Monday, 16 May 2011
It's amazing how rarely I blog nowadays. Anyway, no one else probably cares about this space besides me.
Priorities of some people changed. I became someone important in some people's lives, and faded into the background, into nothingness, in some. It's all part of life, part of growing up, part of CHANGE.
But no, I refuse change. I'm going to stay the way I am. I hate whom I had become in the past week. I had always been a good girl and will stay that way.
I dont smoke, I dont drink excessively, I dont club often, I dont scold unbelievably rude vulgarities.
And I'm not going to change into someone who is.
I had such an awesome day with the 4e6 clique. Madness running with bells jingling around the condo, chapteh, dumbass balloon volley, Dominoes pizza, and blah blah blah. Games day was so awesome. I really really really love this bunch of friends :)
And yes, goodnight to the world- I do not have low self-esteem.
i told of my glory at 1:05 am
Wednesday, 11 May 2011
SYF for NYCO was a blast. Skipped school to attend their competition and it was well-worth the effort and time. Gold with honours. Good job NYCO :)
And seriously, I can't fit in the class. And I'm not gonna continue trying. All I know is that I need to focus on my projects, my lectures, my tutorials, my business. And I don't want to spend extra credits off my energy meter befriending anyone. And it's not like the first time I'm speaking and they look at me like "Huh..??". You know, I don't know what's changing or what isn't. But what I really don't care, is how others see me anymore.
They are NICE people, really nice people. But I just think I'm not going to be able to remember how to befriend others while I'm here.
I'm not going to get a boyfriend from my poly,
I'm not going to get a boyfriend from my class.
There, I've said it. Those are my thoughts.
And I'll probably stay focussed on my dreams, and stay single for the next 2 years.
Zhenwen reckons I'm overstressed. Oh well. Whatever. I'm gonna wake up tomorrow morning forgetting this anyway.
i told of my glory at 3:47 am
Wednesday, 4 May 2011
Was a mad crazily happy evening.
Yes, even if the world rejects my blog, Huifang still loves it.
Hanging out with my friends would be the best thing that ends my terrible days at school. As much as my days are really really intolerable nowadays, I've realised I havent anyone to talk to.
And then again, sometimes I wonder when was the last time someone said "Thanks" for some things I've always been doing. Even it becomes normal, it's still a favour I have an option to skip. I dont have to buy any friends, but I buy people lunch when they mean something to me and I want to share what I have with them.
But why am I not even considered as a friend sometimes?
Maybe Charlene's right.
But then again, others always are. I'm never right. So why bother?
i told of my glory at 2:57 am