Tuesday, 30 September 2008
chapter 227:
if everyday were like today,
maybe the bad past wouldnt have happened..
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errrr.
i felt very proud of myself just now cos i keng-ed a JJC girl yesterday till she's positive. EH. MY FIRST REAL CS OKAY.. :D
then today mr mengwee help me keng my downline back :D hahas. see! networking is helping one another!! :D and he damn bad! when he was leaving e room, he shook hand with downline then cos i also wanna extra abit also wanna shake hand but he dont want! :( then he turned back a few steps and shook hand with me then pull me dont let go and wanna close e stupid door. BAD HOR? =x
anyways, somehow i feel that things are really changing for the better yes yes yes!
income is rolling in!! :D
blazer-day soon!
and im tired ): YAWNS. waiting for hari raya to end so that azurapig can consolidate all her angbaos and bring me to suki sushi for my birthdayyy (VERY VERY belated) =ppp
andiloveyoumorethananythingicantellyou.
i told of my glory at 11:48 pm
Monday, 29 September 2008
chapter 226:
why do i have to go through the trauma of enduring through your tantrums,
if it was all about our happiness..
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you know, sometimes it's really tiring having to decipher whether youre in a good mood today.
it's really heartwarming when you ask if i need your help.
no doubt people would expect that it's obligatory on your part.
but to me, it makes a great difference.
the so many things youve been through, ive been through...
today's been such a great day with you by my side cos you motivated me to go on,
to fight on,
to carry on.
and to assure me that you havent given up on me.
i can feel that hope.
i felt like i could really do it.
i know i can, with you always helping me along :D
YAY I LOVE MY UPLINE! (:
day was great. i keng-ed this JJC girl. LOLs. damn funny. cos jimmy was busy, longjun was busy, and mr meng was unreachable cos his phone batt flat! NO ONE DO COFFEE-SESSION FOR US! ARGH. so not knowing what time mr meng would be back, me and lifung were SUPER frantic. HAHA. cos there was that girl to settle, a recruitment to settle, and... NO ONE WAS FREE TO HELP!! LOL. in the end i helped talk to the girl when i was back from my dinner and something damn funny happened.
upline *came over* "ehh huifang"
hf "ahh, upline wait okay i talk to her first.."
upline *act sad* "orh leave me alone liao lor"
EHH, DID I HEAR WRONGLY OR WAS IT LIKE THAT? he said it in mandarin and it sounded like "throw him there and dont care him" (direct translation). was pretty TRAUMATISED. lol. and HWOA. found it great to talk to her leh! she's really nice and expresses her views, takes my views into consideration blah.. :D and when stupid meng came he started SHOOTING me LAH! ): telling her he got nickname for me and he also got nickname for lifung. ): BAD HOR HE. then laughed so happily. somemore i wanted to walk away go find upline after passing her over to him but he asked me to get a chair sit down also. RAWRRRRR!! stupid mr mengwee lahhh. lol.
and stupid upline so vain but he wear contacts VERY NOOB =p haha. he took out his contacts at the cubicle lah! SO ER XIN. his eyes look DAMN small when he wear contacts lo! LOL. wanted to tell him but dont know how to put it to him lah! =p
oh yeaa, dropped by lynette's place today :D pianists charm meee :D but not jeanette lah im not les. LOL. but jeanette played really well! OH WELL. =x kinda thinking about some things in the past. haha.
i shall go plan out my schedule. everything seems in such a mess! ARGH..
YAY I LOVE MY FALCONS :D
thank you thank you thank you (:
3 times means i mean it.
i told of my glory at 11:26 pm
Sunday, 28 September 2008
A Moment like This
What if I told you it was all meant to be
Would you believe me
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
We've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here now
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Ohh!
(A moment) Like this!
(A moment) Ohh!
I can't believe it's happening to me!
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Ohh
Like this
i am feeling.. very positive..
very..
cos im hitting mm..
soon..
soon..
soon...
CA said i have to be positive no matter what.
so im feeling positive..
i told of my glory at 11:44 pm
chapter 225:
it's that great a difference.
i know i couldnt be wrong..
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let me tell you these:
1. F1 is damn EFFING cool to look at. i swear i wanna get my butt into a sportscar soon enough! :D
2. PSP SLIM IS VERY THE CHIO. i guess im kinda slow LOL. but anyways, lawlaw bought his like... last year? HAHA. but now i find it chio CAN? 290$ at Best. most prob dad's gonna get it for me =p though initially he said if i promote to J2 then he's gonna get it for me but.... he himself is VERY interested in it also okay!! =ppp
TIRED. T.T
is it worth it?
i know i have done too much wrong for you to even forgive me.
i know you read this.
why, why havent you just..
left me alone.
i told of my glory at 11:14 pm
chapter 224:
ru guo ni zou, wo ye zou..
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went to marina sq today with azurapig cos i got the dates wrong ): apparently im only meeting 4e6 gang next saturday. ARGH. miscommunication btwn me and abiday ): but anyway, azurapig just got off work so she brought me to the F1 thereeeee. the sound of F1 was damn shiok shiok shiok!! HEAR ALR MY HEART FLY UP INTO OUTER SPACE SIO! the ferrari and blahs blahs OMG. damn effing chio and the sound was OMG. i couldnt even hear myself talk you know!! ARGH! (im gonna dream about sport cars tonight)
day didnt go too well i guess? oh well.
spare myself the pain of recalling everything again.
but anyway, im fighting for myself.
i stayed for the wrong reason.
but im gonna go on for the right reason (i guess..)
oh well.
as what upline's msn nick says, this is life..
it's that fucked up.
DAMN.
i told of my glory at 12:00 am
Friday, 26 September 2008
chapter 223:
bu rang ni zou de li you..
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today was fun :D
MY LOVELY CAR ACHIEVER SAYS HE'LL GIVE ME 300BUCKS TO BUY BLAZER IF I HIT MM THIS MONTH!! OMGOMG :D
but if i hit next month, 100bucks only! SAD HOR? :( but better than none! HAHAS
so today went to bugis with the girls after their chinese paper.
asked them about their paper and guess what, their reaction was "DIE DIE DIE!"
