Thursday, 30 April 2009
darren made me smile today (:
i crashed an accouts lecture and ended up at the same LT as him. hahas.
oh well.
and yea, new class rules are gonna be out next monday i guess.
one rule that everyone liked: no singing in class. (against erika)
another rule that everyone liked: be punctual for class.. (obviously against me)
nabeh. today early for class tio suan siao like what sio. LOL. annoying shitsxz haha. out of us 5 lecture-crashers, i was 2nd to reach. meh meh. they looked at me in disbelief =.=
and after crashing the lecture, we went for tutorial after eating, and guess what, when i enetered the room i got SUAN-ed again. meh meh meh meh meh.
and well, somehow or other,
day today was.......
monotonous and tiring.
and somehow.. i dont know. study hard ba..
i told of my glory at 7:36 pm
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
winston came to my school today to pass me my namecards and caused a huge commotion.
meh meh. someone was staring at winston when at level 7 in the library, then continued staring in the lift form level 7 to level 10, then even all the way down to level 2. waliew. for a moment i thought he was gay. but then again, he couldnt take his eyes off winston's wallet. LOL.
then after winston left, that person was making alot of comments on winston's possessions. and apparently, that person who made alot of comments made unconstructive comments- mentioning about winston's damier graphite canvas wallet, lv belt, omnia, armani bag, and saying that he himself has a "lifetime supply of crumpler bag". WTH please. his lifetime supply of crumpler bags can prolly only match the cost of a tenth of winston's armani bag hor. SO HAOLIAN FOR WHAT?! meh meh. then still wanna argue till he correct. ta ma de. then wanna suan siao say what, winston is an "ah sia kia". FUCK LAH. people ASK, you not meh? then still say winston from a "filthy rich family" and that his parents must be earning alot and giving him alot of allowance, then he is able to afford stuff liek that. come on lahhhhhh~ people buy their own stuff okay. not all from parents' $ one. unlike you, all from parents. PUI. despise people liek you who only wanna win. wanna win also resort to suan-ing others when it actually points back to yourself. STUPID ARGUMENT PLEASE.
ve teaching: when you point one finger at others, four of ur own fingers are pointing back at you.
so when you wanna shoot people, do it well, with style, with knowledge. not brainlessly.
oh well, i think i kind of showed him one kind of attitude also lah. haha. after that during econs tutorial, he turned around and said something about "wa you from jc one leh" when i answered a question wrong. and i just told him off saying "so what, cannot ah, take away my promos D for econs lor?" come on man, WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME OFF FOR MY WRONG ANSWER?!! what a big fat joke. some people tee me up like siao and you fucking bastard tee me down when you dont even know what kind of person am i. some jc muggers are dumb people. but if you havent realised, let me tell you this. im not a jc mugger and im not dumb. this is why im in poly now. so dont treat me liek any typical mugger who will cry when tio suan-ed over a wrong answer! =.=
but anyways, everyone else was saying winston dont look his age. ahhahas. winston positive or negative? HAHAHA. no one guessed his real age. they all thought he's 21, 22, 23, 24 etc. LOL. hilarious ;DDD
but ANYWAY, I WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY. i was 5 minutes late i think. something liek that. but still late. meh meh meh. i took a (#(^%((^$(@%#@! 1 hours 20 minutes to get to school today lah! WTH. i usually take like, 45 minutes to an hour. but today's morning jam at paya lebar SUCKED. ):
and wow, i got elected as treasurer all thanks to my top a maths and e maths result in class. damn. treasurer for the 6th year =.= WALIEW. im like, stuck to this post uh. but anyways, i think 1b21 is a class thats pretty easy to manage, so yeaaaaa (: (: (:
wahahas.
i still cant get over the fact of lifetime supply of crumpler. LOL. that one really funny please.
and wow, for once, im highly sought-after for project grouping. HAHAHA. too bad ive agreed to the first request from my girls haha. ;DDD
WALIEW, TMRW UNTIL 6PM AGAIN ):
and im not telling you what im thinking..
i told of my glory at 10:14 pm
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
late for class today. SHIT. lol. tmrw cannot alreadyyyyy ):
but right but right, i super dont liek the accounts tutor. ZZZ. he talks like everyone in class has accounts background =.= talking about liabilities, owners' equity, capital expenditure and revenue expenditure in his first tutorial man. seriously wth. kai xin and erika were so lost that they were like damn frantic please. lol. lucky me and yvonne have accounts background and we can still catch up. zzzz.
followed by csa lecture. something funny happened lo. i believe everyone knows of a software called mozilla firefox. but in fact, mozilla has other softwares too. one of which is mozilla thunderbird, mentioned in one part of today's lecture notes. and guess what, i randomly did a direct translation and said "lei2 niao3" which is a direct translation of thunder-bird and so 'fortunately' at that moment the lecture theater was quiet. and my class people turned at me and laughed out loud =.= ZZZ. i was just trying to say something random but turned out to be a joke. ZZZZZZZZ. but it was pretty embarrassing lah like seriously. oh well~
went to office and found that both downline and dearest brother werent there yet. SIAN 1/2 okay. i should have taken my own sweeeeet time to go down =.= meh meh.
but right but right,
SOMETHING HAPPENED TO MY WIRELESS! IT CANNOT WORK!!!!! OMG. WHEN I GOT TO OFFICE THEN I REALISED ): AND WINSTON CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTT ): ): ): ): ): SADNESS OKAY!
and well, i had my LJS dinner today ;DDD happy! (:
I STILL HAVENT FINISHED MY MACROECONS HW AND THERES TUTORIAL TMRW! ):
wheeeee huifang got her first godbro on 27th april 2008 (:
wahahahs~ ;DDDDD
i told of my glory at 11:33 pm
Monday, 27 April 2009
today was an interesting day ;D
computer software apps lab lesson. 3 hours. omg man =.= but it turned out pretty fun i think ;D erika the blur queen happily said "bingo" when looking at her timetable. cos on our timetable, theres the shortform name of our tutors. and well, our csa tutor's shortcut name is actually 'binggo'. so when erika read out "bingo", mr go said "YES?" and me and pamela who were sitting beside her burst out laughing. it was very hilarious okayyyys. then erika still "huh?" LOL.
and well, excel turned out more interesting than what i supposed ;D
and pamela is an excel-idiot! LOL. she's SUPER blur and always lost for direction!! HAHA. ;DDD
then had macroecons lecture! OMG. same problem as last year with the circular flow of income. stupid lecturers always liek to tell the whole damn long story and make things damn difficult. GRRRRR. last year in jc was also like that. but i wasnt that smart back then. when the teacher gave the final conclusion flowchart, i jitao lost. and gave up on that. HAHA. this time, im smarter. i follow through the lengthy explaination, picture the whole explaination step by step in my mind, and understand it when he gets to the flowchart finally ;DDDDDD
and i was thinking in my heart that CONFIRM, GUARANTEE PLUS CHOP, my class CONFIRM dont understand one.
and wow wow wow, after the flowchart he declared a ten-minute break, and next moment, everyone was all over me =.=
soudns wrong, LITERALLY HAHA.
everyone was like "huh huh huh! I DONT UNDERSTAND! HUIFANG!!! WHAT HE SAYING!!!!", "whattt? can you like, repeat againnnn?!!", "I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!". i explained the shortcut to understanding like 5 or 6 times before everyone understood what i meant and what the flowchart meant =.= the lecturer's lengthy description confused us all lah. LOL. but it was fun ;DDD HAHA.
