Saturday, 30 August 2008
chapter 196:
it's a blank, spot, blank.
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realised that today there isnt much to really care about,
only something affecting me so badly since 11pm.
i hate it when you msged me only for such a purpose..
whenever you call me and ask me where i am,
i know you care,
and when i ask you why do you ask,
you say "orh, ask ask only. a few days never see you le."
it's always these few sentences.
but so simple, it's just these which kept me going all this while.
i like it when you smile,
when you talk,
when you insist youre taller than me,
when you argue that im just stupider than you.
i like it when you think for me,
like it when you make decisions for me,
like it when you insist youre the most important guy in my life,
like it when you always smugly say i wont leave, cos you know i'd stay cos youre there,
like it when you scold others when they do things which are a disadvantage to me.
i will never forget how badly you scolded him cos you felt that he didnt care when he should,
will never forget how you never gave up on me despite my countless attempts to make you do so,
will never forget how you always tried to make me emo over you,
will never forget how much effort you put in to make me quit smoking,
will never forget how much you cared when i was sick,
will never forget how you taught me about "attach and detach",
will never forget how we always fought,
will never forget how you thought i was together with D cos you found such suggestive msgs in my phone and used my phone to call to find out who he is,
will never forget how you encouraged me at 2am cos i was negative,
will never forget all those msgs you ever sent which inspired/encouraged/taught me so much,
will never forget those unforgettable meals we ever had together,
will never forget the time we ate the stupid noodles with so much chilli it made us sniff sniff sniff away,
will never forget those late nights out,
will never forget that unforgettable chalet,
will never forget how many of those small gestures you did which touched me so deeply.
so much of you is so unforgettable to me.
we are just holding this status of friends.
good friends.
but do you know how much you mean to me?
how much ive done for you and youve acknowledged,
how much effort ive put in to help you in every way i can,
how many times i tried my best to make you smile when you worried over personal problems,
how i'd wake up at 2am to call you just cos you msged me to,
how i'd go all out for you..
those times when you smiled,
it seems as though nothing else matters in the world.
when others lust after you,
im glad i have you with me.
when im alone and feel like there's a dead end,
youre always there ready to listen to me.
but things changed once she appeared.
i admit, i was reluctant to helped.
but i still did.
and went all out.
it was still okay,
and it seemed she was an evidence of my help rendered to you.
until he came back..
EVERYTHING changed.
you started saying like only he mattered to me and i didnt give a damn about you anymore.
and made me feel that i was no longer as important as i was before.
no, this has gone wrong.
now youre asking me for a favour i can last help you at,
which is helping her once again,
in a way i really cant bring myself to.
no. im sorry.
i never had regrets.
i never regretted doing ZERO for myself to help her in the past.
but now it's different.
im fighting for myself.
i want to hit the 500 target ASAP.
i need to do this myself.
i wont depend on anyone to help me achieve this.
i've missed too many times for comfort.
im sorry.
fate permits me to meet you,
to start off with you,
to go through tihs process with you,
to endure pains and tears with you,
and i'll end off with you.
when we get to the end, please wake me up from this dream turned nightmare..
i'll be ready to leave.
cos youre my beginning,
and my end.
and im serious.
i told of my glory at 11:46 pm
those happy moments, they dont last.
remember remember, how we were so happy last year..
the happiness, the success, the fruit of our labour.
the pains, the late nights, the brainwrecking times..
part of them..
trinity times?
would happen once in a blue moon,
i told of my glory at 5:38 pm
Friday, 29 August 2008
chapter 195:
it's feeling so different..
i know im happy..
but i cant smile...
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teachers' day celeb was interesting spelt as B-O-R-I-N-G. we werent even involved lah please o.o total screw up. anyways, kind of sad eh! mr harold told us not to call him mr harold anymore! CANNOT! once our teacher always our teacher!! :D and hwoaaa he can dribble the soccer ball quite zhai eh! xD MR GERALD V FUNNY LOL. he wave hello then act cute lo! AWWW :D kind of glad he's the one who will be taking over mr harold as our teacher instead of any.... kookoo cockroach teacher =x
went to amk hub with puipui and edel :D we went to do this.... idk-how-to-describe.. you know, there's this stall usually in the middle of nowhere in shopping centres that allows people to do sand art. we did the squeeze-paint out de. HAHA. cos puipui and edel never do before! AT LEAST i've done it once before!! HAHA. so me the pro helped them in it! LOL :D AND WE ATTRACTED ALOT OF CUSTOMERS LEH. from empty empty area it became FULLHOUSE!! :D
then after that i went home and chatted online with JAC till she almost got off work le! then headed down to 190. DAMN IT. traffic jam to the extent that she even reached earlier than me ZZZZ.
so yes, upline taught me more new stuff :D
im glad it's this way now..
and meng walked in and pointed middle finger at me, then looked v gleeful about it.
ARGH.
piece o kookoobert.
TIRED!
i love my CA my upline my falcons and my taurus bros and sis :D
YAY~
i told of my glory at 11:27 pm
Thursday, 28 August 2008
chapter 194:
oh maybe im still trying to get used to a new life im living..
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OH YES,
econs retest was a laugh.
i wrote alot.
but idk what im writing LOL.
it made sense to me,
but maybe it's still out of point =x
UPLINE DONT CARE ABOUT ME DE LORRRRR :(
I COUGH TILL WANNA DIE WANNA VOMIT BLOOD HE STILL NAG AT ME TO CALLLL :(
then i retorted "can you be more caring towards your own downline?" with a sad face.
and guess what,
he gave some crap reply meaning no. ARGH.
but anwyays, WEN BIN VERY DISGUSTINGLAH!
he go put his shirt in my locker cos gary got the key to their locker and he couldnt open their locker.
so i went to nag at him when i found out.
and guess what,
he told me to smell his shoulder.
and happily told me that he borrowed my perfume too... O.o
ARGHHHHH. stupid wen bin. HAHA.
but so nice of him, i was walking out already then he called across b1, "need help can find me okay!~" HAHAHAHA.
oh well, that's the craziness of networking~
i told of my glory at 11:52 pm
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
chapter 193:
for the first time in months,
i felt you do care..
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HAHA. to describe today :D
1. i went to school only for maths tutorial, reading program, a bit of maths consultation, and co practice.
2. me and my partner-in-crime chia weijian went for a almost-half-hour break though ding lao shi said 10 minutes.
3. ding lao shi fetched us in her lexus!! :D
4. me and jac met mr nick on the way to office :DDDDDD
you know you know, super funny. ding lao shi dropped me off at paya lebar, then she turned to eunos T.T i wanted to go eunos luh but ANYWAY, thats not the main point haha. i happened to reach eunos at the same time as jac! so we walked to office together!! :D and yes, WE MET MR NICK ON THE WAY. super funny...
hf- mr nick hao!
mr n- hao!
mr n- oi! mei2 you3 jiao4 ren2??! (never call people!) *to jac.
jac- ORH. mr nick hao!
chee yong- *makes some weird noise copying jac cos she was making some funny whiny noise.
LOL. MADE ME LAUGH ALL THE WAY TO 190!!
mr nick and chee yong both super funnyyyyyyy!!
