Saturday, 28 February 2009
today was a really packed day.
but first thing i wanna say is.
TOYOTA CAMRY IS DAMN NICEEEE.
is damn good for a family car cos it's so comfy and so spacious at the backkkk :D
know why i say so? COS MALCOLM WAS DRIVING HIS FAMILY'S CAMRY TODAY AND HE SENT A FEW OF US HOME :DDDD and im one of the lucky ones haha!
so yea, interesting day today.
i woke up at 8.15am cos winston called me, and actually made it in time to meet weijian for breakfast before he went for co prac. HAHA! then went to office and WAAA, im the second to reach the office today okayyy.
ass lah.
anyway, had jintian's appointment today, upline presenting while i was downstairs learning MT from mr keith (: then after the appointment ended, went to have a chat with mr steven. mr steven taught us new techniques on how to keep recruitments coming back for more :D haha!
went for lunch with upline and azura and jintian came to meet us too.
SOLID.
her mom wants a calstar. ahhh. happiness (:
and probably pending 2 queens, one from her aunt and one from her parents.
went back to office and got pissed by some people.
doesnt matter who it is but anyway, let me make this general statement clear.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO ANNOY/IRRITATE ME WHEN IM BEING SERIOUS.
I HATE PEOPLE TO TAP MY SHOULDER/BACK FROM BEHIND.
and I HATE PEOPLE WHO POKE ME WHEN IM NOT EVEN THAT CLOSE TO YOU.
im particular about this thing called body contact and actually, i dont get physically close to any random people, unless circumstances forces so, for example when zhengting was trying to reach for his stuff and the place was so cramped that he had to in a way, lean on my back o.O
and i found out about some childish people who actually spread to others about my PERSONAL issue with another person.
cos really, if i doesnt concern you, dont poke ur nose into it.
even if you do hear me talk about it, keep it to yourself.
no one will say youre dumb if you keep quiet about matters.
mr steven also taught me,
GOSSIP IS EVIL. in networking, we must listen more and talk less.
and people get updates on me through this person even when theyre not at office. wow. this person is very very remarkable. actually has the ability to update others on ME! WAAA. i never knew im so highly-sought-after. and in fact, people are actually reporting to others about me! :D
yes, im glad. but im very annoyed and raged by this person's childish-ness, immaturity and everything that proves him useless as a person. a reject of the society- interesting cos i never knew one personally. (:
but anyways, enough about that. had a really interesting chat with upline before leaving office. was talking about why i joined ve, why i stayed, and alot of stuffs and misunderstandings that took place during the period of time when i was close with mr mengwee and totally hated my upline. come to think of it, it was REALLY stupid, really silly. whatever. HAHA.
"on 28 feb 2009 6.10pm, huifang committed herself to fight to prove her upline longjun wrong." haha! upline told me, that we are no longer fighting for his car. we are fighting for a higher prestige- a cubicle of our own. with the cubicle, the car is definitely within reach too cos acquiring a cubicle aint easy :D
20k pv turnover next month.
we'll fight for it. (:
and you know what?
upline walked out of the office with me today.
he sent me till the bus stop, and stood there talking with me still.
this has never ever happened before in my whole 1 yr plus in this company.
simple action that made me happy.
sometimes he really knows what to do when he knows im unhappy.
but well.
HE'S MY UPLINE :D
then i went to punggol park to meetup with p6 classmates, supposedly for a bbq. but damn it, due to alot of miscommunications, we ended up spending alot of time travelling and me, yanlin, cheerin and arthur reached punggol park at 8pm.
when we walked to the pit, it was drizzling and when we finally got to the pit,
HEAVY RAIN.
damn damn lucky yea? -.- in the end, me and jenard were sharing an umbrella and trust me, a big umbrella was deemed useless under that situation. the rain was so heavy that i was half wet. half wet cos my whole left side was wet while jenard's whole right side was wet. GAHH. so is like, im wearing my executive clothes and being drenched. YUCKKKKS.
in the end, we had dinner at hougang mall and malcolm sent shengmao, jan and i home cos he wanted to put the stuff at the 2 of their houses. haha. im the extra one :D WAHAHHA. but well, malcolm's driving. woots. fast driver in rainy weather. phew. but was okay lah :D
and i wanna get a boyf who drives so that im well-taken care of! HAHAHAHA.
those childish people are not worth getting angry over :D
but i purely despise them cos they friggin ruin my reputation ARGH.
i told of my glory at 11:15 pm
Friday, 27 February 2009
a short meetup with tammy, jeanette and regina for lunch today.
listened to them rant and complain about school life, a certain teacher, a certain issue. well. haha. went back to office after that to do my own stuff.
day was really boring and all.
and you left me guessing what you really want.
since you havent realised,
and since you havent known this side of me,
let me tell you here.
i am an over-sensitive and over-protective person.
if you cant get used to it,
and cant live with it,
go away then.
take my hand, take a breath
pull me close, and take one step
keep your eyes locked on mine
and let the music be your guide
now won't you promise me (won't you promise me)
that you'll never forget (that we'll keep dancing)
to keep dancing (to keep dancing)
where ever we go next
it's like catching lightening
the chances of of finding, someone like you
it's one in a million
the chances of feeling the way we do
and with every step together
we just keep on getting better
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
ooooooh
no mountains to high enough
no oceans to wide
cuz together or not, our dance wont stop
let it rain, let it pour
what we have is worth fighting for
you know i believe, that we were meant to be
yeah
it's like catching lightening
the chances of of finding, someone like you
it's one in a million
the chances of feeling the way we do
and with every step together
we just keep on getting better
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
i told of my glory at 11:54 pm
Thursday, 26 February 2009
im very very happy today.
though i was very very disappointed at some point,
but i realised,
he's no longer that important.
i know i have my upline protecting me and my organisation,
and thats all that matters.
the other happiness surpass the disappointment.
juhaina's really a very confident and perservering person.
im glad i have her with me.
for how long, i dont know.
but she shows me hope for my first share of MPS (:
tmr there are 2 appointments already.
i hope all goes well for us..
we are all fighting for a common goal.
we're fighting for mr longjun's car.
and we'll get there.
it's just a matter of time. ;D
to think you once said youre the most important guy in my whole life.
i now know, you arent. you surely arent.
you disappointed me too much (:
but im glad i realised, though i had already wasted a one year waiting, waiting for a hell of no return.
but it's thru this,
that ive found im glad ive you with me.
sounds ambiguous as to who im referring?
从头喜欢你,
我是真的很想时间停止在这刻,
让我从这一刻起,
永远记住你的笑容,
你的一切..
在一起的机会,
是否存在着?
they say a lady is prettiest when she's in love.
it doesnt matter if you all out there dont know who im talking about.
it's my blog, right?
so it's my thoughts.
looking forward to my meeting with my girls tmr.
and im gonna arrange to have a meetup with my 2 beloved downlines,
and the 2 appointments tmr.
i'll be praying hard that whoever-the-presenter-is, does well for my girl for the appointment.
我陷在爱里面,
渐渐疲惫的脸.
彷佛是退不出,
又走不进你的世界.
我陷在爱里面,
是谁停住时间.