and i finally configured my laptop for TP's campus wireless ;D yay!~
on the other hand, something i blogged out this morning but didnt get round to publishing.
i went in to my room at 12.20am yesterday night,
and only fell asleep at 1.40am.
i couldnt get to sleep cos there was alot on my mind (:
number 1 issue? what exactly am i doing now?
i remember upline told me before: relationship, studies, career. i can only choose to manage 2 out of these 3. and even if i choose 2, i have to divide 50:50 effort into doing both. now, i feel like ive really chosen 2. and that day when upline came to talk to me on facebook, asking when i'll be back to fight.. i feel like ive done him wrong.
mr steven had a chat with me when i got my posting, asking me about how my studies schedule would be like. i told him, i wont be gone. i wont be gone from ve.
cos all the effort i put in, all the time i spent, all the pains i went through and all the emotional periods i endured through.
didnt huifang come out as a manager already?
and what would the end result of huifang in ve?
no less than a car achiever or more.
what i commit, i will fulfil.
but maybe nows not the time yet. im still feeling very disorganised in school..
however, huifang knows she will never really leave ve. though SOME people may see that im gone, but im still there.
trust me on this.
i told of my glory at 10:39 pm
I WASTED ONE DAY AWAY!
DAMN.
I WASTED MY SUNDAY AWAY COS:
1. I FINISHED MY TUTORIALS.
2. I FINISHED STUDYING (ENSURING THAT LAST WEEK'S WORK WAS COMPLETE AND UNDERSTOOD)
3. I WAS TOO LAZY TO GO TO OFFICE (I ADMIT!)
4. THE WEATHER WAS SO NICE FOR SLEEPING!
but thing is, i didnt sleep at home either. i did my work till like 4plus, and ended up playing psp till dinner time.
FUCK.
im wasting my life away (though only for one day)
i told of my glory at 12:17 am
Sunday, 26 April 2009
i think its really pretty funny when i complain about my upline having now EQ, thus never failing to misunderstand my intentions and not understnad how i feel. because he's a guy and im a girl and i just cant make known my thoughts.
but then again, at the other extreme end of the world, 2 guys are unable to communicate effectively with each other and the similar kind of problem occurs.
so whose fault is it?
if you really consider the whole situation, whos at the disadvantage and whos not, you cant really find an answer lo. isnt all these just about human.
upline said before "zuo ren, zuo shi, zuo sheng yi" translated would be being a person, doing things, and doing business. having to know how to be a person and knowing how to do things before you do a business.
but some people just dont get this.
it's no one's fault when no one among the both parties dont understnad this. but never mind. i believe thats the purpose of me being there.
im a friend for a purpose.
i will do what i can to solve this problem.
this is what i always commit. but now, i want to add in another sentence.
i will do what i can,
and i will do what i cannot.
interesting (:
To Huifang:
Thanks Meh meh for always being there for me, i know u were always there for me.
i trusted you, and still am trusting you.
and btw, u really know alot of secrets abt me. =P
huifang to me i feel is a very straight foward person.
she like will express. dont like will express(and its V obvious) haha.
but thats the point i like.
i guess nobody really knows y i want to build bond with her in chalet right?
its actually because of a very simple reason, she's fun to be with.
and when we're playing mafia, she sorta typed sms "they know ur murderer" and that sms showed me that she really is protective of people around her.
so that made me really respect her and trust her.
because of her protectiveness.
because how do you say, i feel this secure feeling when im with her.
lols ;D
i told of my glory at 1:23 pm
I JUST GOT FULL MARKS FOR MY CSA QUIZ ;DDDDDDD
without the help of winston okay! okay la, he helped me click my answer. i used my mind to think ;D so i answered the questions myself okay! :DDDDD
i told of my glory at 12:32 am
Saturday, 25 April 2009
I GOT A VIRTUAL I-TOUCH!
though i dont know whats so interesting about that. :p but winston told me to say that so i did. HAHA.
went to mr lim's wedding today. ahahas. he's that taekwando instructor whos damn hot. ;D lol. his wife is quite pretty i think, though my mom was pretty skeptical about that =.= zz. but anyways, korean cuisine for the dinner! ;D NICE~ super love it. its like, food i like lo ;DDDD
and i drank heineken and red wine. gahh, the stupid heineken ruined my taste buds for red wine. all thanks to my mom who only gave the red light to red wine after i started drinking the heineken. BAA BAA BLACK SHEEEEEP!
and yea, this is what i blogged this morning at 11.50am:
im still happy over my first distinction. HAHA. though it was just a csa quiz. but at least it's a good start ;D im staring to love this subject after this interesting quiz.
which took me 51 minutes to complete the 26 questions with winston's help. HAHHA.
but im like so mentally worn-out that i slept from 1.30am till 11.45am today :/
but nevertheless, i thikn i like the subject ABIT more already ;D
and im going to do my round two soon. with help of cos ;D
HAHA (:
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Friday, 24 April 2009
today i met my upline in school. LOL. that was really funny lah please, i dont know what face he was giving me. but i just told my friends "he's my colleague". LOL. and i shared quite alot on nutrition to erika and pamela over lunch at mensa food court today ;D i guess it was pretty a good a chance for me to refresh my memory on nutritional facts and five elements explaination. hahas. ;D
oh yea, we had comm skills group project and an outing to ehub in the afternoon ;D
wahahahs. wen liang damn funny when he bowl okay. he bowl till sian alr really standard very gr8 difference one lols. and erika got beginners luck! MEH MEH.
and you know you know, my poor phone has been hospitalised again ): and whats worse is, this time an additional button is spoilt besides the previous same 4 buttons. and this additional button spoilt has led to me being unable to make calls, and whats worse is im unable to save msgs! OMG PLEASE. i jitao -ve all the way. there are some important and really really sweet msgs from my friends in my phone inbox and i cant transfer them to my card memory! ):
slept from pasir ris to bishan HA. cos i took 58 and it's like you know, pasir ris interchange to bishan interchange. so yea, i just slept. LOL.
and yea, tmrw's saturday.
mr lim's wedding tmrw evening. yawns. he's such a hunk please. ;D HAHA.
oh yea, i realised my class girls are really fun to talk with (: heh.
but right but right, i have to complain about this! theres this one person i already cannot tolerate but he keeps sticking onto me. literally. LOL. gahhh. i dont want to have the chance to see MORE of him cos i think i will go crazy if i have to ensure this for any more! GAHHH. fuck! i hate it when people OPENLY challenge me when theyre obviously not my match? like come on lah! even though i never made it to a levels, i believe what i have far surpasses you. it's not the thing about having been to jc, but the thing abuot CHARACTER. i canot tolerate people who try to be in my league when they arent, try to act ATAS when theyre not, talk about brands just for the sake of talking about brands but not cos you wanna buy it. so stop trying to haolian about your knowledge of BRANDS when im not even talking! the rest can be wow-ed by you cos they dont care about such stuff. but come on, pity you theres the existence of HUIFANG who cannot tolerate people who talk big. so dont try to act close to me, try to pry any secrets out of me or try to find out who my ex boyf is cos it isnt ANY OF YOUR CONCERN! GRRRR. and im not even close to this person man! OMG. im like, utterly disgusted by this person!!
