Friday, 12 March 2010
CLAN training really rocks big time :D Going there to act like a P3 kid and irritate fellow Facilitators/Trainers and get paid to do so HAHHA :P
But then again, my results are out today. It spells "Epic failure".
A for BAccounts 2, A for Bstats, B+ for Management, B for Marketing, B for BCalculus, C+ for Microecons.
Seriously, out of all the subjects, Im happy over BAccounts 2 (Considering I didnt attend the extra revision lecture, never did tutorials, didnt bother finishing MyAcctgLab, and even slept in tutorials and lectures. Most slack subject, in other words. Coursework B, but still an overall A! Means I did really well for my paper! :D), Im happy over Management (Damn you old fart, so what if you gave me a C for class participation? I still got a B+ in the end!) and Im happy over BStats (Maintained!).
But at the same time, also disappointed over Marketing and Microecons. Alright, not like I didn't expect a non-A grade for Marketing cos I screwed up the group project. But well, I thought at least a B+. Microecons? Gosh. I teach others, but I end up screwing it up. Stupid beef question. Oh wait, was it cow or beef? I remember saying Im sensitive to beef after that paper though. :(
Anyways, my GPA this whole Year 1 was pulled down by this semester's results. Thank God for those 2 As which pulled up my C+ and rendered it less harm towards me. But still, harm done. My cumulative GPA is now 3.42 which is barely there for university admission. Gosh.
I SUCK :(
Okay, no more complacency. I think it's sign that I should focus for Year 2.1 onwards. Because I was so slackish and lazy and so last-minute last semester, but I was still blessed with a GPA which allowed me to still enter uni. If I dont realise my mistakes and change for the better, I'm gonna end up nowhere, seriously. :(
Alright, I'm praying hard still, that with such dismal results I can probably squeeze into the DHL 09/10 and be the 49th or 50th. Please, just a position there and I'll work harder to work upwards. I promise, I really really promise.. :(
I just need to be in the DHL this time. Just to prove I'm able to..
I think I dont look like I'm affected by my results in class. But well, someone saw and that person gave me a pat on my back. Even though we're not close, I dont talk to him much, we talk only about work, but when I was lamenting over "My life is over", I guess he was the only one whom caught the slight note of desperation.
But then again, I feel that in others', some peoples' eyes, I'm supposed to just take this result and go home, take for granted that I fucking get such GOOD results because I dont put in any effort. Fucking jokers. Just because in front of you, I am a fuck-I've-got-a-show-I'm-gonna-forget-about-studies girl, sorry to bring you back to reality, what you need 3 hours to study is what I need only 1 hour. So you know what, youre as pathetic as this person in the maze, unable to find their way out cos you cant fly to see from the bird's eye view where the exit is.
I dont need human recognition sometimes, I've realised. Then again, I've survived like this for the past year. It's fine man, my form of recognition is is black and white. My license, the money I have, the emails of appreciation. No thanks people, if you dont know how to appreciate me for who I am. That's not what friendship is about.
On a sidenote, there's a pretty handsome counsellor at CLAN :D Hahha. Shoo that Jap guy man. Totally :P
i told of my glory at 10:34 pm