Saturday, 30 June 2007
BOO! back from shopping! LOL. i came back with my SEXY BAG!! wooooh!!
I SO LOVE IT MAN!!
early in the morn woke up late for pre-ltc training! LOLs. so kuku lahs. 7am i was stil at home when it was to start at 7.3oam =x rawrrs. pia cab dwn, then realised tt it start late lo. we were stil outside lt2 at 8.3oam =.= KUKU. wei hao n eliza r the facils for sir gareth which is my grp, n blah blah, hahaz. my group is super siao one. the girls are =.=||| ultimate diao ness. hahaz.
then went for combined co prac at 12. hahha. ending le then we go. enough to hear them play once n the huqin sounded HORRIBLE. the xuan lv part was WALAO OMGWTFBBQ LAHS. =x then smart n FAST me stacked the chairs HAPPILY aftr the prac ended, then minghan was like "eh i thot must put back the tables? stil got exams right?" OH SHYT LAHS. then move all back agn. n u noe wad, SOME PARTICULAR JC PPL R HORRID. like none helped with moving the tables etc. NATIONAL JC ppl r gr8 cos most of them or isit all of them, ahahaz, helped to move lei!! n they stayed til the end also! NICE OF THEM. then stil other jcs also help lo. c, got ren qing wei, unlike XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX. LOLs. sue me lahs sue me lahs. i complain lei. wahaha.
I LOVE MY NEW POSER BAG MANNNNN. NIKEEE!!!!
i told of my glory at 10:17 pm
Friday, 29 June 2007
BOO! im back to post again. wahhas.
new zhco exco! just been informed by kang tai :)))) weiting is chair, shiyuan is vice chair, kang tai is treasurer! xiu fang n yuhang dizi SLs n dawei huqin SL. :D
proud of my juniors. wheeees~
talked on the phone. something i've not done for a long long time. =x lols. last time i talked on the phone was due to zhcohuqin bbq. n i practically listened to them talk only cos it was a conference. lols. seriously, i think my ear pain de lo. hahaz. i'd rather talk on the handphone. =x
anyway, i love cakes.
STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE.
oh pardon me, n idol LUO JUN AHHH, for kukunana's sake pls dont link strawberry cheesecake to anywhr else. =x
CHOC MOUSSE is HORRID. STRAWBERRY CHEESCAKE THE BEST LAHS. :)))
i was telling law tt im taller than him sitting at that, uh, seat?
n ystd at long john's, brandon was trying to act cool, act man, wadevrr u call it. but pls notice his right hand tiny finger. do click to zoom in cos i also JUST noticed it though i just randomly took tt pic. ULTIMATE GAYNESS~ oh well, BEAN-boh. :))))
i told of my glory at 10:20 pm
BOO! wahhs. i feel so o.O today. lols.
morning had chinese mid yr. i think im super =.= lo. i fell aslp writing compo. rawrrs. fell aslp for 6 min n scared myself awake. hahaz. then when writing the compo. wahhs. felt super emo. u noe u noe u noe. cos i wrote the topic on someone u miss n respect. n i wrote abt ms leow. ms yvonne leow!! I SO MISS HER CAN. miss her not-so-funny jokes. miss the times me n abi mugged like KUKUS for a maths b4 Os. the times outside tt first classroom, whr ms leow would find us thr. the times sitting outside the staff room with ms leow. the only subject im ever proud of. THE TCHER IM MOST GAN JI OF IN ZHSS!! oh well, i guess im sounding a little bad lahs. like whr do i place mrs maybrie ang? HAHA. SHE RAWKS TOO K. but one is amaths, one is chem. =D but u noe, i wrote the compo abt ms leow.shant say details. but i felt so emo writing it. aftr O levels results were released, i've not been to c her yet. I HAVENT THANKED HER FOR HELPING ME SO MUCH!! u noe... when the class used to actually think she's so TMD-fierce, then in the end she's such a nice tcher. haiis. i miss zh lahs. i want to go find my sec 4 tchers. :((((
went to lan aftr chinese. ok i know u say WTF HUIFANG GG LAN??! lols. but i went thr to audition. cos my com canot have audi lahs! MICROSOFT VISTA. sucks big time. hahaz. so me cel law went to dhoby thr, plus zijie met us thr, n bra also. hahaz. :))) play for 5 hours lahs. OMG. =x
combined prac tmr, pre-ltc briefing tmr. WTH. both at the same time lahs kuku. I WAN GO CO!! RAWRRS.
n im in no more mood for CSE. may i get a E without any effort put in. HA.
i wan to take a picture with him!!!
i told of my glory at 8:07 pm
Thursday, 28 June 2007
BOO! went to PLAY today =x im so gonna die for chinese lahs o.O
went out at 10 smth to bishan library. looked for the vcds for PW but to no avail. the no. is correct n available but i didnt manage to find it! rawrrs. thenstarted on my cse. did abit only. lalala. then went to orchard to meet zijie n BRAndon. hahaz. went to fd republic!! =D wheees. nice food. n cel, chloe n joyce joined us for lunch too cos they were at orchard shopping. hahaz. then in the end the 6 of us went to gia gia tgt. we went to heeren then jiu go lucky plaza play pool le. WHEEEES~ damn fun lahs. on form de me plus super good mood today :D i think cel thinks im crazy le lahs. rawrrs. then went to far east long john aftr 2 hrs plus of pool, ate, talked, n then jiu leave le.
but cel n me wanted to go arcade. HA! so we went to zone x at dhoby ghaut mrt station. n i got smth to complain. dance dance rev super nova sucks big time can. me n cel play dno how many dodo times then the standard stil either too low, bu ran adjust le jiu too high. =x RAWRRS. n the daytona. the car kns!! LOL. then went to pcbunk to check out the rates. hmms. 3.5o per hour, package 6 computers 10.5o per hour. wahs. good deal. wanted to go thr play audition tmr but lawrence got an even better deal. 1 per hour. HURH??! dno lahs. he say de. lol. tmr go c how :D
YAY FINALLY!! stupid microsoft vista canot play audi. WAHHH SADNESS CAN??! =x
TMR TMR TMR!! n im so gonna HAHA at chinese. o.O
i told of my glory at 10:26 pm
Wednesday, 27 June 2007
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no one can ever tell me.
im so sorry.
ppl i atttituded.
ppl i dulan-ed.
ppl i was sarcastic to.
to my class 0723. everyone. im so sorry.
im sorry.
i sent out msgs of apology to some ppl. which will nvr b replied.
just when i realised i've done too much wrong, it's too late.
i told of my glory at 10:17 pm
BOO! ahhs. today was econs. wad can i say, errps. i can go bang wall le bahs. haha! not sad de bang wall! is ANGRY AHHHS!! im so totally annoyed luh! i told many ppl-
"eh u noe arhs, i mug like siao for chem n maths then come out those so chim qns. i give up on econs arh, if econs easy i can go bang wall."
well, it came true! LOL =x well well well. today i reached college at 9.40am. derek was alr thr fr 8 smth. but with my appearance, i distracted him by talking talking talking. =x rawrrs. IM SO SORRY =x i feel so guilty. hahaz. no interest to study econs jiu disturb him study history. zzz. lols. stupid ah bao ahhhh. saw me not say hi de, but instead she sent me some weirdFUNNY msg. hahaz. kuku lahs! =x hees. then i think i nuah-ed for like 1 hr n in the meantime continued disturbing derek. ahhhhs. sorry ah kukunehneh!! :ppp
n then we went for lunch at 11.30. ohhhh. FUNNY THING HAPPENED!! u noe. thr was this big black bird. LOL. mynah. tts the name. hahaz. it flew abv our heads DAMN LOW lahs omg can. then i was pretty shocked. hahaz. then it landed on the table diagonally bhind us, n BOMBED. omg lahs. on the flr. =x WTH KUKUNANA. LUCKY NVR BOMB ON OUR HEADS ARH! me heidi n derek were like ULTIMATE =.=!!! hahaz. stupid bird fly so low scare me, then aftr tt jiu go settle its business =x ALAMAK.
oh n i just read derek's blog n he blogged abt it too. HA. STUPID BIRD LAHS.
oh n anw, i did study abit in the end. i read the diversification n specialization thingy ms hazel told us was impt. HA. i do pay attention in class aftr all :ppp N IT CAME OUT FOR BOTH CASE STUDY N ESSAY!! yay ness. cld hv just vomitted out wad i read, but i FORGOT lahs. kuku. in the end only wrote 3 quarters the part b n half of part a. RAWRRS. but it was an easy test. serious. if only i memorized more =x
rawrrs. maths down, chem down, econs down, cse next. FIGHT TIL I DIE LAHS. stupid peterCARROT. rarrrrrs. =x
I SO LOVE STUDYING.
when i have the motivation. =x
i told of my glory at 7:02 pm
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
BOO! im so annoyed. super annoyed. tests tt r so damn easy, i dont study n fail. tests which r so EFFING DIFFICULT, I WASTE MY 3 WEEKS MUGGING FOR IT.
oh well, mayb i didnt. at least now i know all the concepts, like aftr 6 mths in this jc.
but still, the aftermath of the exam.
