Monday, 30 June 2008
chapter 136:
it feels like i've known you for so many years though i know i've only known you for a mere half a year..
"3 months ago late one night, i looked up into the sky with a stray cat beside me, and i made a promise to myself, that i'll do my best in helping you. overcoming your insecurities, breaking your limitations, helping you to trust and love again. though the one you love ultimately might not be me, i know that seeing you smile is my happiness. im already contented with what i have, a successful career, a supportive family.. but im determined to make a difference while im by your side. during this process, there are ups and downs, and in the end, you may no longer be with me. but i know i've done my best, i have no regrets, i leave, no doubt set back by this, but with enthusiasm to meet new challenges.. cos you have after all, been part of me, and tough and good times we had shared.. fight on.."
i typed this out, knowing you'll read this.
you dont know how much youve motivated me to motivate others,
to help others, to change their lives, to help them overcome their fears..
it's all thanks to you i learnt to re-accept him,
and all thanks to you i learnt to accept how others see me.
it isnt how others see you that determines who you are. it's how you see yourself.
you dont know how happy i am now.
youve helped me alot in breaking my limitations.
maybe it's cos youve been close...
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i have done my best,
i believe..
tmr is last day submission.
miss MM this month.
but it's okay..
i'll continue..
cos now i know my purpose for fighting.
for what i havent achieved..
thanks dearest bro for always being there to help me analyse any situation im in.
thanks for caring and thanks for always being there for me :D
mr steve and mr keith and mr james were being funny today =x
i was at my locker and they had to come back from the toilet at that time. especially stupid james who purposely move my chair here and there, then before that he was like wrestling with the door cos there was some problem with it but he INSISTED on exiting by that door T.T LOL. but oh well..
HOW AH HOW. MONEY MONEY COME ON DROP FROM HEAVEN!! WHEN I GET MY PAYCHEQUE I'LL RETURN!! oh man :(
i told of my glory at 10:16 pm
i cant help it but realise that i really gotta care for you..
his worries are called for..
i told of my glory at 11:49 am
chapter 135:
from what i see,
we wont survive past this 18th.
im sorry.
my motivation is back..
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to keep it short,
i commited a single MT today.
seriously,
i never thought i could do this..
but with the thought in mind:
that day shijuan thought i was going to commit her when i did a MT presentation.
that was unintentional you know,
so today, miss lois told me- if possible, commit him.
i knew i had to :D
and i succeeded in doing so.
WOOTS.
but i feel no lasting sense of achievement..
cos there's no one to share my glory with..
no one to share my happiness with..
but upline was glad i guess..
if only things could move beyond this,
but i know im asking for too much..
i told of my glory at 12:36 am
Saturday, 28 June 2008
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i told of my glory at 11:27 pm
chapter 134:
maybe.. maybe..
uncertainties fill up the space in between..
i aint gonna cry
and i wont beg you to stay
if youre determined to leave, boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably youll be back again
cos you know in your heart baby
our love will never end
i know that youll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder
i know that youll be back baby
oh baby believe me its only a matter of time
i know im losing you..
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i love my upline.
i love my fairygodmother.
i love my father, from the team..
and i love the falcons :)
but im
it's not that i WANT to hit mm by sem, but i NEED to hit mm by sem. it's been reported all the way to mr steven already.. dont hit= die..
HIT MM!!
action 1. generate and submit sales
reaction 1. $$$ come in
reaction 2. generate PV and LV
reaction 3. hit position!!
reaction 4. downline, me, upline, all happy.. :DD
FIGHT LAH
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how about taking me to the beach and presenting me with a bunch of colourful balloons upon dawn?
wouldn't it be nice to run along the shore and slowly letting those balloons go?
wouldn't it seem like i'm releasing my troubles to the sky...?
would you be there to run with me?
i told of my glory at 10:15 pm
chapter 133:
sometimes it's just how arrogant you can be which attracts :)
it's not the haughty kind of arrogance, it's the stylish kind..
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today was yet another day,
a LITTLE bit of achievement today..
just a little..
im beginning to get scared,
oh yes i am..
but oh well,
ILOVE FALCONS :D
i told of my glory at 1:11 am
Thursday, 26 June 2008
chapter 132:
no time to stop by even for a chat :(
just a smile, just a goofy grin,
just watching you from a distance..
actions that stun :)))
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but today there are other things which make me happier.
in general:
1. my loveliest upline :DD
2. my lovely downline,
3. my crazy car achiever!!
all you people negative about my upline can go burn in hell alright.
true i didnt get to choose my upline,
but i've stood through despite many temptations to terminate my account and re-open under different people more successful.
but i believe, my upline will always be my upline.
fuck care you custardbrains. :)
i have 4 days left to the end of the month.
arghs =x
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the most 3 difficult things to say:
1. i love you
2. im sorry
3. help me.
out of these 3, i have told you no. 2 and 3..
when oh when..
i told of my glory at 11:32 pm
Wednesday, 25 June 2008
chapter 131:
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
nothing's gonna change my love for you
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chemistry paper went well. for once after an exam i feel so at ease. im really glad. im really really glad. and that was not all to today.
i went down to 190 after that and met up with azura at the cafe cos i hadnt had my lunch. she told me that upline came to office in his singlet just now, sat there and stoned for awhile, then he left. stupid azura called him uncle lah. =x
haha but anyway, i've realised my mistake, really. hope upline comes tmr.. but he has exam till 7.30pm which is like so ZZZ :( oh well, that aside, finally xavier's coming tmr.. :DD
i cant ever imagine again how afraid i felt last night. i cried for 3 hours straight. each time the tears stopped, they came again.. i never realised how much i cared, how much my heart ached, to the extent that when everything sank in, i couldnt really take it and almost wanted to give up everything and end it just like that.
but then i remembered, why i joined, why i stayed on.
it was because he was always there for me.
no, the "he" isnt mr mengwee. ultimately mr mengwee still isnt the one nearest to me in terms of hierachy..
so everyone who once complained about their upline to me, i know you read but you dont tag. cherish your upline. love them for all theyve done, and fight for what they havent done for you, together. cos together, achievements achieved have a greater value, and you'll realise how much your upline actually means to you. for the moment, you may complain, you may cry, you may hate them for not caring, for not helping, for not guiding. but think again, who brought you to where you are today..
love them,
and let them know you love them.
you only have one upline..
only one..
i'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have change a thing
i love you just the way you are..
negative, problems, appointments, please tell me..
im willing to listen to you...
im willing to...
i told of my glory at 11:47 pm
Tuesday, 24 June 2008
chapter 130:
and thanks for appearing at that right moment,
just when i was THAT annoyed :DD
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many things happened today.
it was a blur.
i dont hate J for doing this to me,
i just hate it that people ask me about this of a fellow falcon.
it's embarrassing.
do you have to let the whole world know when youre being immature finding fault with an innocent party?