alright 'nuff of ranting ;D im feeling so much better already ;D
--
no matter loved or not,
i can only relate to this when it's you.
for all those times you stood by me
for all the truth that you made me see
for all the joy you brought to my life
for all the wrong that you made right
for every dream you made come true
for all the love i found in you
i'll be forever thankful baby
you're the one who held me up
never let me fall
you're the one who saw me through
through it all
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cos you believed
i'm everything i am because you loved me
you gave me wings and made me fly
you touched my hand i could touch the sky
i lost my faith you gave it back to me
you said no star was out of reach
you stood by me and i stood tall
i had your love i had it all
im grateful for each day you gave me
maybe i dont know that much
but i know this much is true
i was blessed because i was loved by you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cos you believed
im everything i am
because you loved me
you were always there for me
the tender wind that carried me
a light in the dark shining your love into my life
youve been my inspiration
through the lies you were the truth
my world is a better place because of you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cos you believed
i'm everything i am because you loved me
lets keep things this way, shall we? (:
and thanks for always accomodating my badtitude always..
i told of my glory at 10:40 pm
i wanna meet you in my dreams tonight (:
because i miss youuuuuuuuuuu ;DDD
yay. i super love my class.
i super love studying.
and i super love homework ;D
but the one i super super love the most,
is you, and you, and huifang love love you! ;D
i think im stuck to those biz school cheers like how my class is,
the "wen, wen, wen, wen lianggg~ *clap clap, clap clap*""
i told of my glory at 1:09 am
Thursday, 23 April 2009
pretty long day today i think. lol. 1-6pm HAHA. sorry lah, im lazy ;D
had comm skills tutorial. meh meh. boring subject please. then went for lunch lunch lunch ;D we had lunch at applied science food court today. the yong tau foo there is niceeee! (: then had organisational behaviour lecture! WALIEW. i was looking forward to it, but half an hour into the lecture, we were interrupted by the stupid fire drill. NABEHHHH. super spoil mood please? ends up the fire drill ended at 5pm and we went to library to do our comm skills groupwork. meh meh meh.
went to office to look for someone to pei this friend eat dinner. meh meh. ;D
see, im nice im nice im nice ;D
and that person was angry this morning lorrrrr ):
wheeee~
but i also wanted to get my csa books from my locker la HAHA.
and the conclusion of the evening,
i got a friend who loves cucumbers ;D
*** says:
cucumber
that was the first thing this funny friend told me when i came online.
see what i mean?
and in the evening this friend was saying smth abuot this cucumber issue.
HILARIOUS.
meh. this friend got a weird liking sio heh. ;DDDDD
i told of my glory at 11:23 pm
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
GAHHH I REACHED CLASS SUPER LATER TODAY.
i got held up by bad traffic, then got LOST at level 4. nabeh. business block so small also will lost. I NEGATIVE ):
in the end, i reached class at 9.30am (was supposed to start at 9am, with 15min grace, but i was still late)
MEH MEH.
i got lost for 15 minutes lah! i couldve reached on time (considering the inclusion of 15 min grace HAHA)
but comm skills was highly 'amusing' man, nothing like what i expected it to be. IT WAS EXACLTY LIKE GP LAH. WALAOOOO and i thought leaving jc = no more terrifying GP ZZZ.
then we went to meet stanley to have class lunch ;D
yayyyy. we went to design block today. their chicken cutlet is the one that was featured on izhoukan and my mom asked abuot it! and it was really niceeee ;D
cheese and mushroom sauce okay. my loves x2!! ;D
after that, went to meet my qin ai de downline jintian at tampines mall. went to get some stuff before we went to office together. ahhas, and my bu yao lian downline who is as BHB as me, wrote on my organiser on 22nd april "an enjoyable day out with my downline jintian!" something liek that. omg. this is bad bad bad. haha. my downline loves me too much that she helps me think already. OMGGGGGG LOL.
and i just realised, i didnt bring home my comm skills book home =.= gotta go office tmrw to get it before school. lalala ;D
oh yah, I FELT VERY VIOLATED TODAY. all thanks to WT. GRRRRRRR!!!
i told of my glory at 10:37 pm
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
school today was hilarious. damn unglam beginning when i reached the lecture theatre at what my handphone clock showed was 1.14pm. but after i went in, there were some bimbos who followed behind me =.=
and well, the stupid lecture was freaking boring. COMPUTER stuff. HATE THAT TOTALLY.. thinking back of how i suffered in H2 computer studies in my first year of j1's first 3 months period. ZzzZz.
went to tampines mall pizza hut and arcade with classmates, toured tampines 1 for awhile, then went to orchard to meet jintian and upline. and sideline.
had our grouping at cineleisure burger king. yawns. story telling session. HAHA. but was pretty interesting (:
and and and, i finally saw a perfume a like. as in, not saw. found. Versace's bright something. lol. i forgot what name lah. but anyways, some of the girls were saying it's a nice fragrance too.
but but but! i shall buy what i ought to buy first!! MEH MEH.
tmrw lesson at 9-11am! OMG YAY!
wahahhaa.
i told of my glory at 11:43 pm
Monday, 20 April 2009
first day at school was alright. had my first macroecons lecture of this year. i guess it was pretty interesting ;D i actually took down notes.
day was like that.
winston was nice enough to come all the way to tp to wait for me after my lessons lol.
and i think i need a coffee session.
it's been long since the last one..
i guess i'll look for mr steven tmrw..
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i think sometimes some things are not within my control.
when im at the receiving end of goodness, im so happy i feel so very much at bliss.
but when i am walking alone down that street, i feel that unfairness still prevails at times.
miss qianhui's speech mentioned: "you'll never walk alone".
i believe that my organisation will never leave me alone if im always there for them.
but when i need a shoulder to lean on,
are you there?
sometimes things are really ambiguous. if 3 people can come telling me the same thing, i dont think it'll be untrue.
but im trying time and again to cover up for what shouldnt be happening.
what should happen next, i dont know.
and i dont want to care anymore.
why cant things be like how they were in march 2008, simple, happy, and with no one knowing a single thing...
and how much i miss ck.
i told of my glory at 10:19 pm
Sunday, 19 April 2009
went for HOR grouping today ;D
was pretty interesting. refresh knowledge on networking know-how by mr steven (: i dont know why but i particularly enjoyed today's session? maybe cos while im learning downline and pig are also learning tgt beside me :DDDD
and i think passion cafe's hotplate chicken is NICE.
okay i think i had a pretty boring day after all.
HAAHA. ):
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO TMRW!
SCHOOL + PAYCHEQUE (:
theres a reason why i want to spend every single day with you.
cos every day with you is a day in joy,
and every single moment with you is a moment in bliss.
so that in future, even if it's not us,
at least i can reminisce about the past and i know i have happy memories to think back about. (:
because always, i feel like a little swallow, looking up at you, a white condor soaring high in the skies above.
and im trying hard to fly up high to be there with you but i fail to do so.
with integrity & my soul,
i am there as my whole, my everything.
i told of my glory at 11:11 pm
LOL. winston's most recent blog post is reality. (:
1B21,
mon- meetup at 3.30pm to get notes.
wed- lunch together with stan and kenneth at 12pm
YAY.
i love my class ;D
i told of my glory at 12:41 am
Saturday, 18 April 2009
went to lakeside to make namecard today. ahhas. damn it. weather damn hot and was sweating like siao while walking to the block. MEH MEH. but anywayyyy, i went down to boonlay after that to help out in endru's project. meh meh. met 2 ve people there sio.