HUIFANG FEELS SUPER DEMORALISED.
HUIFANG FEELS VERY STUPID.
she cant even handle the first 2 pgs of structured qns. they were blank except for a helpless equation.
wad is silicon carbide? wad isit used for? wad properties does it have?
wad is the triangle with the G or the S beside? i only know the triangle with H. why isit so? because derek was nice enough to write sm stuff in my notes of entrophy for me, but i wasnt bothered to learn it. i only read it. n then it went smwhr else instead of into my mind.
i didnt put in enough effort.
im not surprised if i fail.
im not a mugger. muggers mug n get good grades. i do not get good grades.
was supposed to b studying with heidi in college today morn. but i just wasnt in the mood to. j2s' exam ended, luo jun came down n came over. crapped, bullshyted. "looking at U"="going to get U" laughed laughed laughed. RAWRRS. i think idol abit deaf alr. =x rawrrs. then ming kwang n derek came over also. talked talked talked. i just wasnt in the mood to study lahs.
that's y i say i didnt put in enough effort.
n i really canot get my prorities right. im affected by even the smallest distraction cos i kp thinking abt smth which happened days ago.
he knew all along tt he had the ability to charm those girls arnd him. esp us who hang arnd him too much. im not trying to b impolite. but who r u to judge? do u know evry single thing tt happened? thr's too much u dno abt. too little for me to forget, too much worth remembering. i appreciate ur tag on this matter, but im too caught up with the past. different ppl were treated differently. i just hope im treated different. just leave me b alright. rawrrs. it's all from the past.
i told of my glory at 7:33 pm
Monday, 25 June 2007
BOO!
n again, i c r/s problem arnd me. rawrrs. always my frens involved, yet i can do nthg to help them.
seperation is supposed to make a heart grow fonder.
yet it becomes pelted with problems? oh wad the. =.=
i find myself speechless. shld i at least send a console msg?
RAWRRS.
none of my business i know.
i dno the situation that's right. but aftr all.
they're both my frens.
CHEM. im so gonna kill myself.
seriously, i'll cry if i fail my maths.
i told of my glory at 11:25 pm
BOO!
HUIFANG IS DEAD.
HUIFANG HAS BEEN MURDERED BY THE SUBJECT SHE IS MOST CONFIDENT OF. OH FARK Y WAS THE MATHS TEST SO DIFFICULT? WAD THE KUKU IS PARAMETRIC BLAH BLAH??! 10 MARKS GONE LIKE THAT!! warghs!!!
TMR CHEM HOW??! IF ALSO LIKE TT I GO DIE ALR LAHS.
GO GET ALL "U" GRADE LAHS. WALAO. "A" IN MY DREAMS LAHS. GO WATCH CARTOON LAHS. KUKUNANA!!!
wow zijie is so GOT STYLE lei!!! AHEMS. the RAO zijie not lim zijie. lols!! =D
i told of my glory at 8:41 pm
Sunday, 24 June 2007
BOO! rawrrs. sunday is ruined with studying. rawrrs.
i was tidying my stuffs today n saw smth in a box. letters fr my feelow close frens in the past, n a key chain. this key chain was attached by myself. it was initially just an acrylic piece given by someone fr my childhood. someone i've totally forgotten abt. only today i rmbr him, like the last time i ever thot of this person was in pri sch. rawrrs. last contact was in p2. n until now i dno whr he is alr. n guess wad, his name is SAMUEL. cos it's written so on tt piece of acrylic. rawrrs. i vaguely rmbr wad he looks like. hahaz. he was....... shant go into such details. hahaz. but it was drawn by him lahs. so esp meaningful :))))) supposed to rmbr each other by tt piece of acrylic. cos it was supposed to join to form some *ahems* kiddish message. hahaz.
OH I MISS THAT FREN SO. wahahahs.
n somebody just msg-ed me. rawrrs. telling me to work hard n wishing me luck. asking me if i missed him =x HAIIIS. is this another motivation for midyrs? or isit something for me to think n think n emo about all over again? I PUT HIM DOWN. BUT Y MUST HE APPEAR AT 9.39PM N BLAH BLAHS. i miss u so farking lots lahs. n u nvr cared much anymore. :(((( RAWRRS.
OMG LAHS INITIAL D IS SUCH A NICE SHOW!!
ok lahs im slow by like, how many months? lol. it's alright. JAY CHOU RAWKS CAN!!! woooootS!! n edison chen!!! ARHHHHHH!!!! yi lu xiang bei!!! =D
i told of my glory at 11:05 pm
BOO OOOOOOOOOO OOOO!!
HUIFANG IS NOT EMO!
HUIFANG IS NOT PURELY STUPID!
HUIFANG MAY B STUPID,
BUT SHE IS SMART TOOOOOO!!
WAD THE FARK LAHS
WHO R THE MISERABLE MOTHERFARKERS WHO SAY IM STUPID
THINK U SO FARKING SMART??!
THEN PROVE TO ME LAHS
LOSERS. =x
"WHAT THE HELL" IS ALSO A LALA LOSER COS IT DONT DARE PUT NAME
AHAHHAHA.
NANANANYNYNANANYNY.
BLAH BLAH BLAHS.
lalala. i just felt like doing tt to those miserable motherfarkers who tk my poll for sickly perverted fun. cos stupid ppl do stupid things. n im stupid, rmbr? so i do this!
LALALA. STRESS MAKE ME HAVE A JIALAT OUTBREAK!! STRESS IS WAD I GIVE MYSELF SO LET ME GO N BANG WALL DIE!! FIRE BURN EYEBROWS ALR!! QUICK QUICK QUICK!! MID YRS!!!!!
a serious case of nuts, chickens, berries, wadevrr u call it. ming kwang said if one fine day IMH n NYJC exchanged sites then it'd b so convenient for him to go to college evryday. LOL. so if one fine day tt happens, i'll walk into college site n end up at IMH. that's wad mk said. YAY. MONDAY IM GG TO IMH.
i told u i was stressed. u didnt believe me.
i got no other out-angry-bin. WAHAHAHAHAHA.
MY POOR BLOG IS SO FULL OF BULLSHYT;
Y NO MY DARLING;
Y NO MY HAPPINESS;
RAWRRRS;
oh i terrorised a kid with my random RAWRRS tt day. i have witnesses to it.
RAWRRS.
i told of my glory at 2:09 am
BOO! im home at 11:20pm. wad fark.
sidetrack: WHY DO I GET PPL GOOGLING MING KWANG'S NAME N ENDING UP AT MY BLOG DAILY??! lol. who r u??! ming kwang's secret admirer? heehee.
anw, was doing maths at home when huiting called me. i didnt want to go with them de, cos exams are on monday. haiiii. now im feeling so guilty lahs. =x rawrrs. i didnt want to go with them, but mummy told me to go. cos she scared i too stressed laaaaahs. =x lols. in the end we went to play pool lahs. blearghs. i want to play pool yet i feel so sian of pool. =x rawrrs. maths maths maths, chem chem chem. in my mind. whr's econs? somewhr over the rainbow. lols. hmms. met up with ryan, huiting, weiming, sandra, baoyu n teck huat. wahahas. long time didnt c huat n sandra le!! :)))) wahhhas. think i was abit sot sot today lahs. over-high with huiting alr. laugh like sm kkuku idiots. someone got hit by the cue stick twice today lahs. n by ppl fr the same table though diff groups of ppl. lol. damn heng of her =x hahaz!! anw, left earlier. rawrrs. there goes my prata flying away fr me. how long have i not eaten prata alr lahhs!! =x
oh n HOT! TOTALLY HOT!! lols. no one knows wad im talking abt. private thot!! haahaha. DONT THINK SO FAR AWAY.
*i just realised he's gonna remain thr for the time being, should i go back? shld i?? im considering alr. wad the hell. all for the sake of him? ERRPS.
the end of holidays. wil he stil smile to me sometimes? im wondering n wondering n wondering. motivation for mid yrs! GOGOGO!
y do i always c guys who dont have the tiniest bit of intention of noticing girls?
