFICALLY chem cos i got a big fat U. when i DID put in effort for chem n maths. SPECIFICALLY chem n maths thank u. but no one belives. NO ONE.
no one.
not a single soul.
only myself.
damn.
im gonna play the drumset man. im amazed at myself.
i cant seem to find someone to talk abt it. cos i believe no one believes studied for chem n maths especially. i just dont have the courage to. yet just one standard only-i-saw smile fr that kuku i met on the way out of college made me laugh out loud n made my mom think im mad.
i told of my glory at 10:06 pm
Thursday, 26 July 2007
BOO! late update. so was a day that was... tiring. tiring n tiring. zzz. =x *YAWNS.
main highlight- co prac.
got 2 scores today. sai4 ma3 n tian1 shan1 sheng4 hui4. sai4 ma3 to b taken with a pinch of salt. learnt 4 yrs ago. hahas. but i had to teach the fellow j1 huqins. rawrrs. that kuku lester MIA-ing again =x zzz. taught them quite alot i think. hahas. gr8 achievement for me k. ding lao shi praised me! WOOHOO!! :)))) then had to stop halfway to teach tianshanshenghui. oh damn. i c page 5 only i c ************=stars. =x OH MAN. u noe wad, so kuku damn fast can??! AHHH. I DONT WANT TO PLAY ERHU ALR!! y can weijian transfer to liuqin for tianshan? I WANT TO TRANSFER TO DIZI OR PERCUSSION (though perc is like so bloody hell impossible n i noe it). so FINE, anything but erhu. PLS LAHs.
im sick of erhu. no more motivation. happens whenevrr my seniors stop attending prac with us. =x HAIIs.
ming kwang did drop by the room for awhile though :)))) n definitely glad to c him go home earlier today, though to mug or wad i dno lahs! kok teng n kaili dropped by too!! =D yay. nice snrs i have :D
gareth study session aftr co with shawn, xiaowei n erica. hahas. not productive. MAN. i was doing the score stuff lahs. =x
off to dream of tianshanshenghui n myself at the desired section. HAIIS.
i told of my glory at 12:31 am
Tuesday, 24 July 2007
BOO! today was... STUDY STUDY STUDY. ahh damn. i hate this kind of life. though kellet said "done with abit more intelligence" to me today n i tk tt as a compliment, that bag issue is up again. like UH. WADS WRONG WITH USING A NIKE BAG. n in the first place mine is a diff colour fr his CAN?? alright tt wasnt a quarrel. im just trying to bring my point across n justify my actions. BLAHS.
kelvin tt fat ass' tagged me:
Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1) i lose interest if i canot do well in an aspect.
2) i LOVE brinjals. when i think four fifth of nanyang hates it.
3) im afraid in the dark. *hell man, like tts so o.O
4) i love myself too much. *yea, like u noe, im cute :D
5) i want to learn the piano n percussion.
6) im losing interest in erhu cos i think my skills r moving backwards alr.
7) i suck at memorising stuffs.
8) i hate my ingrown nail which has been with me for 5 yrs.
9) i love my nyco seniors thank u very much to tt nyjcian who tagged at derek's blog asking if i like ming kwang.
10) i dno y but i just love my blog.
next 6:
i havent decide. shall decide soon.
stress took away my love.
u nvr know when to stop.
i told of my glory at 10:34 pm
Monday, 23 July 2007
is today a sign telling me to leave nanyang soon?
i hope so not.
i told of my glory at 10:16 pm
Sunday, 22 July 2007
BOO! awww. my handsome guy :D seeing the pictures make me so happy! im not stalking him k. it's the pictures i've taken with him n taken of him (with him knowing of cos) !!! =D
he's so... charming...... (eh sound familiar?)
oh damn. n im the stupid silly girl. (again?)
isit yes or no? (y cant u decide aftr a yr has alr passed?)
or is he just a bleardy mugger? (y do u over-stress urself so much?)
making me worry abt him thru his self-torturous actions =x (pls pls pls get enough rest)
AHHHHH. damn. (wads wrong with me again?)
huifang just fell into a hole. darkness envelopes me as i wonder whr im heading for n a voice fr faraway tells me he'll tk me home. or mayb not.
it all started 1 yr ago.
i thot i'd stopped half a yr ago.
1 yr ago it was so close.
half a yr ago it seemed no longer impossible.
1 yr ltr, it's now getting complicated.
stop leading me on u kuku.
ARE WE FRENS OR WAD??!
damn.
i told of my glory at 11:51 pm
BOO! home fr performance at NAFA :))))
performance was gr8 other than my high 2 going not out of tune but some stupid screeching sound came out. LOLs. ming kwang was SHOCKED. so was i lahs =x zzz. super funny cos we went out to EAT between rehearsal n performance. lols. rebellious us. hahas. but it was.... o.O my food took so damn kuku long to come lo. zzz. but anyways, the place was pretty nice. hahas. but i think the chgning rm got ghost. REALLY. cos one of my cards went missing. NO ONE TOOK IT! n it wasnt anywhr arnd us cos the area thr was EMPTY de. =x errrrrrrps. o.O hahas. then had the qing gong yan, buffet!! :)))) then jiu went home le. lols. went to tk mrt with ming kwang, heidi n tedson. ahhhhs. i love 156. i really really love tt bus. :D
156 is a comforatble bus at night. :))))
it's been a yr, wad have u been waiting for?
always leaving me halfway thr.
m i gonna lead a life of di xia qings? sucks.
i told of my glory at 10:01 pm
Saturday, 21 July 2007
BOO! back fr sandcastle building or better known as leaders' day. AHH. i slept at 2am n woke up at 5.3oam. how nice can tt b. ARGHS. came home cos alr buay tahan =x TIRED!
oh n 2 things, it rained as we were building the sandcastles, n the lunch was DAMN good lahs! WOOOH!! =D
audi. again. haiis.
i told of my glory at 4:57 pm
Friday, 20 July 2007
boo. seriously, today hasnt been a good day.
first, im seen as a problem student.
second, i lost my way in sengkang.
third, i got dua-ed by ppl who's hp r for show only.
fourth, i reached home at 11.45pm.
on a lighter note, im glad thr's an improvement, though not much but he's definitely better alr. :)))
ok how im seen as a problem student. oh man. just bcos i got UUSSED for mid yrs. c this? my grades. suck big time man. it's not that im stupid. it's not tt i dont study. it's not tt i dont put in the effort. i did. but im just plain forgetful. i really dont understand wads gg on smtimes. i noe time is not an issue. how long i spend studying doesnt matter. but i do tk things in effectively u noe. it's just tt i always panic in exams. got back cse ppr today. as predicted, i topped the class, fr the bottom. mr kellet asked me wad happened. i really wasnt disappointed with my results. i expected it. but i cried. in front of all 14 of them. it was just purely due to the remorse i felt. u noe, when the tcher helps u so much yet u dont put in equal effort. oh damn it, n then im reminded of the chem, the maths. the disappointment sank in n i totally o.O-ed. thus, mrs lim sees me as a problem student. i left home without my hp today n went back to get it. i ran. but i stil missed the bus i was supposed to catch. oh wow. so i took 58 n ran all the way, only to b stuck at ispace n deemed late. mrs lim always asks me "wad r u trying to do?". i got nthg up my sleeves. i swear. im not aiming to burn the college down or wad. but im just stil trying to cope with all these arnd me. the mess, the competition, the pace, trying hard to catch up. desperately.