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,
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sorry mr mengwee.
once and again i do things to disappoint him.
sorry.
but thank you.
thank you,
really.
your patience and concern towards me,
you've taught me too much.
im here today because i have you.
i told of my glory at 10:42 pm
chapter 129:
i forgot how to hate,
yet i forgot how to love.
im sorry, my bad..
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im sorry mr mengwee.
im sorry.
i didnt mean for it to happen this way.
good news: 5550LV to manager= approx 3500PV
they all calculated wrongly.. i got to tap on GHQ's deals during trinity. so i was really just very very near to mm when i missed it during trinity :( arghs again really.
so yes, this month, good chance of hitting already. i just need an ME.
and it's gonna be xavier..
thanks mr mengwee..
thanks..
when i hit manager, the first person i want to thank is him.
he's always stood by me regardless of what i faced.
been through thick and thin, i'd say.
and he never once gave up on me.
i saw his change from before he was a car achiever until he became a car achiever.
mr mengwee, i want you to see the change in me too..
i want you to be proud of me..
through out this journey, tears, joy, elation, trust.
it's all there.
i dont hate my upline.
he's just not there for me at times that it gets difficult if i turn to him..
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i hate it when she restricts me
i hate it when she searches through my bag
i hate it when she calls up my friends.
FUCK.
i hate her so much sometimes.
to think she had the guts to raise the issue of "your allowance enough meh?"
SINCE YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW I DO NOT HAVE SUFFICIENT ALLOWANCE THEN GIVE ME MORE INSTEAD OF INSISTING I RESORT TO WORKING JUST TO GET MORE MONEY!!
i told of my glory at 1:00 am
Sunday, 22 June 2008
chapter 128:
i saw your handsome-est, smartest moment :DD
and im proud of you..
i gotta catch up with you..
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oh man, shiyong, weisheng, and gary have all hit mm. cynthia's hitting mm soon too. WHAT ABOUT ME??! FUCK LAH. missed for so many months already.
my dearest looks so smart in a blazer.
mr wen bin parades around everyday in his $500 armani exchange blazer.
mr mengwee treats his blazer like his jacket.
mr darren asking when i can hit.
miss corrinne says to buy a blazer first so i can motivate myself when i keep looking at it but cant wear it. so i will wanna fight to quickly get to wear it. LOL :)
had a great talk with miss lois today. she never fails to help me in identifying my mistakes, how to help people and etc etc etc. i cried. no she didnt scold me, but she helped me realise how wrong i was in blaming my upline for everything he'd done. but yes, i still cant bring myself to tell him.. arghs =x
EXAMS :(
i told of my glory at 11:06 pm
chapter 127:
oh man,
you insensitive git.
but when i look back,
i realise youve changed so much i love you so.
cos i loved you, not from the first moment i set eyes on you..
and i love you cos you make me fall so deeply for you,
i love you cos you like to make stupid and funny faces in front of me,
i love you cos you want so much to bring me to your parents,
i love you cos you care for me,
i love you cos for who you are,
i love you for how bad and how good you are..
your everything..
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today was a great day, i guess.
1. CUTE darren wore executive today JUST FOR ME LOL.
2. dinner with taurus + mammoth.
3. mr nick was such an a**.
4. mr kit rocks man :DD
yea right. darren was being such an ass. and he was like *standard action* "just for you seh!" aha. i burst out laughing in front of the others there. ha. he's just so funny please :DD and hello seriously, today is like, weekend, and he's in executive? lame ass. haha..
so yes just now i went for a great dinner with taurus and mammoth people (:
miss zhiying, miss jam, mr swee xiang, kenny and another guy, then miss corrinne, miss yanru and meijuan :DD
though i was the only falcon there, i never felt alone :DD
ha. me and miss corrinne even went to shop around after withdrawing money instead of going straight back to Arnold's. LOL!!
so yes, had a great meal of potatoes in all forms- wedges, mashed, fries, waffle-like fries, shared a big root beer with miss C, and had spring chicken :DD
superrr nice :DD
and on the way walking 3 stops back i found out:
1. yanru is DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN scared of snakes. even inflated totally-dont-look-like-snake-but-supposed-to-be-snake balloons scare her.
2. miss corrinne is DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN scared of cockroaches and she once freaked out cos she was walking outside that night with mr calvin and mr nick and she saw a bunch of cockroachs gathered tgt in the centre of the pathway, and mr calvin called her crazy.
3. miss jasmine is super not-afraid of cockroaches. there once was a group up, she grabbed a live cockroach from the chair and brought it outside to throw away despite everyone shunning it. but contrastingly, she's afraid of rabbits, cats etc furry animals. cos there was once they were at jac's house and miss corrinne carried jac's rabbit, showed miss jasmine the rabbits behind a glass, but miss jasmine ran behind mr steve. O.o
oh man miss jasmine and miss corrinne are super cute please!!
but so lucky eh! when we went back the first person we saw was.. her upline mr steve T.T
and then back there we sat down and talked. me, miss zhiying, meijuan and miss yanru. talked about hitting position, talked about many things.. random stuff :DD
until we were joined by gary, wen bin and chee yong. 3 silly jokers especially their dumb leader mr wen bin. that ass was like, doing pole dancing, and gary was imitating aaron kwok at the centre of b1. what the hell man! ha. but really very funny. until miss lois came along and i got debrief-ed. =x
then oh yes, managers session changed to MEs and above session. started off with traditional massage and MR NICK WAS SUPER BAD LAH PLEASE!! traditional massage! then he ran infront of me then told me to massage his back. ass. LOL. cos after that when we changed direction he ran away!! STUPID!! :( then after change side he never help me. nehhh. and again i saw mr steve unglam lah. he's super funny please. everytime traditional massage do that stupid action like damn turned on like that!! like you know, against the wall.... ARGH =x
so yupp, mr kit is super cool please!! he's damn funny. wanted to chase me out of the room! :( ha. but yea, his training was DAMN cool lah!! talked about the history of HOR. hah! super funny please. but yes, it helped me to realise the importance of a key leader in a team :DD
AND IM TIRED NOW :(
off to sleep!!
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im sorry i forgot how to trust, believe, follow.
im sorry i forgot how much i used to believe in you back when i knew nought.
im sorry i was cold to you today.
im sorry i didnt say thanks.
im sorry i didnt tell you how i much i care.
im sorry i never apologized for my inability to ignore those negativities people brought to me about you..
im sorry im sorry..
