Thursday, 31 May 2007
BOO! zj showed me his grad vid on youtube. damn LOLs. laughed til wana pengs just now. then i went to find my own grad vid, n watched it.
"do work hard, for thru working hard, u will reap success in future."
-mrs maybrie ang
I MISS MRS ANG!! I MISS MISS YVONNE LEOW!! I MISS 4E6 06!!
somehow, i miss the zhonghua days.
chatting with zhenwen aftr school;
night studies before Os with abigail n zw;
the times we laughed at D-DAY!!;
the days we failed humans as a class;
the 5pms wen-day n abi-day went to look for toot-toot car with me;
the times we laughed at ms tan gh's "next door", "up the line" n "meet me in heaven yea"
awww. 4 years of zhonghua sec.
i miss you allllll.
i told of my glory at 2:42 pm
BOO. u noe wad?
SARTURDAY SYCO CONCERT TICKETS R SOLD OUT!!
HURHHHHHHHHS!!! HE ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO GO WATCH N I TOLD HIM I WAS GG TO WATCH WITH NYCO LAHS!! HURHSSSSS HURHSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! there goes my kiss :(((( LOL. aww. wth lahs. anw also quite long nvr c him lerrrrr. like.. 2 weeks? hahaa. N I MISS JR LAHS. thats like so kuku long nvr c le :(((( n jessly also!! GAHHHH.
today was just econs lecture + a damn sian day. *yawns. shant elaborate.
well, cos compass point is WEIRD today. =/
coming friday!! bowling n pool WAHHHH :)))))))
a day of enjoyment? not aftr 3 hrs of econs tutorial =/
but im gonna c my darling on friday!! WOOHOO!! =D
i told of my glory at 10:54 am
Wednesday, 30 May 2007
BOO! i seriously think im beginning to b WEIRD.
my actions are so not myself =/
i studied. i did my hw. thats norm, but when without the intention to? how weird can that get?!
for 3 hours, i just became a self-declared-loner somehow. lol. wth man. it's shocking even to myself =D
mayb thats an improvement? but i dowan to bcome an introvert at the end. lols. ahhas. i want to have fun n enjoy n laugh n smile like the huifang evry1 knows. the extrovert, the funny, the joker. (aww. suddenly i miss ms tansy alot cos tts wad she always calls our 4e6 poa class)
i miss co. i miss co. i miss co.
the gr8 seniors who also make the gr8est frens.
the fun fellow j1s who make me so happy.
help me along.
motivate me.
make my emo-ness gone.
make me feel so part of the family.
anyway, went to toa payoh for dinner w lawrence n cel aftr spending the whole day in college. not rotting away for once. not bridge-ing for once. doing hw :))))) n i had a spliting headache. almost wanted to just fade off n die. pain til i want to..... bang the wall lahs =/ ARGHs.
sometimes, even though im not involved in a rs triangle, i feel so redundant despite the fact tt they r my close frens. frens who listen to me rant, watch me emo, encourage me n help me along the way. im really sorry i have to walk away now.
im stil suffering fr post-syf syndrome. i miss the co room, miss the co room floor, miss the co room air con, miss the percussion instruments we so used to murder, the suspending cymbal, the wooden fish, the pai gu, n definitely that most loyal n reliable erhu residing in the dark cupboard now.
syco concert coming soon. quick quick come!! :))))))))))))))
i miss the times doing hw in the co room waiting for prac to start. i miss the intensive pracs i miss tickling derek. i miss laughing at ming kwang. i miss laughing at kai wen's actions with heidi. i miss the time the few of us idiots standing upstairs of the stage n hollering at the ppl on stage like ghosts. i miss the times we sneaked off fr prac ust to escape the cold. i miss the times jessly n i bluetoothed stuffs across the co room. i miss ding's scoldings. i miss the times i had to endure the self-demotion of skills. i miss gossiping with the co ppl. i miss staying late to play with the other instrus with yiling n jessly. i miss the store room. i miss wingyan's de-briefs. i miss ming kwang's naggings n teachings. i miss bullying idol. i miss the seizing-evry-chance-i-had to look at him. i miss the times ming kwang, derek n sometimes plus others, when we'd walk out of the college in the darkness tgt, laughing like idiots cos of some ming kwang's "helmet" and other jokes etc. i miss the "fundamental" accusation fr ming kwang. i miss i miss laughing with the whole family.
it's somewhr i could call a second home with ppl i could call family.