HAPPY HAPPY :D
but upline wasnt there when i went to 190 :(
and yes, i did something nice for downline today.
im glad he's happier and im helping him to solve some problems somehow :D
AM I LIKE, THE BEST UPLINE OR WHAT? LOLLLL :ppp
ARGH. TMR THERES CHEM TUTORIAL! OH $@)^(%)(&^
if you can find it, i'd bow to you siol!! :pppp
i told of my glory at 10:30 pm
JAC, ITS NOT THAT IM EVIL BUT SERIOUSLY IVE BEEN LAUGHING FOR THE PAST 3 MINUTES AT YOUR POST COS IT'S TOTALLY HILARIOUS AND OMG MAN I CANT BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY HAD THAT IN YOUR MIND COS IT'S REALLY DAMN DAMN DAMN FUNNY THAT IT HAD TO BE
HIM
INSTEAD OF
how can you snatch from meeee!! i changed my mind already then you also same same huh!! ARGHHHHHHH :D MEATBALLS!
orite, only she'll understand what im talking about.
but anyway, for those who care,
im feeling better already. nose problem is gone, but throat problem still here. much better though :D
and.. 190 later!! :D
i told of my glory at 1:05 pm
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
chapter 192:
a dot, space, comma, blank.
my mind is a blank today.
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being sick sucks.
as i re-emphasize,
i want ikea meatballs and chicken wings ):
JAC, we go for that as soon as i recover aight!
previously went with tammy and it was great great great :DDD
ARGGGGH.
and i cant go to 190 today :(
really no strength to leave the house..
AND i cant eat chicken wings now!!!
and my $^*%&(*^(*#$ parents da bao-ed chicken wings with fried rice home for dinner,
and bought me porridge ):
damn evil right..
WALAO I CANT EVEN TALK PROPERLY NOW.
such an irony right, we being in the health industry, falling ill?
C'MON LAHHH IM ALSO HUMAN OKAY :D
lol. oh well.
when im protected, im protected.
when i fall ill, it's a major event.
ARGH.
oh yah, i challenged myself. 1 capsule of calplus in 300ml water. coughed out like maybe
good night :(
i told of my glory at 11:03 pm
Monday, 25 August 2008
chapter 191:
from chapter 189, it was a different person walking with me..
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badminton was mad today. ha. stupid tammy is damn nuah playing it and i had to run around the whole court when it was me VS tam+j. haha. but we took turns. so yea, still not that bad. throat hurt like
so yes, chiong-ed down for slideshow. nabiiiii. fell asleep on 22 and missed the alighting stop. ended up at bedok reservoir slope. stupid shit. in the end i had to cross opposite to change bus. KNS.
had a talk with upline over my organisation, my position. suddenly i feel that i really should learn to give people chances. people do change. negativities arent there forever. they change..
they really do..
and i know, he means well :D
MY THROAT IS FEELING DAMN SORE,
MY NOSE IS ACHING,
MY HEADACHE IS KILLING ME,
MY RIGHT KNEE IS ACTING UP AGAIN,
MY RIGHT ARM IS TREMBLING IDK-WHY (prolly cos of overdose of badminton?),
and and and, i havent studied econs and havent done chem tutorial. arghs.
i told of my glory at 10:59 pm
chapter 190:
time flies.. the countdowns over and im nearer to my goal..
fight on i will,
cos i have you with me on this journey..
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m tired.
physically.
but mentally i want to carry on..
walk with me this arduous journey will you?
i believe 230808 would be the last time i cry because of you..
i told of my glory at 12:34 am
Saturday, 23 August 2008
chapter 188 and 189:
it's the end of the countdown, i have failed my task.
but what a happy ending..
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how about this. TODAY FIRST!! birthday was a blast :D i love my falcons lots. they really make me smile, make me cry, EVERYTHING! they got me this LOVELY chocofudge cake :D
kept me unawares and made me really think they werent gonna celebrate my birthday luh! cos everyone so hostile towards me today except for amelia and my 2 power-downlines.. but yes, there was cake :D and i made 3 wishes! fairygodmother will fulfil it for me! LOL.
1. *wasnt said out.* shhhh..
2. Lois Poh BGM Group TOP TEAM!! :D
3. upline hit car....
and upline said "thanks." LOL. =x
so yes, i was feeling so down today as i felt so guilty yet at the same time annoyed. upline told me to go have my lunch after our STA training ended. so i went downstairs to settle some stuffs before going for lunch with cyn. then he called me and kb-ed me saying i was taking so long :( then after that i was totally in a GLOOMY mood. C'MON MAN WHO IS GLOOMY ON THEIR BIRTHDAY? but i was really.. sad lo. he didnt even care that it's my birthday? then amelia couldnt tahan and said in front of him that i was sad on my birthday. then say it's cos of him. HAHA. then he got a lil confused and said that they talk so unclearly. then after that i met zhiliang along b1 :D then was talking to me asking me why i looked so pale and he told me that my upline told him that it's my birthday today. haha. idk what does that mean anyway, but zhiliang is super funnyyyy :D and yeaaa, stupid gary ruined my sketchbook by ruining my artistic drawing of my name! stupid garyyy. he drew such an ugly "F" and i told him "since the harm's been done, complete it." LOL. but turned out... my name looking like cactus =x and yes, estertanleyin KISSED me on my cheeeek cos she loves me too much :DDD
then idk luh i think upline knows i was really :( cos after we came back from the celebration at pkms he told me to go to another side. then he taught me how to keng cal*, present cal* in appointment etc. i will follow upline from today onwards cos upline has changed his style of doing things and i believe it's better this way. no matter what, i will always be following behind him on this journey to him being a car achiever. he is my upline. he is mr LJ, my one and only upline. i hope things remain this way, so that i can smile like how i used to always..
anyways,THE CHALET!!
was great great great :D
went over at 7plus. due to unforeseen circumstances such as being stupid twice, LOL. then had bbq, played bridge, took pictures with miss tan and with mr harold, and then went to WATCH MOVIEEEE at 12.20am :D guess what, 4bia is SODAMNFUCKING SCARY! it's not like, there's a ghost or what. but those curses, gory images, bloodshed etc etc. DAMNFUCKINGSICK! i seriously almost wanted to puke at the end of the 2nd part of the film. what the hell man! there's alot of blood in our body!! ben who sat to my right also screamed a couple of times!! ARGH. and me and jeanette were like trying to hide behind each other and ended up stuck together in an awkward position LOL. then after that we went BOWLING :D haha! followed by macs breakfast and we went back to the chalet to sleep from 5.30am-6.30am. LOL. when jeanette and regina woke up i climbed onto the bed and refused to get up. LOL. in the end they were whacking me almost. nagging nagging. LOL. so yes, left the chalet and took 58 from the interchange to school. SLEPT AGAIN :D the bus ride was 50minutes! then had a DAMNCOLD bath in school before CO prac. and yea, left CO prac at 10.30am to go 190 for STA :D
and thanks to all those buddies all those friends who wished me happy birthday and some even got me a present :D
cel, chuanru, abi, puijun, andre, azura, zhenwen, cousin cheryl, miic, simon, gaybird gabriel, eunice ling, zhiwen, estelli, weijian, levina, hu weiming, kelvin, heidi, renyi, dorothy, li fung, minghui. these are the msgs i received!!
of cos not forgetting verbal wishes from
zhiliang, miss eileen, ester, darren, amanda, jinhoe, clement, and seriously i forgot who else. LOL.