ming kwang says in j2, 3 hrs of sleep is common. no wonder he's been looking so tired fr the neverending amount of homework.
im so afraid of the future now. wad wil happen. wil i even get promoted. i want to b promoted. but my cse. i really dno wad to do abt it.
oh then i got lost in sengkang. no elaboration abt it. i was just plain stupid k.
got dua-ed by them. damn. i really dno wad to say. it ended up with them reaching earlier than me, n ming kwang arriving a short while aftr i arrived. wasted so much of my time.
reached home at 11.45pm. ding lao shi lahs. wth man. she say got zou tai, in the end dont have, made us wait till 10 plus despite the intended 9.3opm. zzz. took 27 with ming kwang n tedson to compass to chgn to 156 cos 156 is a nice bus to tk at night :)))) yay.
oh n at macs, ming kwang said "meh norh ner" the way wei hao said it during the ltc. hahs. then mk said it's cos he started it first. =x funny lahs. just imagine. sound so "air-escaped". hahas. meh norh ner.
well.
mayb wad ming kwang say is right. he said i shld live near IMH, then i'd learn to look at life in a more simple way if i saw tt place evryday.
someday i shld go to the IMH to tk a walk.
n then i'll understand wad he means.
does he go past thr evryday n thus looks at life in a simpler way?
loves her chubbyboy :))))
i told of my glory at 11:55 pm
Thursday, 19 July 2007
BOO! today started off bad, n ended bad.
bad start: early in the morning at 9.30am i c a sight which breaks my heart into a million pieces. m i sad? m i worried for him? or m i just stressed, thinking n thinking n thinking abt related stuffs? i dno. i somehow lost control of my emotions in lecture ltr. to no one's attention. rawrrrrs.
bad ending: stupid lawrence scared me when we were walking at the track in college. SUCKS LAHS. i told him im afraid of the dark alr n e last time i walked pasted thr in the night during night walk, i grabbed weijian's arm like hugging for life =x n stupid lawrence did smth which made me SCREAM, n then squat thr n cry. WALAO EH. TEOJIANGLUI U SUCK LAHS. stupid chris mummy stil laugh at me also SIA. kukunanas~
busy day with work, work n more work. tripped over some stupid big tile at the carpark n had to go home to chgn cos my SHOES were wet. damn. skipped maths cos of that. unglammed in front of lawrence twice today alr lahs. GO AWAY LAHS STUPID LAW.
night study was fun :))))) ispace-d with law n chris plus others thr. at other tables of cos. lols. but quite nice i think :D motivation!! CHIONGGG!!
i felt really sad c ing u like that. pls dont. worried? i dno. but i just feel like my heart broke into a million pieces.
i told of my glory at 10:08 pm
Wednesday, 18 July 2007
BOO! wahs. u noe u noe u noe. the performance on sunday is so stressing me!! =x
reason1: sit bside ming kwang
reason2: i play wrong will b super obvious
reason3: my gong fa different will b super obvious
reason4: im stil not SUPER comfortable playing tt song!! =x
AHHHHH. today fiona didnt come, end up im the only erhu I. arghhs. n i think my yin zhun sucked today lo. just chgn the ba3 wei4. RAWRRS. =x uhhh! hahas. some more kuku ding ask me play myself. then evry1 hear me OFF! lols. ahhh. poor ming kwang so stressed n looked so tired during the prac =x haiis. wil i b like tt in j2 also? :((((( feel so sad lahs! dno y =x errrms, anyways, went for dinner with weijian, yiling, jess, heidi, kelvin n zi can aftr co. went to mac at central n we made quite alot of noise. hahas! but it was fun. ahhh well, nyco ppl make me feel like im home :))))) gr8 co mates n gr8 frens they r!! =D went to this area bside the post office to tk photos!! LOL. my smart idea ;))) used the mirror to good use =D n weijian tt stupid chao ah beng tking jess' bag! LOL ness. hahs!
saw so many j2s staying back for night study. TMR NIGHT'S MY TURN!! :))))
n now im off to a date on audi with ling n jess!! =D
i told of my glory at 10:07 pm
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
BOO!
know wad was today?
BULLSHIT
CRAP
y?
reason1: early in the morn im greeted with a scene which made me so :(((((. noe wad, he chgned his bag. ok fine. someone said mayb cos im using the same bag as him so he chgn. WOW. in the first place our bags r DIFFERENT. pls tk a close look at the NIKE word. the colour is DIFFERENT. different. u get it? ok mayb tt person said this n thus i begin to think too much. but wad was he doing parading in front of me n LOOKING at me. wth man. I NOTICED UR BAG DUDE. ok not dude. MAN. wth man. arghhhs. i dont care lahs. wad u think is ur business. wad i know is wad i think is wad i do is wad i like.
reason2: totally dulan-ed, annoyed, irritated, almost died fr the gan jiong-ness blah blah blah. WHY? COS MY STUPID PENCIL SPOILED AT THE BEGINNING OF THE CHINESE A LEVEL LISTENING EXAM. damn. wad do u call that? luck? NOTHING EVER HAPPENED TO IT, until today. didnt brng extra pencil. n didnt inform invigilator otherwise ltr tio suan. wahs. damn irritated. the the pencil, n hold the lead, n shade. WAD THE. omg can. n this exam is so o.O out of the 4 passages, i've done 3 b4. this is a level standard? im not saying it's low. but it's a little unexpected isnt it?
reason3: IS THERE RUAN ZU PRACTICE TMR ANOT??! CAN SOME KIND SOUL PLS TEL ME?? LESTER SAYS DONT HAVE COS WEIJIAN TOLD HIM SO. I SAW WEIJIAN AT 4PM BUT HE DIDNT TELL ME MARHS? MING KWANG SAYS THR IS TOO. MING KWANG WASNT INFORMED TOO? wad the kuku =x ahhhh. im not blaming them for not informing me yet. i just dont like confusion. n i think the piece rly needs practising as an orc. otherwise it's really....... =.=||
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reasoninfinite: all bcos of u. ur one action has affected me that much. cant u just tel me straight in the face wad u mean by that? dont give me false hopes again n tk it away ltr.