OH MY GAWD LAHS.
saw the lyrics of this song on idol's blog. :((((
《安静》 周杰伦
只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
chorus:
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你
i told of my glory at 2:08 am
Saturday, 23 June 2007
BOO!
someone let me hear this song.
the slow version.
n i find the lyrics really nice :))))
i stil hear ur voice when u sleep next to me
i stil feel ur touch in my dreams
forgive me my weakness but i dont know why
without u it's hard to survive
cos everytime we touch
i get this feeling
n everytime we kiss i swear i could fly
can u feel my heartbeat fast
i want this to last
i need u by my side
cos everytime we touch
i feel the static
n everytime we kiss
i reach for the sky
can u feel my heartbeat so
i cant let u go
i want u in my life
___*wads_this_missing_line_i_didnt_catch*___
they wipe away tears tt i cry
the good n the bad times we've been thru them all
u make me right when i fall
cos everytime we touch
i get this feeling
n everytime we kiss i swear i could fly
can u feel my heartbeat fast
i want this to last
i need u by my side
cos everytime we touch
i feel the static
n everytime we kiss
i reach for the sky
can u feel my heartbeat so
i cant let u go
i want u in my life
it's hard for someone like this to come by :))))
i told of my glory at 12:43 am
Friday, 22 June 2007
BOO!
muggggerr!! LOL. wth lahs. =x lol. alright not mugger. rawrrs. went to college today at 10am. HA. since some person always leave at 10 smth this week when i kp arriving at 11 smth, today i will b EARLY. n he was thr when i went! HA! :))))) n bleaghs, he stayed for the whole day. lols. lalala. n ming kwang came today! :))))))))))))))) woooh! like at long last. hahaz. but anyways, did 4 chapters of econs today n my maths tys. woohoo!! :D though i think im stil as kuku abt econs. lol. but anyways, think i had a nice nice day. hahaz. vandalising the atrium tables =x lol. drew on my table n drew on tt person's table too, n the nxt table. hahhaz. :))))) oops.
evening supposed to meet someone but someone said i sounded v tired fr all the studying. LOL. ok then. soon i'll c him again xD
EMO-ing? hahaa. i love this shot!! :))))) he saw this pic n he laughed! LOLs.
it's still SU LAME.
i told of my glory at 11:00 pm
Thursday, 21 June 2007
BOO! hahaz.
woke up early in the morn to go to CLB for PW. oh fark. rawrrs. saw shi pei thr. hahaz. the trip thr was torturous. first time in my life i took more than 30 minutes to get from bishan to city hall cos of the stupid mrt!! rawrrs. from toa payoh to city hall, it stopped in the tunnel, b4 the stations, for 10 times. TEN!! omgwtfbbq. rawrrs. "due to train ahead, this train will b delayed for a short while" was the first explaination, then "due to train fault ahead, this train will b delayed for a short while." RAWRRS. kukunana. y i always so suay to end up on trains which stop now n then? WAHHHS. in the end i was late =x
went to college, whole day of doing chem. OH SHYT. n my econs r still in a neat pile =x NO INTEREST IN ECONS AT ALL!! oh damn.
chem-ed the whole day.
until errps, 6.45pm. hahaz.
LALALA.
he's super ego. lols. but in a funny n CUTE way. wahahhahas!!
i told of my glory at 11:34 pm
Wednesday, 20 June 2007
BOO! SAJC DANCE IS SUPER NICE LAHS!! saw the link fr constance's blog, watched it. wow. the music is nice.
the cheorography is nice.
splendid. gold. wow.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YJTpLZPSifs
wow.
i told of my glory at 11:48 pm
BOO!
completed my chem today. that leaves me with econs n cse. both murderers. which murderer is more lenient? im taking a gamble with econs. so bless me, another day of mugging tmr with NON-econs seniors. omg =x who m i to turn to to ask for help. rawrrs. hopefully i c econs ppl arnd to ask help fr =x RAWRRS. ming kwang the lazy pig ps us agn today cos he woke up at 1pm =x
kukunana. RAWRRS.
derek said superman left shortly aftr he reached. rawrrs. so it's so sad that im late =x arghhs. wadevrr lahs. i dont want to b bothered by such trivial stuffs.
canon in d is so nice.
wadever u feel, i feel no more.
i shall live on happily cherishing wad i have in this world, for thr r dead ppl who want to live despite having nthg. when i have evrything, wad m i complaining abt? im complaining abt not having enough. zuo ren yao dong de zhi zu!
oh shyt PW at bugis at 9am. wth.
i told of my glory at 11:04 pm
wad is wrong with me
wad is wrong with me
wad is wrong with me
zj says im stressed =x
cos i think too much.
no one wanted things to turn out this way. wad went wrong?
it's just again another time when im gg to look at my laptop at others' happiness n cry my heart out thinking of the unhappy stuffs. b the happy n unglam huifang in college n laugh like some bitch. flirt like a slut n looking at superman if he even is there. study like nobody's business n stressing myself out trying to kill myself. being highly irritable n then guilty. whr did all the ppl who care go to. i know. to their trouble-land too. evry1 has troubles. jc life.
no wonder cyrus once said he alr sees the jc attitude in me. now i get wad he means. he was right. n to think i actually hated him on tt night he said tt to me. i wanted to prove him wrong. but i was the one who was wrong. he did not reprimand me. he was advising me. but i didnt know wad was right then. all i knew was to cry when i knew i was backstabbed. i wasnt strong enough. n im still not strong enough. now in jc, it gets so unmanageable. it gets so tiring i want to just throw my file on the floor. step on it. shout at someone. i really need a shoulder that i can lean on to cry n cry n cry n cry n cry n cry n cry n cry n cry n cry.
wad the fark. stop emo-ing.
i told of my glory at 1:28 am
boo.
studied at college today. rawrrs. eye candy wasnt thr lahs. sian-ned. saw BRA =x arghs. think me n derek talked more than studied today lahs. though i completed all my math revision today. =/ RAWRRS. n kukunana ming kwang tt lazy pig woke up at 10.40am n was lazy to come to college =x oh anw i saw a couple KISSING at the, erm, u noe the stairs at the tennis court. yahs. erm. i was like looking arnd n THEY caught my eye. think the guy will kill me if he recognizes me cos he turned arnd n saw me looking though i was like uhhh, abt 100m away at the atrium. ahh wadevrr lahs. they wan kiss is their business =x but no need so open lahs -.-||
IM BORED WITH STUDYING.
seriously.
sometimes i tend to get over-reliant.
which isnt a good thing.
im still wondering how u actually feel.
i nvr thot much about this matter despite being tied to it for so long alr.
u noe abt some of my past, noe my present.
i really dno wad u think of me now.
i really want to know.
the ugly side of me, the best side of me, u've been there all the while.
i nvr wanted things to bcm so complicated.
i nvr wanted to bcm over-reliant on u.
i nvr wanted things to move beyond wad was best.
WHO EVER WANTED TO HAVE COMPLICATED MATTERS ONE AFTER ANOTHER?
if things were purely simple.
the pure frenship i so wanted.
i told of my glory at 1:06 am
Tuesday, 19 June 2007
BOO! arghs. today only studied for 3 hours plus =x NO MOTIVATION LAHS. kukunana. motivation ran away at 12 plus. =x RAWRRS. n i told chris mummy tt i'd go at 8am =x BLEARGHS. in the end i woke up at 7am n went back to sleep, only to wake up agn at 10am. RAWRRS.
then went to orchard with law, chris mummy n zc to meet heidi thr. guys went to play lan n girls went to gia gia. hahaz. LAZY TO TYPE DETAILS.
oh n anw, i think my blog posts r getting shorter n shorter. rawrrs. boring life of studying, mugging n studying. RAWRRS.
study tmr agn. WAHAHAs. with my 2 nicest nyco seniors :D
i told of my glory at 2:34 pm
Monday, 18 June 2007
BOO! today was a tiring day lahhhhhs. =x
errps. went to tn today. met joyce n pei-ed ryan lunch. cyrus wasnt working, patsy wasnt working, SIAN-NESS. =x then aftr tt went to bishan library. met chong long with his gf. lol. stupid library so cold =x froze in thr for one n half hr waiting for zw. did math n updated my BOOK. rawrrs. then went to dhoby ghaut to gia gia while waiting for them to finish the movie then meet them for dinner.
why why why no interest at all in fan4 movie??
WEIRD.
mugger-NOT.
but anyways, dinner-ed at foodcourt n me, abi, zw, timo n leeyen were happily talking our side of the table =x lols. then blah lahalahalaha ALAMAK im damn lazy to type le lahs =x but we went arcade. FUN. lols.