HAHA. whats new. promos this year seems to kill =x
had VERY NICE nasi lemak :D
had good laughs on AH KONG, AH BA and AH PAU. lol! PRIVATE JOKE :DD
but really, laughed till stomachache leh! HAHAS.
and i spent ~70bucks today on shopping!
on a top, a vest, a pair of flats, a pair of blingbling earrings, and uhhh, a sash! HWOA.
stupid tammy keep suan-ing me say "AIYOH SO NV REN WEI!" when i took the blouse with vest to try on at lavendercloset. NABEI! she very evil right. ): THIS IS MY LOVE FOR YOU. oh well! then she was like "ehhh ex leh.." but feeling was right so i bought it! BUT REALLY QUITE EX HOR? LOL. $52.50 for a blouse with a vest. but nice leh! OH WELL. then we walked somemore and TA-DAH, day went so well with some retail therapy :D somemore the amount is can claim from mummy one! :D
AND TODAY CAR ACHIEVER VERY FUNNY COS HE THOUGHT I WAS NEGATIVE ABOUT HIM A FEW DAYS BACK :DDD
so cute right! LOL. he was like.. so serious, and told me he wanna talk to me over his dinner (cos id eaten mine with azurapig) and well, he asked me how are my papers.. ): didnt touch on the topic on why i was negative cos last minute i had to help him handle something else (:
it was until.. after everything had been settled and he was downstairs with me and azurapig. she was doing her calling then he asked why i negative him sio. I NEVER NEGATIVE HIM :( and he still quote
but i was REALLY sad lah!
cos he asked me why i joined ve, what am i there for?
i told him i'll tell him when i hit mm.
then he said that's bullshit ):
i told him i dont know
he then wrote on the paper what do you wanna achieve in ve?
i told him everything
he wrote what is everything?
i told him YOUNGEST FEMALE CAR ACHIEVER
then he decided to resume his ability of speech,
and asked me, why did you stay?
i said i dont know..
it's like, there's something i wanna say but i cant.
he told me to look for him in future if there's any problem i face.
cos he treats me as his own downline.
so he wants me to treat him as my own upline, (but having to report to my own upline too of cos).
he told me if there's any help i need i should look for him.
if there's any planning i need i should find him.
if there's anything i even wanna say,
i should tell him.
to me,
maybe this is all i ask for.
maybe it's enough for me.
considering that he has so much to fight for, so many people to teach..
but people are never satisfied.. right?
wanting to own something that never will be,
inability to control what my mind thinks,
i gotta solve my own negativity. (:
then after that i was.. i forgot saying what then he negative me through his language then this super funny conversation took place.
hf- you still say you never negative me. see lah, scold me ):
mw- WAH! i only negative you when you self-praise okay.
hf- no lo. is SELF-CONFIDENCE not self-praise!
mw- YAH RIGHT. you tell diming lo, see how he react.
mw- *tells diming* she very BHB one leh!
hf- dont want lah. i shy. i dno him well leh.
mw- okay then you self-intro to me, *to diming* diming you hear what she say.
dm- orh.
hf- i am cute, adorable, innocent, young, cute, adorable, cute, adorable, cute, adorable (:
dm- why repeat cute and adorable?
hf- emphasize ma!
mw- YOU SEE! NABEI. KNS LAH sure negative one.
hf- *to diming* he's just jealous that im cuter than him lor.. :D
think poor diming super terrorised. HAHA. but you see, my CA has ways of cheering me up luh :D
he knew i was really very very negative at that point of time.
this is the first time he talked to me about such things.
and he even told me he was negative when he got his car incentive, like what miss lois had assumed then.
im sorry mr mengwee..
i promise i wont again (:
tmr evening im gonna meet my ddays and my 4e6 gang. i missed their previous outing lah!! TMR IS TO TIMBRE :D
LOVES~
felt like love..
i told of my glory at 11:26 pm
Thursday, 25 September 2008
chapter 222:
he's a godsend..
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final paper i'd call it.
i dont know if i'll promote or go to poly.
i really dont know.
stop asking me.
im not stressed out.
im just.... FEELING WEIRD. LOL! =x
his voice over the phone just makes me fly up to the sky..
of cos im dreaming.
he's always making me dream.
he's better than any dream come true.
anyway my dreams are usually very extreme- either is totally come true, or totally OUT. i dreamt about econs testing on LIQUIDITY TRAP. woke up this morning, frantic, crammed as much into my brain as possible (literally nothing) and ended up it didnt come out AT ALL. OH MAN!
he's just like a godsend,
there to always make me smile,
always there for me,
always caring for me,
i somehow feel like he's a brother to me.
went to orchard with regina and lover today. shant mention lover's name due to some personal reasons. lol. but is uhhh, NOT REALLY my lover lah, just that... never mind. LOL. we went to apply to taka for gift wrap during xmas period. WAH. so early right? but we're not first leh! but we're early! :D LOL. then i ate my lovelylovely noodle omelette! LOVES! WAHAHA!! then we went to isetan's PRIVATE SALE! wahhh sounds chim right, actually is cos LOVER's fren is working there then he bring us in. is actually only for isetan cardholders!! BUT HORRRR, THE CROWD IS STILL VERY SCARY COS THINGS ARE REALLY CHEAP!! SAW A DAMN DAMN DAMN CHIO CHIO CHIO BLAZER 30% DISCOUNT THEN ONLY SELLING AT 103$ NOW SEH! DAMN DAMN CHIO IS PERFECT IS WHAT I WANT!! BUT THE QUEUE WAS SO EFFING LONG I GAVE UP :( SAD LAH!! HAISSSS.
shall go back some other day and buy it at 139$ :(
oh well.
I FEEL A SENSE OF FREEDOM EH!~
till tmr!~
finally can get my formal blackie out to wear le! :DDD
Angels brought me here~
It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes
My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
Forever thankful
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayer
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayer (Yes they brought me here)
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
i told of my glory at 11:06 pm
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
chapter 221:
you made my day..
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im planning for my future already.
ultimately, i might cry again,
but i know im prepared.
upline was sounding different even merely through sms.
sounded like it was much easier to talk to him, really.
mr meng was insisting on a massage just now and there was this.. highly humourous conversation..
hf- you go those kinda massage parlour got extra service de la, more shiok.
mw- idk where have leh. you know meh.
hf- have.. geylang!
mw- you bring me go lo..
hf- dont want! later i bring u go there then i get caught how!
mw- yah loh cos the bangalars like you thats why they catch you.
hf- no lo. there all ____ (a certain nationality) poks. not me hor. and there not bangalars one!
mw- is lor. THE BANGALARS LIKE YOU!
ehhhh? T.T then until my hands tired liao mr zhiliang take over cos he wanted to ask mr meng things. LOL. like very shiok right, people help you massage..
that's a car achiever's privilege luh~
never mind when im a manager i ask my downline to help me massage also HAHA :D
oh well.
didnt get to see upline today cos he's out for appt with mr meng's d/d/l. haha.
till tmr then. "final" paper :D
i told of my glory at 10:07 pm
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
chapter 220:
you made the difference..
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one phone call,
and it motivated me to blog properly.
from CA,
he asked about my exams.
told him about how negative i was.
then he asked "huh.. so how"
im glad he still remembers im having my exams.
asked if im going tmr.
i said yes.
he said "oh okay i'll see you tmr then"
his voice just brightened up my day, chased away all that fear and gave me that great boost of confidence.
all because he cares..
it's these small gestures which allow me to still be here where i am today.
it's these simple phone calls which remind me that there's always someone for me to fall back on no matter what happens.
finally im confident,
no matter who else there is,
im still under him (:
i told of my glory at 10:12 pm
broken pieces can never be mended.
it seems im flooded with calls for a reason- people need my help.
will you all realise how much im helping you only when im gone?
stop forcing me.
he's changing back to the unreasonable and no-room-for-discussion person.
he wont even understand me.
he wont even try to.
i told of my glory at 6:41 pm
Monday, 22 September 2008
he wont notice im gone if i really am.
i dont make a difference.
anyway,
no result,
no result,
no result,
slow,
slow,
slow.
what can he be proud of me for anyway.
nope i aint just talking about one person.
it's two.
i believe it's time i revealed my PMF of 10 months.
you will know.
i told of my glory at 11:53 pm
chapter 219:
when im losing more than what i only have..