USSED. wad abt cse? cse is a U i guess. unexpected Ss, shocking U, happy E n blahs D. nice results eh.
i told of my glory at 8:21 pm
Monday, 16 July 2007
BOO! just came home. RAWRRRs. im dreading the ring of my home phone cos mrs lim is supposed to call my parents up =x ahhh. all bcos i went to school late for 3 consecutive days. oh well, actually it's quite a big matter cos im usually punctual for school =x
ahhhh. saw SUPERMAN 3 times today!! unglammmm moments :)))) hahas. first time was in chinese class. ahhhs, i was sitting at the last row last seat nearest to the back door, then i decided to turn arnd, for no good reason, n saw RJ, then supermannnn walking bhind him n he looked IN. omg =x uhhhhs! second time was when i was in chem lab. like AHHHH. immediately nxt lesson lei. then aftr the chem lab thingy, went out for lunch at coffeeshop. SAW HIM AGN!! ahhh. i think someone is laughing away. ahhhhhh!!! =x saw simon at coffeeshop too. n i think im somehow weird. on the way out i was telling zj n cel tt im hungry so zj say order extra food the 3 of us share. so ok lo. in the end i didnt eat much of it, n i only ate less than half a bowl of noodles =x haiiis. stupid simon stil ga jiao me!!! :))) RAWRRs.
then went to toa payoh with heidi. hahas. had a nice talk with mr ray! hahas. n it's nice lo. the company. woots!! :))))
today is a NICE day :))) when a bunch of ppl actually turned back to look at ME! :))) THANKS ALOT AH. for the purpose which is SO wrong o.O ahhhhh. im missing co :)))
i told of my glory at 9:58 pm
Sunday, 15 July 2007
BOO! im back. WITH MY NEW NIKE SHOES!! not dunks thanks alot. lol.
today was... mixed feelings!! someone surprised me early in the morn with a msg. but then brought me down to hell with "mayb go poly, cos i dont want gp n chinese. but go poly can b doctor anot?" oh fine. u ask me so much abt jc, i help u along so much, n now u tell me u r giving up on jc just bcos of chinese n gp. :((((
but anyways, u noe, sometimes smth u nvr expect would happen can happen right under ur nose n u dont even notice though it's that significant. little affection. stopped. frenship. affection? pls no. U is enough. the person shld b smarter than to get a U. o.O i feel so... speechless =x
when i thot i'd alr given up. i thot it was just smth minor which happened one yr ago...
being squeezed tgt doesnt mean anythg. it's wad u do when it happens tt means evrything.
i told of my glory at 9:37 pm
BOO! just came home fr practice. WOW lahs. like wad time isit now? zzz. woke up at 6.30am n chiong-ed to tampines to meet lester tedson ming kwang n heidi. n guess wad. i saw someone at tampines. =x but i didnt acknowledge tt person, since im walking bhind him n it i say hi to him i might just get bashed up by someone who will jump out fr bhind a pillar =x LOL.
n thanks lots lots to ming kwang for that mac milo! HAHAS =D
anyways, i was late! hahas. by 15 min. =x errrs. hahas. but then we went to this tampines duno which part cc. errrs. someone kidnap me fr thr i also whr. SERIOUS LAHS. n then we were led arnd n arnd by stupid ming kwang who was QUITE lost too. LOL. in the end we realised we were not at the correct level =x
well practice was ok. think we started off on the wrong foot cos erhu I was me n fiona (dom's sis) n erhu II was heidi n weijian. RAWRRs. ahhas. we all got the score today morn. other than weijian. LOL lahs. then we were like... uhhhh. :))))) but the whole orchestra improved lahs! =D 3 hrs of prac!
then went for lunch with them plus johnathan claron veron etc etc. hahas. then me n ming kwang lombang-ed lester's dad's car to mrt station. lalalala!! :))))
next prac on wednesday n friday evening. UHHHHH. =x
i told of my glory at 3:09 pm
Saturday, 14 July 2007
BOO! back fr a whole day of walking arnd n looking for my new sports shoes. BLAHS. saw this lime green nike one which i think is nice but my parents say NOT NICE! saw this orange nike n my parents said NICE! but didnt buy it. cos taka thr got discount!! so i say tmr then go taka buy. hahas. i sound SO aunty lahs. aiming for discount =x rawrrs.
oh then saw this military officer. he was wearing this white uniform of his n had like a whole row of 3 medals hanging fr abv his LHS shirt pocket, holding a sword in his hand. WAHS STYLO LEI!! i was like "wah so cool" n rmbred the times in zhss when we the council went to support the march by parade cos our school's NCC was the FIRST in singapore n they wore tt white uniform too. uh actually i cant rmbr is the bottom was dark blue or black =x but all our guys looked SOOOOOOO charming!! :))))) really felt so proud of them then. our seniors then!! =D ahhh but all that in the past.
n lala lester called me just now, telling me tt we r requested to help ding xiao yan in her 22nd july performance. with her ruan zu. errrms. HAHA now i dont have to lend others my co costume :))))) but practice is tmr morn n im meeting ming kwang n les at 8.15am at TAMPINES??! OMG LAHS. 8.15am alr jialats. stil meet at tampines sia! AHHHH.
oh n rmbring thursday in college. saw THIS PERSON at atrium. so i dcided to walk past the atrium. n cos i was heading for the staff rm, i had to walk past the atrium agn aftr tt. n guess wad. i saw a bunch of ppl walking towards me. ppl i noe. one of which is someone. we walked past with no acknowledgment at all n i told heidi "y did things turn out this way?" n heidi actually answered "it's ok u have me!" o.O SIAN! hahas. but was pretty funny cos she continued "eh u noe ah, i think _______ is weird lo. c his expression canot noe wad he's thinking de. his expression like forever hiding some evil plot lei." (the _______ is someone who was among tt bunch of ppl but not the same person as i was referring to). but like "uhhhhhs" -.- i didnt really bother much abt tt person cos he's more or less disappeared aftr sm stuff happened. ahahs! ok call me evil. but one of my frens actually said she thinks he's stalking me. like HA! though very much impossible, u cant have too many coincidences in life right? hahas.
i told of my glory at 11:20 pm
Friday, 13 July 2007
boo. you guys just dont know how i feel right?
i have no choice but to put a strong front on. i got no choice. i dont want to b branded emo. i dont want affect n bring extra trouble to those frens of mine who worry abt me when i get emo. true frens who dont leave u in the lurch r so hard to find. i ask myself how many of such frens i have? many many when im all well n standing. n a few will hide into the shadows when i fall.
much as i say i dont care
much as i show like i dont give a damn
much as optimistic as i m
much as loud as i laugh
wad do u all think abt me? i dont wish to hear it agn. the truth always hurts. undeniable. i type in small black fonts. u read it if u want to. if u dont, then dont. y do ppl always think otherwise of my actions. i noe im not pretty. i noe im ugly in my way. but have u ever considered how i will feel?
sometimes i feel so wronged i really want to just strangle all u fcukers to appease my anger. thr's always more than wad meets the eye. y do u all have to think e way u guys think n insist it's right without finding out if it's true? i dont find it insulting to b accused of this. but have u ever considered wad others related to me might think of this? wad light the ppl on my side will c u guys in? im not finding fault. im alr keeping my cool with this. but y do ppl stil mk things difficult for me? have u all ever considered the consequences of this matter?