FALCONS,
miss lois, jimmy, longjun, li fung, amelia, xavier, randy, saleha, yat, zee!! azura left early and missed the cake! AWW :D
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Thursday, 21 August 2008
chapter 187:
2 days left..
i heard it break, i really did..
free me from this month.. i will succeed..
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doesnt time fly? it's already approaching the end of august. i shall buck up on my studies. i feel motivated because of all the encouragement i have from those who care. :D
went for SWEDEN MEATBALLLLLS :D and chicken wings and nuggets and fries and DAIM (not diam lah dearest kookoodoodle) cake! AT IKEAAAA :D queesway one. bwahahahas. 20bucks on that meal and im SUPER HAPPY :D eat till happy happy especially when the food is shared with a great buddy! :DDD actually was cos i was craving for meatballlllls so we went. HAHA. and i geh kiang on the way home. she told me that taking 57 would be damn damn long cos it's like, from bukit merah int to bishan interchange. so i waited for 132 instead to AMK, which is like half the journey time only. but when 57 came... i geh kiang and ran for it! ARGH. exactly one and a half hour trip back to bishan and i almost died lah please! =x but i slept.... VERY WELL on the bus HAHA. cos the aircon was super cold and i was super tired!! slept 5 minutes after boarding and woke up at toa payoh and stoned the rest of the journey ha! :D
tmr's amanda'a birthday bbq OMGOMG so excited HAHA.
abi-lala and gang asked me out but i cant make it!
ryan and ex-popularians asked me out but i cant too!
SO SAD PLEASE :(
rare chance to meet them sia!
HAIS.
then overnight-ing till saturday, wanted to go club with azura but she couldnt cos exams period! ARGH.
so saturday 8.30am CO PRACTICE. OHMYGAWD please. so anti-climax! then off for my STA training at 11am-2pm, then a day of... :D
then i guess at night we'll have another outing ba? hahas.
sunday!! intended day with family but gabriel sin-ni-na-beh asked me to go to his church! shall see how about that :D and elisa jio-ed me out to kbox too but i dont feel like going cos she asked me out in evening and next day there's school. AWW. =x
IM TIRED! OH MAN. (when am i not complaining about that ha.) when can i ever ever catch up on my sleep :( i wanna sleep a 24 hours sleep for once!!
i told of my glory at 10:04 pm
Wednesday, 20 August 2008
chapter 186:
3 days left, getting tired?
liberate me from this torment..
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day ended quite negatively.
but it led me to realisation of many matters.
thank you LJ.
thank you for never giving up despite all that happened.
i made a proimse.
i will keep that promise.
i told of my glory at 10:30 pm
Tuesday, 19 August 2008
chapter 185:
4 days left..
im losing sight of my own target..
i really am..
because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe
side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust
not only me, but everyone
around me
because of you
i am afraid..
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today was a great day.
short timetable,
sushi buffet with dearest tammy,
early birthday present gotten!
school was kind of effed up towards the end. haha. tam knows why. we share sentiments about the same issue. GRWAR. stop flirting with the guys so much younger than you lah c'mon. haha! :D
so yes, went to cine for SUKI SUSHI!! omg omg omg. we were like "sushi!"-ing for the whole morning lah! LOL. last time i had suki was.. 2 months plus ago! HAHA :D i got a good life. cos my DEAREST TAMMY FOON GAVE ME A TREAT as my early bithday present :D buffet okayyyy HAHA. we were like, crazy over the icecream puffs xD DELICIOUS~ and for once i didnt feel bloated after the buffet! cos ALWAYS i'll feel like.. oil from the fried food is swimming in me. feels super queasy! but today NO! cos of... MISO SOUP :DDD helps to get rid of that queasy feeling you know!! :D
then bought my bag from zinc. HAHAHHAA. omg. see lah, new bag again :D went to 8percent and saw this $49.90 bag but the strap was kinda.. SHORT =x so went to fareast zinc. the retail assistant is SUPER CUTE please!! he's like, super helpful and super cute and super GAYGAY :D haha! he talk will whine one lo! and whine till very cute haha! :D and a funny thing happened! i asked for a new piece, and when he took it out for me to check we realised that there were a few differences though it states the same model! LOL. damn funny. 3 differences in all, and PRETTY OBVIOUS ONES! haha! in the end he gave me free membership :D super cute lah he, still drew a smiley on my membership card :D
so yes, that's my early birthday present from my mom :D
HAHAHAHA. im laughing away now recalling what happened today :D
i really wanna fight but im feeling so weak, so out of place.. blah blah.. i really want upline to hit his PCI.. this month was a good one at the beginning but i've seem to lost my touch.. downlines......
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im falling for you, im so stuck with you, and im not gonna leave you.
10 months later, i realise it had always been you who was with me through all thick and thin.
youre the reason i stayed.
and you are still the reason im here.
thank you.
thank you for having done so much for me,
thank you for always being there for me be it 3am or 5am.
thank you for being you..
i told of my glory at 10:06 pm
Monday, 18 August 2008
chapter 184:
5 days left..
pretty boy, when you said "dear", it didnt sound like a joke. (:
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today was a boring day in school, really.
went for extra maths lecture in the morning but i forgot to bring notes. damn stupid ya. then chem tutorial.. chem lecture.. argh forget it. the timetable today is SHORT :D
stupid tammy and jeanette msg-ed me during econs lecture..
"punggolian sitting behind us now. *blah blah*"
LOL.
attempted my NEW heels at 190 today. WTF. make me damn effing tall. THE AIR'S FRESHER UP THERE YEA! but i was ALMOST same height as mr steve when i greeted him today. c'mon man, he's much taller than me luh! argued with mr mengwee who is taller and he insists he is :D stupid CA. act cute hahahahah. and my poor azura felt so sad cos she felt so short beside me today :D
then talked with jac again today, the same topic. highly entertaining though thoroughly sick. HAHA. :D and we saw mr nick there. LOL-ed.
met miss corinne in the toilet and she was like "whoa what potion did you give her? why she so happy when with you!" LOL. i got the charm man! HAHA.
so yes, went into sem room and still talked talked talked. oh man. im NOT a SHA betrayer okay, im wearing the YELLOW lanyard!! stupid mark signalled to me and told me to sit beside him at KTA side lah! a*shole. :D
so yes, cos there was weekly slideshow today. very very sad. last week we, lois poh bgm group, were top. today we weren't in top 5 at all. HAIS. but upline got 3rd for top manager :D YAY! must maintain..
and it's always meowmeow who says goodbye to me after slideshow cos i leave halfway..
that adorable meow that loves to sit on my feet and raises its paws wanting to eat up my stuffed taurus-mini cow DDD:
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oh yes when you said hello dear i almost died at that moment,
cos if you havent realised,
it's been 10 months.
10 months without proclaimation of ANYTHING.
it's just this unexplainable no-reason no-obligations bond which keeps me to you.
yes, it's far beyond what others call couple love.
it's this relationship far beyond description..
that scent i so love, that smile i so adore.
from adoration, to love beyond words, to lust?
now thats a question. LOL :D
i told of my glory at 10:45 pm
Sunday, 17 August 2008
chapter 183:
6 days left..
ohhh my pretty pretty boy i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu..
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i feel so lost sometimes
like i dont know what to do!
ARGH.
i shall blog more later.