8am!! CHRIS I WILL MK IT AT 8AM!! if possible lahs =x arghhhs. chris so bullshyt. lols.
S for SUPERman!! =D
as an additional-
omg some slut just kaobei-ed me indirectly in her post to the house excos. WTH think i so free to search for supplier now? queensway mind u. not serangoon. bitch. u always overseas=no need study but IM STUPID K. I NEED TO STUDY. C MY POLL WHICH SHOWS 18% VOTED FOR ME BEING PURELY STUPID. fark that man. bloody slut out to make me lose wadevrr reputation i have. SO FREE U GO FIND SUPPLIER LAHS. knn no one volunteer then i bo bian must tk. walan eh. early know dont tk, then no need mk shirt lahs! not that i DOWAN the exco shirt n not tt im unwilling to do it. but PLS FOR FARKING HELL SAKE B CONSIDERATE CAN ANOT. n wads more, it's YOU who kb me. WTF LAHS. ONE FINE DAY I SMACK U UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE OUT THEN U NOE WHO SMART K. i hvnt been THAT irritated for a long time alr. wth man.
i told of my glory at 3:13 pm
Sunday, 17 June 2007
BOO! RAWRRS. today was half a day wasted.
morn went to college for noticeboard deco for PHOENIX. wahahas. now our nb looks like some kiddy advertisement. lols. william yeo n victor tan say dull mahs, so we put many many bright bright colours. hahaz. all thanks to chris mummy's traced-til-v-tiring phoenix, our board looks nice!! hahaz. me n shipei were having a crazy time matching colours. lols. did the nb til 2.50pm then go eat lunch. piaaa sia. hahaz. well. felt really sick today =x but went home n then off to marina sq i went agn. wth lahs. my parents bought so much stuff but NONE MINE. wth. kukunanas. blahblahs. then went to jack's place. woooooh! so long nvr go thr le =x but arhs, the food tks damn long to come, though the waiters r DAMN CUTE. my mom said so =x lols. but really lahs. hahaz.
arghs. didnt study at all. gg to tn tmr with joyce to go find ryan. n hopefully to c cyrus.....
just listened to the diff versions of canon in d from yiling's blog. WAHS. DAMN NICE LAHS. this is a nice song so play. nice song to listen. ahhhs. diff versions, the xylophone version, the rock version n the classic version, all so niceeeeee!!! :)))
S for SUPERman! S for..... SUPER! LOLs. :pppp
how how how. im thinking how he is cos i havent seen him in the past 4 months. zzz. 4 months. so damn long when he used to b my daily pillar of support.
i told of my glory at 3:12 pm
Saturday, 16 June 2007
BOO! IM HOME. wth. wad a big deal. arghs. i stayed out so late today =x reached home only at 1.45am. LOL.
i spent my whole day in college MUGGING! omft. i canot tahan myself today lahs. was asking myself wads wrong with me today. lols. 10.30am start, till 1.30pm, then 2.30pm to 5.30pm. HA. wth. that makes 6 hours of studying!! WOOHOO!! all thanks to derek :D LOL. n chris mummy of cos. hahaz. 2 ppl whom i REALLY can study with :)))) n photocopied some pretty useful maths stuff fr D! :)))) YAY. i completed, hmms let me c, erm, 4 chapters of chemistry? n erm, i did the last yr mid-yr maths ppr! HA. wonder how a senior can happily say tt he got 6.5/70 when even i can get higher than tt with all the stupid careless mistakes =x lols. didnt complete the ppr though. ahhh. DISTRACTION LAHS. lols. but i understood alot more alr!!
THANKS SO MUCH DEREK!! :))))
then weiming msged me, asked me to go POOL! omg lahs ystd just went pool =x LOL. but GO LAHS! wahahas. otherwise always reject him. baddie lahs. hahaz. so went home aftr mugging session n then went out agn to meet W n N. met weijian on the way! LOL.
then went to amk kpool. alamak. SO MANY AHBENGS LAHS. n W actually cracked a LAME joke that got ming in the name = ah ming = beng. WALAO EHS. then he say at kpool area de ah bengs only diao diao dont fight de. hahaz. but N buay tahans. so we went to the snookerium. n ryan came aftr work! :D wheeees~ played fr 10.30pm to closing =x which is 1am. hahaz. dennis also came, as W's "girlfren". LOL lahs. but baddie W nvr care his "GF" de! HAHAz, then we went to eat at macs n HOME SWEEET HOME :D lols. tiring day =x wake up at 7.30am tmr lei. HOW HOW HOW??! all thanks to darling mummy lahs. kuku ask us go college so early =x
oh anyway, pool sucked =x i dno y but i kept hitting balls in tgt. in which the colour + the white. freaking stupid lahs. then was talking with R today abt ex company stuffs. haiiz. idiot lahs. canot control my emotions n ended up crying when i mentioned cyrus telling me abt sm stuffs. plus the loneliness i felt without them. :(((((
but R thinks too much lahs. wth. rawrrs. says i dont wanna go back tn isit cos i like cyrus n got rejected by him. AHEMS.
jin tian we kan dao ta na you yu de yan shen. wo zhi dao ta xin li xiang de shi shen me, dan wu neng jie kai zhe xin jie. ta na you yu de yan shen zhi jie chuan tou le wo de xin. dang ta kan xiang na fang xiang de na yi ke, wo de xin si hu yao sui le. :(((
i told of my glory at 5:34 pm
Friday, 15 June 2007
boo. suddenly im feeling such a loser. how? i just canot seem to deal with emotions in a matured n proper manner.
emo emo emo?
keep quiet only ppl say i emo.
not one. but two. three.
im not emo. im quiet. when im quiet=think.
think think think.
think so much for wad. worry wad shyt. since u're out then PLAY. dont think so much about ur notes waiting for u at home.
r u thinking about ur notes?
or r u thinking about something else?
something.. related?
i feel like im in such a dilemma.
wad do i want out of JC?
wad m i getting out of JC?
fun? knowledge? stress? friendships?
pae24-ers? feels so distant
o723? feels so warm yet distant at times.
nyco? feels so stressful due to myself n yet so warm n loving. scandalous making it so inviting.
combined excos? sounds so duper distant n only close when there's smth major coming up. how often is tt? rare.
oh so sad. im caught in another trap set by me, myself, i.
it was just pure coincidence. if only i nvr went to college evryday.
if only i nvr looked arnd.
if u nvr caught my eye.
then i wouldnt b so troubled. =x
i told of my glory at 3:34 pm
BOO! back from PAE24 outing. =x
i seriously think my day wasnt too good. too many things on my mind. =x canot comcentrate on PLAYING. zzz. seoul garden lunch followed by pool n then secret recipes CAKE! erm, i think i treated zijie quite bad today =x cos i kept snapping at him instead of talking. hmms. well, LIM ZIJIE IF U READ THIS, really sorry abt tt ahhs. IM FEELING SO =x LAHS. really dno wad to sy lo. ah bao kept repeating his hp no. NO NO NO I SHANT TAKE IT. take for wad, like i dare to msg him like tt =x pool sucked too. bloody hell off form de lahs. kuku. in the end i was SO irritated. zzz. then zijie wanted to switch table w me. OH THANK GOODNESS FOR THAT. cos i immediately played better. but stil so off-form!! I PREFER HOUGANG PLAZA TABLES!! hougang plaza thr chao on-form de lo :)))))
my right shoulder is aching =x
how many? sure anot? how how how. no. pls. no. i just told ah bao today tt his tiao2 jian4 tai4 hao3 le. so. no. no. no. no. NO. save myself the misery =x but i cant seem to escape fr this!!! ARGHS
i told of my glory at 1:15 pm
Thursday, 14 June 2007
BOO! had a PRODUCTIVE day in college studying. WAHAHHA.
morn reached college n saw chris mummy n zi can at atrium tables so went over only to c ah bao n other j2 bball guys thr. hahaz. then tt erms, wads his name, oh yea, samuel. said ispace open. so bronson, baoxian, chris, zc n me walked to ispace, only to find tt we're NOT allowed in. so we WALKED BACK. zzz. then B complain hot lahs, lol. so he went to find a tutorial room at the 3rd level. then all of us went up. WOW. i managed to start on my chapter 8!! WOOHOO!! n once i start, i cant stop. completed the chapter today!! WAHAHAHA. BUT!!! i dno how to implement. tts the prob. i c the tys qn, i GONG alr. kns. FRIDAY!! with derek's help, i shall SETTLE ALL. hurhhhs. :))) anyways, damn funny lahs. in the tutorial room abit wan to fall aslp. just when i was yawning, one of the bballers was alr sleeping. lol. n S was complaining say wan slp. ALAMAK. doesnt help at all. mk me wan to fall aslp more. =x study at atrium is better. zzz.