it's not gg to end just as simple as u guys think. it's not so simple. if it was tt simple, i'd walk straight up to u n settled u without a trace left bhind. not go to all these trouble of smiling infront of others.
things arent tt simple for me. y do u all have to make it worse for me?
i told of my glory at 10:31 pm
BOO! went to get my darling mp4 n guess wad, the company gave me a new one! cos my old one was uh... unrepairable. o.O ahhhs not my fault k. it just went into a coma during one faithful co prac. =x
oh n sidetrack abit, abit of some thots i had in college today, or rather at one PARTICULAR lecture. i guess i'll nvr know how cel felt when she found out abt ppl googling her name n ending up at her blog when who they were looking for was sm1 else. now, daily, thr r NUMEROUS ppl ending up at my blog thru technorati searches, google blogsearches, yahoo searches. n they ARE looking for me. wow. im a celebrity. in a notorious way. oh man. this sucks big time. like looking at ppl sitting right in front of me obviously gossiping abt me. when will this die down? how long will it take for a cca of ppl to understand wad i think? or rather, the most important person involved. oh man. this sucks big time u noe. being accused of smth i NEVER even thot of, do not think of, n will NEVER ever think off. omg lahs. im not teojianglui can. im not like him. =x offended. but teojianglui dont read my blog anyways. :))))
plus plus, got back my gp. cant help but admit i expected a fail cos i felt my essay was pretty feeble. =x but nice nice mrs boo gave me a pass. though it wasnt a glorious pass or a flying A or B, i felt better knowing i actually passed smth at last. econs n cse up next. oh n not forgetting chinese.
well so back to just now. went to bugis with a darling fren i hadnt seen for errrrms, a yr =x ahhs. primary school fren u noe. childhood! hahas. but anyways, yahs stil the same lo. catch up on one another's lives n we walked arnd alot. :))))) saw LOTS of jc ppl out today. super weird lahs. SA, TP, RJ, NY, HC, all flock to bugis??!! =x but ahh. saw someone i thot i'd nvr meet. n my fren thinks he's kinda cute too. HA! =D ahhhhhh. go PS also c, go bugis also c. aiyyy tell me this is fate. HA! :))))) but he looks super blur can. =x lucky he didnt c me lahs. hohoho.
n OH! u noe, sometimes u really shld leave college immediately instead of hanging arnd esp gg to the toilet n tking ur own sweet time. HE LEFT 5 MIN B4 ME TODAY!! actually i didnt know his lessons ended at arnd tt time. but weiyi n ruolin saw him n they told me! N THEN i saw him cross the overhead bridge LAHS. kukunana. =x nvr mind nvr mind. today was alr a good day le hahas! :)))
YAY i love mummy lahs!! WE'RE GG TO BUILD SANDCASTLE!! ahhhs. lol :pppp
i told of my glory at 10:03 pm
Thursday, 12 July 2007
BOO! went to read gareth's beloved facil's blog. quote-
"A relief and sad at the same time. Wel not really ba since i can see them in sch. But yea... i have a feeling things won't be the same again. Will it?"
anything can chgn. but wei hao u will stil b our nice nice nice facil n we'll stil b the talkative +
playful + always humourous SIR GARETH!! =D
we all started off fr pre-camp whr the group felt..... cold o.O we had our differences, we were unfamiliar with one another. but aftr 4 days of bonding, laughing, crapping, playing, encouraging, we the members r closer than ever, n the facils r also not forgotten. definitely, the facils have taught us alot. n we've learnt much as an individual n a team. :)))))
i told of my glory at 11:30 pm
BOO! im back for a proper post. rawrrs. today was totally o.O only time i laughed was when i was at co room. the one n only place in ny tt i felt like home.
i really feel like im stil on holiday. i pon-ed econs lecture, the ONLY lecture i had today. pw was effing boring. n connection sucked. =x co photo taking was to b at 1230, which is coincidentally the time of our econs lecture. i only got the news of "if u have econs, dont skip it. go for lecture." 5 mins b4 the lecture. so i didnt care. i just wanted to go to the co room to c the seniors. felt really glad seeing the seniors agn. us all being in the co room. wad used to b, wad nvr would b, all thr n talking abt exams, life, etc. felt like home :))))))) this college has somehow bcm smth i canot recognise aftr sm events. we took the pictures. i hope they turn out good =D but anyways, simon is stil the same. kukunana. long time nvr talk, c me jiu poke me =x rawrrs. stupid lahs. but anyways, fun luh. gr8 seeing my beloved seniors agn. oh n anw, wingyan abit siao siao today =x she went arnd giving out kfc coupons o.O n her laughter was =.=|| lol. funny pres. n uhhh, oh yahs. sunmeimei asked derek smth, n he replied "chi1 shi3 ba4!" in such a funny way tt it made ALL of us laugh =.= so naturally it came to his mouth. hahas. n we all laughed atit for like wad, 5 mins? aftr sunmeimei left alr luojun n mingkwang were stil laughing at it. ahhhhs.
n i do not stalk ppl u stupid luojun. o.O
oh n hearing ppl discuss abt their mid yr exams results dont mk me feel good =x i c ppl studying hard, n then reaping gd results. wad do i get? did i not study hard enough? ok fine so mayb i didnt study hard enough. the 3 weeks were not productive. i merely wasted my holiday away. n wad did i do? a senior whom i studied with almost evryday didnt do as well. =x this makes me feel guilty. n u, senior, who may b reading my post someday, pls do not tel me not to b guilty. i really felt much more confident studying with a senior who was sure smarter than me. u noe, the boost of confidence. i told myself some stuffs which encouraged myself to persevere n hold on till the end of the exams. but wad happened? i held thru, n then i broke down. accept the fact. ppl pass with flying colours. ppl who studied 1 day b4 the exam scored higher than u.
aww. sher saw him today! though she saw his back view only but she said his hair is VERY nice!! =D n when i showed her his pic she said, wah not bad oh! :))) LOL. n who was the one who came up with "BLACK forest". uh. wth man. o.O funny but sound bad lei. hahas. IT'S NOT FOREST! IT'S CROWN!! :)))))) n then saw him aftr co agn. oh man, i had my bag with me. hahas! n he did smth which he thot i didnt c =.= uggghhhhhh. then like heng-ness can. went up to library to meet chris n ends up he'd gone up to the library too. =x then stupid chris go sit at the table bhind his n he TURNED arnd n looked cos we were making sm noise =x oh shyt wad if he thinks im stalking him which im NOT. =.=
i told of my glory at 8:06 pm
BOO! wahahha. now i noe wads gg on. someone thinks i like lucas eh? NICE ONE AH. for ur info, CHECK WITH ANY 23 PPL N U WILL KNOW WHO IS THE ONE IM TARGETTING. thanks alot ahh. :))))
oh man, someone told me tt some ppl r talking abt this issue. so HAHA! =D PLS LAHS. o7.o6.o7. this is the day. NOT LTC. HELLO! o.O
i told of my glory at 10:03 am
BOO! not bad eh! wahahahs. this mysterious tagger definitely has the mind to think of many names. shant comment on other stuffs. but im so very sorry to readers who had to read such unsightly stuff bcos i wasnt efficient enough to delete those unsightly stuff fr my blog. HAHA. oh n reason being so cos i was sick ystd night n didnt cm online =x blahhs.