DAMN.
anyways, im being spammed online. lol. msn holqa and talking to winston and talking to zihui. GAHHHHH.
i dreamed a dream in time gone by
when hope was high,
and life worth living
i dreamed that love would never die
i dreamed that God would be forgiving.
then i was young and unafraid
when dreams were made and used,
and wasted
there was no ransom to be paid
no song unsung,
no wine untasted.
but the tigers come at night
with their voices soft as thunder
as they tear your hopes apart
as they turn your dreams to shame.
and still i dream he'll come to me
and we will live our lives together
but there are dreams that cannot be
and there are storms
we cannot weather...
i had a dream my life would be
so different from this hell i'm living
so different now from what it seems
now life has killed
the dream i dreamed.
"he's just like an angel
i like him alot
i really hope i can be with him forever"
-does this sounds familiar?
i told of my glory at 11:03 pm
Friday, 17 April 2009
MY SKIN PEELING TILL LIKE I HAVE TOO MUCH EXCESS SKIN. ):
seriously, today's orientation day 2 was fun ;D
though the beginning was some boring talk by some future-our-lecturer-to-be, 1B21 was still pretty entertained by ourselves at some corner ;D hahas.
then after that we got to meet our care person and talk more with her, get our timetable and matric card, then we had some cheer thingy, mass dance competition, followed by dragonboating by the representatives.
biz biz biz biz ness! *clap clap, clap clap*
and talking abuot my skin peeling. my skin was ALREADY peeling (i dont know why) and today when i was sunburnt during dragonboating the peeling got worse ):
my arms are red and my legs are red. meh meh. can see a greater contrast between my arm colour and shoulder colour le. HAHA. ):
oh and you know what, i saw kc today and kc actually smiled and waved to meeeee. OH MY ;D i cant believe kc actually remembers me though i havent seen him for so many days and he has to face so many freshies.
WHEEEEEEEEEEE ;D
but i havent seen jiabaooooo ):
kenneth was my class in charge for today also! LOL. and i didnt realise his name is kenneth. only know him as fishy all along ;D
until today he was like "EH! whats ur name ah! you from holqa!"
then i remembered he's one of our holqa GLs hahas. cos he styled hair today so i didnt really recognize him at first sight ;D then i remembered, yea, HE'S THE SENIOR WHO IS IN MARKETING ALSOOO (: wahahhas.
so yea, monday there's gonna be lessons. uh correction, only one lecture HAHA. cos no tutorials for next week itself.
YAY I KIND OF LOVE MY TIMETABLE ;D
and you know what, i love my class more. (: (: (:
but always love ve the best,
no matter how you treat me..
i told of my glory at 10:03 pm
where does our venture era journey start?
does it start at an SA position, the moment we join ve?
does it start when you start building an organisation?
i dont think so.
to me, venture era journey is a story, with many chapters.
starting to understand how and why and what to fight for is chapter 1, the beginning.
achieving an MM position is a chapter 2,
finding a downline JT is a chapter 3.
each chapter contains different content which reflect very strongly on what person i am in this story.
my time spent from a SA to an ME was a spoiler to the story.
my journey in venture era, my story, chapter 1, started at the end of year 2008.
because only when i understand what i am fighting for in venture era,
only when i know what i want to achieve in venture era,
then only would i realise the purpose behind me joining ve, then only would my career have a beginning.
at the start, it's just the test-tong process. it's just threading water.
when we start to swim, we start to do things on our own.
it is only then that our journey truly starts.
and now, im having difficulties getting on with this chapter 3. i have to keep writing this story.
becuase only then, then i know, i can leave a legacy of mine behind.
i told of my glory at 1:18 am
Thursday, 16 April 2009
PHEW. IM TIRED.
at 7.30pm i had just came back from TP's business school orientation which was from 8.30am-5.30pm. today was basically knowing the school better and such, getting to know MY CLASSMATES, and getting to meet who our care person is. my class rawks man ;D theyre really damn on one lah, and theyre like, practically as mental as i am when it comes to having fun. lol. and i think my care person looks friendly. LOL. tmrw then we'll get a close up with our care person again lols. but anyways, i managed to escape the mass dance biz school 100 reps thingy. otherwise i have to dance somemore of the TP mass dance. MEH MEH.
DO I LOOK LIKE I CAN DANCE? ;D
wahahs. but oh well, stanley sabo-ed me and told the synergy leaders to write in my name lah! OMGZ -.- i do not dance well, but it just happens that the TP mass dance is EASY thats why i do it well. ZZZ.
anyways, I AM SO PHYSICALLY TIRED not because of orientation but because of night cycling ;D talked alot with JT yesterday night itself, found out alot of stuffs, admitted to some stuffs, but things are great the way they are now i feel :D
and weird how winston can be so shagged and blah blah but i was pretty much awake. mentally awake but physically shagged. lol. shoulders was aching and butt was aching. MEH MEH.
because SOMEONE had a few moments of SUPER COMFORTABLE sleep at a bus stop and still having a temporary bolster. tsk tsk tsk. then when it was my turn the person play stunt LORRRRRRR. MEH MEH. ;D
and someone was also very whiny for the whole nighttttt. OMG -.-
but anyways, i managed to get a little bit of good sleep on the bus though ;D
OH YEA. you know they say that when people are drunk they will spout some nonsense? it's true.
but in addition, people who are TOO TIRED also talk unknown stuff.
that was the reason i was entertained by winston on the bus home. heh.
but anyways, time was really tight for me. i reached home at 7.10am this morning to bathe and i have to be at TP by 8.30am. DAMN. but i still reached TP at 8.40am BY BUS. remarkable sio. sheer luck really.
i told of my glory at 10:29 pm
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
i know im slowly losing him.
and it's not just me alone.
it's my whole organisation.
some people move on pretty fast eh?
i cant express my disappointment in this.
because it'll be back to my own fault for not realising earlier.
alrighto, she's strong.
go on, go spoon feed her since im already wearing a black blazer and no longer need any of your concern on me at all.
NOW I KNOW, MY PRESENCE IS YOUR PAIN.
thanks. thanks for helping me realise that man.
so that i wouldnt SHAMELESSLY cling onto you.
because i understand, when i sign the INDEPENDENT distributor form, i am an independent distributor, and you are not obliged to coach me all the way.
but come on, an individual has their rights too.
when i report to you, you treat me as non-existent, and say "see first" when i need your help.
when i dont report to you, i'll be branded as rebellious in comparison to YOUR OTHER girl who reports EVERYTHING to you without using her brain at all.
come on, whats the difference between her independent distributor form and mine?
and just because she closed 2 fucking boxes of cal plus she's the star.