越过了重重的心墙,
有一整片蓝天
i told of my glory at 10:07 pm
theres not only one, not two, but already more than just three people who have asked me why i even want to fight for his car with him.
unexplainable.
theres no reason why im staying on and fighting for his car.
not cos someone told me to, not cos anybody told me that i should.
not cos anyone from above told me to.
i had made this commitment to myself, and i will fulfil it no matter how many times we fail.
we. not me, not him.
but we.
because as a dl, i had failed miserably.
i had failed beyond redemption but time and again he as an upl never gave up on me despite many telling him to.
though even before that, there was much unhappiness.
but i dont want to fail him again.
i felt this pain like no one had ever felt before.
i believe no one had ever felt before, because all of them had left. left after he had placed faith in them.
from the beginning,
i was always the one least believed in, least trusted upon,
but im the only one left.
i dont owe him anything, really.
but now im being seen as stupidly loyal by some people.
they say he takes me for granted.
but it's not blind loyalty.
there's trust.
there really is trust.
and i believe in him.
because he believed in me.
im not returning him any favour.
but i want to be the first MM he trained up,
the first BM he trained up,
and the first CA he trained up.
ive fulfilled the first one.
things are changing,
and i believe, it's for the better.
i shall write everything out from the start.
and when i become a bgm, my past and my story will be a legacy.
i told of my glory at 12:11 am
Wednesday, 25 February 2009
day was relatively okay i guess.
went to nyp today morning before going to office and guess what, i met lester at the food court O.o
great coincidence.
and the fish soup there is nice. HAHA.
nyp feels bigger than tp lei. HAHA. :/
but NO, IM NOT TEMPTED TO TRANSFER TO NYP! *HAHA*
maybe a bit tempted. but no. no..
office activities a blur today.
i still dont know how to manage an organisation. abit more activites and i get into a fluster. :/ HAIS. im still learning..
什么样的温柔
才能轻抚你的伤口
什么样的思念
才能牵走你忧愁
什么样的拥抱
才是你寂寞的尽头
什么样的守候才能被你接受
celebrated christina's birthday in office too. hahas.
seems weird cos im the only non-mr-ivan-BM-group person there with them cos after that they had a short group up which mr ivan also asked me join in.
but well, i dont know why but i just felt comfortable with them.
and anyways, christina asked me along so yea.. :/ hahas. well.
你的眼是芬芳的醇酒
凝着许多记忆的深忧
我是未曾醉过的温柔
浅浅一尝就不愿罢休
你的眉是幽幽的港口
蹙着许多静静的绸缪
我是一个情感的水手
短短一驻就不愿再走
im really glad i got such great bros and sis for me to depend on in office when i need help and theyre really......
GREAT.
theres no other word for it.
happiness, crazy moments, unglam moments, sadness, tears and complaints.
all together in a package.
虽再说你能不能够
只是问你接不接受
啊无言的你可否知否
并非加快才天长地久
im feeling really really weird now.
i dont know why.
it's an indescribable feeling. (:? :/? :x?
maybe another night that im feeling a wee bit more emotional. not EMO, but emotional meaning im thinking alot..
你的眼是芬芳的醇酒
凝着许多记忆的深忧
我是未曾醉过的温柔
浅浅一尝就不愿罢休
你的眉是幽幽的港口
蹙着许多静静的绸缪
我是一个情感的水手
短短一驻就不愿再走
can you believe this voice.. this particular voice.. 3 minutes into the song, made me cry? it's.. unbelievably wow.
affinity this thing.. is so beautiful and so unpredictable.
for two to meet,
for two to become a couple,
it's affinity.
for two friends to meet,
is also affinity.
and it's really unexplainable at times.
when im in low spirits,
im facing a wall, and all i see is you.
some words too tough to phrase,
too difficult for me to say,
too tough for you to see.
and it's really a question to me,
on what it really should be, or could be.
for when i look into my future, i see you in every frame.
i really wonder what im thinking at times?
mr darren, how ah?
i told of my glory at 10:15 pm
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
my finger.. theres a cut caused by violentpig.livejournal.com
okay actually,
is winston lah.
evil shit.
and darren just proclaimed that he used his aloe vera gel as GLUE in his poly admission applications stuff. wtf. lazy pig okay. wahhahhas. :D
tired lah.
tmr then we shall see. :D
i told of my glory at 10:46 pm
Monday, 23 February 2009
edited at 12.54am: winston has reached home and apparently he's sad that i named him as uglypig.livejournal.com HAHA.
okay lah, he said he rushed home cos i say he PS me. :D
so ive editted all the uglypig.lj.com below to his name.
YAYYYYY :D
*end of edit*
waiting for winston to reach home ):
cos he went night cycling and pangseh-ed meeee ):
KOOKOOBERT.
anyways, today was a really chiong day lah!
not chiong in office, thats the sad thing :/
morning, woke up, went to j8 to cash out my citibank paycheque, buy printer ink, came home to print my medical checklist, went out again to amk to SATA for checkup, took what seemed like hours but actually was only less than an hour, went for lunch with dad, went to temasek poly to get key from shiyong, go to eunos to duplicate key, went to office.
i left my house to go j8 at 11am, and i reached office at slightly after 4.
and guess what,
i had to duplicate the key cos a few days back i lost my previous locker key and i had to borrow shiyong's to duplicate it today cos LUCKILY his key can open my locker. and today, after going to office, i terminated my current locker contract to upgrade to a large locker so that i can share w myron and WOW, I LOST THE NEW KEY ON THE WAY HOME.
i guess i cant seem to escape the fine for a lost locker key *shrugs and gives a sad face*
shall continue waiting for handsomepig.lj.com. GAHHH.
i told of my glory at 11:42 pm
remember how you asked me why i joined?
why i stayed?
im an mm now.
but i shant tell you since you havent asked me (:
till today, probably the factor has shifted (:
not probably. definitely.
i told of my glory at 12:33 am
was browsing through archives, remember this line-
"is this a dream? is this a fantasy? or is this true love..?"
many wouldnt catch this line, unless youve watched kakashi.
is that the title? i dont really remember either.
it's just.. a very nice show which i never watched to the end.
cos i was too occupied with some other stuff. (:
other stuff that i can only look back now and smile at those times :D
anyway, i dont know why but i miss lawrence ):
*not ur lawrence okay ernest. this lawrence is my jc friend. haha.*
campus superstar (:
i told of my glory at 12:15 am
Saturday, 21 February 2009
"nothing gold can stay"
i wonder how many of us actually remember this quote from Ponyboy in The Outsiders.
was it him who said this? i cant really rmbr either.
i only remember i learnt this quote from my literature text in sec 2.
nothing good can stay forever.
nothing is forever.
what is forever?
how long is forever?
天下无不散之宴习 (is my xi2 correct? lol.)
whatever good memories, whatever happy moments,
we dont know if they'll stay,
or how long can things stay this way.
it's such a beautiful picture,
so flawless,
but it will never be forever.
we move on to different phases in life, forget part of the past,
move on to a higher level.
we all aim to be the best, aint it so?
and i find that ive moved to another level.
i finding myself turning for the better recently.
maybe the people around me dont feel so,
cos they already see the better side of me.
they dont know i was like in the past.
no one ever knew of what kind of ideas i had in my mind...
the mindset of a person who will go far in life, will do well in life, who will make a difference in many people's lives.
no i havent achieved that, but im working towards that.
it's a subconscious thing.
but im glad i feel the difference, sense the difference, and i really see the difference too. (:
take for instance,
what happened today.
i was at orchard mrt station. a place where tourists are a sure-sight cos they'll be really lost on what to do with their standard tickets.
what happened was, i wanted to top up my card due to extremely low value.
so there was this caucasian couple whom were in front of me at the machine, figuring how to recover their $1 deposits. so being helpful, i offered to do it for them, rather than most people whom id seen, shun from that machine.
then appeared a bunch of social rejects, who came over and saw me helping them, stared at me, then decided that theyd wait for the machine i was at. but when i was taking a call, the caucasian guy kind of made a wrong selection or smth liek that, then one of the social rejects actually walked to the front and helped him. nice enough, but the other guy who was with him said "OI. YOU THINK YOU SERVICE PEOPLE ONE AH. GO LAH. GO OTHER MACHINE." and his other social rejects also said "HANAR!"