anw, pw again ltr. OMG man. wad the kuku. im so sick of pw alr =x pw pw pw. RAWRRS o.O thanks to frens concerned abt those tags anyway!! :))))))
*uh wads wrong with my language? any probs arnd? i think my language isnt considered TWIT. or isit some kind of unknown language not known to me yet? :)))))) so if u consider my blog "hard to read", DONT READ LAH! wahahas. my blog, myself, i.
i told of my glory at 6:41 am
Wednesday, 11 July 2007
BOO! TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED USING "REPRESENTING NYJC", i deleted the tag bcos i dont wish to let readers who read my blog for a proper reason instead of coming here to cr8 trouble. if u want to know e tag, ask me. anyways, im still in college at phoenix house exco meeting. rawrrrs. BE BACK AT NIGHT. awww. just had a yummy nice SIR GARETH lunch =D n tt kuku lucas is forever so blur to uhhhh. drop his food? LOL. whole bowl k =.= hahas. :))))))
i told of my glory at 1:52 pm
Tuesday, 10 July 2007
BOO! im home fr the MOE COMBINED JC concert. haiiis. mixed feelings at the end of the day. so many things concerning me happened today. =x
1st- moe combined jc concert is over. the combined jc orchestra is split. nvr to meet agn. was totally sian-ed aftr the tuning session at tuning room. somehow i felt so... weird. i dno wad tt feeling was. no.1 reason: the feeling of being in an orchestra of strength 100 is smth i miss so much. the victorious feeling when i hear our combined orchestra play the grand ending. though it was pretty screwed, it was stil gr8. no.2 reason: somehow i'd nvr c him agn. unless im tt lucky to meet him outside agn like how i met him at dhoby ghaut tt time. but chances r one in a million. now i know y i said he is cute. cos he looks like nelson? oh man. this sucks big time alright. how i wish the orchestra would practise til next yr then we have the concert. how i wish the orchestra would nvr split. i miss tt feeling. he was just bhind me today. sat just bhind me. tt cramped thr thus tt close. i hated tt. n i felt like walking away. wad made me stay?
2nd- i got sabo-ed by chris mummy today. we were at canteen at arnd 12 smth. then S was thr with some team mates. n stupid mummy went over n said in mandarin "eh S, u have an admirer lei". know wad S replied? "yah i know. huifang right?" OMG LAHS. HURRH?? n he n his team mates turn arnd n LOOKED at me. oh man. thr goes. im famous for the wrong reason agn =x all thanks to beloved chris.
3rd- lessons were kuku boring. slept in all the lects which include chem n pw. =x i just cant help it lahs. i seem to have lost interest in learning? wad happened to perseverance? i dno. i just didnt bother today.
ai hen jian dan is a very very nice song.
im the gradient 0, u're the gradient infinite. we only intersect at one single point. the single coordinate whr we will ever have the chance to intersect. n nvr will again.
i nvr asked for much. but i cant even hear u say that agn.
he behaved weirdly today. no one else agreed with me though. he was really weird. he didnt react like tt in the past. but he did today. so diff. so enthu. so... outgoing. it didnt feel like him. even at his most enthu times he wasnt like tt. sometimes it's tt hard to just forget evrything tt happened within a yr.
the happiest smiles.
facil eliza shared a story with us tt day. i kept thinking abt it today. i dno y.
eliza is a very punctual person. the story bhind it is bcos she had a fren, A, who once was to b late for a meeting with a fren, B, whom A hadnt seen for a long time. A thus cancelled tt meeting even though they hadnt seen each other for a long time. A nvr got to c the B agn. cos B passed away some days ltr.
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Monday, 9 July 2007
BOO! something to add on.
regarding the abseil ystd. sher was upstairs too. she encouraged me to go down by telling me that SUPERMAN was downstairs cos she told chris who in turn asked him to come. =.=
hahas thanks sher. but,
sometimes, a simple friendship can make all the difference in the world. :)))
i told of my glory at 11:54 pm
BOO! im back from the 4d3n LTC!! WOOHOO!! I SURVIVED!! OH YEA MAN!! n i love grand finale!! I LOVE OUR SKIT!! NU NU N NEE NEE!! (refer to paragraph 5) PICTURES ALL THE WAY BELOW!!
i survived 4 days without milk, cheese n chocolate. =x lols. im sure half the world missed me too!! AHHH!! here comes my buyaolian-ness again :D shall b a LONGGGGG entry about my 4 days of happiness at LTC :))))))) all about SIR GARETH THE HANDSOME MAN. (sir nu nu, team nee nee n others like shortie, shy taekwando expert n BO!!)
1st day- started off with land expedition. walked from labrador adventure campsite(LAC) to kentridge park to nus to west coast park. rawrrs. just think lahs! it tk us the whole day to walk thr n we camp thr at night. omg can??! n our team is like SOOOO lucky. the first team to walk out of LAC but the first person we asked for for directions was so KUKU wrong. he was so confident. yet we realised he gave us the wrong direction n we were walking exactly opposite =x kuku. then we had nightquest at night (duh!). SO LUCKY mr lim let me b the unblindfolded person. lol. n jasper was my blindfolded partner. walked the distance n talked alot to him on the way, getting to know him better. well, as wad jasper shared during our last facil-team interaction, he supposedly "felt comfortable" with me leading him. wahahas. c, TRUST :)))))) yayness. at least i know i did smth right despite us getting wet by tt stupid benjamin tan who used water gun to shoot at us n our candle =x (at one of the stations) rawrrrs. we slept in tents tt night. wahs. damn sticky cos couldnt bathe =x but we slept for 6 hrs anw. hahas. 10 ppl crowded in one tent =.=
2nd day- woke up at 6.15am. LUCKY!! cos we were told to get to the nearby mac when 2 thunders were heard. n when GARETH guys n girls walked to mac, it started to rain heavily. just at tt precise moment when we stepped in. LOL. was a weird day with 2 meals of nasi lemak =x breakfast n lunch. but wahhhs. the lunch was fr changi lei! but tt meal cost me alot ahh, cost me an arm. bcos the non-kayakers went to collect lunch. n we had to walk a distance. so taking a heavy packet of drinks for a long distance made my left arm practically useless =x muscle strained. rawrrrrs. but anyways, was quite disappointed initially cos i wasnt allowed to kayak cos i indicated tt im a non-swimmer in the consent form (smth which i thot i did otherwise =.=||) but in the end we went back to LAC to BATHE N SLEEP!!! shuang can??! me n xiaowei bathed for like, uh, 45 min?? LOL. i set alarm at 4.45pm to wake up but ended up waking at 6pm!! hahas. then the rest came back at abt 6 smth. hahas. all tired n sunburnt. awww. i wanted a sunburn so much lahs!!!! but read on..