TMR IS PAE24-ers OUTING TO SEOUL GARDEN. MEET THOSE I SO LOVE!! WAHAHAHS. =D
lalala. 6th. not 9th. LOL. alright. equally jialatsss =x but. WHO CARES. im happy that's it :))))
must get friendly eye candies who auto talk to u. then u'll b glad. hahhaha.
i told of my glory at 2:12 pm
Wednesday, 13 June 2007
BOO! im feeling so wasted away today. ARGHs.
reached college at like wad, 2pm? then met zi can at the tennis court. woohoo! somebody to pei me. alamak. cos i didnt rcv heidi's msg ystd tt she'd b late cos she gg kbox. ZZZ. then zi can n me alr walked to 3rd level, heading for tutorial classroom. N THEN!! i changed my mind n dcided to go to the atrium to do my work instead :ppp ok fine call me some idiot. LOL. cos i saw SOMEBARDIE. wahahas. n i ended up somewhr with a good viewpoint. lols. alright. i didnt even noe his name =x hahaz. zj joined us aftr tt, n then blah blahs. stupid zj lahs =x say sit thr canot talk so want move to canteen. NO!!!! so we went to outside lt4. hahaz. the view stil.... not bad arhs. lols. finally left college at 4smth to go j8. WAIT FOR HEIDI, n eat!! :D lols. met chris mummy at bus stop!! WAHHS so qiao :)))) then i asked him tt person's name, oooh. hahaz. zijie's guess tt his name is benjamin is SO OUT. LOL. a wild guess is so -.-|| lahs. lols. oops. now mummy knows. hahaz. :pppp then tried the kfc miso crunch. alamak. i think it tasted horrid lahs. zzz. =/ i think i really wasted my time at j8 yea. lols.
TMR TO COLLEGE AGAIN!! :DDDDDDD
he's really damn cute lahs! OH SO AI4 MEI3. lols.
hmms. ai4 mei3 abit like someone yea? oops. the patterns r thr.
height also similar leii. howhowhow. hahahaz.
i told of my glory at 2:55 pm
Tuesday, 12 June 2007
BOO! im home. home. home. BAHS. today. zzz.
i shant blog abt wad i did today.
it's all about this song-
大s:没有起伏的情绪因为你出现后划破平静
震撼我已紧封闭的心冰山河雪在融解
仔:回到初次的相遇风在吹一个人独自美丽
灰的天空为何没有表情你的心相遇
大s:就让我爱你没有了自己
仔:残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引
仔:绝对地就算生命所剩无几
合唱:只要拥抱瞬间的默契
大s:就让我爱你证明有奇迹
仔:再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你
我愿意放弃世界微笑而去
合唱:幸福和缘却在一起
大s:过去总是挥不去
仔:再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒
大s:我的泪水淌过你的天空
仔:雨下不停心好痛
风像画笔看着我
你的容颜尽在风的前头
大s:我的心划出第一次的彩虹
合唱:因为你我相信
合唱:下一个世纪让我爱你……
it's a super nice duet lahs.
n anyways more ppl r listening to "would u b thr", so the novelty just fades off.
this song was so long ago.
everyone asking. everyone asking. everyone asking.
im feeling inferior. feeling demoralised.
ppl who used to b behind me r gg r INVITED. im not.
not.
not.
NOT.
fren isnt making me feel better:
"even if u think u r the best or ppl give u the impression that they think u r one of the better ones
it's not always like this
n u cant b in the lead of everything u do"
n i thought u'd b thr to just listen to me rant n let off steam.
it's alright.
i know this shows that at least u bother abt me.
but do u have to b tt straightforward n telling me tt it isnt wad i think n tt my skills just plainly suck?
i just want to fade off without anyone knowing.
i cried. for nothing. oh fuck this.
i told of my glory at 2:43 pm
Monday, 11 June 2007
BOO! back from bbq! hahaz. reached home at 12.02am. zzz. hahaz. fun! plus my BICARDI BREEZER. oooh. hahaz :D
went to orchard b4 gg to pasir ris. collected my darling hp!! :)))))) batt almost flat. zzz. so brought the nok3230 along to PR. chiong thr in time. hahaz. then met up with them!! YAYNESS. miss them all so much. hahaz. think of the times we chiong-ed for syf 'o5 as one zhco huqin!! hahaz. bought a cake for the june babies too! which include pu kuang, yan hao, woonie n rachel. hahaz.
played zhong1 ji2 mi4 ma3. alamak. i kenna twice. hahaz. punishment=eat chicken wing or 2 sausages or 3 satays. hahaz. so kuku lahs! hahaz. stupid pu kuang kp sabo-ing ppl de =x lols. sit bside him is SUAY one can. hahaz. but had fun :D hahaz then u noe how we the smart ppl put out our bbq pit fire? pls refer to the pics below. hahaz. SMART way :)))))
left at abt 11 with pu kuang, vera, yu heng, yu xuan n minghan. waited like kukus for the stupid bus n we tk pics :D me n mh even did some.... spastic thing lahs. c the pic below. hahaz. :))) when it gets late, hahaz. :pp WELL WELL WELL. then we took 403 lahs, n we alighted fr it halfway to chgn bus n only pk tk to interchgn. when we'd crossed the road, i realised my nok3230 was missing. called pu kuang. LUCKY he found it cos he was sitting bside me on the bus :)))))) WHEEEES. lucky lahs. =x phew.
tiring. but fun. too bad junru didnt come today. haiiz.
PICTURES!! :)))))
we put our leftover ice on the gauze to put out the fire -.-||
vera, me n heidi!
and again!! :))) *omg wad xpression??!
my xpression was due to idiotic minghan kicking sand on me. OH SHYT SO UNGLAM.
we act cute!! :D
vera n me,n the sea!!
me n minghan!!! =D
the 4 of us :)))) always.
the five of us. pu kuang, yu xuan, me, yuheng n minghan :))))
i do an ad for breezers. hhhahahha!!
i so love zhcohuqin OUR batch :D
he didnt turn up cos he was sick :(((((
"...will date u out some day k..." is that another empty promise of his that im alr so sick of? i hope not. im still missing him.
y do so many ppl get to go thr but i dont? it's demoralising enough to hear nyjcians talk abt it. but gg to the zhcohuqin bbq n hear zhang laoshi, rachel, minghan etc etc talk abt gg for it, it's torturous!!
I WANT TO GIVE UP!!
I WANT TO GIVE UP!!
but having invested over a thousand, n so much time in this, i really dont know wad to do.
Y M I SUCH A LOUSY PLAYER??! THIS SUCKS FUCKING BIG TIME.
I HATE FEELING DEMORALISED.
IM NOT BEING POWER-HUNGRY HERE BUT I JUST WANT TO B ACKNOWLEDGED FOR MY EFFORT.
m i really such a lousy player?
m i really not meant for erhu?
m i really fated to go back to dizi???
SOMEONE TELL ME WHY??!!!
i told of my glory at 5:10 pm
Sunday, 10 June 2007
boo. since so many ppl say im emo, that's wad i'll b.
this post is gg to b very personal. so read on only if u want to b bored by me.
climax will only b at the end of cos.
i've always had this dream.
the picture tht forms in my head when im thinking of related stuff.
now that im gg through my 5th year in co. i've held this dream for 5 yrs.
me at the much-desired seat on the stage.
the concert ends.
i stand up, n shake hand with the conductor.
all eyes on me, all the claps for the orchestra.
the moment of glory, the moment i've been working hard for.
never to come true in a grand concert properly staged at a concert hall.
i swear i took that seat b4, back in zhco. but it was just minor school performances, with no handshake, who'd notice me? i fought so hard for that seat. i succeeded then. gaohu was at the other side. but in nanyang, bsides my zhrians, who believes?
no one will believe.
no one believes lousy sucky standard huifang can ever make it to that much-desired seat she worked so hard for.
tts y now in nyco, i want to go over to gaohu aftr syf. just to make it thr.
but no.
no.
no.
stop dreaming huifang. STOP DREAMING.
wad the f*ck is this crap?
i shld have just pulled out when i realised he was coming to ny with me.
call me a weakling or wad. wads wrong with giving up in working for wad will nvr b urs?
now it gets so tiring to work hard in a place with little motivation and more of self-pressure.
i have to get the SL position
i have to get the SL position
i have to get the SL position
i have to get into the CO EXCO
i have to get into the CO EXCO
i have to get into the CO EXCO
wad's that now? ALL JUST BULLSHYT.
i want to play gaohu n tk tt much-desired seat.
i want to play gaohu n tk tt much-desired seat.
i want to play gaohu n tk tt much-desired seat.
wad's that now? ALL IS SHYT.
im not afraid to say those thots i had now, cos it will NEVER EVER come true.
the first time being in a place whr im not a leader.
get this? i've always held a position wherever i go, ever since i got to know the word LEADER.
in sec 1, all i wanted was fun. but i was still the class welfare officer.
in sec 2, sch- student councillor + class- welfare officer.
in sec 3, zhco- huqin SL + class- job equal to treasurer of class.
in sec 4, zhco- huqin SL + class- treasurer n job equal to monitress.
in j1, class- ex CT rep but gave up due to HOUSE + college- HOUSE exco
but in nyco?
NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL.
CALL ME A SORE LOSER.
all that commitment in zhco was paid off with the relationships with the juniors thr.
all the commitment in nyco?
im not showing it enough.
i know it.
cos i know it takes me nowhere.
he can go tk tt much-desired seat for all he wants. i dont give a damn. he has the standard, the grade, the experience, the position. wad m i compared to him? i'll just willingly stop fighting for wad will nvr b mine. but the fact tt he told me "play gaohu lor, cos thr's no other way i can b the [much-desired position]" wad crap is that? u're just making use of it as a platform for u to take that much-desired seat??! this is one thing tt i canot tk. it had always been my target since i transferred to erhu to play gaohu. it was passion tt drove me. not the status. i admit im ambitious. over-ambitious. but it's stil passion tt tks me far.
4 yrs ago,i went over to erhu cos he told me to.
i was stupid.
3 yrs ago,i wanted to play gaohu.
cos he inspired me to.
1 yr ago,i came to ny cos he told me to.
i was stupid.
i was blinded by.....
im not regretting coming to ny. it's just tt in nyco thr's too much gg on. things get so complicating with brainless assumptions n bad just pure bad memories.
but i tell myself to hang on. for the sake of the motivations i have, which r my NICEST SENIORS n some NICE FELLOW J1s n my selective passion towards co.
this person- saying i like her guy when he ISNT even hers, n referring to me as a bitch on her think-it's private-but-smart-me-found-it blog. i felt so sad. sad is too a weak a word. but i cant think of anythg more difficult. it wasnt the guy was lousy. it wasnt i hated her. but i just felt so betrayed. someone i thot was a person i could possibly call a fren. a fellow co mate. i was wrong.
wad kind of post do u call this? random?
i dont care.
im just annoyed. few ppl read my blog anyway.
im gonna c him tmr. how will we b? as close as we used to b?
it's gonna b the stupid me again.
i told of my glory at 2:54 pm
Saturday, 9 June 2007
boo. u noe wad,
THAT CUTE BBALLER!!
that i've seen around these few days in college,
n took the same bus as me today!! LOLs.
woohoo!! :))))
told u im emotionally unstable.
ARGHs.
i told of my glory at 5:05 pm
BOO!
did my chem tutorial on enthalpy. i seriously need help.
ANY KIND SENIOR OR FELLOW J1 WILLING TO HELP ME PLS? :(((
i'd really appreciate it alot de :)))
haii. do until can vomit blood lei. i did 12 mcq n i dont know 5 of it. i feel so stupid can. zzz. then had to settle zijie's "stinky n smelly". MA FAN LAHS. (erms, they're tortoises. hahaz) WTH LAHS. smelly. even nicholas said they're smelly =x ZZZ. made me make one stupid trip to ZHSS just to realise the stupid pond is useless lahs. RAWRRRRS.
anyways, started off the day with a combined house excos meeting :)))) yayness. they were a bunch of digressing jokers. hahaz. but fun luhs. we meet at college, then walk to central to macs only to realise it's not open for today morn =x so we went to n&b to tauhuay. but anyways, the 3 soccer guys r so SLOW lahs. walk damn slow n somemore go buy waffle. kukus. hmms let me c- darren, albert n arrun. hahaz. well, discussed alot of crap ideas for interhouse activites. CASINO interhouse. laughs die me lahs =/ hahaz. but anyways, finally settle excos tee issue.
im emotionally unstable. STILL.
shyt lahs, wads wrong with me today? ask heidi, im weird today.
went to pool aftr tt with zijie n heidi. someone ps us again. i dont even feel like typing his name here to ruin this nice post. well, pool was NICE. quite on form at times. shan hu hai motivated me to hit 3 balls in consecutively. I JUST LOVE POOL SO MUCH. but bad habit. shan hu hai. hanging on to the past. f*ck that.
anyways, heidi n i were on the bus today when we saw this guy. looking so emo, sat at the window sill n played his guitar. looked so cliche!! but i had this thot... of a dear senior i just saw today....
"YESTERDAY!!" *STRUMS....
MING KWANG!! Lols. i did tt to heidi, n both of us laughed til pengs on the bus. n the 2 of us were singing away on the bus too. now i think aftr the BADDDD sorethroat, my voice aint lower. it's HIGHER. n when i sing my notes tend to start off too high. OMG LAHS. wad happened to me lers. =x sing sing sing. lalala. hahaz.
oh n sometimes when u need to ask smth important, do find someone who isnt BLUR.
*cut from a convo.
| (11:30 PM) Hf - motivation;: | k800 or isit k800i =/ |
|---|---|
| (11:30 PM) Kw: | k750i |
| (11:30 PM) Hf - motivation;: | zzzzz |
| (11:30 PM) Kw: | why loL |
| (11:31 PM) Hf - motivation;: | i want to buy k800i!!! |
| (11:31 PM) Hf - motivation;: | then ask arnd c gd anot lo |
| (11:31 PM) Kw: | k750i is better |
| (11:31 PM) Hf - motivation;: | then i thot u use k800i or k800 |
| (11:31 PM) Hf - motivation;: | really mehhh??! |
| (11:31 PM) Kw: | aiya all sony errison phones are good |
| (11:31 PM) Hf - motivation;: | lol. but the memory stick is not M2 micro right? |
| (11:31 PM) Kw: | waa chim termss |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | i want to buy a phone tt uses M2 micro de, so i can use the memory stick i have. |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | hahaha. WHERE GOT CHIM LAHS!!! |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | is related to ur phone de lo |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | kuku |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | hahaz |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | since u ting bu dong |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | then ur phone |
| (11:32 PM) Kw: | i dun really cant if it is m2 mirco or wat lor |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | expandable memory is wad kind of memory stick |
| (11:32 PM) Hf - motivation;: | ALAMAK =x |
| (11:32 PM) Kw: | hmm |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | ZZZZZ =.=|| |
| (11:33 PM) Kw: | memory stick lor |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | u really v blurr |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | hahaz |
| (11:33 PM) Kw: |  |
| (11:33 PM) Kw: |  |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | memory stick alot of kinds lahhs!! |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | hahaz |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | seems i made a wrong choice to ask u lahs >.< |
| (11:33 PM) Hf - motivation;: | zzz |
| (11:34 PM) Hf - motivation;: | go ask others who arent so BLUR. |
or rather, dont even noe abt his phone. =x
sometimes i wonder y is evrything being pushed to huifang to do? evrything no one does, huifang has no choice but to step forward. but does ANYONE appreciate? anyone c this effort? anyone c this initiative?
NO.
then when tchers r involved, ppl fight to do it. then complain later. blood fucking bootlickers. im not referring to any person. im just so fucked up abt doing all this crap all the time. esp recently when im getting more involved in some matters. things like informing n such, ok i'll do. others? bloody miserable ants u r. do i seem very free? so wad if there isnt NYCO prac? think im idling away? if tts wad u think, let me tell u. NO. im spending time thrashing my studies to the bins. im struggling away with my studies n does anyBODY CARE AT ALL??! NO.
wtf is this.
i hate involvement.
told u im emotionally unstable. i dno wads wrong with me either. if i do anythg wrong, pls. someone stop me. someone pls just b by my side to care for me.
i told of my glory at 2:57 pm
Friday, 8 June 2007
BOO! this is being so random. but anyways,
HE'S SO MAN!! OMG!!
lily said he likes thorn.
thorn isnt sure if she still like lily.
but lily said it's ok n he'll wait.
thorn is lost.
she wants her shrub.
or should she go back to lily?
i told of my glory at 2:58 pm
BOO! hahaz. today was REPAIRs day =x
brought my 2ndDARLING n my EX to service centre =x 2ndDAR=HP n EX=MP4. gahs. hp wil only b ready on sunday with ALL DATA LOST (freakshyt thr goes ALL my msgs =x) n mp4 wil only b ready 2 LONELY WEEKS LATER. :((((( uber sadness lahs. booo.
meeting tmr, followed by study study study. HAIII. i want co lahs. so long nvr tk pic with derek my best act-cute partner alr :(((( so long nvr murder the percussion instruments alr :(((( so long nvr laugh at someone's weird yet funny actions at co alr. arhhhs. but co aftr june hols wil b -j2s which is like WTH. BORING =x LESS LAUGHTER =x no kukunena, short of a few kukunehnehs, no.... blahs. save that crap. hahahz. i think my friendster profile is damn crap lahs. hahaz. chimology. i flipped thru the dic while typing it cos i had nthg better to do =x
do tk a look.