WOOHOO! LETS REJOICE MAN.
i really regret not pushing for that calstar. because if i pushed for the calstar to come in, that would be a fucking hard slap in your face. the ability of huifang isnt limited to just committing agents with benefitting mindset for MT singles and closing cartons of waters or pillow pads.
but since you choose to treat me this way even before i told you of my choice to be the eagle to go through the painful process of "renewing" their feathers, beak and talons, you already decided my choice was to wait for death.
it's alright. i will go through this painful process ON MY OWN AS A LEADER. i will lead my guys whether you are there leading me or not, because i know there will still be the higher people guiding me. my guys will depend on me because they trust me.
let me show you that MY MANAGER GROUP will surpass yours.
i told of my glory at 12:16 am
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
reading zihui's post yesterday reminded me.
mr kit shared during LRN that how can an 18 year old be too young to decide their future when an 18 year old is already carrying a rifle in the army?
so whats too old whats too young?
a 35 year old is considered old? but yet considered young in the politics world.
so in networking, WHATS THE RIGHT AGE?
i joined networking when i was 17 turning 18. i achieved my marketing executive in a month odd, i achieved my marketing manager in a year plus. oh hell, long time, yes. but the matter of not being fast doesnt hinder me from moving on subsequently. there are people who come fight fast and strong, then they leave.
and come on, being a manager at 18 is something i can be proud of. because i have had experiences people dont have,
i have skills people dont,
i have talked to people thrice my age and educated them on how nutrition works best for them.
i have been a leader of a bunch of youngsters of my age.
no JOB out there can give you this kind of fulfilment.
and mr dewey said, the good thing abuot this trade, this company, is that we make mistakes and we still earn. there may be a down in our income when we make mistakes, but we recover and fight stronger the next time round.
i agree.
i have made mistakes while in the company, but the leaders have never once given up on me. mr steven, mr mengwee and mr longjun were always there to give me solutions to my problems and ensure that i would get back on track.
thats why i love venture era (:
it's the place i learn and the place i grow.
and will be the place that i fulfil my dreams in life.
i told of my glory at 11:56 am
Monday, 13 April 2009
with trust, we can create miracles. (:
today jintian passed me a present she and winston bought for me from the cruise when they went to the comapny's redang island cruise trip which i didnt go for. so nice of them lah actually ;D
though i dont know how to actually really express my thanks or what but it's really nice when my downline actually thinks about me on her trip lah (:
you'll never understand that feeling till you really receive it from your downline!
im serious!
so everyone, get down to building your organisation and get the xin fu feeling! ;D
alright, isnt all about my downline lah, winston also okay, he chose that super cute bearrrrrr (:
so yea! had LRN today. leaders recognition night. something to replace 1st quarterly seminar for this year i guess? cos the next seminar is gonna be at conrad in july. so yea, i guess the next one is 2nd quarterly sem already. lols.
but LRN was cool.
really felt different standing up and singing the company theme song and cheering with the managers. though i was with the managers during the AGS in feb, it felt different this time round, cos i was really enjoying it (:
after that, we had a phototaking for falcon + mammoth, then falcon's own family portrait too (: only mr steven, amw, upline, me, sideline, downline and mr jimmy 7 people. but happy family alright ;D and mr steven like our father liek that encourage us and kind of sayang-ed me lah! YAY ;D MOTIVATED.
and i think im very easily coaxed. HAHA.
very easy to bei4 hong3 kai1 xin1.
shh. it's a secret.
im a sucker for simple small actions which make me happy.
LOL.
i dont know why either! :/
but isnt that a good thing? HAHA.
喜欢你
给我你的外衣
让我像躲在你身体里
喜欢你
借我你的梳子
让我用柔软头发吻你
喜欢你
车窗上的雾气
彷佛是你的爱在呼吸
喜欢你
那微笑的眼睛
连日落也看作唇印
我喜欢这样跟着你
随便你带我到哪里
你的脸
慢慢贴近
明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰
我喜欢你爱我的心
轻触我每根手指感应
我知道
它在诉说着你承诺言语
喜欢你
车窗上的雾气
彷佛是你的爱在呼吸
喜欢你
那微笑的眼睛
连日落也看作唇印
我喜欢这样跟着你
随便你带我到哪里
你的脸
慢慢贴近
明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰
我喜欢你爱我的心
轻触我每根手指感应
我知道
它在诉说着你承诺言语
i told of my glory at 11:42 pm
[10:39:29 AM] huifang says: theres nothing nice onlineee
[10:39:36 AM] Winston says: ya
[10:39:37 AM] Winston says: -.-
[10:39:44 AM] huifang says: actually
[10:39:47 AM] huifang says: theres one thing nice
[10:39:49 AM] huifang says: ;D
[10:39:51 AM] Winston says: me
[10:39:52 AM] huifang says: ME! =D
[10:39:54 AM] huifang says: EEEE
[10:39:56 AM] huifang says: WTH
my friend as BHB as me right?
steal the words out of my mouth somemore. ;D
i told of my glory at 10:40 am
Sunday, 12 April 2009
went to office for HOR grouping today,
celebrated mr steven's birthday, whereby they actually got the candles WRONG and made him one year older.
thats about it.
i want to go for genting trip but i think i cant.
not because i cant achieve it, but cos it'll prolly be on a weekday whereby i'll be having school.
that's boring ):
tmrw's LRN!
gonna be fun man ;D
i told of my glory at 10:08 pm
venture era holds a bright future for me:
1. car incentive (something that many see)
once i become a car achiever in the company, i will fight on for turnover to come out with a car in venture era's name and show to all those friends in other mlm companies or pyramid selling companies who claim to be mlm that VENTURE ERA can make it!
2. HAT/ cal ions series (health analysis team)
currently, calcium ions has been in the general market for 50-60 plus years. and prof henry wang's improvised calcium ions technology has only been in the market for 10 plus years. recently, prof henry wang just gave this i-think-is contract or smth, with some school in jakarta to give nutritional talks there, to venture era. so they'll be sending maybe mr kit and mr shunjie since theyre the left and right hand men of mr danny teoh out product consultant. and there's another pending one, think it's the some australian college.
in future, when we create hightened awareness of calcium ions in SG, we will move on to regional market, and finally hit back the westerners when we've combed the SEA market.
seems too far? look at the company level then. when company becomes established, HAT will become established too. and by then, most probably a certain percentage of cal ions series sales would be distributed to the HAT badge holders/ team members monthly.
3. STA (speakers and trainers association)
currently, STA is still a newly-formed club. but this club offers us a platform to become a recognised motivational speaker/ host. having attended trainings in hosting, public speaking, and presentations, in the near future, when they start awarding badges to members newly recruited into their club, those such members will have the chance to go out to companies or even schools, to give motivational talks, or even be hosts for events.
and come on, each motivational talk can fetch you thousands mannnnnnn.
thats the future of what venture era can give me.
far beyond what many see.
but whether or not i achieve it, venture era will still grow.
so it's up to me if i wanna grow with VE ;D
--
upline taught me something interesting and meaningful today:
eagle has lifespan of 70 years. but when it's 30 years old, it's talons and beaks are no longer sharp and it becomes very weak. so the eagles will use their last burst of strength, to fly to high ground to take shelter in a cave.
from there, the eagle has 2 choices:
i. wait for death.
ii. to peck against a rock till its beak wears and breaks off, and wait for a new one to grow out. then using its new beak, bite off his own talons for new ones to grow out. and finally, using its beak to bite/ pluck off off all its feathers for new ones to grow out. only through going through this painful 5 months process, then will the eagle have a new lease of life and live its full lifespan of a 70 years.
many people have to make choices liek this in their life. and people take the easier way out- to wait for "death".
upline gave me a choice. which choice do i take?
i havent given him an answer.
but im taking option two.
to take the pain for an eventual bountiful takehome.
enlightened..
i told of my glory at 12:57 am
yes it's 12am midnight.
today, 12 april 2009 at 12am,
i, huang huifang, commit never ever to make the same mistake again.