3rd day- we had high elements the whole day. but due to my half-paralysed left arm, i couldnt attempt the challeng pole, n sm other thingy i didnt know it's name. i tried rock climbing, which was the first event of the day. it was TRAUMATISING. so damn angry can. i belay lucas tt approx 184cm kuku n i can hold him up when he fell. but when i fell i i fell STRAIGHT TO THE GROUND. wad f*ck is this??! blame it all on the belayer ok. supposed to b always vigilant n ready to hold the person up if he or she falls. wad the kuku. evry1 was shocked lahs. but aiya, lucky i was ok. legs nthg wrong cos i wasnt too high up yet. otherwise i wil kill the belayer when i recover.... it wasnt due to the lack of trust. i really felt super insecure with a person who looked so BLUR in a hopeless way. (comparing, lucas is blur in a funny way but HE is blur in a =.=|| way. get wad i mean?) anyways, i helped out alot with the belaying at the rest of the high elements lo. the only other one i attempted was the one which i had tried b4, yet i cried like so retard. situation:-
as the person b4 me abseiled down at a slow rate (oh luckily), i was telling the tcher in charge of the station, mr heng (maths tcher at ny) abt my left arm prob. well. i really didnt want to do it cos i felt insecure with my left arm. but i just went ahead with it cos my team told me to. hahas. so i stood out aftr being belayed.
mr heng: u let go of the rope abit by abit using ur right hand. lean back first.
me: ok *lean back, SLIDES!
me: I DONT WANT I DONT WANT I DONT WANT! VERY SLIPPERY!! *climb BACK to the platform.
CRIED LIKE SOME STUPID IDIOT!! but mr heng was really v nice lahs, encouraging me, calming me down, plus lucan n yingxuan's cheers fr upstairs, n the shouts fr downstairs fr my team. i really cried v hard. i really wanted to give up. (though i abseiled fr level 3 <1> in sec 3) but the encouragement they gave me spurred me on. i knew i had to do it. n since mr heng guaranteed tt he'll pull the belay tightly, i went on. i reached the ground quickly. but legs turned jelly n eyes red like kuku cos i cried so hard =x but i really knew i lacked the confidence then, even though i did it in the end =x lols.
then at night we had the rehearsal for the GRAND FINALE!! lucas was chosen to act as SHORT person.contrasting right? SHORTIE!!! hahas. n he had to do those chao spastic things like rolling onto stage n jumping n saying "SIR NU NU!!" lols. cuteeeee!! then aftr tt stil had to act cute too by doing the "1" shot. (*REFER TO PIC BELOW) AWW. total cuteness!!! hahas. we kept laughing each time he had to re-do it :)))) lol. n of cos not forgetting the SMART PPL in the cast- me, xiao wei, erica n jocelyn!! :))))) WE R TEAM NEE NEE!! =D
4th day- had sharing early in the morn with our beloved facils. things were a blur aftr tt. rushing to pack the tents, changing fast, running arnd, getting scolded for late gather, rushing thru packing of stuffs, rushing thru logistics, rushing thru lunch. IT WAS A MESS! LOL. but anyways, 1 smth the grand finale started. n it was gr8. our skit went smoothly. YAY!! GAWAIN N GARETH!! =D lalalas. hahas. but i personally think we're the next best aftr the first skit. forgot which teams it was fr. but it was good lahs. hahas :)))) best knight presentation, cheers, n the day ended with photo taking. AWW. I LOVE TAKING PHOTOS WITH HANDSOME GARETH!! they're so CUTE!! =D YAY. our photos wil turn out NICEEEEEE lahs!! :))))) YAY!!
TEAM SIR GARETH, been thru so much. emotional moments when ppl cried, the encouragement tt nvr died, laughter, tolerance etc. these nvr left us. we were really bonded as a team. it started off rough. with some ppl being left out. but now at the end of the LTC, we're proud to say we're a team. A TEAM. WE R TEAM SIR GARETH OF EXCALIBUR. we held hands when we played games, went crazy about a dumbass game called murderer, enduring late nights just to complete wad we had to do, got scolded, got praised, chionging thru duties, eating tgt, washing plates etc etc. supporting one another mentally n physically. the sounds n cheers of encouragement nvr left us. our beloved facils who brought us out of out comfort zone, instilled the idea of the sense of emergency in us. strict, yet fun-loving, caring, n patient with us. we really appreciated WEI HAO N ELIZA. our gr8est facils. im sure alot were reluctant to say goodbye to eliza today. we can always c wei hao in college. but im sure we'll miss eliza. we'll miss TEAM SIR GARETH. (n of cos sir nu nu!) =D
kuku them on the bus back!!
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this was a scene at lunch today. thr was ALOT of food, n the guys reacted immediately. in an UNGLAM way. well, i was looking for lucas n xue wei to finish the food, only to realise i cldnt find lucas though i'd found xue wei cos lucas was alr HAPPILY eating at the other side =.= this is his... uh.... 3rd serving? yea but he's among them. =x
we r HANDSOME SIR GARETH~!!
sir nu nu standard action!! featuring LUCAS!!!
smart ppl in the skit: me, xiao wei, erica n jocelyn.
me n jocelyn the tweety birddd!!!
wanted to take a pic with lucas!! but didnt have the time to :(((( AWWWW. it's alright!! STIL GOT CHANCE DE!! hahas. SIR NU NU!! MS NEE NEE!! :)))))
i told of my glory at 6:57 pm
Thursday, 5 July 2007
BOO! just came home. rawrrs. lessons were ok in college. went for combined JC chinese orchestra concert rehearsal. think most of the institutions deserved their gold with HONOURS bsides one. lol. shant say it out though, lest i get kicked. hahas.
anw, DEREK IS THE BIRD-FROM-THE-STREETS. im the poser peacock, but he insist on calling me ostrich. =x rawrrs. saw some cute cute de kids. n a golden vibraphone. oh kuku. hahas. me n kelvin got lots of comments on the players. hehes =ppp n derek scared of tickles scared until..... o.O hahas. oh anw smth funny happened.
me n D were walking infront of 3 or 4 SA guys. then i said "stop, we wait for the ppl bhind" cos the rest of nyco was bhind the SA guys. then tt bassist mo2 fang3 me say "stop!" then stil got action somemore =x kuku!! LOL lahs. hahas. omg =ppp i shy can!! in the end D n me kept on "STOP!" when we c him. lols. hahas. hahhaha!!! :))))))))))
today nyco abit diu lians i think. hahas. lester was playing smth on his qin, then smhow it ened up ming kwang playing left hand part n les playing right hand part on ONE qin. then aftr tt it ended up me ming kwang n lester playing 2 qin!! HAHAS. can just imagine it urself. ppl arnd us were quite fascinated. but so omg diu lian SERIOUSLY. hahas. n on the way to SCH also. we were on mrt n on bus, noisy-ing away. partly my doing too. hahas!!
oh n i saw baby just now. hahas. so long nvr c him le!! still as short lahs =x but he go melbourne study sia!! WAHHS. no wonder no news fr him or abt him. hahas. but he so vulgar. took me 3 seconds to realise who he is. n he said F*CK. hahs. =x but yea, he's stil the same. his hair is nice though :))))) quite long. hahas. miss baby aftr being in same sch as him for 10 yrs!!! :DDD
OH MAN NO COMP NO TV NO SUPERMAN NO PILLOW NO GOOD FOOD NO SOFT DRINKS FOR 4 DAYS. IM SO GONNA DIE MAN!!
i told of my glory at 9:36 pm
Wednesday, 4 July 2007
BOO! im home home home. day started off bad with release of maths n chem midyr results. hohoho. i shant post them here. makes me feel more inferior to others. ask me if u want to know
cos both make the beginning of a S U PERMAN. =x
I FEEL STUPID.
i did study u noe.
i DID! ask derek. he knows how much i studied.