i was totally wtf at this situation. okay. but the caucasian couple turned around and thanked me for the help i rendered them. felt glad. was just a favour that took me another extra 2 minutes only, though i was really in a hurry, but i felt happy at that that id helped someone, rather than those social rejects who acted like they were major fucktards. whatever suits them.
winston told me that theres smth smth i dont know how to describe, but it's just that in Christianity there's this smth about helping people who need help but not in return for some materialistic gain. probably this is why i got to know about this religion and actually took interest into finding out more about it, wanting to learn more about it. (:
im taking a really long time to post today,
but i know it's a meaningful realisation (:
i told of my glory at 10:49 pm
just finished bathing wahahas. left office at close to 2am today.
cos there was night mm training :D
was really fulfilling i guess, just that i kept drifting off due to msgs. haha.
was super funny.
arkar was the only mm from his team attending, and i was the only mm from my team attending. so he was like "SAD AH! see, we're both alone. HAI!" then after some talking crap and such i said "yea man we'll be the special ones cos we're the only ones that attend from our team!"
then he was like YAY HI5 MAN!
ahahah! he's like so super cute lah! LOL.
what else besides the night training. i dont know why but i was feeling super drained the whole evening.
i was complaining about being hungry and all and upline was SO nice to volunteer to accompany me for dinner out. WAA. first time. ended up talking about some stuffs over dinner with regards to the recent commonly-discussed issue.
THEN THEN THEN, i wanted to take a short power nap before the night training and guess what, upline told me to do calling. SOLID. ends up i went off to talk to the kta managers, ernest, arkar, corinne and teckwee. hah.
in the day, well. had a really power-packed coffee with mr steven for my day 1 agent.
solid. upline says mr steven told him he'll attach appointment for my agent. HAHA. OMG. *stuns*
no choice lah, mr steven is my bgm, my bam, my upupupline :DDD
TIRED LAH, GO SLEEP ALR. now is 3.39am.
oh yea, i realised today that my downline eunice can be really tomboy-ish but she's REALLY bimbotic and can be boy-crazy too. OH MANNN (: haha. funny moments :D
i told of my glory at 3:05 am
Thursday, 19 February 2009
today was a really interesting day :D
day started off camping at calling area with myron pig taking calls for mr mengwee cos he placed newspaper ad and calls kept coming in.
then went for a meetup with mr steven.
after that..
was a mess for the whole day.
upline called me at around 8plus and crapped with me on the line for like 20 minutes. lol. super funny. humourous arguments over some issues. and i exposed him HAHA. FINALLY. :D
suan-ed him about the LY issue. YAY! :DDDDDD
but well, one thing i remember of today is meeting miss leow at bugis in the evening. dont ask me why i was there.
i was there doing purposeful stuff okay (:
but i was so happy to see her, really.
upline once said, a teacher who puts in 100%, and was really willing to stay with her class to guide them to excel in their exams, is a teacher who really could impact cos of the care & concern they show.
he had one teacher liek that.
me too.
i had miss yvonne leow (:
though i know, it's partially due to the help of the tuition whereby my maths could jump from a D7 to a A2 in o level and my A maths could jump from a F9 to a A1 in o level.
but then again, it was also the teacher's willingness to put in 100% for us to ensure we had help when we needed it.
miss leow always stayed back with us to ensure she was around when we needed help.
she'd come to our 4e6 classroom and see if we needed help even if we didnt look for her cos she knew that after school, me, abi and zhenwen would be there.
how thankful i was for that A1.
but i never got the chance to thank her.
when i saw her,
tears almost came to my eyes (:
cos i know, she's the reason why i love zhss.
she's the reason why i got a A1 in the end.
she took great care of us (:
but she's been transferred to peicai sec.
probably it's His will that i met her today.
she said some really motivating stuff to me,
telling me that no matter how long the journey, as long as i got the my intended destination, evrything would be fine.
like what winston said, everything happens for a reason.
i was very motivated to enter Marketing when i hadnt make my selection. but upon posting, i started to doubt my abilities in mathematical stuff (considering that Marketing has modules like accounts etc).
never doubt.
doubt no more.
cos miss leow told me one thing, "if it's your dream, if it's your passion, you have to go for it."
probably that short chat with miss leow re-ignited the flame of studying in me.
cos she was the one who helped keep me on track while i was in a rebellious class of 4e6. she helped me realise the beauty of mathematics, the passion i had in maths, the hidden talent in me :D (if i worked hard, id get the desired grades)
ive lost my way for too long.
finally..
im really happy i met miss leow today.. (:
如果没有遇见你
我将会是在哪里
日子过得怎么样
人生是否要珍惜
也许认识某一人
过着平凡的日子
不知道会不会
也有爱情甜如蜜
任时光匆匆流去
我只在乎你
心甘情愿感染你的气息
人生几何
能够得到知己
失去生命的力量也不可惜
所以我求求你
别让我离开你
除了你
我不能感到
一丝丝情意
也许有那么一天
你说即将要离去
我会迷失我自己
走入无边人海里
不要什么诺言
只要天天在一起
我不能只依靠
片片回忆活下去
任时光匆匆流去
我只在乎你
心甘情愿感染你的气息
人生几何
能够得到知己
失去生命的力量也不可惜
所以我求求你
别让我离开你
除了你
我不能感到
一丝丝情意
i told of my glory at 9:57 pm
i got the habit of listening to songs b4 i sleep.
this habit just started recently.
and so yesterday night, listening to some particlar song,
i suddenly missed the "sense of security" i used to have.
unknowingly given, and also unknowingly lost.
hohoho, not boyf la.
this time, i know he's trying to set things back to how it was like in the past LONG LONG ago.
but this time, i know things will never be the same.
cos the reason he's turning back, is cos she's gone and wont come back.
she, is the reason why all in the past was unknowingly lost.
he's always been like a father to me,
nagging at me constantly.
like my big brain,
helping me realise my mistakes and explaining them to me.
to me, he was just like an elder brother taking care of his kid little sister.
and all along, i never once doubted his sincerity and concern.
but yesterday, he doubted me over a certain matter.
disappointing.
he chose to believe that id done something i shouldnt,
loved someone i shouldnt,
helped someone i shouldnt,
basically just known someone i shouldnt.
i couldnt talk to him about it,
i dont know why.
but well,
probably cos ive really lost too much while i gained someone else.
i told of my glory at 10:25 am
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
OH WELL,
myron is right for once.
we were walking out of office about 100m away when myron said "aiyah, want to go toilet" then i realised that i had forgotten to visit the toilet before my long journey home from office. oh well. and i just decided that i was too lazy to turn back cos anyway mr steve was at the smoking area and he saw me leave. paiseh to go back.
HOWEVER, for the whole probably ~400m journey walk from office to the 55 bus stop, myron kept nagging at me for the whole time telling me that it's not too late to turn back to office to go toilet cos rather spend 3min walking back than endure a 30min journey home controlling my bladder. LOL!
i ignored his
yea, myron must be laughing his ass off at my misfortune cos he lives so near, dont have to control his bladder for so long.
ASS.
OH WELL.
and i shall buy mr mengwee his braun buffel by this month hopefully haha.
not a wallet.
a belt :D
and i cant believe my upline BHB-ly requested for a mont blanc.
ask him go kiss the wall first HAHAHHAA :/
W just reminded me "i thought he said mont blanc is uncle?"