never ever.
your past uncorrected mistakes will lead to your future downfall.
your uncorrected mistakes will be reflected in your organisation.
i was too playful,
without a care for the future in the past,
i have seen my retribution.
i have felt the pain,
i have cried the tears.
never ever again..
network marketing can be very fun,
very crazy,
very rewarding.
but it is very scary.
because your unresolved issues today, will become the troubles of the next generation. and it doesnt just end there. the unresolved issues of your next generation, will become the troubles of the next next generation, and the cruel cycle goes on..
i took 1 year and 5 months to finally understand this.
the pain will be over when i wake up tmrw, because i know that tmrw is a brand new day.
i wish to find answers. i have too many unanswered questions. but what are the questions, and where can i find the answers? i do not know. having too many unresolved issues, i have to get rid of them one by one before i can start anew.
so from now on,
career is career,
friendship is friendship.
i will master the skill of attach and detach and do well in ve.
i will commit a 100% into a friendship, because the person's worth it, and i receive a 100% too.
today, i will commit a 100% to a career, because the career's worth fighting for, and i will receive a 100% fulfilment from it!
FIGHT!
they always say "it's always about the level of maturity in people."
but i dont believe in it. a person can be really matured, but yet, the level of understanding isnt there.
level of understanding, is having the ability to understand the consequence of your actions.
it's not about you yourself all the time, and it doesnt just simply involve me. but it involves the future generations and the career we want tmrw..
i told of my glory at 12:00 am
Saturday, 11 April 2009
and when i wake up in the morning,
i know that deep in your heart the sincerity's hidden there.
when you entered my dreams and told me of your story,
but how do i find it back, this sincerity hidden.
thats the question.
i wonder where have the times of happiness gone to.
it's such a competitive world nowadays that there are so many reasons for me to leave some people at time, or for people to leave me.
have i failed to find someone else who is as giving?
as willing to commit to a true friendship and give his all?
have i failed so badly to really put in my all into this friendship?
have i really done wrong in being protective at times?
have i done wrong in putting my whole heart and soul into things,
yet gotten back a broken smile?
had i not given up what happened in the past and moved on to greater things?
i think i already had.
sometimes i think it isnt really my fault,
but this world's fault.
i guess i should've known better
to believe that my luck could change
i let my heart and forever
finally learn each others names
i tell myself this time
it's different
no goodbyes cuz i can't bear to say it
i'll never survive the one that's coming
if i stay, oh no
just walk away ooh
and don't look back
cause if my heart breaks it's gonna
hurt so bad
you know im strong
but i cant take that
before it's too late
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away,
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away
i really wish i could blame you
but i know that it's no ones fault
(no one) no no no no ooh
a cinderella with no shoe
and a prince that doesn't know he's lost
this emptiness feels so familiar
Each goodbye with just the same old song
but this time i will not surrender
cause im gone
oooh yeah!
just walk away ooh
and don't look back
cause if my heart breaks it's gonna
hurt so bad
you know im strong
but i cant take that
before it's too late
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away,
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away
(whoooa)
just walk away
i've got to let it go
start protecting
my heart and soul
cause i don't think i'll survive
a goodbye again
not again!
i told of my glory at 2:14 pm
dont know why im trying so hard sometimes when i dont even have to be bothered.
i dont know if it's my fault,
or what's the fault,
who's the fault.
and i really dont have the strength to go ask, go check, go find out, and go solve.
no thanks.
no more of that for now.
i wonder how many times i see you in the frames.
cos theres one thing i know for sure, i have never felt so unsecure towards anyone before, so afraid that something bad will happen, so afraid about what tmrw holds for us..
yes this is something random, no it isnt about you.
and i realise i can be so fucking cowardly at times. attempted to watch the channel u horro show at 11.30pm and dailed miserably, thus came back online. zzz.
anyone wanna be nice to offer me some courage?
i told of my glory at 1:05 am
Friday, 10 April 2009
I DIDNT BUY NEW HEELS TODAY.
thats all to today.
today was fucking boring omg.
the boredom continues till now.
mammoth has outing today but falcon doesnt ):
only my upline's BM group meetup tmrw at 9pm.
WALAO. so late somemore.
im feeling damn effing bored and the person who just came back from cruise dont want to entertain me.
maybe cos im tired.
thats why im too lazy to do anythinggggg.
or even to bug him.
never mind, theres FO finale at sentosa tmrw. (:
shall see if i can find someone to accompany me to go there.
otherwise, i'll SEE HOW first.
i told of my glory at 10:35 pm
Thursday, 9 April 2009
when upline comes back to SG,
im screwed.
seriously.
HAHA. :/ but i feel worried but not guilty leh. LOL.
and and and, theres a john little sale at expo! ernest says theres charles n keith sales there also. though i dont know since when did there exist a link between these two companies. but nevertheless, I WANT TO GO THERE TO BUY HEELSSSS TMRW! ;D
and i super miss that
yesterday night i thought of something that i want to do before school starts on 20th!
so i shall wait for him to come back to SG tmrw and wait for him to call meeeeee ;D
I BADLY
NEED SOME
ENTERTAINMENT!
and i want to go clubbing lah. WALAO. not where itchy (like what mr amw says) but i just want an overdose of alcohol. ):
someone's gonna protest if i say i wanna go clubbing,
right? ;D
oh wait, i think someone wont read this till tmrw night. yawns ):
girls need to be praised.
whether theyre girls/ ladies/ women/ tomboys, they still like to hear praises/ sweet nothings/ compliments.
i used to think how funny it is,
but come to think of it,
every girl is still like that.. LOL.
i told of my glory at 10:36 pm
my whole day was...
i was supposed to go back to tp for FOC day 3. but oh well ):
HAIS.
just came home from ECP with my ve people though. went to meet them in the evening..
was supposed to meet my 2e3 ex classmates, but i was at the east area so i decided to just go to ECP rather than travel down to town area :/
went there with zt, ernest, huimiao, xinyi, cynthia, mandy and jeff.
initial plan was to cycle but in the end somehow or other due to many many "add-ons" and changes in plans, we ended up slacking at the beach. and then we went to arcade, where the dance dance revolution was SO CHEAP to play that me and ernest were playing liao siao lah :/ in the end zt also joined in the fun lol.
and winston isnt online and it's so highly boring because he's enjoying himself at the cruise ):
and he's like, damn funny lah! he called me and said "EH HELLO, we just set off 10 minutes ago from singapore. so yea...." haha! ;D
BUT, zt is entertaining me online by introducing me to a website that has damn damn damn cool ____. HAHA. you dont need to know the details.
but im looking forward to my birthday present cos im going to get SOMETHING that complements it.
WA, i cant believe im so motivated by it man. fight for an EVEN HIGHER PAYCHEQUE so that i can really go shop like siao already! ;D
and in the meantime, cruise people will only be back on friday morning ):
bahhhhhh.
i told of my glory at 12:08 am
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
how can someone so perfect even exist in today's world?
but i guess i can only choose option B.
whats option B?
just being that special someone. (:
i told of my glory at 12:08 pm
tmrw theyre going for the cruise. oh man, im gonna feel so LONELY at office for 3 days cos my loveliest and dearest and sexiest and chioest and loveliest and dearest and ...... blah blah -.- quite a number of close ones around me will not be aroundddd ):
but okay, im actually pretty entertained by this. cos i was saying i think he made so many promises he wont remember them already. but well, this person whom-i-doubt-his-preference actually remembers! wa, okay. thats one unique friend okayyy ;D
[12:48:53 AM] Winston says: 1. when i hit mm i bring u go eat (place to be comfirmed)
[12:49:33 AM] Winston says: 2. ** ****** for ur birthday or i hit bm which ever comes 1st [censored due to personal reason. LOL.]