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im sorry nicholas.
im really sorry.
i really dont know what to say to you now.
but im sorry.
i dont know how i can make the situation turn around.
sorry.
but thank you..
for still caring for my career..
thank you.. for not putting the blame on me..
i told of my glory at 1:21 am
Saturday, 21 June 2008
chapter 126:
thank you for being you,
for always trying to strike up a chat at the wrong timings.
=/
but your presence makes me feel so anxious,
yet safe.
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i was really down when i got home. i was crying my whole journey home.
but there's this friend who made me feel better before was online when i finally got home. and really, i was glad to see him online..
THANKS DARREN :DD
i was ranting and lamenting away.
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
its not a mm that u will get recognition
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
honestly i looked up to u even before i know u
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
cuz i always see u running things for pple
really thanks for always being there to cheer me up,
listen to my rants,
scold fuck at those bastards together with me,
and help me all the time..
you really make my sadness go away :DD
so yes, my day ended horribly.
i was in no condition to sit in for the rest of the JDL session. i wasnt listening. i dont know where my mind was..
i dont want to care how you treat me.. how horribly horrid you are to me.. but i just want to do something for myself, for xavier, and for those who place so much hopes on me..
yet at times i feel so demoralised, so alone, so lost and so confused.
i believe miss lois knows i felt this way today, which was why she actually walked out of the building with me despite her initially wanting to continue on upstairs to join in the JDL.
i really appreciated that small gesture.. really..
and miss lois' three statements made a great impact on me:
1. "he keeps asking me whether you hit mm yet"
2. "he only looks at girls who are mm and above one"
3. "when you hit mm i'll arrange a CS for you with mr steve again so he can teach you more things."
i believe it was just her trying to prompt me to hit mm. cos each time he sees me, 3/5 times he asks me about my studies, 1/5 time he's looking for someone or borrowing something form me, and 1/5 time he asks me about hitting mm.. :) HAHA.
and azura did something very very very stupid..
but i still love you alot azura :DD
but of cos, loving him more..
i told of my glory at 1:26 am
Friday, 20 June 2008
and i realised, in this pursuit of what-i-call freedom,
a future i look forward to yet sometimes feels so unsure.
but in this pursuit, i've lost too much that i can never get back..
time? money? friendships? relationships?
manageable.
but really,
emotionally i feel i've lost something.
suddenly i feel like just retreating into my own world,
have some time for myself,
just to quietly sit there and think..
but i know, it's a never-ending cycle..
jc life,
ve life,
no doubt enriching, happy, but yet at the same time,
steals me away..
no doubt matured,
no doubt knowledgeably-wise.
no doubt rich,
no doubt enriching a life im leading.
but where's the me in the past who used to be the real me?
i find myself aggressive in doing presentations.
is this what mr steve is like in presentations?
is this how mr mengwee was in the past?
presentation, to the extent that recruitments think im trying to clinch them.
that wasnt my intention really.
but is it so that im so lost in this that i dont know my real purpose?
to convince, to assure.
but.. to clinch?
then again, i may counsel people.
i may do informal coffee-session-like-sessions whenever my fellow comrades feel down.
i can give the best advice and make the worst feeling person feel happy.
but i cant make myself happy.
cos some things dont work out the way i want them to..
some things are beyond my control..
im not that strong after all..
cos i dont know who i am anymore..
darren.. help me..
mr mengwee.. help me..
someone just come and liberate me from this pain and lethargy please..
i told of my glory at 2:13 am
Thursday, 19 June 2008
chapter 125:
it's for the bigger picture.
but i believe we still exist.
those two weeks you taught me so much.
those others wouldnt believe if i credited you for that :DD
dont act cool and pose leh! HAHA :)
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today was busy day. :DD
but day was great with nice lunch at cafe. aunty's chicken rice with veggies!! omg super nice!! :DD aunty act cool lo! then after that then ask me the food and soup nice anot. haha!! got the kind of homely feeling.. aww :DD but aunty super funny. walk behind me and azura then suddenly say "WALK FASTER LAH! YOUNG PEOPLE WALK SO SLOW!!" LOL. funny uh she!!
so yes!! that stupid darren cheat my feelings!! he said he'll wear executive today JUST FOR ME, then in the end he never!! say his stupid shoe spoil :( but aiyah, really lah LOLLL.. and he seems very sad about that ha. even though he already sent it back to the shop to patch. ha.
and.. mr keith is so.. random. lol! was holding 2 bottles of peach tea today. then we were in the lift and he was like "had lunch?" and i said yea.. so he asked "you buy so many bottles of peach tea uh!" so i said.. promotion mah, 2 for $2.20 lol. and he *shakes head* "haiis i say till so obvious you still dont get my hint.. haiis" LOL. HE SUPER RANDOM PLEASE. usually i dont talk much to him de, only greet him. but he.. HA. but when i offered him my extra bottle he said "disappointed. dont want already!!" *stuns. HAHA~
stupid mr jason still calls me "FANG JIE!!" and today he was like "be glad i never call FANG YI (aunty)!!" WAHHH what the hell ha! he's like, 8 yrs older than me! LOL X.x
miss corrine is still that funny, each time i greet her she'll stick out her tongue and scrunch up her face LOL. super funny!! :DD
and mr nick is so
falcon is slowly growing :DD hope to achieve my aim of opening 3 accounts by this month end. c'mon people c'mon!! :DD LEMME HIT MM!!! :))))))
i told of my glory at 10:44 pm
i was nagging at darren for not going today. cos yesterday he said he'd wear formal just for me. ha. cos i was nagging at him being a manager and appearing in a tshirt lol. BUT THIS FRIEND ALWAYS NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME SMILE :D
look at the funny convo lah please xD
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
lol
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
tmr i will go
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
will also wear excutive
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
for u!
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
humph
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
not my problem
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
HAHAHA O.ooooooo
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
lol
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
u hurt my heart man
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
lol
even saying bye online takes a long time LOL :DD
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
gd night
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
hahas
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
ok
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
cya
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
twist and smiles =)
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
eeeee
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
cya tmr!
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
why eee sia
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
cos not as cute as me
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
i'll show you how cute i am tmr
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
LOL
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
lol solid
Darren-sniffing cal ion plus makes me high says:
you say one
HUIFANG reading chapter 124: you saw the RADIANT smile.. says:
yea sure
i told of my glory at 2:01 am
Wednesday, 18 June 2008
chapter 124:
today is the 18th.
thank you for the past 123 chapters, and still going strong.
thank you for teaching me,
thank you for guiding me.
thank you mentor.
thank you love.