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i hate it when he's talking to me but looking at her.
i hate it when she takes what's rightfully mine.
first my lover, now my brother?
i hate it when he's out of reach when we're finally okay.
i hate it when he talks about others with that glint in his eyes.
i want him to talk about me.
about my good.
about the change he should have already seen in me.
why are people positive about me but he never is?
why are people praising me when all he does is debase me?
im feeling damn fucking hell negative with no one to turn to.
you've taken away the two most important men i had.
what now?
WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?
stop being such an eyesore will you?
it's no wonder your ex wants you no more.
i told of my glory at 10:08 pm
Sunday, 21 September 2008
chapter 218:
once again, changing?
changing?
losing?
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oh yes, many things happened today.
wasnt in the mood to study so i got my chem tys with me on the bus on the way to 190.
reached and realised im again the only falcon there.
but then again, i dont NEED him to be there for me to be ready.
but there were different people "floating" around in falcon's cubicle!
when i put down my bag and went to the locker, i came back to see mr calvin there.
then halfway throughout e day, i saw mr ivan there =p LOL.
OH YAH, mr calvin was very very funny lol.
he was like "miss huifang". WAH. frantic! =x
lol. apparently he was here to get paper from me =x
hehs.
but he knows i keep my paper in my locker so her was like "if you dont have here never mind leh. dont need go until there. i need ONE piece will do.."
but i dont have paper with me eh. LOL!
then mr nick was..... i dont know whats his prob lah LOL.
we were standing at b1 talking then he came and walked in between us O.o
as in.. me, hobby and jac.
abit -.-||
LOL. then he act as if nothing happened.
AND YAH, MR NICK AND MR MENGWEE CANNOT COMMUNICATE ONE SEH!
mr n- want the bracelet cross design one..
mr mw- so is .... the cross one.
mr n- yah the cross one..
mr mw- the two C one lah? *gestures.
mr n- ahh yah the cross one.
i was THERE and i was like HUH?????!
WAH. one bracelet design they can describe till so jialat cos they forgot the numbr code for it. LOL! then mr mengwee still blame him say "i dont know what he talking one seh!" HAHAHA. i was like, SUPER fascinated with the way they communicate :D
I NEVER GO FOR SHA2 GROUP UP AT ICE SKATING :(
he told me some things i cant accept.
i avoided the topic.
i cant afford to lose my upline.. really..
but i dont know how im gonna bring him back..
i told of my glory at 9:30 pm
Saturday, 20 September 2008
chapter 217:
im beginning to wonder whats going on in his mind..
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today is payday, and guess what. there was a few others who also went to 190 early in the morn to collect paycheque, then chiong to parkway to cash it out! LOL.
oh something random that took place, mr calvin remembers me me me me me my name. OMG. we rarely talk yes, though i greet him whenever i see him every saturday :D so just now he was like "uhhh... huifang?" then gave the act-innocent kind of smile you know. HAHA. *shocked. LOL. oh well.
was late for tuition cos as usual, "arguing" with meng over trivial stuff.
he refused to do BP for me cos i ga jiao-ed and laughed at him when deborah came over to borrow my charger.. :( bad hor him.
IS ALWAYS LIKE THAT LEH. then he say dont wanna do BP for me cos he not happy, cos he buay song :(
then upline not around. :(
no one protect me lor :(((((((
GAHHH. but anyways, he still did the BP for me in the end though his eyes were becoming damn small cos of lack of sleep :D
SEE LAH, MY CA IS THE BEST!! xDDD
3 months has passed and i havent seen him for such a long time. hais.
and tmr is supposed to be the day i go out with them.
but oh well.
it has to drag again..
i miss you seh.
james, laiping.. those bros and smoking corner times :D
TMR IS MR JIUYUAN'S BIRTHDAY, my idol leh!! :D
and something bad just happened..
we were talking about who's cute when this happened..
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high=) says:
actually im the best right?
i wonder what was going on.
i was standing there,
i moved in to get my stuff,
and he turned around and we ended up looking in this weird posture.
i couldnt move yes,
and he didnt take the initiative to move away.
WTF!
until i said excuse me.
and he kept quiet.
i told of my glory at 10:01 pm
Friday, 19 September 2008
chapter 216:
if christmas were here tmr~
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something i gotta mention :D
mr ivan lim and i have a locker for keeping water, and his sales kit. haha!
i wonder where he conjured that locker from, seriously.
but anyways, he told me to put my water in since it was just beside my own locker :D
and and,
HE DOESNT LOCK HIS MAIN LOCKER TOO. LOL.
oh well.
group up with mr glenn today.
FREEZING IN THE ROOM ):
and mr mengwee was very funny lahh.
he was so enthu to see the video that i took of him yesterday. LOL.
his unglamness, his kiddishness playing with the videocam yesterday :D
then this funny conversation took place:
mw- eh let me see let me see!
hf- dont want! you always see liao then go see evrything in my phone one.
mw- orh okay lo. NEXT TIME DONT FIND ME FOR HELP!!
hf- walao eh you ALWAYS use this excuse one leh.
mw- NEXT TIME DONT FIND ME!
hf- nah nah nah give you see lahhh.
mw- DONT WANT *throws tantrum, pouts, acts cute*
hf- NAH NAH NAH. put in front of ur laptop screen see how you can dont see.
mw- DONT WANT.
LOL.
oh well.
how many times already has he used that excuse of "DONT FIND ME FOR HELP?" lol!
thats my car achiever :D
and since we were on the topic of my ex-downlines,
here's a vivian-inspired habit- TAKING PHOTO OF MY LOVELY CAR ACHIEVER~ :D
i told of my glory at 11:45 pm
chapter 215:
IF I GOT A MILLIONS BUCKS :D
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FUCK THAT.
my upline is VERY funny,
my CA is DAMN funny,
i love my team :D
oh yah, mr steve was looking at my upline skeptically when we were in the lift. LOL.
ABRUPT ENDING AGAIN :D
i told of my glory at 12:29 am
Wednesday, 17 September 2008
chapter 213 and 214:
just hearing your voice makes my heart skip a beat (:
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EHH, SCHOOL IS EFFING BORING. IT'S JUST STUDY, STUDY, STUDY! ARGH!!
TMR IS STUDY BREAK ALREADY!!!