PLS CLICK >>>> HUIFANG'S CHIMOLOGY FRENSTER PROFILE.
some NICE (though without DEREK) pics.
heidi with the white specs n trying to zilian. hahaz. this was ystd at ispace.
n i think i look weird with white specs too, dont u think so?
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the sign of hope.
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n liberation.
i told of my glory at 11:34 am
Thursday, 7 June 2007
BOO! im stil sick. GAH. but definitely better. thanks to SOME ppl's concern. =/
woke up at 8am today, cos law said to go study at 8. saw his msg sent at 5.20am to chgn time to 10am. alright. back to zzz. 10.30am woke up. ahhaz. then watched abit of the dvd, n then went to college. ahhs. law told me at 11.47am tt he was gg to reach in 10 mins. when i reached at 12.3opm, he was nowhr in sight. until at close to 1pm, he reached. apparently, his 20 mins=1 hour 20 mins. zzz.
did my math.
did my organiser.
left college at 6.25pm.
i look thru the pics today. the day i felt so loved. n bitchy?
i dno. it was just an illusion, yet it was just that wrong.
he was an attached guy.
just for that 30 minutes of happiness, i became a bitch in their eyes.
this was part of my ugly past.
whr cigarettes n vulgarities were a daily.
whr he was a daily neccessity.
sarcasms, open insults, wadevrr.
i just cried them all away.
n he would always b thr for me.
he would always b the one paying whenever we had meals tgt.
it seemed so ok then.
then came his daughter whom i was meeting for the first time.
from then on i decided to stay away.
it was too late to turn back and regret my actions.
i was such a bitch.
never again.
y m i letting so many ppl know abt this? i just needed somewhr to let off steam. i cldnt tel him. he'd ask more than i'd b able to handle.
i told of my glory at 2:59 pm
Wednesday, 6 June 2007
BOO!
blearghs. im so seriously ill luh TT
bran n law r sick fr sakae too. according to wad zj said. zj is sick, im sick, blah blah blahs. =x
n im all alone at home.
OH SO SAD.
parents not home.
even if i faint no one will know.
anyone wan to bring me to the doc? :((((
if only u could b by my side. :((((
i told of my glory at 12:02 pm
Tuesday, 5 June 2007
BOO!
went to college early in the morning for PW meeting with mrs lim. =x nthg much. didnt c him anywhr, but saw his good fren. hahaz. reliable sources support the inference that he is in college today :))) lolz. went to suntec aftr tt for the shrek3 thing. hahaz. me n huiyi reached 15 min late, thinking we were late. but we were the first in our class to reach. hahaz. big joke lahs. wahahs. then aftr the tour we nuah-ed arnd till 1pm. hahaz. shrek3 was a BIG LAUGH. the green green ogre, the puss in boots, the silly donkey n the gingerbreadman :ppp damn cute n funny luhs. hahaz. whole cinema was filled with laughter =D show ended n saw some other ny ppl =x ahems. zzz.
then went to SAKAE sushi with CLASS which = 10 ppl. so many ppl back out at the last min. frekahyt. nvr mind, we had a gr8 time anyway. hahaz. we were thr for 2 n a half hours =x hahaz. full till -.-|| hahaz. but anyways, i love sushi mahs =D wahahas. n we celebrated lawrence's birthday in advance advance advance. hahaz. oh n my table of 5 girls- me, kwai hoong, wileen, weiyi n ivy, ate 62 PLATES of food IN TOTAL. n guess wad, we actually won the guys. hahaz!! :ppp
me n janelle decided to lame lame cos we found tt guy too ugly. hahaz!!
it's the o723 turnout for shrek3.
n so we r cute :))))
lawrence's CUTE cake. hahaz.
nthg happened. wad happened? hahaz. oops. i saw someone on the way out of college. =x someone im not supposed to c. AHEMS.
i told of my glory at 1:05 pm
Monday, 4 June 2007
boo. NOW IM BACK. n im stil human. tts such a gr8 achievement tt i actually m stil alive aftr attempting to murder myself with GPP. that's like my group's uhh... unknown number of doing it. we've lost count. serious.
alright so today i went to the IT fair. last time takeaway was a laptop, today's takeaway was a thumbdrive. aww. seeing those mp4s made me wanna cry. ARGHs. my poor mp4 lying at home waiting for me to bring it to the doctor =x a 2bg mp4 cost 60 bucks =.=|| wtf man. seeing those made me wanna bang the wall n DIE. zzz. sd cards n etc were bloody cheap too. hahaz. imation thumbdrive 2gb gg at $29.40, $32, and $34 at 3 different corners of the fair. hahaz. the $32 didnt have stock anymore, n the $29.40 had a damn long queue of i think about a hundred ppl. hahaz. so no choice went to the $34. arghs. left 2 pieces. grab it. hahaz. :)))) omg lahs tt is not being aunty-ish, it's called smart shopping. hahahs =D
oh n anw, ARGHs. SACO concert tmr. wanna go but cant cos thr's class outing. hahaz. stuck between the 2!! ZZZ. class matters more :)))
how m i gonna wake up at 8am tmr morn? it's alr gonna b 3am lahs -.-|| haiiz.
stupid boy is being smitten by the unknown girl who's so in love with him.
who?
some forgotten-to-post pics which display the kid in my frens~
lawrence with the first kiddy machine.
then brandon decided to join him in the fun by taking the 2nd machine, but was unable to fit in so lawrence went over n tried to help him.
n brandon decided his head had better b out, n they posed for a pic n TOLD me to take a pic of them, despite me having tou1 pai1-ed them just now. hahaz.
the kid in us.
i told of my glory at 5:40 pm
BOO.
oh fark. im getting stressed up. many matters on hand.
many matters.
UNSETTLED.
n wads the farking prob with frenster? this kind of thing always happens, n now it concerns 84 of my photos. kukunaden.
i have yet to complete my group gpp needed TMR MORN.
i have yet to confirm who can make it for the PAE24ers bbq.
i have yet to do my econs hw due on tues.
i have yet to DO THAT FARKING GPP WHICH IS THE CAUSE OF MY IRRITATED STATE OF MOOD.
FARK THAT PW. PW SUCKS LAHS.
i'll blog again later.
i told of my glory at 2:34 pm
boo. is there NO ONE else i can trust besides that person. even the 6 yrs fren i cared so much for can forsake me for the sake of lust.
sounds bad?
im just dramatising the whole situation. shall give up on perfect english for a moment.
TIO DUA LAH. knn tio gan by both sides sia.
back to perfect english mode.
this is so traumatising.
one- him
two- him.
three- troubled "counsellor"
four- tio dua by someone i thot was a bestie
five- tio gan by a gd fren (a result of four)
ah forget it. im so disappointed. no anger. just pure disappointment.
i told of my glory at 4:02 am
Sunday, 3 June 2007
would u be there -redwan ali
if i were blue,
would u b there for me,
n whisper in my ear that's ok.
would u stand by me,
let me hold u tight,
n say u love me one more time;
if i feel good,
would u slow dance with me,
n touch my lips with tender loving care.
would u die for me,
would u run with me,
n never look back;
would u b there to love to b with me,
would u swear thatt ur love is always true,
would u say tt u'll always b the one
to take my breath away;
would u b there to love to b with me,
would u swear that your love is always true,
would u say tt u'll always b the one
to tk my breath away,
would u b there;
if i'm away would u still think of me
n wish that u could hold me now
would u die for me
would u run with me
all the way
wld u b there to love to b with me
would u swear that your love is always true
would u say tt u'll always b the one
to take my breath away
would u b there to save my soul tonight
would u swear that your love is always true
would u say that u'll always b there
to kiss my pain away
would u b there to love to b with me
would u swear that your love is always true
would u say that u'll always b the one
to take my breath away
would u b there to save my soul tonight
would u swear that your love is always true
would u say that u'll always b there
to kiss my pain away
would u b there, for me.
someone feels similar to me. this song. i nvr knew others liked it too.
it's a very very nice song. all thanks to bra who found it.
i cried. because of one stupid thing u said to the stupid me.
i told of my glory at 2:49 pm
BOO! today. today. today.