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day started off on the wrong foot. wanted to go lunch with mammoths, but was lazy to catch up with them, so instead saw andrew outside e building and went with him for chicken rice :DD kind of lucky miss jam mentioned to bring an umbrella saying it was raining when it was actually just drizzling. so i was contemplating bringing the umbrella in before going for chicken rice but i was lazy to walk back. so LUCKY SIOL! cos halfway during our meal, HEAVY RAIN!! omg. lucky we had at least one umbrella. nice andrew sheltered me and his left arm was totally wet =x somemore he was wearing executive. blerghs.. =xx *guilty. but aiyah, no choice eh... then went back and jimmy called me. then settled some stuff, then he said that he needs my help cos his car was parked at smoking area there.. so sheltered him to the car and brought the umbrella back. ARGH. wet again. share umbrella= confirm wet =xx oh well!
so yes, mr mengwee is such an ass. showed him my inbox to read A's msgs but that neh went to scroll through my whole inbox and say msgs from "Loves Me (:". AND THAT ASSHOLE WENT TO CHECK THE NUMBER AND CALLED THE NO IN FRONT OF ME!! basket basket basket!! then threaten me :( EH HELLO I STILL LOVE MR S ALOT OKAY, Loves Me (: is but a cover up luh. but he dont believe. he believes it's the other way round HA!
and OH YAH! mr mengwee is really funny yet really nice :DD
on the way back from chicken cutlet:
mr meng- "hmm that time i told you what i want for christmas uh.."
hf- "hmm? parker pen. hee"
mr meng- "OH YAH MONT BLANC PEN! TA MA DE WHAT PARKER SIA!"
hf- "popular never sell mont blanc.. i go popular buy parker for you.."
mr meng- "BASKET! MY PRESENT YOU WANT GO POPULAR BUY! YOU GO DIE LAH YOU! i dont care i want mont blanc!!"
hf- "parker!"
mr meng- *pouts and acts like he dont care*
LOL.
at b1: *randomly.
hf to miss lois- "im gonna buy a nice nice wallet with my paycheque, then a blazer, then a..."
mr meng- "aiyah, i buy the wallet for you. hit mm i buy wallet give you okay? you ownself go buy blazer.."
hf- "WAH REALLY AH!!"
mr meng- "yah lah yah lah. hit mm first. if you were in my own bm group then like you now havent hit mm ah, you sure tio hoot my me already. humph."
hf- ........
that's my lovely car achiever for you :DD
emotional matters, maybe we're too young? i guess so. it's a matter of attach and detach, a matter of priorities.. mr mengwee taught me that :DD
so girl, if you need my help, you gotta be honest with me.. by hiding your emotions from me, i cant help you much.. really...
somehow i feel, in falcon, im the one who makes the difference.
and to think miss lois once thought i was unable to cope well with emotions!! hmm!! :DD
okay im getting complacent.
i told of my glory at 11:57 pm
Tuesday, 17 June 2008
chapter 123:
i believe you taught me more than love.
im able to motivate,
im able to teach,
im able to influence.
all thanks to you :DD
i simply love sessions with you. totally enriching~
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mr steve started my day off nicely. cos when i walked into the building, i met him at the lift and we went down tgt. THANKS UH O.o
mr steve- hey, jc like so relax? you no need study one meh!
hf- huh.. now holidays mah.....
mr steve- oh! *grins* then you intending to go uni anot?
hf- harh.. see lo.. if can go go lo.. if cant then... see how lo!
mr steve- WAH! SEE HOW AH! THEN NEVER GO UNI BU SHI WAN DAN?!
hf- yah.. jc is like that what.. either go uni or.. die lo. aha.
mr steve- hmmmm *nods*
WAH everytime mr steve asks me about my education im like T.T after that de. idk why i always say the wrong things infront of him HAHA. =x
so yes, today was as usual a day of screw ups on someone's side.
today i got honest with li fung and azura during an informal cs with them.
how cool, me a cs presenter..
i told them.
i was really unhappy helping them fundraise to hit position.
i really was.
cos i wasnt doing anything for myself.
but i told them, optimism allows me to think otherwise.
if i could make a difference,
if i could make someone happy,
if i could make someone smile,
why not?
it makes all the effort worth it
cos i'd know i made a difference to someone's life.
sometimes it's not a matter of how fat your paycheque is,
not a matter of how many achievements you got.
i would exist for a purpose, to make a difference.
it wouldnt matter to me how those bastards like J see me.
if he can tell A to stay away from me, it only shows how self-centered he is, considering how reliant A is on me.
she looks to me for solution, for help.
she told me that when she quarreled with him, she told him: at least huifang teaches me stuff, unlike you, always scolding me.
nope i aint proud of that. im just glad her perspective isnt clouded by blind love for him.
no im not against anyone,
but when you accuse me of something i never did,
thats end of the help i can render you.
telling me to go build bond with her so she doesnt feel alone,
telling me to go solve her cos her father objected to her being in this trade,
telling me to do this.. do that.. do this.. do that..
at least M helps me alot.
no matter how much L shows that he doesnt care about me,
in front of LP and M he really really reminds them to take care of me while he isnt around.
but what about you?
what have you done for me?
and you dont know so many things.. so many important things.. you dont know that in fact she's not interested in fighting under you anymore.. you dont know..
but it's alright. if blaming me makes you happier, i dont mind taking the blame..
but when i make a difference but you see it as otherwise, im speechless....
but it's okay, the days still pass and tmr will still come, so why dwell on unhappiness when there are still people waiting for me to help them? :DD
off to gossiping with darren!! :DD
i told of my glory at 11:48 pm
chapter 122:
and i realised how i much i love cockroaches named XIAOMING.
LOL!! :DD
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slideshow kind of ended on a sad tone. we weren't in the top 5 teams, unlike previous months. had a mini group-up. shant talk much about that, except for the fact that i seemed to float away instead of being there mind and body..
went to pkms after that and taurus managers were just at the next table. funny thing happened. mr nick wanted fries from our table. so he asked jimmy to pass to him but jimmy didnt want to. hostile yo! but anyway, mr steve just walked over and took one. LOL. then when mr nick tried to do e same thing jimmy stopped him. HA. poor mr nick ha.
and mr nick is really funny. earlier on, when me and az were at 3rd level preparing the kit for 3pm presentation, mr nick was at the next table. he was kind of you know, stoning in our direction. then finally this funny convo took place-
mr N "hey huifang! you all got how many people uh?"
HF "just one lo.."
mr N "ah! solid! we change table can? i got 10 over people but here very squeezy.."