OMGOMG HOW. IM VERY THE NUAH NUAH NUAH~
yawns.
abrupt ending.
i told of my glory at 11:01 pm
HWOA I FOUND MY RIVAL!
no lah, actually, a collaboration between yours truly and friend. :D
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i told of my glory at 7:07 pm
Monday, 15 September 2008
chapter 212:
without you by my side..
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mugging sucks.
really.
im getting a big headache just from those endless tutorials and i have yet to achieve MM.
ARGH!!
downline just msged me.
i kind of miss having him by my side.
cos the feeling when someone shares his thoughts with you,
you know that he really trusts you.
downline has been MIA-ing and i've found myself worrying about him day in day out,
worrying about his exams,
worrying about him having to deal with his family problems,
worrying about him facing problems with his evil ex-gf,
telling myself he's strong enough to overcome all these emotional problems.
and i never once doubted that he will leave.
downline has sprained his fingers,
wonder what stupid thing he tried to do again.. =x
but anyway,
downline's concerned about whether i've hit mm.
i've been moving.
but im still waiting for him,
Sometimes When We Touch
You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
Hold me endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I've watched while love demands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
i told of my glory at 10:15 pm
Sunday, 14 September 2008
chapter 211:
smart excuse to see me (:
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hello hello hello.
wanted to go clubbing,
wanted to go kbox,
wanted to go SOMEWHERE!
to play ):
felt sian yesterday night yes,
but in the end i went to jac's house to overnight :D
wahahas~
her house e shower ji high-tech yi xia seh!
i know im like damn lame to take this pic but EH GOT 2 TYPES OF SHOWERHEAD FOR YOU TO CHOOSE! am i sua gu? =x
and her blackie. LOL. when i walked in at 2am he was growling at me =x until this morning when we were leaving then jac told me to let him lick my hand and he'd get used to me.
and he really did! :D
never met such a friendly dog before!! SERIOUSLY!! which explains why i dont fancy going near dogs =x
and this is how well blackie blends in with my skinnies~
upline said he wasnt going to 190 today, cos i asked him online this morn if he had any activities that needed my help today. and he said he'd need my help at 3pm. and when i got to 190..... he was there o.o LOL. lucky jac's house is like super near to 190. hahas. but yea, left shortly after that.
and tell you a secret..
JUST NOW I DID MATH TUTORIAL ON MY OWN ACCORD SEH!
ended up with bad headache ): I REALLY CANT STUDY/DO HW AT HOME.
and anywayyyyy,
mr ernest is funny! :D
But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong
But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
i told of my glory at 9:46 pm
chapter 210:
yes, soon it'll be a smooth journey, im sure of it (:
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today was lantern fetival celeb. was outside talking with hobby, jac and miss corinne rather than going up for the celeb. was entertaining the cats too. lol =p mr steve came out a couple of times, and there was once whereby he took out a pull-along luggage from miss jessie's car, saying it's for his NS and he started to kind of like act-act and asked "do i look like an air steward?" LOL. he walked with that kind of uhhhh, forced style. LOL!
at night!! went to carry lantern with amelia, amirah, saleha and mr shunjie bgm group's people. HAHA. mr shunjie insisted we walk a dark alley just to admire how bright our lanterns really are. LOL.
and yes, someone said it's a gesture of acceptance.
he finally used the cufflinks i bought him.
it's the first time (:
WAHAHAS.
alright.
some negative shits can just go and die. ARGHs.
upline says it's up to me whether i fight or not.
there're people who have faith in me,
so why not? (:
ride on this wave and fight for his car with him~
do a proper update soon (:
WAHAHAHS~
i told of my glory at 2:46 am
Friday, 12 September 2008
chapter 209:
oh, public relations~
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is it good that life is turning towards this way?
this friend came by today.
we rarely talk,
but when we talk it's usually about personal/emotional stuffs.
today he came to talk to me,
and he did this action like he was gonna hold my face.
omg.
in front of so many people?
i ducked.
HAHAHA.
hahas.
that's great friends for you (:
c'mon lah dear, im shy leh~
wahahs.
i told of my glory at 11:41 pm
Thursday, 11 September 2008
chapter 208:
so many things happened,
i dont know what im feeling either..
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it feels like today wasnt today.
had a meetup with falcons, OIC mr mengwee, as miss L wasnt around. felt wronged, felt like i hated him, for the first time ever. wrote some unnecessary stuffs on my paper and i guess upline saw. went for dinner with some makos and some falcons. once again i didnt get to eat my giblets in black sauce. F.
then when i got back to 190, upline told me to go to him with my planning with azura. i dont know why.
but i kept quiet.
he talked to us about alot of things.
alot.
alot..
alot of things..
he talked about key leaders..
for the first time after 11 months of my journey, he told me "in my organisation youre my key leader already." sounds wow? i was controlling my tears.
there's more.
"mr jiuyuan told me before, rarely you can see JC student studying and still be so committed to VE. why dont train her up?"
he went on to tell me that once i hit mm, he'd teach me how to do 1st day trainings, etc etc. yes, i was listening to him, he was telling me, my tears were flowing like it was free yes. i dont know why.
i just felt scared,
insecure,
unsafe,
unsure,
i dont know.
after that, i said i wanna go home already. and he said okay, go back to the cubicle. i went to my locker before going back to the cubicle. azura went back first. and upline turned back and walked with me, telling me "you have to study, study first. but when you come down to ve you have to make good use of your time purposefully."
my upline has really changed alot.
he has learnt alot from mr jiuyuan.
he would never have encouraged me back then.
he would never talk to me looking at me straight in the eyes.
he would never have walked with me.
he would never have even told me about his clear plans for me.
on my way home, he sent me a msg.
"this month you can hit mm. just believe in yourself."
just so simple a msg,
just so familiar a journey,
yet these were different tears.
it was a mixture of happiness but with that overwhelming fear in me.
next stop: emotions management.
1st time it happened, i was with upline. i cried telling him how my parents objected to ve.
2nd time it happened, i was with the mr mengwee, jimmy, and i cant remember who else. i cried cos of so many problems with upline.
3rd time it happened, i was with azura. i cried once again cos of even more problems with upline.
today, the 4th time,
i was with upline.
i was with azura.
i cried cos i was afraid.
but cos i was glad too.
i did this personality test that chinkiong sent me. did it before 2/3 years back. decided to try it again.
results have shown:
in my life,
1st- family
2nd- career
3rd- love
4th- pride
5th- money
description of dog: LOYAL
is my own personality.
description of cat: CUTE
is my partner's personality.
description of rat: FAT
is my enemy's personality.
description of coffee: BROWN
is how i interpret sex.
description of sea: FREE
is how my life is.
yellow reminds me of mr MENGWEE
and results say he's someone i will never forget.
orange reminds me of TAMMY
results say she's my true fren.
red reminds me of mr S (i dno why)
and results say he's someone i really love.
white reminds me of LONGJUN
and results say he's my twin soul
green reminds me of AZURA
and results say she's someone i will remember for the rest of my life.
how some parts are really true,
purely coincidence?
or work of the mind?
i told of my glory at 10:43 pm
deeply inspired~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S88rkpPu8_g&feature=related
you wouldnt regret watching that.
her last note is..