OH MAN.
day went like tt. rawrrs. co prac today. think it felt really super kukuish weird without the j2s =x haiis. miss them like wad kuku can. :((((( co without them is so o.O... anw, dsa auditions today, les went to listen. so i had to get the section practising some kuku song. matsuri. LOL lahs. =x i totally forgot how to interpret the "tortoise jump". felt really STUPID in front of my section. some kind of assistant SL i m huh? so responsible n smart. smart til can c score c wrong thing. rawrrs. =x i feel so UNWORTHY. wth. insignificant. blahs. think i screwed up today's prac. super off tune qin. wth can. it's high time i got a new erhu but i stil love my off tune husband =x
anw i really really want to leave erhu. not tt i dont like e ppl thr or thr's some handsome guy in another section. but it just dont feel right remaining in a section tt i dont have a sense of belonging to. i want to go percussion. or dizi. the current passion. call me a person with no loyalty n perserverance towards an instru. i feel my skills have come to a standstill. or even deproving. my tune was really hell off today. sounded like some tortured chicken.
kelvin kelvin kelvin!! I REALLY WAN TO GO TO PERCUSSION!! EVEN IF IT'S JUST FOR ONE SONG!!
awww. do help me yea?
yes yes yes. aftr ur probs r solved, huifang is nthg. she was just a breeze tt blew by. nvr to turn back agn? i guess so. life really sucks when i feel ppl r making use of me as a last resort when their loved one dont care. oh tts sounding harsh. but anw who cares. u can b irritated, angry, misunderstood, neglected. dont ever come looking for me ever again. i hate ppl who do this kind of things to me. call me complicated. call me a bitch. but i nvr knew i was tt much a sucker. it's none of ur business wad im doing, how im thinking or how im feeling. it doesnt matter if u dont care cos i dont care too. lalala.
pls call me by my name. my name is HUIFANG.
n this goes out to evry1. DONT EVER TRY TO ATTACK MY BACK UNLESS U WANT TO TRY BEING GAN-ED BY ME.
i told of my glory at 10:03 pm
BOO! 4th post today! IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF WTH.
U NOE U NOE U NOE.
UGLY aSEAN (0723 inside nickname, but u noe who im referring to cos it's made so obvious) HAS THE RIGHT TO INSULT OUR CLASS GIRLS!! OMG!! I DONT CARE MAN WADEVRR THE RULES OF TT GAME COS HE WASNT INVITED TO PLAY IN THE FIRST PLACE. CONVERSATION:-
us-"which girl r u attracted to in class"
S-"none lei"
us-"ok then who u think most attractive, most cute most chio"
S-"*in chinese* our class like nthg much lei"
us-"HUH??!"
S-"really wad..... got meh...."
WALAO I FEEL SO INSULTED LAHS. ok i know i aint chio or wad but WHO IS HE TO HIAM OUR CLASS GIRLS IN GENERAL??! OH MY GOSH LAHS.
U NOE U NOE U NOE. OUR CLASS GOT A NEW SHUAI GE. OR RATHER NANYANGJC HAS A NEW HOT DUDE THAT'S aSEAN!! OH MY WADTHEFARKINGBBQ MAN!!
suddenly rmbred it =x
i told of my glory at 12:03 am
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
U NOE WAD. IM SICK. VERY VERY VERY SICK.
i felt giddy when sitting for the cse ppr, i felt like puking my dno-is-breakfast-or-lunch out during listening compre, i felt ok aftr tt but my arms stil felt damn damn damn hot. n now looking at the laptop screen, i c a blur. wth. Y M I SO WEAK. YYY. YYY. aftr the sakae buffet, i fell sick. aftr the ecp outing, im now sick. y isit aftr major outings im SICK??! WAD IS WRONG WITH ME THIS YR??! THIS NVR HAPPENED TO ME IN THE PAST.
i hope i dont faint tmr in sch. PLS DONT. tt would mean i've lost the fight.
im feeling weak, i seeing things in blur, i've a bad headache n i canot open my eyes totally =x
no one cares lahs. no one's trying to mk me feel better. the person who shld care doesnt care at all. someone im nt tt close with is caring instead. someone whom i rarely even talk to.
could wad my mom said b true? tt i've been deceiving myself all along?
i hope im thinking too much.
attack on both sides.
on this side i receive a call delivering oh-so-wtf bad news to me.
i dno how im gonna deal with this issue.
on the other side i really know too much to remain alive in this world.
oh great i noe how to deal with this. kidnap huifang, ask for a ransom n then kill her. throw her into the sea cos she cant swim well. rmbr to tie smth heavy so my body wont float up days ltr.
oh great. splendid.
get rid of huifang out of this full of kuku problems world. =x
GREAT!! EMO NEMO HUIFANG IS BACK IN JUST A FEW SECONDS!!
oh stfu. tmr thr's gonna b co. just when i dont have the mood for it.
im so looking forward to it, yet it feels so horrifying to attend the prac tmr.
pls dont ask y.
I SHOULD JUST GO N DIE LAHS.
i told of my glory at 11:05 pm
BOO! IM BACK!! WOW cse was screwed. totally. hahas. i was SOUND aslp during the exam. ask kristine cel n zijie. they know. lols. im sick lahs canot blame. my poor nose =x
anyways, i did this them fr the link i found on an nyjcian's blog. n i did a theme with THIS!
lalala. i stil like this pic alot lo. hahas. cos it's me n my senior n i think this pic looks nice overall! ahh cant help it lahs when cute met cute=cuteness. hehes!! =D n wth man, i suddenly rmbr tt stupid superman said the pic dont rly look like me =x aiyaa canot blame lahs tt time was the day he knew someone named huifang existed luh. lols. ahhh. who cares wad he thinks =x I STIL THINK THIS PIC IS THE BEST WE'VE EVER TAKEN, HORRR DEREK?? :)))))
n anw i think when cute met cute=kuku also. cos do click to zoom in on this pic, then c derek's reaction to my CUTENESS.