LOL.
tmr's gonna be an early day man.
people keep saying im a good dl,
im a good upl.
but when will i realise, when will he realise me?
i told of my glory at 11:24 pm
Tuesday, 17 February 2009
day was pretty fulfilling.
apparently mr steven doesnt have faith in my sense of time too. HAHA. thats kind of sad! :/
funny story.
and i learnt something new from upline today.
if people are saying "oh miss huifang, kind of sad that your bgm is mr steven, too busy to help you all all the time."
upline told me to shoot them back "HELLO, my bgm is strong okay! my bgm is already a BAM but your bgm still bgm!"
LOL.
that's interesting but OH WELL, it's abit guailan. HAHA.
spend my time well,
create as many miracles as possible,
duplicate as many leaders as i can,
within this 2 months left.
HAHA IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE GENTING TRIPPPPPP :D
winston is talking to himself (he says it's called thinking aloud) about stats while he's doing his stats paper. and im left bored here ):
i told of my glory at 9:41 pm
took this from kaili's blog cos i think it's interesting and true:
Some say love is overrated.
Some say love is everything, and they couldn’t bear to be apart from that special someone for more than a few hours.
Some treat love as a game, untrusting and manipulative.
And with all this speculation, you wonder how many people really understand the meaning of love. So many people try to think of ways of saying it, to make it mean so much more; some say it just because they are words of flattery – because it is what the other person wants to hear. The truth is, love is so much more than just words.
Love is expressions, touches, experiences. Love is growing together as one. When you find that person, and you grow to love each other, you suddenly understand why people would die for someone, why people would kill.
This person becomes your world.
There are no flashing neon lights hovering over their head, telling you that this person is the one, just like there are no lurid signs showing you that they will become your future. No stars collide (except in your mind) - and there are no fireworks (except from within). They are a permanent part of you, always a constant ache for this person – to feel their arms hold you, their fingers entwining with your own. Just the touch of their skin gives you goose bumps, and you never want to let go..
The knowledge dawns on you that without this person you are not whole, and you will never be the same without them. Thoughts, flashbacks, memories, filling your mind at every moment, leaving you with nothing more than a desire to be with this person, hoping, praying.. and eventually knowing and trusting they feel the same.
It is impossible to pinpoint the exact moment a person realises they are in love. But there comes a time when the mask comes off, and the real person show themselves. There is no longer a need to go to the movies every Saturday night to sell the sex clinging to your arm; you’ve grown bigger than that. Suddenly you want to be the only one to see them the same way you do, to appreciate who they are. Staying at home makes you feel much closer, and you only want to share every moment with them, not the rest of the world. They wouldn’t understand anyway, they couldn’t even comprehend.
You both become oblivious to each others imperfections, not noticing the crooked teeth or extra pounds, seeing only lines of perfect symmetry tracing their way down a lover’s body – curvaceous hips, seductive lips.
The eyes that ask questions, hands that answer them.
The eyes that are mirrors, lips that seal promises.
Reflecting the feelings you both feel, but words cannot measure.
You become able to predict their reactions, and know every quirky little expression they have. Things they say, things they do. The smiles, gestures, the familiar routine that occurs on every adventure in the bedroom, but this repetition doesn’t bore you, it only makes you realise you don’t want things to change.. ever. You know that you have found the real person hidden inside the shell that is saved for the outside world.
You create your own world between silken sheets, in each others minds and in your heart. Rooms become a safe haven, love is proven, promises are made and truths are told. The “I love you’s” never seem to do your feelings justice at times like these, because there is no way the person can know through three simple words how much you need them with you, always and forever. Even till death do us part sounds like a cheap cliché, but it’s the best you can do. In their arms, and in their heart is the only place you ever want to be.
Safe, warm and secure.
There are fights, fights that make you forget everything else, make it impossible to concentrate because all you can focus on is what the other person is thinking.
Are they still angry?
Do they still care?
Will this fight mark the end..? No! Never!
Do they miss you as much as you miss them; miss the comfort of their laughter, their reassurance that everything is ok?
So many hopeless predictions as to what they’re thinking as you try not to let the desperation get to you - the worry can drive you mad. Picking up the phone, putting it down, wanting to talk but not wanting to make things worse. One call, so much hope – so much fear. Trembling hands reach out to the buttons. But as you are ready to dial they call and you know that they’ve put away their pride, and the mutual apologies show you that your love is more than just a façade. Knowing this is one of the most beautiful feelings a person can ever experience. The anger is drowned in a wave of love for the person, and all reason is left behind. You find yourself forgetting why you were even angry in the first place.
Maybe the fights are meant to happen, just so that you remember how important this person’s love is – and so you can experience the pure bliss of making up and feeling so close to them once again, as if you have been separated for years, making up for the time of lost love with words and gestures.
There is the love making. And yes, it becomes more than just sex. Two people coming together as one in a means of expressing their feelings for each other. Not just another notch on their belt to brag about on Monday – something surreal and lasting. Soaring to new heights, both of you sure that no other couple could ever feel this way. And maybe they can’t, because each love is sacred, each love is different. Lovers moving in perfect time, knowing their partner so well, feeling the build up of passion, two bodies knowing the exact moment to let go.
Smooth, syncopated, perfect.
Free falling, too fast to stop on a one way trip to heaven. A heaven for two. Landing soft and finding yourself still in their arms, planting kisses on your face, your neck – leaving imprints on your heart. How could anyone ever challenge such a feeling as this, it is too pure to be tainted, too lovely to be a lie?
Two people, two hearts.
Both beating for the other, both keeping the love alive.
But above all this, there is the constant feeling of love that stays with you every second of the day. There really are no words that can explain it, and no way that you can understand it fully unless you have felt the feelings yourself.
Love is a dream that can make reality fade away.
A dream you never want to wake up from
Love grows, like a bud into a flower.
And Love,
Becomes everything.
i told of my glory at 12:36 am
Monday, 16 February 2009
im DAMN unlucky today.
i fell down the stairs at the bottom of my block today.
OKAY LAUGH, LAUGH ALL YOU WANT AT MY MISFORTUNE.
i didnt fall cos i was wearing heels.
i didnt fall cos there was a banana peel.
i didnt fall trying to avoid a cockroach.
I FELL COS I WASNT THINKING STRAIGHT, COS I WASNT AWARE I WAS WALKING THE STAIRS.
slipped down 7/8 steps. you know how people always say "roll down the stairs"? i didnt you know, i SLID down. facedown, fell forward. thank goodness my face is untouched. :/
injuries? hell yes.
right leg full of scratches,
left leg full of scratches,
right leg near knee area had a wound like some gaping hole,
right arm/shoulder banged against side of stairs (hurting till now)
and many scratches on my right arm too ):
so today, i was limping, and each time i tried to wear my blazer i couldnt do so properly LOL.
upline has scheduled a session with mr steven at 11.30am tmr.
but he's being very BHB.
loNG JuN ™.. why people failed is becos they are trying to surpass themselves to be even better. says:
i wanna prove falcon is the best
loNG JuN ™.. why people failed is becos they are trying to surpass themselves to be even better. says:
cos got long jun
loNG JuN ™.. why people failed is becos they are trying to surpass themselves to be even better. says:
wahaha
oh well,
my upline is liek that.
i know of another person i can trust..
i told of my glory at 10:36 pm
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!
i told of my glory at 12:03 am
Sunday, 15 February 2009
i had a nightmare last night.
friendship.
lost, destroyed. this person means so much to me really.
woke up with tears in my eyes and realising i did not off the music from my phone and it was still playing through my earpiece which id plucked out of from my ear.
today we went to wendy's place to celebrate her birthday. at her siglap home. buffet and all, had a great time really. saw someone whom i hadnt seen for a long time and he's changed so much. i guess he was too much of a kid back then to und what he was doing.
went down to office at around 5plus. eunice already left. feel bad for leaving her alone at office today :/ oh well. i had to be at wendy's place you know :/ hahahs.
so yea,
this group of people so important,
FRIENDS.
probably just abit of today's post to really APPRECIATE them :D
if not for their support,
i wont be standing where i am today.
friends, they matter so much.
im really glad that i had such great people around me.
their emotional support and everything..
darren, oh well. he really knows me inside out. even before i tell him something, he's predicted it through my actions. he really gives me great advice too. from how to keng ppl, to how to up my standard in appointment, blah blah blah, to even how to handle my personal stuff and matters. hahas. :D glad that ive gotten in the same poly and same course as him (: yay, at least i'll already have someone with me when school starts.
then cynthia. wow this girl really trusted me that much. yesterday, when she listened to me, talked to me, and argued with the fact that i had been wronged. though some may doubt her, but cmon, she has helped me by being there as a friend for me. she's seen me when i was down, when im happy, when im sad. she brought me around tp too :D
zihui, since how many months ago, the tough fight of ME to MM. really had her standing by me and really, the emotional support we got was just really mutual :D though the goings were tough, im glad we both have made it through. sometimes i dont really have to say much to her and she'll really understand me already.