OMG!
i told of my glory at 12:33 am
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
chapter 207:
i didnt know what to say,
didnt know what to do.
you brought me from darkness to light,
but left me alone in the light..
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it feels weird to reply your msg in that tone.
it really does.
...
just went to someone's blog.
why does she have to do things like that.
fuck that.
listen to this:
im gonna make you see the change.
but would it be too late?
will you wait for me?
i cant believe how some things happen at times.
"some things dont need a reason"
true enough, who would expect us to even turn out this way?
the same sense of humour
the same guai-lan-ness,
the same SLEEP SNORE SLEEP SNORE (:
the same....
the list goes on.
too many similarities between us.
good?
or bad?
sharing a meal with you is sweet,
cos i feel like youre a brother to me.
being scolded by you makes me feel miserable,
cos i feel like youre a father to me.
having fun and late nights out with you are the times when im happy,
im really letting go of everything,
without worries,
just to seize the moment.
much as i wanted to go with him last sunday, i couldnt.
yes, regret.
but soon, after my exams.
yes, go havoc lah.. (:
i made the right choice to STAY BECAUSE OF YOU.
if not for that infatuation,
i might not be where i am today..
you, you, you,
you who made me cry it all out when i was feeling lost,
you who made me laugh when i cried,
you who taught me far too much,
you who never failed to think for me,
you who never failed to make me motivated,
you who always was there for me
no matter what time,
where,
when..
it's beyond whatever kind of relationship you all can think off.
being so overly conscious with people asking about us?
forget it.
get back to the books.
promos are the new black.
everyone's talking about it~
女：没有起伏的情绪 因为你出现后划破平静
震撼我已经封闭的心 冰山和雪在溶解
男：回到初次的相遇 风在吹一个人独自美丽
灰的天空为何没有表情 你的心下雨
女：就让我爱你 没有了自己
男：残破的光影 黑暗中深深吸引
绝对地 就算生命所剩无几
合：只要拥抱瞬间的默契
女：就让我爱你 证明有奇迹
男：再狂野的心 灵魂的深处有你
我愿意 放弃世界微笑而去
合：幸福很远心却在一起
女：过去总是挥不去
男：再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒
女：我的泪水淌过你的天空
男：雨下不停 心好痛
男：风像画笔看着我
你的容颜竟在风的前头
女：我的心画出第一次的彩虹
合：因为你 我相信
就让我爱你 证明有奇迹
合：我愿意
男: 放弃世界微笑而去
合: 下一个世纪 让我爱你
i told of my glory at 9:43 pm
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
chapter 206:
oh absolutely right.
VERY GOOD!
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absolutely good,
absolutely right!
mr idol was hovering around for maybe half a day or even 3/4 the day. no matter where i was, he'd coincidentally be having a CS right infront of me~ next table somemore. WOOTS~ YES. i am still very-the-motivated whenever i see him. he sounds so totally convincing + professional + OMG~ YES.
and mr jiuyuan was very funny. he asked if he went to the other end of b1 would the bluetooth still work. and mr mengwee scolded him "you think your bluetooth so tokong ah?"
COFFEE WITH MR STEVEN.
MOTIVATED YES, 100%!! mr steven is really really really impressive yes. WOOTS. his new car is coming in one week's time!! CANT WAIT TO SEE IT :D and hopefully go for a round in it toooooo =p lalas~
FIGHT~ YES!!
and good night, i hate bastards who try to act like their taunting and making someone yearn for them. YUCK. as a 3rd person viewing such a scenario, i find you a total turn off. EEW. highly childish behaviour~
i told of my glory at 10:30 pm
Monday, 8 September 2008
chapter 205:
you just wouldnt give me a chance :(
aww man!!
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1. morning training :D
2. mr ERNEST!! aww man he's really so.. KIDDISH but such a nice and helpful person!!
3. MR JY IS MY NEW IDOL LOL.
4. MR JY and MR S were hosts for slideshow!
so yes, had morning training under MR JIUYUAN and miss chelsy~
FUN. ABC TEE UP AND B ROLE. :D
and and and, HWOA mr ernest is very helpful!! cos mr nick borrowed my file for appointment yesterday so i asked ernest if he brought any kit back. so ernest took mr nick's bunch of keys and went to the locker area with me and REALLY FUNNY! cos the lockers' locks all got problem one!! so ernest opened locker A, no kit. but i didnt see him open and thought he didnt open it. so when he opened locker B, he found mr steve's file in the kit inside. so i :( and asked him about the other locker. so he opened locker A again (struggled, yes.) and showed me... a locker with many many bottles of calwater stored in it O.o YES, MR NICK USES A LOCKER TO KEEP WATER, A LOCKER TO KEEP SALES KIT, AND I LOCKER TO KEEP HIS OWN STUFF. how the
so yes, when i found mr nick at level 1, apparently he IS really blur o.o he passed his agent my file, and his agent didnt come today O.o in the end when doing the mass PP i was flipping flipping flipping =x zzz. cos i was using other's file. NOT USED TO IT!
and mr jiuyuan is REALLY DAMN zhai~
WOOTS!! :D
listening to his BP makes me DAMN motivated!!
complete with a coffee with mr mengweeeeee :D
HAHAS!!
and yes, YES, MR JY was the host, with MR STEVE.
oh man, can you feel the heat?!
MY 2 IDOLS ON STAGE OMGGG~
actually, the mako managers are really nice!! mr jiuyuan zhiliang darren shiyong etc etc :D
WOOTS~ i got the bonds man! :D
i told of my glory at 10:32 pm
Sunday, 7 September 2008
chapter 204:
you dont know youre what you told me to look for..
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day was weird i guess~
woke up at 12pm to NO BREAKFAST (on a sunday, thats weird)
detoured quite alot,
reached at.. 2.30pm?
"WAHHH FINALLY SOMEONE COME!! i need you take over training!! i got appointment at 3pm at YCK leh!!"
huh.. i just reached and already kenna bombed by mr mengwee.
humph. no excuses luh. take over lo.
went through this and that, this and that..
was at level 1 talking to mr mengwee and myron about someone coming when IDOL walked, posed, walked, posed. HE HAS THE CUTTINGS OF A MODEL OMG. LOL!! =x
upline came, had group up at pkms. YJ said something wrong and i caught his meaning which only implies how much 'hope' upline puts in me. but fcuk care that. went back to 190 and was talking with mr mengwee.
and mr mengwee is super badddd!! we had this conversation..
MW- eh when you gonna hit your mm?
hf- dno. anyway i say liao, then miss, people say i slow. so say dno lo.
MW- nabeh..
hf- WHAT. REALLY MA! hais. suan le. anyway im fighting for myself..