[12:49:36 AM] huifang says: wa if you can rmbr all u really quite pro sio
[12:49:57 AM] Winston says: 3. when i get license i fetch u from ur sch to office if my lesson end before urs
[12:50:07 AM] Winston says: 4. go supper at night once i get my license
[12:50:37 AM] Winston says: 5. drive to genting
[12:50:42 AM] huifang says: to eat stingyyyy ;D
[12:50:46 AM] Winston says: nono
[12:50:50 AM] Winston says: stingy is at jb
[12:50:51 AM] Winston says: -_-
[12:50:51 AM] huifang says: oh
[12:50:56 AM] Winston says: on the way up or down then eat
[12:51:17 AM] Winston says: 6. drive go kl (if i'm not wrong)
[12:51:24 AM] Winston says: HAHA
[12:51:44 AM] huifang says: ummmm yah kl!
[12:51:48 AM] huifang says: AND AND AND?
[12:52:08 AM] Winston says: 7. when i hit mm, u help me coffee my guys i help u coffee ur guys..
it's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
i'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care
i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not sleeping
a wish upon a star
thats coming true
but everybody else could tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you
i swore i knew the melody
that i heard you singing
and when you smiled
you made me feel
like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
i'm only left with used-to-be's
and once upon a song
now i know you're not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star
just don't come true
cause now even i can tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
because i liked the view
when there was me and you
i can't believe that
i could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while i was falling
and i didn't mind
cause i liked the view
thought you felt it too
when there was me and you
i told of my glory at 12:38 am
Tuesday, 7 April 2009
went for FOC @ TP yesterday :D
yesterday day 1.
was separated from darren lah! OMG -.- also dont know how come. but anyways, im in HOLQA (HOLIX). cos we have empires, and sub-empires. so my sub-empire is holix. [milo peng, teh peng, horlicks still the best!] and well, my empire has great group leaders (GLs) :D
sue, KC, jiabao, yvonne, fifi, huiqi, hazirah, shi hua, etc etc and of cos not forgetting our loveliest empire head nicholette :D
theyre really very get-high and many of them were having sore throats but they still scream and shout and cheer and all. lols.
had a chat with some of them too.
if i never remember wrongly, there's someone who is in the same course as me but going year 2. haha i cant really rmbr who though. isit JB? ;D
so first day we were basically having icebreakers and such to get to know one another better. tough attempt to, for once. cos the group was SOOOOO big. is such that right, for example, i talk to A. then i go talk to B, C, etc etc and after going one round, i come back to A and ask A's name and course again. LOL.
it's that funny.
then we had this outdoor games thingy. walked to tampines central from TP and it's like OMG lah. weather weather hot hot! was like damn negative cos i didnt know where the hell i was until we came to the 7-11 which ive passed before twice already when going night cycling ;D then ended up opposite sunplaza park! WOOH. finally i know where i am. so yea, played the stations and all, walked ran walked ran, then in the end we took a bus back to TP ;D
classic: we took up the whole upper deck of the double decker bus 23. not that very few people but sit separately or what but we were sitting 2 by 2 already. and then there was when this lady came up, saw us and scrunched up her face and went back down. LOL.
went back to the college, had our supper, and BATHE!
walao this one is start of nightmare i tell you.
i was one of the first of HOLQA's girls to go downstairs to queue to bathe but i had to queue from 11.10pm till 12.20am for my chance to bathe o.o
there were two toilets, each with 8 bathing cubicles available for shower. but apparently, i was the 30th in queue or something o.O ZZZ. and within 5 minutes, there was probably about another 15 people queuing up behind me already. LOL.
after bathing was sleep sleep time ;D
thanks to my good bro who called me at 12.40am and chatted with me for 2 hours (: wahahhas. and i met vera at that time too! HAHA. she walked past me then she was like "OH MY HUIFANG! YOURE HERE!" while i was on the line. lol!
seph and the other girls went to take turns to go out walk walk o.o zzz. going out to sweat nia. i was just lying there on the phone. HAHA. the benefit of charging my phone full batt before going for camp ;D
fell "ASLEEP" at 3 plus am. but i was still waking up like every hour. sleeping on the floor isnt a very comfortable thing to dooooo ):
then woke up to day 2 today feeling sore all over ): was already feeling like my body's damn tired and aching yesterday night before sleeping, so when i woke up it just felt worse.
had morning training blah, then learnt the TP college dance, college song and handsign song. the handsign song is superrrr cool okay! ;D i never expected i'd get to learn something like that in my life ;D
had fun learning the college dance too cos it's simple, fun, yet cool. haha. come to think of it, i miss dancing nyjc's mass dancesssss! 06, 07 and 08 mass dance and our college dance! OH MAN.
then after lunch we had outdoor games changed to indoor games. cos initial plan was to play the amazing-race-liek thingy opposite the college. but in the end it was raining, so yea. haha. ran around college having fun ;D
and KC is damn bad lah! there was one station whereby he asked me to volunteer to lead the group. then i said i dont want.
him- go lah, huifang! got da jie da look! people see sure move aside let you all pass!
hf- WHAT lah! where have! i where got da jie da!
him- there! see! so fierce! WHOAAA!
hf- no lor! where got fierce!
him- still say dont have! so fierce ah! ;D
OH WELL. :/ but not too bad lah, he together with the others GLs were nice enough to follow along while we were being blindfolded at that station and use their satay fan to fan us along. lol. ;D
oh yea! i love my empire's GLs too, cos they give us a special kind of treatment! ;D
they got satay fans, each GL got one, in order to fan us to keep us cool ;D whenever someone leads to say "AIRCON!" then they'll all form a circle around us and fannnnnnnnn.
WA SHIOK ;D something other empires dont have.
but just now i left to camp early. at close to 4pm. went home, changed, went to do my own last-minute-cropped-up stuff before going to to LJS at paya lebar with winston for dinner. ate what ive been craving for- FISH from LJS.
tmrw i will be back to TP for the FOC day 3. (:
and in the meantime, REST MY POOR BODY AH!
i told of my glory at 11:10 pm
Monday, 6 April 2009
i finally found something that suits my thoughts.
it's damn hell true im shocked.
this song..