HF "oh ok.."
mr N "ahhh good good!! come come we change kit. *tells his guy.* help me shift to the other table.."
mr N "ah no dont need lah, you use this kit, i use your kit ok? then we switch files will do! easier :DD"
HF "oh ok.."
mr N "thanks ah!!" :DD
and i got SUPER fascinated by the cups they use cos it's SO TINY compared to the cups in mr mengwee's kit. all 4 cups could safely fit into my palm and still have extra space luh!!
border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212538329122937138" />and i was thinking the kit is mr steve's. cos the file is his namecard, and the bottle of cal ion water!! looked so familiar. cos around a month or smwhr there, he came to take the cal ion plus sticker from ME and pasted it on a ICE MOUNTAIN bottle. LOL!! EXACTLY SAME ONE EH!!
and yes, that's mr nick in the pic. LOL.
im tired.
im sick.
thanks for xiaoming's concern and encouraging smile :DD
motivates me to fight on~
i told of my glory at 1:01 am
Sunday, 15 June 2008
chapter 121:
and im sorry,
i really am.
yes i'll show you what real love can do.."
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no no no, i wasnt being hostile.
im sorry i didnt really stop to listen to what you said.
no mr yanlong, i wasnt being hostile.
im sorry i didnt hear what you said.
im sorry ester, for losing my temper at you.
im sorry azura, i didnt mean to be mean.
i was being very hostile to so many people today.
maybe it's cos the same thing that's happening to him is happening to me- inability to deal with many emotional matters at one time.
i kept giving myself excuses for my inability to accept what my upline does for me,
i kept rejecting mr MW's care and concern..
time and again, im back to this starting point and mr mw will repeat himself all over again. but then again, i keep cushioning myself, finding alternative routes to escape from reality, to make myself feel better, to convince myself im not disappointing anyone.. thinking i always have the next month, followed by the next month, followed by the month..... taking those people around me for granted.. only caring about one.. two.. one..... i dont know, it's just wrong.. then when that one affects me, im not able to suppress the anger, the disappointment..
cos today, when i found out about how he can prioritise by caring more for someone who will never love him than himself, i feel that he's no longer there. he may be there, but at the same time not there. i remember something mr S once said when he was talking to me "is like youre here but youre not here." cos i wasnt really listening to what he said. he said it with a tone of annoyance, and i believe it's this kind of feeling in me today. i believed you'd be there cos ultimately we're fighting for the same aim. but this wrong move you made, reminding me of why you even joined, for the wrong reason, makes me annoyed.
then the next moment, mr S walked past me and stopped and talked to me. no doubt shocked. it was in front of the cafe. and i slipped away without saying much. just didnt feel right to talk much to you at that moment.. under your watchful eyes...
im living in your shadow, it seems. im caring too much i guess, and youre just but a friend of mine.
i told of my glory at 10:53 pm
Saturday, 14 June 2008
chapter 120:
"but if you wanna cry
cry on my shoulder
if you need someone
who cares for you
if youre feeling sad
your heart gets colder
yes i can show you
what real love can do"
everytime i see you looking so tired out, there's a reason i want to give you a hug and tell you, thanks..
thanks for all you've done for me..
but i cant.. i cant.. i cant..
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my day was enriched, horrible, great. i had my HAT basic course day1 today. it was really really interesting, and i didnt once feel like sleeping. but i missed 15 min worth of lesson cos of my recruitment. but then again, thanks to darren who helped me to settle everything. and zhiliang who helped me do a 1 hour worth of presentations. THANKS ALOT GUYS!! without them i really dont know what could have happened. but yea, we got through. :DD
and then again, horrible.
i hate it when youre there, yet it's like youre not there. i hate it when youre putting in so much effort into me but im thinking of giving up on myself. im sorry i ever lost my focus..
and each time you tell me of your troubles i feel so weak cos i can do nothing to liberate you from them..
i want to just shout at them to all stop.
tell them to just leave you alone and let you have some rest..
i want to do so much for you..
i forget im only me..
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Cry on my Shoulder
http://youtube.com/watch?v=mpkOKU_Jheo&feature=related DAMN NICE VIDEO..
If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you"re feeling blue
If you"re away from love and you"re alone
If you call your friends and nobody"s home
You can run away but you can"t hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there"s a destiny
The best things in life
They"re free
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we"ll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I"ll never hide
What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
love can do
i told of my glory at 11:23 pm
chapter 119:
today i love it,
when you stop to walk beside me
instead of infront, like how you always do..
at that forbidden place..
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1. mr steve still owes me my "the marketer". bleah.
2. my dream chart is incomplete.
3. mr mengwee gave me a planning.. i dont want to miss that planning..
mr nick is really funny. everytime i walk past him, he'd show me that.... expression. i dont know how to describe it but.. yah.. oh well.
so yes,
my day was horrid right from mid-afternoon..
cos for the first time in ve, i felt like giving up on someone.
i never never thought you would do this to me..
stir politics..
i wasnt disappointed cos of what you told her to do,
i wasnt shattered because she was involved,
i was so sad cos it's you.
have i not done my part training up your people?
have i not done my part bringing people in for you?
have i not done my part in contributing to your last minute sales?
though you failed, i was with you right to the end.
i was always the one behind the scenes, consoling your guys and girls.
you never bothered how they feel. but i bothered, and i listen.
you were too complacent. that was the reason for your failure.
no doubt capable, but contrastingly, limited.
each time your people meet with setbacks, you'd tell me to help you in solving them.
everytime youre not around, im always there to take care of them.
early in mornings, i'd be there when you arent, getting busy taking over your duties.
helping you never was a burden to me. i felt it ok.
but to think that after telling her so directly what to do,
you FUCKING dare to ask me to HELP you take training,
thinking im innocently unaware of what you say behind my back.
mr glen said, not to stir politics. dont be the one to start, dont be the one to prompt. you've broken that unwritten rule.
i realised how wrong i was in trusting too easily.
i realised how stupid i was in believing you would return this favour one day when i needed your help.
to think that today, you are asking your people to do this,
in return of my favours to you.
no amount of thanks will appease me.
no amount of apologies will satisfy me.
no amount of praises will make me respect you ever again.
i forgive, but i dont forget.
and today, i will never forgive you for this.w
i told of my glory at 12:50 am
Thursday, 12 June 2008
chapter 118:
it's just those daring things you do,
without regards of the evil H,
without regards of the rules :DD
5 more days~
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today:
1. morning trng with mr shunjie. *stunned.