MW- walao eh. fight for yourself no wonder so slow. go find other PMF leh.
hf- for myself..
MW- WAH next time dont find me for help..
hf- HARRR. WHY YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT ONE ):
MW- go find other PMF!! pace SS lah!!
hf- HE LCI ACHIEVER LEH.. walao.
MW- YAH LAH! pace him! quick! then hit your BM.
hf- .....
brrr. after that, went for dinner and came back after 1 hour plus. long time since i had such an enjoyable meal :D
after that, was really motivated to call call call. maybe it's cos CA was just there beside me, maybe it was cos upline places higher hopes on others rather than on me. so yes, CA never fails to motivate me just with his presence :D
loveliest CA mr mengwee wanted to go watch movie. LOL. damn funny conversation we had yes, and his downlines didnt wanna go. and i couldnt go cos tmr there's school early in the morn. im so sorry mr mengwee :( so yes, he was being a real pain by using the pen to KOK my head and playing with the rubberband, shooting me with it :( and yes, SUAN-ing me about my upline again. baskett~
we once had this CLASSIC conversation 1-2 months back when we were sharing fries..
hf- EH! dont snatch! i want this one!
MW- WHY! I WANT LEH.
hf- long long one heh. i prefer long fries lah. nicer~
MW- ORHHH LONG LONG ONE AH!! YOU LIKE LONGJUN'S LONG LONG ONE.
hf- WTH!!!
and yes, he's suan-ing me about it again today, just cos we were talking about this before that..
MW- ____ tmr coming with you?
hf- no. she got pw lesson.
MW- har? pw got lesson one ah. then you dont hve meh?
hf- no lah! last yr i take a level liao!
MW- HAR? PW HOW TO TAKE A LEVEL ONE?
hf- last yr got oral presentation.. I GOT B LEH!! :D
MW- HAR? B only ah. you never practice on LJ! practice liao sure A one! his LONG LONG ONE!
hf- !!!!!!!#@$%^^$#!@ WTH!
MW- HAHAHHAA. sure one. cos you never practice then the examiner not shiok enough thats why you never get A.
and even worse! just now he was like, talking so much... IMPURE STUFF. then i scolded him to EH STOP WATCHING SO MUCH PORN AT NIGHT. and guess what..
MW- you then watch alot of porn lo! thats why when i see your face it reads P-O-R-N. haha!
hf- yea right. is you who watch too much porn and pollute my innocent mind!
MW- actually hor... *innocently* before you join i wasnt like that leh! after your batch of people join then i like that one lor!!
hf- HA! HWOA NOT BAD LEH, I INFLUENCE YOU TO THINK THIS WAY LOL!!
MW- WTF!%^%*&$#%*&%#$
$%^&*#$@!$ yes, thats my lovely 19 yr old CA for you~ :D
he's really random and really funny at all times.
and he, as always, likes to open up my locker to look for stuff in it. o.o
and we were fighting (oh yes, as usual) over my handphone, my book blah blah. ARGH.
he super KAYPOH eh! what i write in my book he also wanna see!
he never fails to brighten up my day (:
yes, i do love my CA alot!!
my CA with skinny jeans~ LOL.
how much more to go through to be with you?
or never at all..?
yes, i wonder..
meant for each other?
how about reconsidering your words..
i told of my glory at 10:50 pm
this, is chapter 203 for you.
really, should i leave?
a fulltimer still there despite having fallen so many times,
a parttimer to give up just like this?
but im so tired of everything.
so tired of not having time for myself.
wannna study so much but am unable to settle myself down to do so..
i set my mind on going on this journey with him,
not stepping back.
but..
should i leave?
there are so many reasons for me to leave,
but one big reason for me to stay..
yes, i will not be lost.
until the day that.....
it's alright. as long as one person understands, it's enough.
i told of my glory at 12:52 am
Friday, 5 September 2008
chapter 202:
that enthusiasm, it's catching me..
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TODAY WAS A REALLY WEIRD BUT REALLY FUNNY DAYYYY~
i woke up at 12.20pm today! OMG~ hahas. hows that for a study break eh?
orite so today was REALLY weird but funny cos of the following things which happened:
1. ivan lim called me li fung just cos i havent hit MM. *EXCUSE!
2. mr LP loves me HA!
3. got mobbed by mr steve and mr nick! LOL. ---> REALLY FUNNY (last part of post)
orite so YES, mr ivan lim called me li fung and when i started whining he said "OH cos you havent hit MM so i dont call you MISS HF. HAHAHHA." OH MAN! he's super funny lah! and for the rest of the day he kept calling me li fung. ARGHS #(%*(&*^#(%@$%^ stupid ivan lim lol. and the funniest was when i was on my way to the mrt station, zhiliang, eric and him were walking towards me. so this conversation took place~
zhiliang "wahhh succeed alr ah can go home alr horrrr"
hf "HAR? i got smth on.."
mr ivan "BYE LI FUNG!"
zhiliang "HAR? she is HF!"
mr ivan "NOOOO SHE IS LI FUNG~"
zhiliang "HARRR?" *super innocently.
LOL. poor zhiliang xD he didnt catch the part where ivan called me li fung in B1 which explains why he REALLY thought ivan called me WRONGLY accidentally =ppp
then yes, i was being a nice person today okay :D mr LP was suffering from a serious case of diarrhea and came asking if anyone had a calPLUS to spare. so i gave him one :D AND HE SAID "OH WA!! I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU!!" LOL. damn funny. there were these 2 new guys there and they STARED at him lah! LOL. you know, LP's really such a joker at times :D but damn funny cos he was pretty loud and yea, the guys who dont know who he is didnt know he's joking lah! LOL. and poor mr LP was still diarrhea-ing after a whole day and in the evening when i was leaving i met him at the lift lobby, so i asked him how he's feeling and he was like *MOANS~ "but THANKS!! your calPLUS helped me alot man!" LOL.
and yes, got "mobbed" by mr steve and mr nick when i was leaving~ LOL. was walking out of the lift at level 1 when i saw mr steve POSING~ hha! REALLY, he was leaning against the wall and posing! then when i walked out both of them turned and..
mr S *loudly "HUIFANG AH HUIFANG!"
hf "HARRRR?" *stunned and shocked cos hair is messy and im clutching a small fresh milk carton
mr S "STILL HAVENT HIT MM! SO SLOW~ zi hui hitting soon already leh. she left 7k plus."
hf "I LEFT 5K!"
mr N "sure bo? dont bluff me horr! i can go admin check one leh!"
hf "errrr. 5.5k lah....."
*mr n continues looking at me skeptically.
hf "AIYAH, 5,582 LV LAH!"
mr N *nods head.
mr S "ORH, 5K HAO LIAN HAR. THEN STILL DONT WANT HIT!"
hf "harrr? my downline go appt liao! pending!!"
mr S "THEN YOU STILL HERE?!"
hf "HAR? not now appt! is that day appt de pending!!"
mr S "orhhh.."
mr N "ORHHHH, yuan lai ru ci. still can pending one hor."
hf "har? ....."