SO UNGLAM RIGHT??! hahahhaas!!
n anw i think ming kwang looks really good in this pic. nice smile. lols. wahhs, i got a charming senior k. (as he always says he's charming. LOL.) n omg lahs my mom said the same thing too =x hHAHAHS!! no choice lahs nyco kukunehneh huqin got ALL the cute n charming ppl :)))))
TMR IS RESULTS. OH SHYT MAN. IM SO GONNA DIE FOR CHEM =x
i told of my glory at 10:09 pm
bOO! rawrrs. now in college library n im super bored. waiting for chris mummy to finish his meeting then we can go dhoby ghaut le. hahas. i want my audition!! RAWRRs. kukunana. n aiyahhs. abit spoil mood =x mummy say got chem results out le. on litespeed. the mcq. c le jiu sianns. walao. 7/20. damn low can?? i study n mug like some bloody kuku in college n wad happen? i fail for pathetic mcq. sm more fail til so jialat can. wtf is this. making me feel so kuuu demoralised can. m i just plain stupid or wad. i study n practise so much le stil get such sucky grades =x i need to get 33/60 for ppr 2 to pass my chem with 50 marks. RAWRRS. this sucks big time can. im so gonna b suan-ed by my mother lahs. =x complacent. another quality of mine. not proud of it.
I JUST WANT TO PASS MY CHEM!! WADS WRONG WITH ME HARHHHH
but i stil wanna play. well, it's over right? lols.
might as well enjoy now n mug agn ltr for the promos =x
n i stil need help. rawrrs.
i told of my glory at 2:51 pm
Monday, 2 July 2007
BOO! im home. lalala. target to reach at 10 n i reached at 10.05pm. YAY im so proud of myself. lalahs.
went with co ppl to ECP today. hahas. wanted to get RED. n i did! LOBSTER. :D went to cycle here thr thr here alamak. im sorry sook han!! made u walk here n thr then evry1 disappear =x ... lols. in the end we went to macs n makan! :D HUNGRY LAHS. then aftr tt went to kayak!! with jess, weijian, tedson n lester. hahas. they row till v v v v v far but i dare not =x then kp getting pushed to land when i slacked. rawrrs. then weijian came back to help me then i think he tripped or wad? n i laughed at him n a wave of SALTY DISGUSTING WATER went into my mouth. i really felt like vomitting then! it was real horrid lahs. =x then aftr tt we stil played in the water. LESTER SCARED OF GG INTO WATER WITHOUT LIFEVEST LAHS!! lols. then jess, weijian n i were like sitting at the part of the beach whr the wave wil crash into us. n DAMN FUNNY. cos it was FUN. hahas. high tide today =x
think today was a little screwed cos all of us got no direction sense. ends up sook han was the one who suffered =.= poor sook lahs. haiis. we all got bikes, she gotta walk =x
of all things n of all days, this had to happen to me today. we'd just got to ECP for less than 15 minutes. n i saw him. him who i havent seen for close to 4 yrs. him i so tried to avoid? he saw me, i saw him. none acknowledged the other. cos we werent sure if it was the other. msged, then realised. but we were too far alr. he's nvr chgned, stil looking the same. lols. super unglam when he saw me lahs!
OH N STUPID WEIJIAN KEEPS CATCHING ME AT MY UNGLAM MOMENTS!! RAWRRS.
so many times i do stupid n unglam things unknowingly n he'll b the only person to catch it. TODAY! TWICE!! oh well, call tt fate lahs. dom was right in front of me bt he didnt c. weijian had to turn at tt perticular moment to c it. WTH. omg can. STUPID WEIJIAN LAHS. then the 2nd time, uhhh. forgot wad it was le, but tts for wj to know, for u to find out. HA!! :))))
a happy n fun day with co ppl!! YAY!!
n im so dead for cse!! :D
i told of my glory at 10:31 pm
boo.
y cant ppl solve problems face to face?
giving excuses which prove the problem less important.
it's not like i want to b involved or wad, n in the first place im just an outsider looking at things fr my perspective. but i think the problems all get from bad to worse without PROPER communication.
making ppl read between the lines dont work.
it only brings about more misunderstanding.
im not feeling emo =x it's just.... i dno lahs. feel very =.=|| about this issue. it's dragging on, making him sad, her, i dno, n me like also so "uhhhhhh?" u noe. rawrrs.
will u demote me to *blah blah blah* bcos *blah blah blah*.
u think i have the heart to? i aint evil.
BLAH ok. o.O
it's none of my business n i dont have a say in this. i stay out of this. but,
my listening ears r always thr to hear u rant.
oh n u noe wad, this is not only happening to one couple. TWO. n wow, both r my frens involved =.= OH MY.
communication. HAHAH.
i told of my glory at 12:51 am
Sunday, 1 July 2007
BOO! Who's on stage?? LOL LAHS. WTH MAN. =pppp damn funnnyyyy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BlXjIg4fH74
recommended by rachel. omg man. ultimate diao-ness!!
N CEL IM SO GONNA SMACK U UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE OUT MAN. lols =x
"except the part whr hf hv a new eye-paste-stamp-idolise issue like almost evry two wks. lol. that, can never be change. haha. i mst hv been under her influence, thus him. haha. no wait. it started with bird and her ben and gary, then hf and her *beep*(cannot mention la. haha. xuann, rmb? haha.), l******, msq etc etc. HAHA. aiya, whtevr. THE TWO OF THEM AR. tsktsk."
WAD THE KUKU. WAD WADEVRR HURHHHS~ n i chgned one of the names mentioned cos abit sensitive ahhs tt character. =x
mention l****** n *beep* n msq but NEVER MENTION MY most mentionable IDOL luo jun. AIYO. wth man. HAHHAA!!
i told of my glory at 10:36 pm
BOO! i took down tt post cos i feel i shldnt do smth tt bad. aftr all, we used to b frens fr zhco. but if cos of this we fall out then i rly bwg.
ok i noe my attitude to u tt night when u told me tt u saw them helping, totally sucked. but it was just in anguish seriously. wad with 3 grps of ppl asking me out on mon n ppl dulan-ing me jst bcos i can decide. RAWRRS. im super annoyed until now. wth is this man?
1 grp asked me on saturday noon, -co outing to ecp
1 grp asked me on saturday night, -pae24 to movie at vivo
another grp asked me on saturday night. -23 outing to sentosa
HOW??! I WANT TO GO FOR ALL. except the movie lahs. im not interested in the mov. just wanna c them. =x
CO N CLASS. WHICH ONE??! I WANNA GO BOTH!!
i told of my glory at 9:49 pm
BOO! PEOPLE, HUIFANG DECLARES.
she can b real bitchy;
she can b a sore loser at times;
she's a perfectionist at times;
she is ambitious;
she is easily irritated;
she's lazy;
she's always zi-high-ing;
but wad to do, she's HUIFANG!! :))))) accept or reject? ur choice.
aww im just dg smth to random to push down the pretty previous post. :D
i told of my glory at 3:55 pm