OFF TO WATCH TABLE TENNIS :D
*BACK
during the table tennis finals, me and LZJ were having a closely-following-the-match commentary online.
[ ZJ ] 2008 says:
OH FUCK
[ ZJ ] 2008 says:
LOL
[ ZJ ] 2008 says:
9 3 alr
HUIFANG 6 days left to run the final race.. says:
omgomg
[ ZJ ] 2008 says:
match point
[ ZJ ] 2008 says:
holy mother
LOL. damn funny.
but anyway, i've finally realised who i really really placed my full trust in all this while.
never doubted a single word he said,
never felt lasting anger over things he did.
always smiled when im around him.
never minded all those super disgusting stuff he did like burp out loud and kiss others' asses.
always gave in to him.
yes, i'll tell him tmr.
face-to-face it'll be a better way. :D
we practiced transparency of how we felt always, havent we?
weeeeeeeee. oh my pretty pretty boy i love youuuuuuuuu.
TMR IS SHORT DAY but there's extra math lect in the morn!! Dx<
and the coming week is so gonna be busy!!
monday: early dismissal day = DAY TO COMMIT!
tuesday: SUKI SUSHI with tam :D
wednesday: co practice till late evening.
thursday: ???
friday: amanda's birthday bbq + overnight till saturday.
saturday: a whole day of activities :D + MAYBE overnight out again!
sunday: tuition!
HWOA cannot take it. next weekend can die! LOL. :D
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
i told of my glory at 10:20 pm
[11] People tagged with this quiz.
i dont know who to tag.
[10] Firsts.
First Best Friend: yanlin.
First Screen Name: fang.
First Pet: my goldfish..
First Piercing: last year O.o
First Crush: kindergarten.. the handsome guy who topped the class with me called joshua LOL.
First CD: westlife?
First Car: 3-5 years.
First Love: that joshua. lol.
First Place called Home: bishan.
[9] Lasts.
Last Beverage: cold plain water.
Last Car Ride: yesterday night's cab ride.
Last Movie Seen: oh thats long.. what was the last movie with the falcons?
Last Phone Call: miss lois.
Last Song You Listened To: pretty boy.
Last Bubble Bath: years ago..
Last Time You Cried: a few days back? but i forgot what it was for..
Last Thing You Ate: choc ice creammmmmmm T.T
Last Bad Thing You Did: yesterday. no elaborations cos i alr left it out of my blog post ystd. ahahahs.
[8] Have You Evers.
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nah.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope..
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: tammy, this is swimming in nude since you dno. but NO.
Have You Ever Been On A Limo: nah ):
Have You Ever Cheated: hahas yes..
Have You Ever Been In Love: maybe?
Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident: nah.
Have You Ever Broken A Bone: nah. stop cursing me!
[7] Things You Are Wearing.
1) tshirt
2) shorts
3) undergarments
4) im at home how many things do you expect me to be wearing? lol..
[6] Things You've Done Today.
1) sms.
2) talk on the phone.
3) go for stupid chem tuition.
4) bathed.
5) chatted on msn.
6) did lit h/w.
[5] Favourite Things.
1) falcons aka birdbirds.
2) strawberriesssss!! :D
3) car models!
4) heartshape balloons with silver ribbons!
5) my money :D
[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To.
1) tammy.
2) jac.
3) azura.
[3] Choices.
1. Black Or White: black.
2. Hot Or Cold: cold.
3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: chocolate.
*i dont bother to edit this part after copying from tammy :D
[2] Things You Want To Do Before You Die.
1) tell those i people whom i love but never told that i love them.
2) enjoy life for 7 days :D same as tam!
[1] Thing You Regret.
1) haha. ever losing trust in him.
i told of my glory at 7:48 pm
Saturday, 16 August 2008
chapter 182:
7 days left..
to run the final race..
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co prac was tiring, but worth it!! lao shu qu qing sounds pretty nice eh! :D and jonathan's doing a good job on the suona :DDD
but is super zzzzzzz.
and i woke up at 10.20am, left the house at 10.25am and reached school at 10.30am. HAHA. :D pro right. but i was damn late already luh hahah =x
and yes,
jac jac jac is so damn tiko okay!!
lol but IS VERY FUN to talk with herrrr :D
IM VERY VERY TIREDDDD :(
i told of my glory at 11:54 pm
Friday, 15 August 2008
chapter 181:
8 days left..
7002 signing off here,
maybe im not willing to fight,
like what you tell others.
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school was pretty boring you know!! OH MAN. but TGIF!! :D
had a bad headache on the way to eunos today. =x stupid bus turn turn turn turn turn.. to think tammy said it's very fast when she took it a few days back! =x
oh yah, olympics. so sad that e table tennis single female lost by 1 point in the last set!! the school was crowded before the tv broadcasts luh! super funny! when i came out from lit i got a shock lo. LOL :D
support SG :D
oh yea, im glad downline is in a clear-enough mind to remember that im after all his upline and after ranting he apologised. :) im glad i have this downline.. proud of him!! :D
how about not telling others that i dont want to fight when the reason why i dont go is cos im sick?
it hurts you know?
1.The person who tagged you is
-tammy foon
2.Your relationship with her is
-she's my girlfriend. though idk when was i ever her boyfriend. HAHA. :D
3.Your five impression of her
-crazy, unglam, fun, mugger-not, can-be-good-friend!
4.The most memorable thing she had done for you
-LEND ME HER HW TO COPY. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
5.The most memorable thing she said to you
-i dont know, really. HAHA. but we share sentiments on many issues :D
6.If she become your lover, you will
-she already is.
7.If she become your lover, thing she has to improve on will be
-her obssession with her wish that her hair will grow very much longer just overnight. BWAHAHHA.
8.If she become your enemy, you will
-find gabriel and tgt smack her foon-ni-na-beh face :D
9.If she become your enemy, the reason will be
-she retains.
10.The most desired thing you want to do for her now is
-feed her lots of yongtaufoo and fatten her up :D
11.Your overall impression of her is
-crazy :D
12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
-IM NICE AND FRIENDLY :D no lah. hahha. i dont know, im just myself. so lets see what people say :D
13.The characteristics you love about yourself
-ability to influence others (but of cos i must mean to influence them before i can) :D
14.On the contrary, the characters you hate about yourself are
-errrh, think too much lahhhhh.
15.The most ideal person you want to be is
-me, myself or i.
16.The people that care and like you, say something to them
-i love you all too :D
17. pass this quiz to 3 ppl you wished to know how they feel about you
-jeanette
-jac
-lynette
I KNOW OF NO ONE ELSE WHO PROLLY READS MY BLOG! =X
it's always those.... visitors who never tag. and the ip adds are always the same few. LOL.
i told of my glory at 11:58 pm
Thursday, 14 August 2008
chapter 181:
9 days left..
the consequences of my actions will leave a lasting imprint on my life..
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OH OH OH, what a coincidence, i bought the same top as jac! though different colour. and both of us did mask at home just now! WE DIDNT SAY ANYTHING IN ADVANCE LEH!! and somemore, i hadnt done mask for a longggg time. lol!