*2 moments of silence~
mr S "miss lois leh? she just come ah?"
hf "yahhh. kind of. she sick luhh.. doc ask her rest more.."
mr N "HAR?"
hf "cannot under stress luh.. need more rest.."
mr N *tells mr S "i still thought pregnant sia." *giggles.
hf "HAR?"
mr N "nothing nothing.." *snickers~
hf "orhh.. uh, i got to go alr.. got tuition."
mr N "HAR? TUITION ARH.."
mr S "orh byebye~"
LALALA LOL. the both of them are super funny. and seriously, WE TALK REALLY NO LINK ONE RIGHT. from LV to miss lois. LOL. oh well taurus~ xD no wonder miss lois says im a falcon betrayer and i belong to taurus. HAHA. no choice if i know more people from taurus right LOLS~ but really, they're VERY VERY humorous. :DDD
oh yah most-important-guy-in-my-life did something funny today. we were at the chicken rice stall for lunch and he asked the uncle "got sell pau anot?" cos he insisted on making me eat tau sar pau. WHAT AN A*S =ppp
我 我为你付出所有的
我的担心 我的甜蜜 我的呼吸
你的笑 绝对的神奇
你的哭 绝对的可惜
因为你 让我明白生命的真谛
可知道 你的不小心
会让我伤心一辈子
我是愿意为了你 今生永不渝
为我 你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习 不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底 坚定不移
为我 你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路 总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝 不要怀疑
最爱就是你
你 你是我一生的唯一
你的声音 你的鼓励 我的意义
可知道 你的不小心
会让我伤心一辈子
我是愿意为了你 今生永不渝
为我 你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习 不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底 坚定不移
为我 你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路 总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝 不要怀疑
最爱就是你
如果没好好的身体
你我怎能永远在一起
外面的风和雨 已不是问题
为我 你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习 不要乾焦急
一步一步走出每一个谷底 坚定不移
为我 你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路 总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝 不要怀疑
最爱就是你
i told of my glory at 11:39 pm
Thursday, 4 September 2008
chapter 201:
OHHHH losing focus ehh!! =x
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mr steve is aggressive, aggreSSIVE, AGGRESSIVE!!
the way he keng people. OMG~
i was at falcon's today,
FOCUSED ON MY OWN STUFF.
when suddenly,
"SO i tell you, WHAT IF! today you may..... *blah blah*"
i turned my head around so quickly that my neck cricked. even jacob turned around at that same moment.
that clear, loud, clear, loud voice~
HAHHAA. he was keng-ing these 2 guys. HWOA. i think.. i wonder how many girls have died under such keng-ings of his. =xxx cos sure die dIE DIE!!
then after that, at the cafe with jimmy, amelia and miss zhiying for lunc-ner, HEARD HIS VOICE AGAIN! one end of the cafe he was at, the other end of it i was at. and i could still hear whatever he said. woww~
he somehow gave me a small shock when i was contemplating whether to greet him anot, then suddenly he asked me "huifang ah, you got motorola charger?" *shows razr phone. LOL.
AND AND AND I THOUGHT I LOST THE CHALLENGE!! cos mr steve was pointing to the challenge sheet and talking to mr nick and he said what "shu1 le shu1 le.. *blah blah" HWOA. then after that when i was walking out of falcon's he saw me and SIGHED very loudly and said "SHU1! ......" WALAO. i almost died of fright lah please! ONE DAY WANNA SCARE ME HOW MANY TIMES SIA LOL. but he uh! REALLY DAMN FUNNY PLEASE.
OH WELL,
i shall hit MM by the 15th and hit BM within 2 months SO THAT I CAN WIN DARREN. haah! :D orite the BM thing is yea.. hhaa. idk yet LAH~
i told of my glory at 10:28 pm
Wednesday, 3 September 2008
chapter 200:
the different you, reaching the 2nd 100th mark with me..
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when you smile, everything seems so right.
when you praise me, i know i've finally done something right.
when you scold me, it seems the whole world's falling apart.
when i see you so deep in concentration, i know you mean well.
i am not his one and only "alive" downline.
i am not his one and only hope to hit his PCI.
but i am part of his organisation, and i will not give up no matter what comes my way.
people do change. and i believe many have seen the change in my upline.
i told you i want you to clear your first month for PCI.
and i mean it.
i dont care what your reply is.
how crap you really are at times,
cos i know it means you bother about me.
it's been really fulfilling being your downline,
and it will stay that way.
downlines never give up on their uplines.
cos we're all learning together.
thank you miss lois.
you taught me that.
remember how bad the situation it was?
when it was always M im stuck with whenever i went to 190.
people either said i dont have an upline or my upline is someone else.
everyone was negative about you infront of me, not knowing im your downline, but that you were just some random falcon.
c'mon people, times have changed :D
i told of my glory at 10:15 pm
Tuesday, 2 September 2008
chapter 199:
it starts from me, then spreads to us (:
cheers to a bright tmr~
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DOWNLINE GONNA HAVE HER FIRST APPT TMR!!
im so excited about it man.
haha. dropped upline a msg thanking him and expressing my HEARTFELT hopes that he'll clear this month as 1st month on his way to becoming a car achiever!!
THEN HE WAS SO EVIL LEH! say "yaya" then say im not around to help him :( OH WELL. today and tmr got tuition chiong-ing leh. NO CHOICE. SIAN!
hahas.
but i really really hope upline can come up as a car achiever! THEN I WILL ALSO GET MY MUCH-YEARNED-FOR BLACKJACKET ASAP!! TWO WEEKS TWO WEEKS MORE!! I MUST HIT I MUST HIT!! :D
i told of my glory at 9:56 pm
who says an inexperienced teacher is a bad teacher? my econs teacher rocks big time please!! MR HAROLD :D
"Hello! Just like to say a big thank you to all of u for tt special evening. I was truly touched by your class. U all made feel feel as if i am part of 0820. Cant thank u all enough for being part of this unforgettable experience in nyjc. I've read the notes u have written for me. And I am glad tt u have benefitted from my lessons. Am especially impressed by the design and decorations by the guys! U all beat me hands down in art. haha. Thank you for the heartfelt words. They really mean alot to me.
As for ur promos, continue to work hard, and as i have said b4, U can sms me or email me of u have short questions. I'l be happy to help. So u all technically have 2 teachers now! =) I'll be back on dec 23rd this year for christmas, b4 flying off again in 3 weeks' time. So we'll meet up again ya! Hopefully I'll be able to recieve good news from u all, and i'll also share my experience in the cambridge with all of u! haha. I'm no longer ur teacher, so dun just contact me only abt econs la. If u need my help in anything, just ask me! aND If any of u would like me to help u buy anything from london. . . Let me know also! =)
So, goodbye for now. And yes, i wont forget all of u, and i will miss u all dearly! Pls also convey my thanks to those classmates of yours who do not have facebook. haha."