PW-ed with the group. i was more than half an hour late cos i wasnt informed ystd. i asked at 11 plus n got a reply this morn. nice one. rushed to tp n contributed as much as an ant contributes to global warming. get the hint? so i brought the edits home n im gonna gpp for the rest of tonight. =/ arghhhs. aftr pw went to gia gia with sher n huiyi. saw lotsa cheap grabs at the pasar malam lahs. OMG. next time im gonna b super aunty n go shop at a pasar alam :ppp wahahas.
bought ruolin's bday pressie, n came home.
i wonder how's the concert today =x
I WANT TO GO!! I WANT!! oops. hahaz. dont blame any1 for not being able to go. arhhs. guess they were just too late. but nvr mind. =/
suddenly i miss him alot alot cos i havent seen him for a week plus. n i guess for the rest of the hols it's gonna b :(((( de. haiiiz. wads initiative when referring to him? definitely not me.
im feeling so alone today bcos new found fren isnt free. last minute cancelled bcos he wasnt feeling well. :(((((
tk care.
i shld get someone new. i shld get someone new. i shld get someone new.
get a new eye candy n nothing more.
to get my mind of u.
if i allowed me to cry with u, i would.
u mean much more to me than u think.
i canot feel like how u feel, that's true.
i dont care wad others say about us.
but u,as a fren, mean alot to me.
it's true frenship. nothing else.
but u just wouldnt let me.
why?
i told of my glory at 2:30 pm
boo.
gullible piece of shyt.
he fell for it.
why is he that stupid.
i was just testing him.
alright he can go flirt all he want.
why did i ever fall for someone like that.
WHY?!
now i nd a shoulder to cry on.
i told of my glory at 5:12 am
Saturday, 2 June 2007
BOO! just came home at 10.40pm. lols. whole day out =x gonna b a long post cos did many things today!!
morning econs tutorial 3hours. wow i endured it! :)))) funny thing happened!
our class was seperated. chris, zi can, lawrence n ASEAN were at one end of the ava room, while the rest were at the other end. FAR APART. then ASEAN was did smth stupid. we pointed over n LAUGHED, n LAWRENC DID THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME N SO DID THE REST OF THE GUYS. omg lahs. damn funny hahaz. cos the ava room so quiet all of a sudden n the other 2 or was it 3 classes. i think they diao-ed! hahaz. no choice lahs, mo4 qi4 shi2 zu2.
then went to band room cos chloe n zj they all wan play drumset. i found out i can do the rhythms n such, but i can NEVER NEVER coordinate both my hands with my leg to do diff things at the same time. haiiis. disappointment. arghhs. n somehow clement appeared, n then somehow he started playing the piano. n OH MY GOSH. he play piano is STYLE de can?! i've nvr praised clement so far for as long as i've known him. ahahz. shows how pro he is! he started learning piano since 4 lahs! haiiis. y my parents nvr discovered the passion for music in me when i was stil a kid. :(((((
played bridge too. omg lahs. first game i enter, i get spades A, K, Q, J, 10, hearts A, n dno wad but alot alot damn high cards. played no trump. 4 no trump i think. damn shyt de lahs. hahaz. n me n lawrence won! then 2nd game, similar thing happened! but i forgot was wad pattern de, n me n lawrence won again!! WAHAHAHHAS =D n he can do tricks! OMG. damn pro derhs. :)))
LUNCH!! with jess, yiling n simon. lols. kukunana. saw someone that made me feel so =x lahs. haiiis. one disappointment from the past. if no eye contact i wont even bother to look at him more lahs. kns. i wonder wad tt person opposite him said tt made him turn arnd so many times =x
went home to bathe n chionged back to college to get my DARLING (yes kelvin, c i blogged abt it). NUAH-ed n self-entertained with simon at squash court waiting for the co exco meeting to end. arghhs. damn funny lahs. hahaz. then stil got DB ppl thr =x FINALLY could leave the college when the meeting had ended cos was waiting for yiling. oops. shant mention anythg else abt the meeting process. but we went to BOWL! cos kovan DOES NOT have pool. it's billiard. kukunana. so we went to bowl.
*mood wasnt right today. i think i really played like shyt. both games not over 100. not even close. that's how off form i was today. only twice when simon's COLD or rather FREEZING hands touched my face cos he KUKU ga jiao me, then i striked, cos i was really shocked lahs =.=|||. thr was no bowling mood in me. somehow. BUT MET XIAOBAI THR! N HE RMBRS MY NICK!! wahahas. =D
then we chiong-ed down to woodlands to meet ruolin, weiyi n brandon. zzz. damn late lahs. in the end when we reach ijc alr at 5th or 6th song =x went in n listened to 4 or 5 songs then intermission n we left le. cos it was pretty boring. choir's so not my type =x went for dinner at causeway point. arghhs. then went to nuah arnd n go home le =x so anti-climax cos was so tired.
OH n aftr i saw clement playing the piano, i told them i wan a BF who can play piano de. n must v got style n can play well, then can play nice songs for me :)))) so charming..... ahhaz. dreaming away le. heeheez. aiya, really very got style lo. :))))) mi si ren le alright. hahaz!!
OH SHYT I CANT STOP SMILING AT MY LAPTOP NOW. SO COOL LAHS. OMG!! =D
i nvr knew he so got style. ahhs. POSER NOT. LOLs. it's style + cool. but now i know!!
all thanks to luojun. :))))
fated, yet not meant to b tgt?
i told of my glory at 2:58 pm
Friday, 1 June 2007
BOO! U NOE WAD, i miss my kindergarten boyfriend LAHS!! lol. i can stil rmbr his name is joshua.
LOL. i was looking thru my album. i looked at my kindergarten photo. oooh. that kid- the most handsome guy in class. hahaa. somehow he bcame my boyfriend. HA. REALLY!! it was damn cute de lahs. ahhaa. rmbr how i used to b so loved by the tchers cos i was the smartest in class :ppp SERIOUS!! awwww. now im not even considered as smart in class lahs. sad.
then i flipped to my pri 6F class photo. i saw the following ppl:
1. jasmine foo
2. janice chua
3. royston look
4. kenrick goh
5. ng yong cheng
HAHAA. wads the similarity? THEY'RE ALL IN NY WITH ME NOW!! =D
look how kiddy evry1 was 4 yrs plus ago :ppp OMG LAHS. laughed til wana pengs~
n well, things r kinda messy now.
ni shi wo zui shen ai de nv ren
ni you zui mei li de zui cun
yong you zui dong ren de yan shen
ni dai gei wo xin fu he kuai le
wo shi ni zui shen ai de nan ren
wo de ai jue dui shi yong heng
zuo shen me dou zhi de
ai shang de yi ge ren
isnt it a lil too late?
i told of my glory at 2:40 pm
BOO! IM BORED =x just like yiling. wahahas. wth man. im basically looking at my econs journal for the whole day not wanting to do it despite having owned it for a few days le =x zzz. im just plain NUAH n lazy today =/ ARGHHHS. n i come online, first thing tt is that i get tricked my tt kuku xf.
| 31/5/2007 | 4:16:29 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | hi tmr wad time u release from lesson | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:16:29 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | ? | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:16:41 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | tmr 11am.. y? :D | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:17:19 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | oh wan to ask u out alone | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:17:28 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | ? | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:18:47 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | lols | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:18:58 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | being funny :P | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:33 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | wan a not? | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:39 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | . . . . | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:41 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | really meh? | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:43 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | alamak | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:44 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | omg | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:19:46 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | lols | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:01 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | ahh... | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:23 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | aftrnoon i gg bowling n pool with simon heidi n yiling at kovan. u wan go? :P | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:43 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | hhaz i going lolx | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:43 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | hahz | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:46 PM | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | jking with u nia | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:55 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | =.=|| | ||||
| 31/5/2007 | 4:20:56 PM | Hf - ALRIGHT; YES; NO; ALRIGHT | Sianzzz... life for rent... a day without rain | lol |
GAH. bully me lahs u kukunana =x
off to dinner + CHEESECAKE =D
blog more later..
i told of my glory at 9:30 am