IM VERY TIRED TODAY :(
well anyway, still feeling bad even though i already said SORRY to my teacher who had to apologise cos some stupid old woman demanded her to :(
some stupid old woman who dont deserve any respect at all.
if a teacher wants respect, they earn it. they dont demand it.
im by nature not a rebellious student, and i only do things which rebels do when the teacher is a really annoying and irritating bastard.
this is what happened:
yesterday, someone came into the class and promptly nagged and nagged at us to leave the classroom cos they were to have a test. like HELLO, our lessons ended late, so it aint our fault okay. in the end i said "walao why some teacher so guai lan one." classmate laughed, and said that old woman said "what who guai lan?". LOL. in the end she went to mrs tan and demanded an apology lah! *spits at her face. C'MON MAN. who the hell demands apology for something so minor.
it's not about whether i give respect to a teacher. it's a matter how SHE treated me last year in class.
i do unto others what they do to me okay.
oh yes, one more time..
i told of my glory at 11:15 pm
Wednesday, 13 August 2008
when i read E's blog, no doubt i felt worried. but then again, who doesnt face problems like that? or are we the minority?
because when the fire died down, he was the one who lit it up again.
when i thought no one was there for me,
i remember how we started off from nothing.
at the beginning, i already had him..
i came in when you had almost no one,
i came in at the correct time.
from an ME to a BM i saw you change, within the 1 and a half months that we chiong-ed.
it was different then, so different.
when nothing was a worry,
you were such a complete upline understanding my every need and problem.
but what has happened now?
many times i want to feel that youre appreciating me,
always wanting to be identified as your keyleader.
maybe it's cos we've been through this thing similar- falling of organisation.
thats why others become so important to you cos you know i wont leave.
but when suddenly the whole organisation becomes just me and my upline, and for you, you and your downline,
it's fucking torturous i swear.
sometimes i just want you to say hi to me,
sometimes i just need you to acknowledge my existence.
i just need you to care for me like how you care for your other downlines.
but the way you treat me compels me to think otherwise.
when youre happy you come to me,
when youre happy you dont.
sometimes i really need you to be there when my organisation falls.
but who is it that listens to my pleas for help?
mr jason from kta.
he talked to me along the way and motivated me to fight on.
isnt that ironical? it isnt my own upline who's listening to me..
sometimes i really dont know what youre thinking either.
i always find i can laugh and talk better with other managers.
mr ivan, mr jason, WHOEVER, anyone. even with mr steven i seem to be able to relate better.
why not you?
a downline without the care of their upline is just a bird without wings.
without its main aid, it cant fly..
everytime i see you joke and laugh with them,
be it azura or cynthia,
i feel so alone.
i feel so left out.
it seems im so incapable of even talking to you.
when you smile and laugh with them it's not jealousy that i feel.
it's envy.
why cant it be me?
i always tell myself i wont be alone cos i always have my upline there for me.
from the beginning i already wasnt alone.
i had you, i had mr mengwee, i had miss lois.
everyone can go on individually expanding their own BGM group, BM group.
but i know im still under mr LJ BM group and im fighting for this glory of seeing my upline being "TOP MANAGER", of my team being the top team.
i may be stagnant without results, but i know im preparing.
maybe i took a longer time to prepare compared to others,
but when im a manager, i want to be an outstanding one.
others know i am miss huifang.
others know mr mengwee CA has trained up a new mm.
but i want others to also know that mr longjun trained me up to be an mm.
i want others to know im from mr longjun BM group.
i want others to know my upline is mr longjun.
i want people to know mr longjun is a car achiever soon-to-be.
when im all ready to fight, you tell me not to ask so much, just do calling.
mr mengwee said that's bullshit.
cos it's making me fight without an aim.
that's the reason why he gives me plannings,
why he guides me all this time.
cos you dont show you care.
sometimes i feel like im an orphan and mr mengwee took me in cos he's some benevolent father. showering me with care and concern and always ensuring im on the right track. many times people have mistaken him for my upline, many times people have told me to re-open account under him directly.
but upline, i didnt do so.
for a reason,
cos i believe one day you'll see my worth.
i dont believe this will continue forever.
i believe one day you'll realise how much effort im putting in to salvage this up-downline relationship.
those times when i cry in office,
times when i cry myself to sleep when you treat me this way,
those times are past.
im not numb. i've learnt.
crying solves no problems.
once in awhile, i may cry when this problem is recurring.
but upline, i havent given up.
i told of my glory at 11:40 pm
chapter 180:
10days left..
you cant count on me for life, cos im counting on you..
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a day of boredom. cos i was chiong-ing GP. see lah, never do homework.
and plus boredom. econs lecture was for sleeping *SNORES.
yet more boredom. reading program was effing boring please.
the end of school?
CCA. okay, pretty fun today considering that we could somehow picture a mouse with the kind of music we produced. LOL. yea.. but just the minor-major problem of our mouse sounding a wee-lot bit like a bird =x
190 was fun. :D
first thing when i reached, a funny conversation took place. i was alone at falcon's cubicle with mr steve came over..
mr s- i came to borrow jimmy's charger.
hf- oh, take lo. on the table.
*just then, miss lois appears.
miss L- eh steve! she left 5k to mm leh!
mr s- OH! GOOD! so you want me to coffee you then you hit? or you hitting this month?
hf- this month!
mr s- good. good.. if you dont hit this month you owe me one coffee k? if dont hit next month treat me drink coffee. *with that super-make-me-wanna-die way of looking at me*
hf- ...............................
*STUNNED.
haha. nice way of motivating me huh mr steve.
and i had fun doing co-calling with mr danny :D is mr D LIAW NOT TEOH. haha. he share my list call lo. kookoodoodle. nevermind. IM NICE :D so i shared with him. hah. in the end he became anti-jc students. cos he called a few of them who were super
and im still very fascinated by his string of vulgarities!! come so naturally to him lol.
and he's super..... UNPURE!!
cos miss lois was saying go eat. then mr mengwee ga jiao me say cannot go cos eat pau only. then danny dont know say what thing.. i dont understand. but is not something STRAIGHT =x
I STILL HAVENT FINISHED ECONS LEH..
i told of my glory at 11:12 pm
Tuesday, 12 August 2008
chapter 179:
11days left..
still stumbling over my own words too..
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oh today was slack day, really. i practically nuah-ed the whole afternoon away. damn it.
i felt so happy when it rained. at the bus stop i was dodging the rain which i couldnt possibly dodge cos there were strong winds which made the rain fall at a certain angle hahas :D
i never felt such freedom for such a long time..
Cos here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cos that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
so many troubles surrounding me, no doubt not inolving me in MOST cases (phew!) but still, i feel so affected at times when i see my fellow sis and bros so stressed up, frowning over those problems..
best i could do is offer them a listening ear since i cant offer any solution in police cases, in serious cases involving more than even what BGMs can handle.
but how come i found such a ridiculously humourous fact recently? oh man.
it's STUCK in my mind. all thanks to... her. *refers to the post yesterday =x
IM VERY TIRED!!
i cant think straight when my vision is blurred and my mind is half asleep, but im kinda entertained by darren's ranting. lol =x
i told of my glory at 11:33 pm
Monday, 11 August 2008
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly
And when youre mad cos you lost a game
Forget I am waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cos here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cos that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cos the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you
A little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cos here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cos that's when I love you
And nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
No matter what...
this is how similar the situation is that we are facing..
oh yes it is.
i told of my glory at 11:18 pm
chapter 178:
12 days left..
i know i will never fail,
cos behind me there's always my BGM backing me up,
infront of me there's my CA for me to follow,
and beside me there's my upline to walk with me this whole journey..