GREAT SISTER I HAVE OKAY :D
MYRON! crazy ass friend of mine. HAHA. he makes me laughhhh. really. always likes to act decent, insist he's decent and then say really WEIRD stuff, which proves he isnt decent. HAHAS. he can really make me laugh till i cry (almost did). and well, he's a nice person to talk to also :D though he'll make really random comments but at least when it's time to get serious he would too (:
ernest? weird how i even got to know him. it was at the chalet in fact. though i always bully him but HEY, he's been a great bro too :D and he's really funny at times (eg, when telling us of how a GIRL tried to go after him in a futile attempt) and helps me when i need help tooooo (:
and
i believe i will go far with their support :D
i told of my glory at 10:17 pm
wahahahas :D
i told of my glory at 12:55 am
im still willing to stay,
im still willing to fight,
im still willing to stay on with him.
because i know he's only got me with him.
one year ago it was just the 2 of us.
in between, many came and went.
at the end of one year, it's still the 2 of us.
things are getting better still.
he's my upline,
he's the one who brought me into the company,
he's the one who gave me everything,
he's the one who saw me grow,
and he's the one who tried his best for me.
but he's the one who can take away everything.
today, he's the one whom i trust in the company.
he's the one whom i believe in in the company.
and he's the one i follow in the company.
id already committed myself to stay through with him when i joined.
i could still withdraw anytime, at any point.
but ive committed myself time and again.
to neverending hell?
or everlasting happiness?
i dont decide my fate.
i have already handed my fate to you.
upline, to me, means more than a boyf, a brother, or a mere relationship.
upline means the world to me.
i experienced losing my upline for awhile,
i experienced not having upline by my side,
i experienced giving up on my own upline,
i hated the cold war with upline.
thats why time and again, i decided to forgo pride & ego and go back to him like an obedient child.
no matter how good the car achiever,
no matter how good the bgm,
no matter how good the brothers and sisters,
can never beat a good r/s with upline.
cos there is only one upline.
there is only one upline for 7002.
and it's 6889.
6889 is everything to 7002.
this is why i will not give up.
i will beat down every trouble that comes my way,
every obstacle that crosses our path.
i want upline to see my success that he has given me, and i had fought for.
i told of my glory at 12:02 am
Saturday, 14 February 2009
day today has been ruined by having to reach office at 11am and being wronged so badly.
i reached office at 11.30am after doing what i ought to in the morning,
and then was left stoning there.
upline only came at close to 1pm and i didnt have anything with me, having lost my locker key, so i was really stoning.
upline taught me some stuff,
then i handled some recruitment which didnt even belong to me,
and it was during the rec time that my whole mood changed.
went to bugis with cyn, ernest, huimiao and ken. huimiao and ken went to do survey and the rest of us went to slack.
wasnt really in the mood.
but some jokes in ve really brightened me up a little.
was really tired out.
am feeling dead right now.
ranting?
starts now.
HE assumed things, HE jumped to conclusions, HE made me sian.
HE made me feel damn disappointed.
i have been wronged.
really.
HE said im tgt with someone and he's -ve about it.
when im not even with this guy.
HE said others told him im tgt with this guy.
ARGH.
-ve cos im being wronged and HE felt damn sure about it.
CMON LAH, I HAVE NOT BROKEN ANY RULE.
others came asking me about that guy.
but i have not broken any company golden rule.
i owe no one any explaination.
but HE went to tell others about it.
HE said people told him im tgt with this guy.
come on lah,
if you want to know, ask me straight.
dont guess, dont speculate.
and dont ask people who dont know anything about it.
and even if one day this happens to me (whoever the unlucky guy would be),
i trust myself to be able to prioritise.
HE said "i will only care about you in the things in ve" but why defame me by discussing about untrue stuff about me with others?
and those people who are not fighting and want to doubt if I, HUANG HUIFANG, AM FIGHTING OR NOT, please look at yourself before you try to doubt my ability.
WHETHER MY UPLINE HITS HIS INCENTIVE OR NOT IS NOT UP TO YOU TO DECIDE.
i, 7002, as his direct manager under him,
commit to do my best for him.
if he misses his car, i will miss my position.
if he hits his car, I WILL HIT MY POSITION WITH HIM.
and i got better things to do than argue with people who dont fight.
i will help winston hit MM this month.
SAY WHAT YOU WANT.
i told of my glory at 10:51 pm
Friday, 13 February 2009
yay i have a birthday present to look forward to already :D
whichever comes first.
I WILL REMEMBER THIS DE OKAYYYY (:
i told of my glory at 11:33 pm
I WANT MY EQUINOX RESTAURANT TREATTTTTT!! (inside joke lah)
led a restricted life today. SAD! ):
eunice learns things real fast :D glad glad.
and one other realisation is that ernest is gay.
oh yea, talking about inside jokes, today there was a super weird moment. kenny and his recruitment, and i think myron (was it?) and i were in the lift at level 3. miss ervy came in at level 2 and we were all ??!! cos level 2 isnt our office. then miss ervy jokingly said "Bruno get off work already!" and we all laughed. the new guy there was liek ??????????????????????? then miss ervy said "ahh, inside joke inside joke." HAHA. i guess that guy was traumatised lah really :p
sooooooo, tmr is vday.
haha.
and i have to go to office cos upline wants me to.
i feel damn -ve that this year i am gonna spend vday at office.
COS OF SOME REASON OR ANOTHER.
sia la, i feel damn -ve about that. AHHA.
but, something to be happy about,
winston and myron are going to msia with me so i wont be alone on that trip! :D
and lastly,
party like theres no tmr,
party with style.
spend like theres no tmr,
spend it cos the $$'s mine.
my dream in life is to be a rich and successful businesswoman :D
lead a free life, having financial freedom,
and if you doubt me,
LET ME TELL YOU,
i will prove you wrong!
and i'll leave a legacy behind cos this life im leading is mine.
i told of my glory at 9:58 pm
"guys, i am fighting for car this month. i need all the help i can get. thanks for those who put in the effort for last month. i really wanna hit this inventive. lets give our best shot for this 3 month and i confirm you will get what you all desire after everything."
last month was an estimation of 5010pv cleared probably.
another 54990pv to go for these 3 months including this month.
approximately 88000lv +-.
if i hit BM within these 3 months,
i will clear exactly 59314lv for him.
if eunice hits MM this month, she will clear around 20000lv for me this month.
amirah to hit ME this month, clearing around 9600lv for me this month.
natalie to AT LEAST hit SE this month, clearing around 1200lv this month.
and i have more new guys coming in.
even if i fulfil only 1/3 of above, i will clear a 10000lv already, which is probably a 5000pv for upline.
i committed myself to clear a minimum of 5000pv for upline for his 1st stage. i failed to do so based on my own efforts. but i will do so this month.
remember that post on finding my PMF in the company?
many things may change, mindsets may change, situations may shift.
but i still want upline to hit car no matter what.
oh yea, forgot to mention too, upline said im the kind of downline that his impression is negative about. haha. kind of sad actually ): lol. he's damn bad lah yesterday. after the TKS whereby im shot by 2 big shots in falcon im being suan-ed by him.
cos mr dewey mentioned on monday slideshow about whether youre the kind of downline that when upline is doing coffee in cafe and sees you walk past, he turns negative all of a sudden. baahahah. and stupid upline told me that i am that kind of downline. SAD! =/
i told of my glory at 9:25 am
Thursday, 12 February 2009
got that inspiration to say "hey baby" :D LOL!
funny things happened in office today.