2. meet up with mr glen *woots!!~
3. trng in trng room.
mr steve still hasnt returned me my "the marketer". bleh O.o
IM TIRED!!
life sucks being the SME..
cant you all shut up about it..
i told of my glory at 10:44 pm
chapter 117:
it's the love baby :DD
6 more days~
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today!! calling calling bleh. HAHA. in the evening mr S went around borrowing "The Marketer" magazine. and he asked from cubicle to cubicle, BUT DIDNT ASK FALCON. nabi. in the end i was muttering to mr mengwee that "stupid leh he dno how ask me ah. i have he dont ask me, he ask all that dont have..." AND MY LOVELY CAR ACHIEVER MR MENGWEE SAID "EH STEVE! SHE SAY SHE HAVE LEH WHY NEVER BORROW FROM HER!!" he came over and "SOLID!!" *handshake. WHOA WHOA.. the rest... dont have to blog about it lol.
then went to orchard with meng and miss lois after that. meng wanted to buy shoesss. haha. took cab somemore. then had dinner at BBQ CHICKEN. omg the chicken DAMN NICE!! :DD so yes, 2 meals of chicken today cos for early lunch i went to eat fried rice with chicken with derrick. LOL.
more and more agents getting negative about upline? ARGH. and im busy repeating the same things over and over again.. O.o when a downline gets negative, it's a bad thing. and i realised their situation is much worse than mine..
i miss upline eh... :(
yes it's 1.20am. i took one hour to type this post cos im chatting with darren and ester at the same time. shall go sleep now cos darren is nagging. HAHA. tmr morning go spam call already :DD with darren and i think myron and others. HAHA. ZZZ~
i told of my glory at 12:02 am
Wednesday, 11 June 2008
chapter 116:
squint and look, focus and grin.
you stupid annoying shit :DD
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im the boss yea :D
did a biz plan. no BM was available to help us. HAHA. so i took things into my own SME hands :DD LOL. then miss lois taught zura and li fung pp and that was all to today. BORING DAY :(
today your squint, focus, gaze, and smile..
i miss nic.. nothing i can do to help him.. im so sorry.. it's all that car achiever's fault that all these happened..... hais. =x
i told of my glory at 2:07 am
Tuesday, 10 June 2008
chapter 115:
it's that charm,
stop banging into me lah!
*annoying shit.. :D
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chatting with darren is fun :DD
he's inspired by mr shunjie to sniff cal ion plus.
and smelly still never bathe. still tribal war. NEH. lol.
today was a crazy day. yea. did this presentation where i did a trial closing. F*CK. if it were a customer i think close deal already. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE IN VE.. haha. but anyway, think my way of making recruits stay is quite good. HAHA. self-praise. but compared to last time.. whoa whoa. HAHA :DD
so yea, BADGE PRESENTATION AND SLIDESHOW!! :DD li fung and azura went up for their ME badge :DD miss nad went up for MM badge and MR DARREN!! haha. stupid neh. say he's anxious but he did well on stage :DD (he insists he bit his tongue!) but yea, had group up after that and stupid falcons were trying to pair me up with ernest. what the FARK. seriously. id rather take...... no, id rather be single. HAHA. my love isnt like this okay!! :(
tmr is HUIFANG IS THE BOSS day :DD cos miss lois got biz operations meeting, mr mengwee got something on, mr jimmy will be in late, so YES, IT'S MY DAY TMR!! NYAHAHAHHAA~ *siao. :DD
i told of my glory at 1:20 am
Sunday, 8 June 2008
chapter 114:
YOU SAW ME LOOK,
YOU SMILED,
and the next moment,
you turned away.
aww, you suck :(
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today was a.. idk-what-happened day. i only remmeber HOR group.ing. li fung was real anxious on stage :DD suddenly i think back, when i was promoted, how come there wasnt a HOR grouping for me to make my speech??! WTH.. kind of forgot leh, 6 months since my last promotion HAHA. NEVER MIND, next month. mr meng asked me why i join ve. i told him i'll tell him the answer in my MM speech next month :DD shall shock him xDD and shock the whole ve. im gonna make an IMPACT SPEECH!! WOOTS~
and yes, traditional massage was great today :DD alex was beside me, li fung was beside me. HAHA.
that aside, im looking forward to my sushi date tmr :DDDDD
HAHHAHAHHAHA.
awww. nice nice mr mengwee :DD so nice of him to help me find out where's the one and only Versace outlet in SG.. :DD
and then again, pushed away..
sometimes i wonder why i put so much effort into our friendship when i can choose not to care and leave you to die..
leave you alone to suffer.. physically...
i told of my glory at 11:27 pm
and again,
late tonight,
i wonder why she has mr J to love her,
but i dont have mr Squid to love me that much..
there's just envy.
i dont even get chicken.. :(
i told of my glory at 1:07 am
Saturday, 7 June 2008
chapter 113:
cos it's just me, you and the dance floor :DD
happy~
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today was a really BORING day..
fairygodmother is sick with fever at home,
i miss my upline,
angmengwee was idk-where,
li fung was out with friends,
azura came only at 6pm :((
but i had a REALLY good laugh with cynthia and boon hock :DD
when azura had left, i was doing some calling, then somehow or other, boon hock came over and started playing with the red bmw model at my cubicle. LIKE A SMALL KID!! so enthu over the suspensions, banging the car against the wall, drifting, blah blah blah. he's super cute!! then cynthia came over and sat beside me, laughing at boon hock also. haha. then mr wen bin walked past so i "MR WEN BIN HAO!" then he turned around and as always, flashed that million$$ smile. when he turned and walked away, cynthia was like "EH HIS LEG V FAT LEH WHY HE STILL WEAR SKINNY JEANS! OMG!" and the 2 of us burst out laughing like crazy!! then he turned around and walked towards us and, "talk bad about me?" and cocked an eyebrow. HAHA. of cos say no.. but then after that, everytime i saw him walk around, me and cynthia would laugh til..... then we told boon hock about it and he was like... NO REACTION!! HAHA. but still, cynthia is super evil lah!!! xDD
today i saw my love's UNGLAM. HAHA. he didnt know im behind himmmmm :DD
suddenly remember some details i missed out on.
1. 2 days ago at orchard, we play dance dance revolution HAHA. me and azura, li fung and MISS LOIS POH. HAHA. miss poh is quite pro okay!! :DD
2. me, mr mengwee, mr jimmy and azura were sitting on the stairs outside 711 yesterday night eating chicken from 711. HAHA. it was there that we decided what to do at night. LOL! *sounds pretty pathetic.
sometimes i really wonder why you even entered my life and made this impact on me..
you idiot.. i hate you..
what kind of relationship is this between two friends gone too close..
people that have gone unnoticed by me in ve are still unnoticed,
yet i dont know why,
you were the one who caught my eye somehow,
out of "my love's" so many downlines..
and i couldnt forget your name ever..
we had no relations, i swear..
but you'd always be the one i think of when im down,
yet time and again i reject myself.
cos as we go on, i realise i really dont know you well enough..
i only know you love her.
a one-sided love,
yet nothing i can do to leviate your pain,
nothing i can do to make you wake up..
i could give you the best presents in a world friendship, or even a relationship, would provide.
but i would never take a place in your heart..
i hate you.. really..
why the hell do you always make me feel this way..
im back to listening to techno, once again.
this happened once at the beginning of last year.
now it's happening again.
im back to making the same mistake..
i know..
cos there's you in my life..
to distract me from him..