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today i went to tp! as in you know, temasek poly!! was hoping to meet upline somehow, through some lovely coincidence, but fate dont permit us to :( AWW, REALLY kind of sad you know. so yes, why was i there. was there to meet cynthia for surveyyyyy!! and i asked azura along, ONLY TO HAVE TO WAIT FOR HER. lol. was supposed to meet cyn at 11am, ended up meeting her at 12.30pm. LOL. plus the time taken for us to meet, plus time taken for lunch, plus time taken to walk from one building to another, we only did survey for.... around half an hour. LOL. and oh well, i managed to get like 8 surveys done though i was like, super slack xD AND YES, TP'S CHICKEN CHOP AT MESSA BUILDING IS THE LOVE :DDD super nice, super cheap!! xD
had slideshow + badge presentation today. mr steve was the host with miss xueting. WELL, nothing much about their hosting i'd say.. did total head count.. 213!! :D COOL MAN! some more and the sem hall would FLOOD lah!! :D soon i'll be the one standing on stage hosting, the one sitting at the back with the BLAZER gang, standing and leading cheers... :D thinking about it makes me smile.
OH YAH, MISS LOIS GIVES ME UNTIL FRIDAY FOR ME TO HIT MM.....
miss lois, scary leh =x
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and yes, A is
she said HE has a big d*** O.o
cos that time when they went to play soccer she supposedly saw something hiding..
WHAT THE HELL.. thank goodness she wasnt talking about my upline.. if she is.. $)^(&^#&%*)&%(#^)(# okay i tell you!! GRR.
and whats worse is, she ASKED me during chalet when i slept beside him did i notice. OMG.
and i DONT take notice of such things okay. =x
stupid her.
i told of my glory at 10:11 pm
Sunday, 10 August 2008
chapter 177:
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13 days left..
how about giving me the money?
g2k's having a great sale. im would be in time to get a discounted blazer from there..
LOL.
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yes im going bonkers. =x
OKAY FIRST BEFORE I BLOG ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE, THIS IS TAMMY MY LOVELIEST GET-HIGH AND SHOPPING PARTNER.
AND THIS IS JEANETTE MY FUNNIEST LAUGHS-AND-MAKES-WEIRD-NOISES-AT-THE-END-DUE-TO-INERTIA BUDDY.
READERS, THIS IS A JUDGE-THE-KOOKOODOODLE-FACE CONTEST. :DDDDD
haha!! JEANETTE AH JEANETTE! who's the kookoodoodle then! xDDD
okay lah i was just playing :D tammy's the real kookoodoodle since i called her that first. OOPS. if she comes to my blog....
HAHA NEVER MIND ONE LAH :D
it's because of such great people i have around me thats why SCHOOL BECOMES FUN by a little bit more than boring =x HAHA!
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oh anyway, ikea meatballs are nice.
i bought the cups i need for my sales kit. $1.80 for 4! SO CHEAP PLEASE!
tmr im going to tp to meet cynthia :D
mini bangalar.
and giant bangalar azura's gonna meet us too :DDD
YAY.
TIRED.
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i miss you when something good happens,
because you're the one i wanna share it with.
miss you when something is troubling me,
because you're the one who understands me so well.
miss you when i laugh and cry,
because i know you are the one,
who always make my laughter grow and my tears disappear.
i miss you all the time,
and i miss you most, when i lie awake at night
and think of all the wonderful times we spend together.
now things will never be the same between you and i,
cos it seems,
dreams make one complete, but make two divided.
maybe after you've achieved what you want,
you'll remember me,
remember me for all i've done,
how much i tried,
how much we tried.
it doesnt matter anymore,
it really doesnt.
cos all that matters is that im always here fighting on for myself, for you.
i told of my glory at 10:32 pm
Saturday, 9 August 2008
chapter 176:
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14 days left..
how about tea, or coffee? since you cant have me?
LOLS. what a joke..
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today was a EFFING unlucky day for me. was it just me?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
to think i felt so refreshed when i woke up in the morning!!
then my unlucky day started the moment i left the house.. shant elaborate on that. personal matters. but anyway, was also DAMN suay in ve today!! in appointment, and in dinner!!
okay about the dinner first since it's.. less details. jason, shiyong, cynthia, su qing, li yan and i were making lots of noise on bus no. 2, entertaining ourselves by looking out the windows being fascinated by those prostitutes at the roadside along geylang xDD and then when we reach chinatown, we walked ONE BIG ROUND around some stupid ulu full-of-pubs street only to find out that we were at the wrong lane. DAMN IT. somemore me and cyn were in a hurry luh and everyone was hungry!! damn it. so never mind.. and in the end, when we FINALLY found the place, we saw miss chelsy and mr gary. seriously, it was kind of a tense situation. shant say why. but anyway, we had to walk OUT again. cos the 2 of them had had their dinner and was wanting to go straight to sing ktv already and the rest of us wanted dinner first. so we went to some zi char stall to eat. james came, and SUPER FUNNY. he was walking along the main road outside and when we saw him, jason who was on the line with him "OH SAW YOU LE!" and james immediately stopped in his tracks. SUPER CUTE LAH HE! :D cos jason was having difficulties trying to guide james over. lol. but anyway, jason was saying "when he walk come he sure kb" and in the end he really did. and jason was like "see what i told you?" LOL. the two of them super funny :DDD
so yes, this was dinner, and i think these mako people are really funny! :D
stupid james said "if bangalar try to kidnap you you smack him okay, he sure fly away *GRINS*" hahhahah. so evil lah he but very cute please!! :D
OH YEA THEN THE APPOINTMENT!!
i always happen to attach appointments which aren't the best kind any presenter would wish for lah!! but have better than none :D one appointment at coffee shop (which in the end i still closed $200 worth of sales) and today's OMG. let me describe to you the whole damn-it-wtf scenario.
my loveliest CA called me yesterday at 1am, requesting my help for an appointment at 3pm today. so okay, sure i would go. and guess what, alot of things happened.
no.1- the STUPID agent didnt come to office and i had to take the sales kit + one carton of water to toa payoh all by myself BY BUS.
no.2- the stupid agent told me to "take 21 and alight at balestier road after thomson medical centre" but i DIDNT KNOW that i had to change bus from there. so i stupidly took 21 according to his instructions, alighted at the wrong stop.
no.3- i alighted 4 stops EARLY, but he said i alighted 1 stop OVER. so i walked back one stop, just to realise that he was WRONG. then he ORDERED me to "just find someway to come to after thomson medical centre that bus stop"
no.4- so realising that i was maybe many stops away, i crossed opposite wanting to take a bus back to the correct stop. in the end, struggling across the overhead bridge, THERE WAS NO 21 THERE I DONT KNOW WHY. got annoyed, boarded the cab.
no.5- alighted at bus stop AFTER thomson medical centre, and when i called mark he said "I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU THE BUS STOP AT THOMSON MEDICAL CENTRE?" FUCK LAH NB CB. that's not all! "YOU COME OVER NOW"
no.6- THOROUGHLY ANNOYED, i walked ANOTHER bus stop. and it was damn far somemore! THE WATER DAMN HEAVY LEH. until when i was left with like, one traffic light and 100m to the bus stop, i called him and told him to come over to help me with the water cos it was so damn heavy and guess what he said. "LEFT SO SHORT DISTANCE ONLY! A FEW METRES ONLY, AIYAH YOU OWNSELF WALK OVER LAH!" so i was like "HANAR HANAR!" i only start to show attitude after so long okay..
no.7- boarded the bus, ended up at somewhere DAMN near to toa payoh central. so i was VERY annoyed and asked him "why didnt you just tell me toa payoh? do you know eunos has 3 buses to toa payoh central STRAIGHT? and you make me take 21 which turns idk how many rounds??" and he said "oh really, i always come by this method"
EFFING HELL.
so that's not the end!! being perfectly ungentlemanly, he's also DAMN STUPID. to think he's a uni student! WTH seriously! cos when we went up to his uncle's place, his cousin was VERY hostile towards him! (*snickers*) so this conversation took place:-
agent- but i need your dad to come out so i can explain what this water is
cousin- but he sleeping. ok lo i go ask him.