1. dom was wearing a pastel PURPLE shirt. i was wearing a PINK shirt. and he enthusiastically told me "HEY! MISS HUIFANG! NICE COLOUR! SAME AS MINE!" and i-forgot-who came along and said "WA huifang couple tee with dom ah!" o.O
very great difference okay. ZZZ.
2. eunice suan-ed upline today. saying he didnt let her go eat and all. LOL. and she said, no appetite to eat after seeing upline's face. HAHAHAAHA. big joke i tell you. she seemed pretty happy about it HAHA.
upline was being nice today :D
keep up this momentum yea,
keep this up and it'll bring us all to success (:
why cant A keep a neutral viewpoint towards some people?
i told of my glory at 10:03 pm
HAHA. names edited to protect individuals.
funny friend i have right, know im single then come di siao siao. o.O
joker lah he.
* says:
vday
* says:
coming
* says:
heading where eh?
* says:
going out with my d/l huh
* says:
hahahaah
HF confidence is the key ;D says:
no lah. anyhow say.
* says:
HAHH
* says:
u asking me out right
HF confidence is the key ;D says:
why leh you want ask me out right (:
HF confidence is the key ;D says:
dont hide it lah *
* says:
ass
* says:
keep hinting me
* says:
to ask u
now tell me,
whos fault is it? ass.
HAHA.
i told of my glory at 12:18 am
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
tiring day.
but good day ;D
muahaha.
let me think back and see what i did.
1 debrief for brilliant comp,
2 coffees at 3pm,
arranged a coffee for 6pm,
and left office at 7.40pm. LOL.
stupid ernest tee up winston as "HANDSOME" to shikin. think shikin was pretty traumatised. but he's so damn happy when i told him about it. LOL!
went to bugis after leaving office to eat dinner lol.
MOS BURGERRRR! :D
long time since i had the teriyaki chicken (:
winston was so very damn happy over the issue of ernest saying he's handsome o.O
and he's so very proud of his TINY blingbling.
c'mon lah my bling is so much bigger :D
went through some stuff (though it wasnt really productive reading).
oh yah, and i think im really a very egoistic person. LOL.
i was wondering aloud to W about why recently everything seems to be pretty smooth-sailing for me.
then he mentioned that it's cos im wearing a blazer and it gives me confidence. LOL! ehh, kind of true. hahas. coffees become easier, recruitments are easier to handle, and well, everything seems great :D
HAHA.
i already dont seem to care what they say, what everyone is saying.
all i know is that,
im happy... (:
how long can this be sustained for?
i told of my glory at 11:03 pm
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
i had a good day today (:
though i tio debrief by mr steven for leaving my managers' training book around =/
did a day 1 + day 2 + half of day 3 combined within a time of 12pm to 6.30pm. wanna die okayyy, throat super pain since yesterday.
but it was good (:
result was great (:
did a coffee for W's 4 recruits, commit them to come down tmr le :D wahahah.
stupid myron the ass dropped my psp today.
at around 8plus upline came to office.
talked to him awhile.
well,
he challenged me o.O zz.
then went to orchard with W for him to pierce ear.
TROUBLESOME OKAY.
and the shops were liek closing soon after lahh.
zz.
dont know why he's so gan jiong.
and he's damn happy over it now.
hao-lian ing to myron o.O
and now IM TIRED.
it's too late.
i told of my glory at 11:20 pm
Monday, 9 February 2009
i did a coffee for winston's rec today.
i conducted a debrief for winston's guys today.
today i declare as "test water" day.
i suffered a whole day through talking so much today with a sore sore throat thats hurting damn bad now.
and i made a speech which was impromptu today.
and mr yizhi told me he wanted to cry at some point during my speech.
what did i talk about..
i shall try my best to rmbr..
lemme see..
talked about ve changing me, from a really arrogant, full-of-myself person to a person who trust, believe, follow.
talked about how believing myself was the most crucial point that kept me going after all my friends rejected this trade.
ve changed me to a person who has become so much more confident, upon my promotion to this new level.
i want my friends to see my success.
but no one is there to witness my success with me.
the cheering,
the applause,
the cheers,
the "miss huifang hao!" from the crowd,
i just wished you guys were there to see it with me.
i just wished that you are here with me.
im feeling very down now.
i dont know why.
I REALLY DONT KNOW OKAY.
when youre around everything seems so right,
but when youre gone, nothing seems right.
if only i wasnt caught in such a situation in life.
if only it wasnt at this point of time.
then probably things can be so much better, so much easier.
i told of my glory at 11:29 pm
Sunday, 8 February 2009
evidence of lame friend.
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
aeroplanes with no wings
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
LOL
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
har?
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
the world is going to mars to have a cup of tea with it
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
:D
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
really!
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
i also wanna go
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
bring me along
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
we are going tgt
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
*the earth
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
is going
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
oh
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
2009
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
hahah
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
okay
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
thats fun
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
9th of feb
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
1 am
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
hey thats in awhile!
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
but my plane isnt here
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
how to go
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
1hr and 26 min from now
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
nah
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
don need
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
the earth is going there
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
oh
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
the whole earth move isit
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
ya
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
only hf
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
is left out
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
why! ):
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
the earth says its going to put u in moon to wait for us
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
then whr i go?
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
har. why like that. myron, i also want to go
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
):
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
nah
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
not me
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
ask earthy
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
:D
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
never mind lah
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
u influence earthy or wadever name u call it
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
LOL
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
tell him/her i want to go.
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
is a it la deh
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
:D
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
oh
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
it's a it
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
ok then you tell it
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
nah
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
it cant talk
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
):
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
it just wrote a letter to me
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
then how it told you
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
oh ic..
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
can email? so i can email my appeal..
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
is a it la deh, cannot email
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
only can dream of it
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
then why it wrote u a letter
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
and talk to it
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
in my dreams lor
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
thats why
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
:D
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
ohh
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
icic
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
but ur dream come true one meh
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
LOL
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
ofcus
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
:D
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
you bad
HUIFANG myron is a super random kid. he says so. says:
pangseh me
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
ewww
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
i trying not too
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
unless we take a ship out of sg maybe i can meet u in ocean
i told of my glory at 11:41 pm
i missed the managers' session today.
cos i was
i left my house at 1pm. if i take bus, i'll take 35-40minutes to reach.
but in a hurry, i decided to take cab though i got the following ways to get to office:
1. 55 ->change 63, 60, 93, 94
2. 53 ->change 24
3. 58 ->change 63, 60, 93,94
55 came when i went downstairs. but i reckoned cab would be faster so i did not board the 55. 58 then came, and the same thinking too.
in the end, i spent 20 minutes waiting till i was damn pek chek, cos all the cabs were taken and none were available. o.O took the 53 that came, and then alighted later at the bus stop to change to 24.
when i alighted, 24 came behind. but i did not board cos i reckoned cab would be faster. i still hadnt given up on waiting for a cab.
ended up all the cabs that passed by again were all taken too. the next 24 came and i boarded it. zz.
in the end, i reached the office at 2.15pm. o.O
I TOOK A FRIGGIN 1 HOUR 15 MINUTES TO GET TO OFFICE.
went for grouping and well, TW said i made a nice speech. lol. it was very very impromptu. lol.
had a session with miss chelsy.
wahahahs. she's my role model okayyy.
stylo milo.
she's really v chiongster in the past but because of ve she changed her perception of party- high class party is better.