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
thats all i can say to you.
im seeing truth now.
finally.
i told of my glory at 12:40 am
Sunday, 5 April 2009
today morning when i woke up,
no positive feeling.
i just felt like i should just stay in bed and be there for the whole day.
some people can affect me far too much.
so much that i can lose myself.
whether be it losing my own mind in work, or even in life.
having a family member in hospital isnt great.
i gotta keep going to the hospital.
im the only person in the younger generation who is there beside my cousin who is there cos it's his dad who's hospitalised.
but i want to be there to witness something that i believe,
can change my life.
when a student is ready, the teacher's everywhere.
theres a learning point i gotta take home from there.
whether in future, i get to benefit anymore people with what i have,
i will still learn.
and if my students are there, i will teach them..
i told of my glory at 12:39 pm
Saturday, 4 April 2009
got this off kaili's blog.
great song. stuck to it too. (:
in times like this,
i can only turn to music as my only other console.
i know there are still those bros and sis who are there for me.
but some issues are better kept to myself when it gets difficult to explain (:
Greatness as you
Smallness as me
You show me what is deep as sea
A little love, little kiss
A little hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories
You make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye
You make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh kissing you
Thank you for all the love you always give to me
Oh I love you
Greatness as you
Smallness as me
You show me what is deep as sea
A little love, little kiss
A little hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories
You make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye
You make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh kissing you
Thank you for all the love you always give to me
Oh I love you
Yes I do, I always do
Make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye
You make me cry
Make me smile
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh kissing you
Thank you for all the love you always give to me
Oh I love you, To be with you, oh I love you
told you some issues are hard for me to even tell anyone, anyone at all..
but it's okay (:
these are just trivial matters.
theyll blow over.
soon..
i told of my glory at 10:37 pm
it sucks when i get
1. how about if i tell you "stop jeopardizing your own future by spoiling your own reputation by doing things that dont benefit you.",
then behind your back, i go around telling others of your bad.
about how lousy a downline you are,
about how useless a manager you are,
about how youre not ready for anything after a year in this trade,
and how youre stupidly distracted by the trivial pursuits in life.
and how such a failure you are cos your position was never your own effort, all mine.
even in front of your downlines,
i dont think it matters and i should just tell them also and let them find out how useless their leader actually is.
2. how about if i tell you "gossiping is a sin. dont ever do that."
and there i go,
gossiping about you behind your back,
telling MANY others youre attached to some guy even though he's your close friend,
and that im so negative about this whole relationship.
though youve repeatedly explained your relation to me,
but im persistent cos i believe what i see and assume.
i know you like him, and i know you would rather help him than me.
and i know that you dont fucking give a damn about me over him.
even though you have said youre just friends,
but i dont trust you on this.
i think this is a very fun joke to play on you.
3. how about if i tell you "it's a combined decision."
when obviously there can only be one person who will stop you from this opportunity.
how about if i tell you "you will not be alone, i will not give up on your side cos i believe i shouldnt>"
when the next moment, i leave you there alone to handle everything and not give a damn.
how about if i tell you "you have a choice. if you want to, if you ask for help, i will help you."
when the next moment, you ask me for help and i tell you im too busy to help you and you should settle your own matters.
fucking ironical isnt it?
when im at the hospital,
and you call me up with that fucked up attitude demanding to know where i am,
when id already told you i wont be around today.
i dont care if you even doubted whether im at the hospital.
i care no more.
no more.
i told of my glory at 7:29 pm
Friday, 3 April 2009
sign after sign that i should finally disclose the fact that im still in venture era to my parents. oh well!
imagine, going around benefitting people with the product knowledge and nutrition knowledge i have.
but my own grandmother gets diabetes and 1st uncle gets hospitalised 2 weeks after finding out about the diabetes.
when i got the news that 1st uncle has been hospitalised,
it's only the feeling of lost + lost + lost = ?
though the cause of his body pains which led him to be hospitalised is still unknown to me,
but it's time for some drastic action.
and furthermore, today is my mother's birthday.
how about starting my plans with a MT pillow pad as a present?
would be great i guess..
make me promises only when im worth it.
take me to places only if im worth it.
give me your time only if im worth it.
shower me with gifts only, and only if, im worth it.
but youre worth every moment i spent loving.
(:
i told of my glory at 5:25 pm
Thursday, 2 April 2009
today was an extremely BORING day.
create activitesssss!
tmrw is miss chelsy's birthday so we had a simple celebration at b1 after company updates.
today was really boring i think o.O
zzz.
im not going for cruise and thats that.
theres no point harping on something that will never happen.
no matter what precautions id taken, it wont make a difference.
on a sidenote,
fuck those people who wanna comment about others when they themselves are using the same lousy tactics, waiting to be exposed.
too bad she got that backing and no one can do anything abuot this.
i dont liek it when i become a substitute and a backdrop when others steal my show when im initially the star.
i dont like to feel second to others, understand?
i told of my glory at 11:04 pm
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
today in general was a great day (:
went to office to meet my upline and my girls before setting off for town for our outing. ends up i reached office a little too early. AHAHAA. was talking with zihiu and others at b1 until the rest reached an hour after i did. LOL!
then we had a short grouping before setting off to marina square for yuki yaki lunch buffet :D
was having much fun bbq-ing food and adding weird stuff into our soup. got shot at unglam moments by my bad-ass downlines. lol. evil shitsxz. but still was pretty fun and all.
had the make-your-own-ice-cream thingy after that. our ice cream pan was used for making ice cream initially, then used to make SORBERT! highly hilarious. we added orange juice and made orange sorbert, then added zapple to make apple sorbert. and it's DAMN NICE OKAY!
and funny thing was that cos at that point in time was around 5pm alr, so they were preparing to welcome the dinner crowd. and they dished out food like fried nuggets, onion rings and sushi. upline and eunice actually turned aruond and took the onion rings though we werent supposed to cos we were paying for lunch buffet which didnt include that LOL. -.-
hilarious.
and jintian attempted to do so but failed cos someone came walking along. LOL.
then after that we went bowling. upline left to go back to office for his BM group up, and winston and diming came to join us :D
bowled two games, went to play pool for half an hour, then we went to carls junior to eat. OMG. eat again after a lunch buffet -.-
had a really tough time finishing the burger. was nice but tooooo big though i shared it with jintian. ZZZ.
reached home only at like 11.20pm. zzz. AM TIRED.
then made to take some more stress.
i hate life sometimes. but oh well.
thats why it's LIFE.
and on a sidenote,
i really dont know whats her problem.
she's a leader i look up to so much but she does this kind of low-down stuff like criticising me on stuff thats untrue, openly in front of people who seek my help, and are my friends. CLOSE friends.
she keeps spreading -ve stuff about me.
things conjured from nowhere,
facts she twisted and put me in a bad light.
whats your purpose in doing all this?
if your purpose is to sow discord between me and others,
forget it.
i dont understand what kind of sick pleasures you seek from doing such unethical stuff.
time after time, i take it just as a joke.
but time and again, i hear the same kind of -ve things being said.
from my being a victim, to being a liar.
from me being not involved AT ALL, to becoming the one who spread the news.
untimately, i wont let you have your way.
in the meantime, i can only endure.
cos only with MORE results, i'll shut your fucking big mouth up.
last month was just a start.
this month i'll show it to you.
that you should stop covering your own ASS by jeopardising your guys' futures.
let me tell you,
even my SA and SEs, MEs and my upline mean the world to me.
but to you?
youre nothing but a fucking selfish snob who uses your peoples' money in an inappropriate way.
someone close to me used to use this kind of tactics to cover her own ass.
but me and upline have made a commitment never to play with that kind of games ever again.
because it's not abuot YOU YOURSELF,
but it will affect YOUR WHOLE TEAM.
and you, having done all these,
IVE FUCKING LOST ALL THE RESPECT AND TRUST I ONCE HAD IN YOU.
on a sideside note,
i have to carry a smile all the time, even though in my heart, i cry for help and crave for concern.
sometimes, it's not whether i want or not either.
it's a matter of whether im allowed to choose.
but i'll learn to accept.
i told of my glory at 11:35 pm