FARK..
*cos everytime we touch
i get this feeling
and everytime we kiss
i swear i could fly
can you feel my heartbeat fast
i want this to last
i need you by my side
cos everytime we touch
i feel the static
and everytime we kiss
i reach for he sky
canyou feel my heartbeat so
i cant let you go
i want you in my life..
i told of my glory at 11:37 pm
Friday, 6 June 2008
chapter 112:
it's cos i love you,
that we forget our faults,
we live for today..
we remember yesterday,
embrace today,
look forward to tmr..
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recalling today, it was a great day.
but im having mixed feelings now.
idk how i should feel, idk what i should think. so difficult to ignore, so difficult to care.
1. mr steve is such a FUNNY car achiever.
2. upline was being real nice today. :DD
3. mr mengwee damn unglam today.
saying mr steve is funny is totally tee-ing him up. if im not tee-ing him up id call him an
as a sidenote, mr steve's bluish tie is nice. HAHA.
upline is going to london tmr and will only be back on the 14th :( school trip luh. but SIAN. oh well... but yea, he gave me 40 cal ion plus and pillow pad HAHA. nice of him yea :DD but everyone's kinda shocked. speechless to that HA.. but of cos, oh well. one whole week without upline.. i wont express my feelings here. oh well.
just now we went to mr jimmy's house. dropped by before going to causeway point for movie. mr mengwee was so urgent for toilet that he did those super weird controlling actions at the carpark and outside mr jimmy's house. HAHA. me and zura again witnessed another car achiever's unglam-ness. but he super cute lah please!! our lovely mr mengwee ha! like a small kid!!
was really wondering, is today car-achievers-act-cute day? haha. the many coincidences!!
but D says mr steve does this once in awhile with them. but omg lah! how many times have i already seen him do these things!! OMG =x serious VS cute. HAHA. contrast please!! at least mr meng is like, everyday also go crazy abit with everyone? LOL. but you know, mr steve is like, another team and car achiever and he did this in front of us. HAHA. oh well, REALLY tickled by him luh =x
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mixed feelings cos it prompts me to think whats with THAT.
and i know it aint to me. but what others say makes me THINK.
really, it does..
i never realised, but maybe i havent let go of you despite all..
and i only realise when i realise im losing you..
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Thursday, 5 June 2008
chapter 110 and 111:
it's how you present yourself.
that charmingly, that sexily~
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4 june, went for class outing with j, jiayan, jinhoe, tiang, kiong and junyi. the guys were really nice, especially kiong who kept encouraging me to go on despite me wanting to give up cos i was REALLY aching =x but yea, i realised it's trust, believe and follow too. cos we followed junyi and tiang who could lead us :DD and it's really breaking of limitations. knees and thighs felt REALLY REALLY like.. idk, from pain to numb. cos there was no feeling... =x came home at 7.30am and yea, sleep till 11am.
today!!
was a day of fun i guess :DD reached and went for lunch with kel and li fung. by the time we went back, azura came and "I WANT TO EAT LUNCH!". lol. so i accompanied her to passion while i did my planning. saw james' negative expression when he looked at passion's menu HAHA. damn funny. and yes, saw mr S today. HAHA. stupid azura couldnt stop looking at him today. cut his hair and styled nicely. woots~ damn cool. and his shirt today. wah, the colours are.. idk, make his shoulders look broader.. more man.. AHA. stupid azura said "WAH HE V CUTE LEH!" DAMN. if she snatch........ she's dead i tell you. LOL.
and yea, guess FALCONS are still outside at orchard. me, james and kel didnt join them for movie. cos tired luh :( go movie also sure sleep, might as well go home. so we went to this chicago dno what place, WOOTS, the service is very good :DD so yes, james was nice enough to wait for the bus with me even though 2 190s came and he didnt board luh :)
as a sidenote, oh wow, mr charles is really handsome. HAHA. someone created an account in his name and put his pictures, super charming please!!! woots!! stupid ester is going crazy again HAHA.
and you, stop talking to me in that tone. you know i cant protect myself against such attacks.. stop whining and being so.... gentle....
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Wednesday, 4 June 2008
i promised him,
i will always be there for him
no matter what.
though in his heart, i know,
it's still that girl,
who doesnt appreciate him,
who only goes to him when she has no one else..
but on my part, being there for him is just a consolation to myself that i've made a difference....
you can choose not to come to me.
and i know you dont,
cos your pride&ego overwhelms that of your leader.
you would rather keep it to yourself than tell me,
until i ask you..
i try my best by doing all i can,
just to keep you by my side,
to fight on,
to strive on.
all along, you have a goal,
but i dont see how you can achieve it at this rate we're going.
no boy, im starting my engine.
it's time you start yours too..
i'll never give up on you,
unless you give up on me..
i told of my glory at 12:34 am
Tuesday, 3 June 2008
chapter 109:
IT'S THE LOVE, BABY :DD
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there's this company,
ve group,
where NICE NICE boss is a really nice person who stands around and chats with us,
and tells us of his plans for the company,
where LOVELY boss drives a SEXY maserati~,
and lets us have a FEEL of his SEXY CAR!! :DD
FIRST TIME TALKING TO BOSS AND HE'S REALLLLL NICE!! :DD
vrooooom!!
I LIKE THE ENGINE SOUNDS EHHHHHH..!!
also, in this nice nice ve group,
dedicated distributors bring the house down,
with our crazy cheers.
our culture. i like that~
today's company update was CRAZY. and i mean REALLY crazy. it was even crazier than the annual grand sem please!
reason 1: immediate promotion of 2 MM fighting for BM with 8k LV left
reason 2: immediate promotion of one HOB ME fighting for MM with 5k LV left
reason 3: reduction of quota for ME to MM and MM to BM :DDDDD
reason 4: IMMEDIATE PROMOTION OF MANY SE TO ME DUE TO IMPROMPTU CHANGE IN QUOTA all thanks to mr kit!!