LOL. not queuing up at clubs, but flashing a vip card to enter and not having to queue, ordering 6 bottles of red wine for $1,000 and wow her friends.
thats what i shall do in future. hahas :D
oh on sidenote, myron was being nice today to help me get my stuff from locker for mingyao :D ahahs.
tmr there's gonna be badge presentation. hahas.
i wonder how my speech will be. HEHE.
i told of my glory at 9:44 pm
I JUST REACHED HOME! lol.
today at office was a whole big mess really.
CNY TEA PARTY event.
pretty interesting performances. was asked by zhenting to be his victim in one of his stunts but when he signalled to me the emcees went up instead cos they were in front of me. zz. so in the end msis chelsy and mr shunjie became his victims. HAHA.
then we had this buffet. GOOD FOOD OK :D
where myron was crazy over the tangerines,
christina was crazy over the potato salad,
blah blah.
LOL.
myron became my father and peeled the tangerines for me :D
hahas!
some unhappiness before i left. all thanks to some particular person.
miscommunication, but i cant be bothered to explain much into this issue to him cos i couldnt really be bothered.
went to meet the gang at vivo at 7pm. reached at 7.30pm all thanks to the unpleasant incident lah. WTH. zz. went to marche and ate my salmon ROSTI :D haha! the salmon is heavenlyyyyy! ^^
didnt get to drink my mushroom soup though cos i was too full!
went to alcohol alcohol with them for awhile and then went home by cab.
cos IM TIRED.
there's gonna be HOR grouping, blazer awarding tmr (or today, cos it's past 12am). i dont know what to say for my mm speech.
and this is what brilliant myron has suggested:
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
say
Myron goes da da doo-doo-mmm says:
myron the best
oh yea, here presents myron with his tangerines :D
porno pic okay!
it's 8th feb, but it's 2009 and id already promised myself a new start.
im with people im happy with now.
yea yea, those people around me, i dont have to say any names. i see/talk to them everyday and they brighten up my days, make me happy each day.
i believe my prince charming will be anyone else but the person who'd left me waiting in vain, left me alone there.
it was just me being dumb anyways :D shouldnt expect much coming from him.
but he was standing beside me today.
that was a shock really. i was shocked to see him standing next to me too.
but at least he actually expressed pride in me a few days back.
i told of my glory at 1:11 am
Friday, 6 February 2009
today was a really fun day i guess.
hahas. lots of slacking around but work done too.
went to office, office seemed secluded,
went to falcon's "cubicle", waited for diming and myron to come office.
blah blah blah, in the evening upline came to office, FINALLY!
lol i kind of miss him after not seeing him for so many days okayyy!
and first thing he said when he reached was "EH YOU KNOW AH! I CHEAT DURING EXAM TODAY LEH! HAHAHA!"
upline is so proud that he cheat for the first time in his poly life. HAHA!
damn funny lah he. like never cheat in his whole life before lol.
then we went for dinner at pkms. and upline and mr mengwee were damn funny okay.
mr mengwee said he's my grandfather, and upline is my father. so they both approve to me being together with _____. and that i should get married with him soon. GAHHHH.
and he was pretty persistent about it and upline was seeming happy. ZZZ. ass.
then went back to office and upline taught me business plan his style. lol. mr steve came over looking for a calculator to borrow and acted cute saying "zihui will hit BM before you! HUMPH!" i was liek "ERRRRRRRRRRRRR?"
HE'S DAMN FUNNY LOL.
after that i left office together with upline and darren, walked by backlane. darren's voice is nice :D his singing is nicer than upline's. LOL.
PICTURES from ags day!!
(for the convenience of that dearest pig myron)
*oh yea, mr mengwee complained about me taking pics with myron and winston rather than with falcon ):
2 unglam shits.
myron looks like a small kid in executive wear :D
myron and my car achiever :D
he loves that bird.
group shot :D
me and mr AMW :D (thanks to winston's superb editing)
myron looking emo.
the shot i took with myron is not nice. this was nicer. HAHA. nice pose myron. LOL.
this is my good product student winston :D
oh magnificent, stupid myron. what are you looking at? lol. look here only if you want to date me out for
i told of my glory at 11:57 pm
Thursday, 5 February 2009
i stayed at home today, rare thing to happen.
and i had a dream within a span of a ten minute nap in the afternoon.
DAMN IT.
im not blogging about what i dreamt of.
it was a.. not really a nightmare, but it somehow told me that there was something at esplanade that was an unfinished event for me. something like that. something i had to finish doing there.
i dont know LAH.
you know those kind of tv dramas then the person has an unfinished wish then the spirit/ghost lingers there even when the person is dead.
that was what it felt liek today. =/
but im sure im not dead yet. cos im holding onto my guitar and talking to winston. so im confirm + guarantee + chop still a human.
i woke up and stoned for 5 minutes before on-ing my psp and played patapon.
WEIRD.
it was just weird.
should i go back there tmr? then probably i'll see my prince in shiny armour on a white horse waiting for me there? hha.. kidding.
gahhh. i hate being at home for one whole day.
but on the other hand, i was too LAZY to step out of the house.
i think my blog is getting boring. but im lazy to upload my AGS photos. please refer to my facebook or friendster for the pictures. LOL. =/
last year there was huiqi who accompanied me at office though we were just wasting time there talking cock with random ppl who walked past and di siao us like mr steve mr calvin and mr joseph and blah blah. i still remember mr steve said he's going up with mr cal to mount faber to di siao couples and asked us if we wanted to go along hahaa.
i got not that "faithful" a downline yet, who will accompany me in office.
probably diming wont be around,
lifung wont be around,
CA confirm wont be around,
and please let upline not be around too.
so that i can happily go celebrate if a miracle does happen,
and i can go home and sleep if otherwise.
i told of my glory at 10:10 pm
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
bahahaha. today was a great day.
SUPER SLACK :D
went to meet myron at around 12pm. oh yea, darren was there too :D hahas. cos actual plans was that i was to meet myron at 11 but well, due to UNFORESEEN circumstances. LOL.
had lunch and darren and myron were being very gay. lols. then had desert! wa. the shaved ice is nice :D GAHH. shouldve ordered strawberry though. it looked nice alsooooo. ahhas.
then we went to walk walk see see, then winston came and joined us.
went to subway for him to eat lunch. (cos we already had eaten)
then ernest came and joined us.
then what we did was basically spend the rest of the afternoon at subway, me going thru product with winston and myron and darren were entertaining themselves with winston's deck. lol.
i cant really rmbr what ernest and azura were doing though. LOL.
then we decided to go over to conrad at about 4plus, met taurus people on the way :D
hahas.
and and and, when we went to conrad we were taking photos like... we had never taken photos before. HAHA. but it was fun luh. you know, me being in blazer and all. it's the FIRST time im appearing in blazer at conrad okay :D
so in the meantime, shall just wait for azura to send me the photos tmr for me to publish them online! :D
oh yea, VE SEMINAR WAD TODAY :D
almost forgot to mention, thats the reason why im blogging so late. haha.
the lion dance and dragon dance performance was VERY VERY nice.
SPECTACULAR okay.
the lions are super lively and adorable and blink their eyes and have a BOBBING tail!