SEE WHAT I MEAN? and anyway, junyi's super HAPPY cos he mentioned the deco by the guys. OH WELL! :D he cut his into a maple leaf somemore. hahas. i never knew my class had guys were this..... "got heart". in a way. lol. but yea, will miss him though im like,
the always-sleeping-in-his-class and doesnt-hand-in-econs-homework student, and the failed-econs-with-a-big-fat-H2-U during the mid yrs. HAIS! time flies..
i told of my glory at 1:44 am
Monday, 1 September 2008
chapter 198:
it's great when you smile,
cos the whole world starts to seem so right..
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STUDY STUDY
NO! is do maths. SIAN.
in school today with ben and clement and tammy. ARGH. damn sian please. do till blur blur. REALLY BLUR ONE YOU KNOW. on the bus to 190 i was STONING o.o so was tammy luh! OH YAH, TAMMY MADE AI XIN BIAN DANG for me lol! THANKS DARLING!! :D wahahas. saw punggolian in school and stupid PUIPUI kept on ga jiao-ing me. walao and i was unglam for a moment =xx OH WELL. then stupid ben is SUPER GUAILAN. he couldnt stop kb-ing clement! LOL. poor clement xDDD but anyways, i only managed to complete 10b. IS ENOUGH FOR ME. almost died from overdose of vectors already. WANNA DIE LAH. sian!
then went down to 190 with tammy. glad to see upline so happy today. placing hope on anasthasya now. upline seems REALLY glad :D have i finally found my 2nd key leader? hmms. we shall see about it! feeling damn guilty though. cos im always not there when she is!! ARGH. thursday!! tmr there's tuition and i wont be around again. DAMNIT LAH. and and and, hopefully tammy will be my 3rd line!! C'MON C'MON I NEED TO PROVE TO MR STEVE THAT IM NOT SLOW!! lol okay, prove to the whole world too! to those who always encourage me and those who have already hit! IM CATCHING UP!!!
oh yah! and some stupid ungentlemanly brainless no-human-instinct brats can just EFF off and die. SERIOUSLY! i have a recruitment for tmr, and somehow or other he realised that my company is his ex-company and also his current company's enemy! so he tried to act like some handsome dude trying to jio a girl out and tried to get me down to HIS company instead!! WHAT A HYPOCRITE!! that's not all. after my blatant rejection to express interest in his company, he DID NOT REPLY. so cynthia taught me a reallllllly nice tactic. to send "if youre not coming please have the courtesy to tell me" HAHAHA. so i sent that and he replied "i highly apologise for my lack of courtesy in replying your msg cos i hereby express NO interest in entertaining your company for an hour as i do not find meaning in attending a session i do not benefit from. THANK YOU." HWOA HAHAHA. i was super entertained by his bombastic sms-language. but anyway, ARGHS. some guys just suck. LOL! :p
is it worth it that i should exchange his happiness for your pain?
his smile for yours?
am i doing the right thing?
there's no one to guide me on this.
this seems just like the right thing by logic,
yet wrong thing by heart.
im feeling lost, i cant have the best of both worlds.
is it true,
that everyone can only have one person in their life?
c'mon bro.
why cant things be the same again?
oh yes, limzijie forgot my birthday. YES IM TOTALLY HEARTBROKEN..
oh well, what else better can happen when people get attached~
i told of my glory at 10:31 pm
chapter 197:
it's different when youre there beside me..
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1. saw a effing CHIO YELLOW LAMBORGHINI Murcielago beside ME!!
2. walked past another CHIO CHIO YELLOW LAMBORGHINI Murcielago!! (same model but different owner!)
3. walked past a
OMG ECSTATIC! NOT EVERYONE KNOWS WHATS THE THRILL OF SEEING SUCH CHIO CHIO CARS ON THE STREETS COS IT'S LIKE.. THE HIGHEST POSSIBILITY OF SEEING SUCH CARS ON THE ROAD IS AT ORCHARD AND TODAY I SAW 3 SUCH CARS!! AND MANY MANY BMWs.
take me for a stroll along orchard road to spot all those continental cars :D ECSTASY SIO!
so yes, other than that, i got SUAN-ed by mr steve in the lift today. ARGH. he's such a........ %&*%$#%^&%$# LOL. situation went like that:
i was at level 1 cos i was looking for somewhere to set up my kit for upline's recruitment. then level 1 had NO space, so i wanted to go up to level 3. when i walked back to the lift lobby, mr steve was also there. then there were these 2 or 3 people in the lift. arrow was pointing up, but apparently the down button was pressed outside. so mr steve asked if they were going up or down and somehow or other they gave some weird reply which pissed him off. so he was like, idk, kb-ing? so i tried to ignore that =x then when the next lift came we went in and he suddenly
"so huifang, how much have you left to mm?"
*OOPS. NOW I OWE HIM ONE COFFEE COS I MISSED MM THIS MONTH.
and this was our exchange:
hf- "oh, im left with 5.5k.."
mr s- "then this month miss already lah!"
hf- "yah.. but 2 more weeks will hit liao!"
mr s- "HAR? 2 more weeks ah! SO SLOW! i give zihui 1 week only leh! WAH YOU 2 WEEKS AH VERY SLOW LEH. slower than hobby also uh.. tsk tsk tsk.."
hf- "WAH! WHAT LAH! i lose to them lose to them lo. i never lose to myself can already!"
mr s- "TSK TSK TSK TSK SO SLOW AH SO SLOW.. slower than zihui and hobby HEEHEEHEE"
WAHHHH. stupid CA. lol. from level 1 to level 3 keep nagging nagging. LOL. okay im glad at least someone from another team actually bothers whether i've hit my position yet. haha..
OH YEA, I HAD MY LOVELY IKEA CHICKEN WINGS ALREADY, AND WE HAD A GREAT DINNER AT SWENSENS WITH MR HAROLD OUR LOVELIEST ECONS TEACHER :DDDDD
oh yah we went to play pool after that. LOL. stupid chin kiong. when we were walking to parklane, he was beside me/behind me and kept saying "just walk straight.. just walk straight..". when we were playing pool and he was my partner, he kept saying "is okay one! we sure win one!" AND IN THE END WE LOST LAH OKAY. lol. kiong super funny. and pool was super tyco HA. think ben buay tahan also lo! LOL. oh yeah, and i ran like... 300m? SUDDENLY LEH. cos i'd either take cab or bus home. but cos it was SO difficult to even hail a stupid cab, i saw 162 approaching the traffic light b4 the bus stop and ran ALLLLLL THE WAY TO THE BUS STOP. walao i almost died from panting too much. LOL. SUDDENLY ONE YOU KNOW. HWOA SEH. but yea, CHEAPER WAY HOME!! :D
was glad to be out with my class! pleasant day i had, and REALLY, TAKE ME ON A RIDE IN A FLASHY SPORTSCAR AND I'D LOVE YOU FOR THAT!! :D
SLEEP!
i told of my glory at 1:28 am