*goes into the room, comes out*
cousin- he's very tired leh.. dont wanna wake up like that. think dont disturb him better.
agent- but i need to explain what the water is!
cousin- explain to me lo?
agent- cant! youre a kid not an adult!
cousin- I AM AN ADULT! IM ALR 17! what water's that anyway?
agent- something VERY good! come i open for you!
*opens cal water stock*
cousin- huh?
THE ALMIGHTY HF STEPS IN, INTOLERANT OF AGENT'S STUPIDITY.
hf- it's okay, maybe i roughly tell you abit more about our water? so you can let your dad know :)
cousin- oh sure!
I REALLY COULDNT TOLERATE THE AGENT'S INFLEXIBILITY.
so after the appointment, you'd think the agent would do the least of THANKING the presenter and ensure that the presenter can get back to eunos without getting lost along the way. so guess what, here comes no.8!!
no.8- at the void deck,
agent- interchange the other side. very near only. i walking this way. bye.
*turns and walks away*
LIKE HELLO, IM STUCK IN THE MID OF THE BLOCKS CAN AT LEAST BRING ME TO THE MAIN ROAD ANOT? ARE YOU LIKE, BRAINLESS OR WHAT?!
i was super annoyed and went to complain to mr mengwee when i met him in the evening. he told me that i shouldve kb him. OH WELL! damn that agent. im gonna keep my distance from him from now on. not as if i fancied him anyway. but AIYAH, forget it lah he's still an SA what to do, no experience, no pay, no knowledge, thats why no basic tee up, no basic respect, dont know how a presenter feels like ma.
WAHAHAH. i feel so shiok venting my frustration here!!
DAMN IT. im so damn tired my eyes are closing soon. :(
argh....
and yes, i didnt join falcons for movie tonight. instead, i went with makos to eat dinner. and mr mengwee went with makos to play lan too. and guess what. some bastard kb-ed me over the phone just because i said i wasnt going for the movie. c'mon man, i never said i wanted to go, and just because there were people in the background saying they want to go play pool doesnt mean im going with them right? so there's no effing reason for you to kb me saying id rather go play pool with the makos than go watch movie with falcons. when im tired, i DONT watch movies, cos there's no point behind it. i'll prolly just fall asleep in the theatre!
ARGHHHHHHHHH. he left me annoyed for that moment $@^%(@^*%&*^(
but im still happy :DD
cos it was a great dinner i had with the makos!! :)))))
with just a smile of yours, i would and could go a million miles for you..
cos it's just that simple and sweet a kind of motivation.
dont you feel the difference?
when you talk to me with a smile, and all just seems so right?
it's a crucial period of time now, so shall we forget the past, and live in the present, just you and i?
how about that?
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Friday, 8 August 2008
chapter 175:
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15 days more to go..
on this day when my tears drop,
would you be there to dry them for me?
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im so so so so happy!! omg i really dont know how much i can thank my upline. maybe it's cos i havent really fought before, thats why this small achievement seems like THE WORLD to me. the thrill of you know, incom increasing by so much all of a sudden.. :DD
and oh yes, randy my downdown is REALLY cute lah!! HE WAS SUPER FASCINATED WHEN HE SAW THIS!!
other submissions censored to protect individuals' reputations :D
HAHAHAHA.
hf- you see, upline submit then got incom already. 2147 lv :D
randy- WAHHH WHY LAST TIME YOU GOT 4950 lv BEFORE!! OMG!!!
hf- harrr. haha. mr mengwee fight car is like that one lah..
thinking back of the past... brings back sweet yet bitter memories :)))
went for SHA training by mr shunjie with my mind a little bit distracted. but really, i believe randy would live up to upline's expectations of him.. can see his will to fight and curiosity to learn more :D
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so yes, today in college..
national day celebration in school was.. FUN :D cos it was cam-whoring with tammy, jeanette and lynette. OH MAN. the pics are the ultimate spasticity!! pictures.. up soon. SO MANY LAH!! :D i'll upload selectively, or maybe direct you to tammy's blog when she has uploaded them LOL.
and got ga jiao-ed again. omg i do not LIKE "punggollian". i just think he looks cute when he smiles. LOL.
then went to lucky plaza to eat ayam penyet. OMG NICE :D stupid tammy took unglam pics of me cos i was so... attacked badly by the chilli ): BUT STILL, IT'S VERY NICE :DD
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i wonder,
in pursue of your dreams,
do you remember what you made me promise you last month..
i'll say it in my speech.. in my manager speech..
why i joined VE......
sometimes i feel so alone without you, yet i know you mean well..
a whole afternoon seeing each other yet not saying a single word to one another.
the call at night salvaged all loneliness..
YAY!! I LOVE MY CA MY UPLINE MY BGM MY ORGANISATION MY SIS AND BROS WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR MEEEEEEEEEE :DDDDDD
hobby, jac, FIGHT ON STRONG OKAY :D we will get thereeeee!!
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Thursday, 7 August 2008
chapter 174:
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16 days to go..
my broad daylight affair,
awww c'mon!! :D
we're fighting for the same aim!!
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school was.. TIRING :( fell asleep a couple of times and dreamt about mathematical induction during common lunchbreak nap =x DAMN IT. tammy was kind of tickled by that =x and i kind of woke up with a start.
and yes, OMG i cant believe it. i actually passed that maths test i REALLY REALLY thought id do damn badly for!!
so something funny happened..
tam- i tell you lah i sure fail one!
hf- yah yah yah. if u fail i treat u eat lah.
tam- okay!! yong tau foo!! if i pass i treat you eat loh!
hf- haha whatevr.
*half an hour later.
hf- *asks mrs tan* did tammy pass?
mrs tan- oh.. no.... *SAD FACE*
tam- YES!! GOT YONG TAU FOO TREAT!
stupid cheapo tam. fail her maths got free yong tau foo so happy! LOL. TAMMY AH TAMMY....
so yes, dearest car achiever came to office today :D dont know why but im always so happy to see him.HE WAS VERY BHB TODAY!!