THE TAIL IS SO CUTE LAH! then lifung said i keep looking at the lion's butt o.O
but it's really cute okay. rarely you get to see a lion so lively and so CUTE with such an adorable blob of tail LOL. and the dragon dance, interesting! the space was small and all but they could do alot of patterns okay! super cool :D
and well, i guess most of the seminar was just cheering, clapping, calling myron a pig, what else?
i think the most enjoyable part of the seminar was the phototaking at the beginning :D
HAHA. till i receive the photos then :D
i told of my glory at 11:51 pm
WHAT the hell i tell you.
i had a never-like-so-real-so-detailed nightmare within a span of 40min.
i set my alarm at 8.30am, woke up to off it, and went back to sleep until winston called me at 9.10am.
what happened in the nightmare was REALLY !@$%^&*&^%#@ clear.
i was at esplanade working at an open space area (like how i was helping out at river angbao a few days back) and while taking a break, i was drinking from my bottle and looking out into the distance at the direction facing marina square. what happened was, i saw smth white drop from the sky onto a building, but seeing nothing happened, i thought it was my imagination. but seconds later, a big plane crashed head-down into that same building i was looking at earlier. that building collapsed sideway, crashing into the next building and the next and the next, forming this domino-like effect where ultimately the row of buildings was down. it stopped before the esplanade building, cos it was set further apart.
then i was dismissed from work cos such a scenario called for immediate homebound safety.
i took a bus home, and i remember it was 162M (like duh, thats the only bus that i take home from esplanade) but it detoured till luan qi ba zao cos of the road obstructions. i remember i was on the bus with E. the bus was pretty empty. so i asked E "can i sit with you? i scared." but he said no and i was to sit infront of him. haha. that was pretty anti-climax.
so because my parents are actually pretty concerned over my well-being, i was surprised they hadnt called me to ask how i was despite all that mess at the esplanade area. so i called them and ended up crying the whole journey back cos i was so freaked out. and oh well, mom said they werent watching the news today thats why they dont know of it yet and i had to describe out in full detail what happened. the other commuters on the bus heard me talking and came over and asked me what had happened, because most of them had only known about it after it happened but i had witnessed the whole process while it happened. so i was telling them the whole story all over again, and there was this dumb and deaf china man who was very persistent in me repeating the story over again for him cos he could lipread as fast as i talked.
then winston called me, and woke me up from this nightmare.
sounds dramatic, sounds so detailed, sounds so impossible to be true.
but hey, do you know when i opened my house window i didnt dare look outside? =/
and when i was drinking my cup of milo my right hand was trembling like fuck (now no longer though)
and i just froze when an aeroplane flew over my house a few minutes ago.
errm,
i just gotta overcome that i guess.
phobia of aeroplanes?
i think it's just phobia of the outside world.
damn.
im going to orchard road.
i cant freak out there =/
oh well, at least i aint alone later :D
i told of my glory at 9:59 am
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
today... myron is still crazy (and probably gonna say my blog is rubbish again though he read it)
what did i do for myself?
let me think:
when i reached office, tio bombed to do a product presentation for mako.
then when i was doing calling, tio bombed by teckwee to do a coffee session for his JC girl.
then when i went back to doing calling, tio bombed by ernest saying he needed help for a suddenly-appeared-5pm-winston's-rec.
i did probably half an hour of calling in total.
i cancelled my activites tmr.
i have a day 1 BT on thurs.
and tmr's the annual grand seminar, but im not getting any awards. how sad. HAHA. nvr mind. shall go have fun tmr. LOL.
i told of my glory at 10:06 pm
Monday, 2 February 2009
conclusion of today: myron is crazy, or he is in a very good mood today. HAHA.
was having this cheer session grouping for KTA and SHA in the evening. hahas. myron beside me and he was like laughing like mad over small issues. i was flipping thru winston's pp file and he was making SUPER porno/lame/no link comments about EVERYTHING. -.-
ended up we were laughing non-stop till the cheer session really began. GAHH. and for the whole session he kept adding on extra stuff while talking making a joke out of everything lols.
dont know what's wrong with him *shrugs* LOL. guess he's happy today. haha.
tmr is yet another day.
but it'll be even better than how today has been :D
59,314LV to BM (:
i told of my glory at 11:06 pm
today wasnt a great day.
it wasnt.
is 2009 a good year for me or a bad one?
first big happiness turned out to be a disaster. it only led to more problems than happiness. though i hit mm, theres so many ups and downs even before i start fighting. more downs than ups.
10 people fought for me to keng upline to put the 1day ME under me?
some people told upline off for putting 1day ME under me?
i already told mr steven. he told me not to care.
i didnt care.
and it's led to what happened today.
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last day of helping out at river angbao project.
endru was being really nice today, chatting with us and all, letting me slack and take really long breaks.
before we started, we were talking about horoscopes and all and he really baffled us with his knowledge in horoscopes' characteristics. and when asked, he said it's cos he reads horoscopes books to help in "girl chasing" o.o ultimate lol-ness please.
oh yea, he said the first time kenneth saw my survey, he praised me. cos he said my handwriting is so neat and everything is so tidy and in order. WOW. first time im being praised on that.
i completed 6 surveys in 1.5hours out of a quota of 8 in 4hours, so i slacked for 20 minutes with yuting. then i walked to location 2 and chatted with xiangle and sharlene for another 15 minutes, then walked back to yuting's side with xiangle again. then then then, i decided to be hardworking and complete my last 2 surveys to meet the quota, but turns out i was drawn to the food at food street upon completion of one more survey. ahhhh. went to find endru and told him i wanted to buy food. oh well. then talked to sharlene while trying to eat my steaming hot fishballs. after that, i went back to yuting's side again with xiangle and this time i committed myself to finish the last survey before eating the rest of my fishballs.
accomplished that simply (:
that's probably the only thing im happy about today. i was the fastest at the beginning but cos i slack off i was still one of the fastest to complete quota today. sat there happily eating my fishballs waiting for yuting to end work. endru was checking the surveys and he randomly gave us the uniquely SG badge
and he could still suan people at the end, telling us that he didnt shake the weirdguy surveyor's hand cos he finds him weird too. =/ and he'll only shake hand w selected people.
went to walk one final round at the floating platform, and we stepped out just as the lights were off-ed. it's the last day for river angbao this year, it's the last day for us all together. at that same moment. i can probably describe that feeling as sad.
never once had i felt so bonded with the project team.
never once had i felt so happy helping out at R+.
with a great project manager, great project team, i can say, this is the best river angbao ever in my whole life.
i'll miss endru, i'll miss yuting, i'll miss sharlene, i'll miss xiangle, i'll miss everyone else too. till the next time we meet.
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tmr has to be better than today. it couldnt get worse, right?
i told of my glory at 12:59 am
Sunday, 1 February 2009
just came back from visiting zhang lao shi's, guangtian's, and wendy's house.
WENDY'S HOUSE IS BIG.
no other word for it.
it looks like a shopping centre from the outside okayyy :D
a pretty unclear pic i took from the outside. it was pretty dark by that time we left cos we were gambling till 10 and ate till 11plus :D haahas.
but im damn tired now. yawnsssss.
i also want a merc, bmw 7series extended, lotus, honda evo, nissan gtr, lambourghini at home in future. GAHH ):
OF MY OWN OKAY. :D
oh yes winston just reminded me to update that I'VE GOT A NEW MAC! HAHA..
it looks like this
HAHA.
okay actually, he did this for me lah. HAHA. my microsoft vista became a mac-look alike. HAHA :D
all thanks to him okayyyys (:
SEE LAH WINSTON, i tee up you again! ZZZ!
i told of my glory at 12:52 am