OMG SERIOUSLY, azura and i almost went crazy. she's promoted to ME already!! and li fung is also promoted to ME also!! OMG. screamed and cheered like never before. i was really glad for them :))) AS FOR ME, a reduction in 5000LV to MM position!! WOOOTS~ left with uhhh, 9542LV now :DD yay-ness. made a bet with LJ. if i hit MM this month, he buys me a blazer. if i miss, i buy him a blazer. really kinda brought the house down :DD
those immediate promotions
- the one on the 2 MMs to BMs. mr glen asked them up onstage cos they were each left with 8000LV left to BM. then they were to make a speech on WHY THEY DESERVE AN IMMEDIATE PROMOTION TO BM. and in the end, both of them were promoted :DD glad for miss moone~ hahas.
- the one on the ME to MM. DAMN. walk over. i was left with more than 5000 LV so cannot go onstage fight. NEH :(
THE HIGHLIGHT WAS MR KIT GOING ONSTAGE TO REQUEST SOMETHING FOR THE SEs COS THERE WAS REDUCED QUOTA FOR ME AND MM BUT NO REDUCED QUOTA FOR SEs.
and after a 5 min discussion, boss reduced the quota for SE to ME by 3000LV!! OMG MAN. mr kit really rocks :DD SO many SEs hit ME immediately cos of that!! :)))
so yes, im now left with 9k LV but still, DAMN HAPPY TODAY!! :DDD
i told of my glory at 11:34 pm
chapter 108:
it's those sneak moments,
every moment cherished,
to strike a conversation.. :DD
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i was having lunch today,
then appeared mr jason and he was like "FANG FANG!" so yes i looked over and "mr jason hao, mr steve hao" cos miss jessie was busy so i didnt greet her. and what the hell, a thoroughly embarrassing conversation took place..
mr jason "fang fang! what you eating?"
huifang "laksa.."
mr jason "ohhhhh.."
mr steve "eh huifang, youre a jc student right?"
huifang "yah.. why?"
mr steve *frowns "ehh, dont look like leh. haha!"
mr jason "yah loh yah loh!"
huifang was feeling slightly annoyed cos miss jam just said so yesterday,
huifang "oh yah, imitation jc student mah"
mr steve "ah?"
huifang "retainee. jialat one haha."
mr steve "retain only WHAT!! nothing bad about it.. go to jc already very smart le leh!!"
mr jason "yah loh yah loh.."
huifang "aiyah.. just.. different lah. haha. i at VE chiong, go home then study lo haha."
mr steve "aiyoh like that very tiring for you leh. haha.."
AND FEELING THOROUGHLY ANNOYED, I WENT BACK TO EATING MY LAKSA AFTER SMILING AT THEM..
mr jason "i forgot what's my qualification hah"
mr steve "aiyah, my o level already cannot make it lo.."
damn. thoroughly annoyed and embarrassed :(
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jimmy missed car already. speechless to that. haiis.
li fung miss ME. speechless to that. haiis.
i totally dont wanna say anything about these 2 matters.
maybe i havent done enough, maybe im not supposed to be involved..
time to fight for myself. i cant go on this way..
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lovely D's appointment was today.. he says she's "considering".. i know LJ will say "none of your business. worry for yourself how to hit MM". yes, but.. idk, sometimes some things just cant be explained..
not mysterious, and never will be boyfriend.
that's an entirely different matter.
but still, i want him to hit position fast..
i believe he-whom-i-idolise knew i was planning for myself today, cos he gave me a real encouraging smile and said "hello" to me even before i did..
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no wonder that day L apologized without telling me why.
today then im told, youre attached.
i realised, why you apologized, cos you'd been..
behaving this way towards me..
when in the first place you were attached..
hello, i was too gullible..
to think you were lying all this while..
took my mind of HIM for those few moments..
i havent sank that deep in..
get out of my sight, you fcker..
i told of my glory at 12:24 am
Monday, 2 June 2008
and really, i wonder when will i again have the chance,
the luxury,
of holding your hand under the stars,
strolling into the silence of the night.
for the lonliness that surrounds me each night,
deters me from what used to be the loud night life.
and yet under the sun,
i see the love,
exuded from your smile,
your eyes.
but at the same time,
engulfed by the darkness within,
im kept away from your touch.
it's the emotional barrier,
that separates the lovers,
yet the hierachy,
which bans the love.
it's such an irony, really.
but once again i look up at the stars,
and wonder,
when oh when,
will you be back beside me,
free from the sins,
free from the troubles of today..
it's to never have regrets in life.
ester lost a guy whom she loved.
im not gonna waste any more time.
stupid D.
you better believe what i say in future otherwise im really gonna give up on you.
i told of my glory at 1:13 am
Sunday, 1 June 2008
chapter 107:
that charming,
that mesmerizing.
lost in your eyes,
i forget where i am..
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they insist that this is talent. LOL.
thanks uh!
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today was a....... idk. =x
apparently mr steve didnt have toothpaste stock T.T but mr meng asked me to ask him for it cos i needed it. and well, he managed to get one from idk who, but well =x he came over and "see i so good still put VE plastic bag for you!!" o.O eh?
*keeps it in locker. LOL.
ANYWAY, MY PARKER IS MISSING!! WTF WHO KOP IT FROM MY LOCKER T.T
damn sad can? been through many biz plans with it.. haiis..
again on a toot-paste spree, pretty successful today.
but im still worried.
tmr is the last day..
mr mengwee asked me "are you gonna help me train up one ME?"
i didnt answer him..
i just dont feel like answering that question. anyway, ultimately the credit goes to you for having keng-ed her on the line for 1 hour plus previously.
but i believe i did my best,
along her journey,
i did what i ought to.
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derrick's missing ME this month. oh well. =x
i hope he'll hit next month.
then i'll be onstage for MM and he'll be onstage for ME. HAHHAHAHAH.
nyahahas~
ester oh ester, may she be onstage with him too.
on the other hand, he's gonna present for his in house appt tmr. HAHA. his aunt. do hope he closes many many products :DD cos he has the support of miss corrine and mr steve who's gonna do the pulse analysis for him.
oh as a random point, I HAVE NOT SEEN HOW PULSE ANALYSIS IS DONE DESPITE BEING HERE FOR 7 MONTHS T.T.... CMI siol.
so yes, i do believe we'll achieve our goals if we fight.
if we persevere,
if we just go on..
today i believe you'll stay on and fight.
he believes you will, and i believe you will too.
theres a reason why i dont think twice about feeding you with products i can keep for myself. HAHA.
dont take alcohol and harm yourself aight :DD
drink more cal ion plus..
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and please, stop pushing..
i can choose to fck care..
but now im involved,
dont make me regret..
dont..
please..
dont..
i've stepped in,
so i'll do my best..
i told of my glory at 11:53 pm