"I THINK IM ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE COS I BRING YOU TO SUCCESS!!"
muahahhas. and he taught us how to fix appointment today. in a newly-invented way :DDD woots. hope it works out for me man!! i need to hit MM within the next 16 days!! and he told of how ill he was a few weeks ago :( no wonder he didnt take calls didnt reply sms. stupid CA sick already and he still went to play soccer.. tournament somemore.. get 2nd somemore.. O.o he dont know how to take care of himself!! zzZZz!!
and yes, jac blogged that she's less emo recently. ON MY PART, recently i've realised i've become a person with less troubles on my mind, less worrisome. and my mind is much clearer. i can spot mistakes at the point of occurence! even i myself am amazed by that fact :D
I PROTECT MY UPLINE, THATS WHY!! :)
maybe im this way cos im able to let go of some particular matters.
sometimes, certain news bring more realisation and sensibility rather than merely information..
maybe i've learnt to let go of such trivial pursuits in matters without a future, matters which hold me back from success..
and yes, was just talking to hobby.
was telling her about when i first joined VE, i saw her, and heard the taurus people- mr steve and mr cal, encouraging her or smth like tt, cos she was holding a MT and going for appt. so yea, my first impression of her was.... WAH super quiet person. IF SHE CAN HIT ME, I DONT SEE WHY I CANT :D
and she was kinda glad HAHA.
xiao bee [= ώø ÿøü xïåø xïåø xïñĝ ÿüåñ =] says:
oh my i got a testimonial
xiao bee [= ώø ÿøü xïåø xïåø xïñĝ ÿüåñ =] says:
cool~
xiao bee [= ώø ÿøü xïåø xïåø xïñĝ ÿüåñ =] says:
a testimonial that bring up the spark to let new agents fight just by their first impression of me LOL
HAHAHS. :D
waiting for jac to come online to update me on MJ's 1 year package thing!! O.O
5.8k LV FIGHT LAH NB. dont hit before birthday is.... stupid dumbo! X.x
i told of my glory at 11:30 pm
Wednesday, 6 August 2008
chapter 173:
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17 days left..
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mr joseph is SO evil!!
at level b1,
hf- mr joseph hao!
mr jo- fang jie3 hao!
hf- huh.. you all call me fang jie3 make me feel so old lo..
mr jo- hee. you got the aura ma..
*enters lift..
hf- what.. i where got aunty....
mr jo- the aunty aura..
hf- so meaning im a motherly person huh!
mr jo- yah loh something like that! *smiles widely*
before mr jo exits at level1, he pats my head and smiles encouragingly. LOL.
EVIL RIGHT!!
so anyway, my upline was telling miss L that
"the queen she open up already means sure can liao lah!"
so yes, 7760-2147= 5613 LV left to MM!!
im getting so excited thinking about the new heels and new bag and more more more dress-for-success wear im gonna get with my effing fat paycheque!! and the wallet mr mengwee say he's gonna get me when i hit MM! HEEEE :D and yes yes yes, OMG OMG OMG if xavier's 2 guys become 1-3day MEs and xavier hits ME and IF i get to tap on ALL of their points then..
OMG THINKING ABOUT THE PAYCHEQUE MAKES ME SO HIGH LAH :D
BY MY BIRTHDAY I MUST HIT MM! I MUST I MUST I MUST!!
all eyes looking at me! even people i dont know know speak of my name!
SAY THY NAME AND THOU SHALT REMEMBER YOU!
shut the literature up lol. SHIT LAH. influenced by the way stupid andre and weijian talked and now im talking lit. LOL.
anyway, i defied upline today. and felt VERY VERY BAD.. sorry upline :(
but the aircon there is really very cold!!
but he didnt say much about it anyway :D
i told of my glory at 10:47 pm
Tuesday, 5 August 2008
chapter 172:
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18 days and going down..
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oh yes, im very motivated.
i'll manage my studies well, and get my effing fat paycheque both at the same time, happily go shop for blazer and go celebrate my birthday with my bangalarish azura at the end of the month, and YES, MISS HUIFANG HAO! wahaha!! thinking about it MAKES ME HAPPY :D
so had a short CS with miss lois. azura was complaining and i was asking for solutions :D miss lois can really motivate me! i feel so enlightened talking to her!! and she said one thing when i told her of an inner-thought i told no one of..
"he tells me the same thing about you, like what you tell me about him"
oh anyways, i wonder if miss lois is testing me, letting me be happy for nothing or what. lol. =x she said upline managed to get a pending Queen for randy, and most prolly would come in. HMM.. how come i never knew about that? :( if the Queen DOES come in on friday then im left with 5.6k LV!! xD but anyways.. upline was being nice today :D
$150 and counting!! fight fight fight!! :D
TO THINK I ALWAYS SAID PERSONAL WAS A NO-NO :D
come join me in my journey to refine my ability in seeking solutions and not problems :)))
i told of my glory at 10:24 pm
Monday, 4 August 2008
chapter 171:
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19 more days..
now im really afraid, would my broad daylight affair protect me?
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1. i endured 3 hours of chem, all in different styles.
- 1st hr: test
- 2nd hr: tutorial
- 3rd hr: lecture
and that marked the end of my day in school. effing dumb.. =z
2. screw the tshirt suppliers' english lol. miscommunication ended up me at toa payoh at their factory and they told me they delivered the shirt to college already in the morn T.T
3. CANOT WALK PROPERLY LA nabi the stupid bandage ):
4. guess who was the host for today's updates?
HAHA.
my nick, a broad daylight affair.
till the last minute, all out, for you..
withlove,
huifang
i told of my glory at 9:40 pm
Sunday, 3 August 2008
chapter 170:
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20 more days..
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my right leg is....
:(
freaking bandage is freaking uncomfortable ):
tmr is CHEMISTRY DAY.
chem test,
chem tutorial,
chem lecture.
i havent done any chem ):
TMR IS THE OFFICIAL LAUCH OF PRAWN AND CHICKEN SALAD!! YAYYYYYYY :DDDD
the feeling kind of died off. haha.
am i happy?
i told of my glory at 9:36 pm
Saturday, 2 August 2008
chapter 169:
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21 more daysss..
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i guess he was just making it up for being so damn hostile to me yesterday.. LOL :D
and YES,
i submitted standing order already, and upline told me one thing:
"im fighting car this month. take this chance to hit your position."
i didnt say anything,
but yes upline i will. i want to be your first star!! :D
if not, then xavier will have his own manager group,
and i will get MMF and split it with xavier!! :D
and and and and i will have my strong organisation!!
FIGHT EH!! =D
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if you think they cant hold on without you, youre wrong. they hold on the best just on interdependence..
i told of my glory at 10:44 pm
Friday, 1 August 2008
chapter 168:
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22 days..
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im just fucking tired of coping with all the shit from you. im lazy to type more now.
but anyway,
THANKS SIS, FOR BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN IM SO ANNOYED, SO NEGATIVE, SO PISSED, SO ........ at least i know im not alone on this journey :D THANKS REALLY!!
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
actaully...u noe usually this kind of thing...u cant do aniting de
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
only got 1 way
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
tt is to hit ur position...
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
tts the only way he will wake up...
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
but not only hit mm leh
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
is hit bm
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
take it as a challenge...as the obstacle tt u muz go thru in order to hit
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
no choice man...if they so fked up...then we prove to them we can still do it
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
our leaders oso did it despite no1 hlping them...
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
so y not us?
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
the more ppl look down on me the more i wanna fight..
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
today everyone can dun believe in me...
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
but i can never doubt myself
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
coz if i doubt myself then realli...its the end
[xiao hui] - beeboobeeboo says:
same case for u...they can suan u...sae u n all...but as long as u dun gif up on urself...u can pull through de
i told of my glory at 11:08 pm