XYZ is definitely, n NYCO is always thr.
i cant wait for co to resume again.
pics fr yesterday-
ghost me, ghost chloe n normal joyce. LOL. all thanks to lim zijie.
chloe n me!! :)))
me, chloe, joyce, zijie n cel. @ nyny WOOHOO!!
that was just a random shot at stjames. derek, ming kwang n michelle. lols.
the environment :)))
pretty lights!! =D
aftr stjames- lawrence, me, heidi n zijie.
me n linrong! :)))) new fren lahs~ LOL
me, lawrence n linrong.
it was that lovely back then. ever again? :))))) n i wonder.
i told of my glory at 11:43 am
Tuesday, 29 May 2007
BOO! schooled, nyny, stjames, n played today.
maths lecture, ponned econs lecture =x im such a bad student. arghs. anyway, went home to bathe n then met up with chloe, joyce, zijie n cel at city hall. my fellow ponners. lol. n we went for nyny. wahahhas. not bad sia. my share cost like $24 n wad i ate didnt taste the best among all on our table. =x aftr tt went to vivocity to meet lawrence n linrong :))) KUKUNANA ZIJIE PS ME N HEIDI =/ at city hall cel suan him, then he went to another cabin, n ended up me n cel stranded at outram. ha. smart me found our way to the NEL. :))))) n saw him alr with the 2 of them. arghs.
then went to harbourcity n met heidi thr. off to stjames powerstation we went :))))
stjames was a pretty cold place, pretty comfy though it somehow smelt like smoke :))))) mmms. the kuku staff didnt allow us entry when we walked towards the comfy semi-circle sofa, so we walked to the table, only to c the council walk to one semi-circle sofa to SIT. so we, being the bunch of co smarties, LOL, went to grab a sofa too :)))) guan yue + huqin squeeze. lols. damn nice lahs.
it started off with a dialogue session, chao anti-climax de, then finally opened dance floor. today felt damn sians i dno y, n the music was good, though abit too loud so much so that me n the rest were literally vibrating with the floor. =x LOL. but fun lahs, n seeing the tchers damn sooooo UNGLAMLY. hahaa. dom took a vid of it lahs! n when i c it i rly wanna laugh till i flip. =D
aftr tt went for dinner with zijie, lawrence, heidi n linrong. hahaa. i guess linrong was pretty taken aback by the way we shoot one another. LOL. harmless daily 0723 fun =D then we went to arcade, played the air hockey thing n zijie is damn bloody violent de lahs. then pool!! :((((
I PLAYED HORRIBLY TODAY.
cos lawrence took the 9ft table?
uber horrid lahs. within one game i can consecutively hit the white ball in 4 times, either by itself or with another ball. linrong wanted to bang the wall cos he was partnering me during that game :ppp aww. n i think the table rly too big lahs, canot aim properly. really played like shyt lahs. worst in my life.
oh n poor lawrence keeps being terrorised by me today :))) being cornered to the wall. LOL. watch out lawrence ;)))
sometimes it gets too difficult for me to talk freely with u when some things that disappoint me n make me lose faith in u have happened. unnoticed, i will walk out of ur life, her life. i will. im sure i can.
so many ppl actually notice. they ask. even the most impossible, the most unexpected ppl. i really think i behaved weirdly today. towards lawrence, towards evryone. my emotions were a mix. i wanted to join them on the dance floor, yet smth held me back. WHAT??!
im having too much fun. too much fun for comfort. it makes me think if im doing the right thing at times. tts y i seemed so sian-ed at stjames at some times today =/ i tend to think too much n link one prob to another. so when i think of A-->b-->C-->D n i'll STONE. I AM NOT EMO. im just deep in thot. so i tend to b quiet all of a sudden.
post pics tmr. im tired today.
u were thr to watch us. but i'll b thr to watch u.
i told of my glory at 2:52 pm
Monday, 28 May 2007
boo.
first time, i get out of the way voluntarily.
second time, i walk away silently unnoticed.
now the third time, yet again.
the situation is always the same. always being the good fren of the girl, n also the good fren of the guy, n then they end up tgt just when im getting on better with both the guy n the girl. then i'll b with the 2 of them, until weeks ltr when i find out, n feel tt my presence is irrelevant.
alright, i'll walk away silently.
EASILY DISPOSABLE. like wad chloe said tt day. tts really how i feel. though not towards the person chloe mentioned. but towards a particular group of ppl whom i thot i could b happy with.
n then it always takes so long for me to find out evrything. it always seems like im the last to know.
alright not the last, but one of the last to know. y do they try to hide things from me when it seems so obvious?
"frequencies" matter. it aint as simple as saying "i want it this way, so it goes this way."
i know this seems like im referring to a particular person. no doubt, i am. n it really sucks when he dont know how u feel.
my emo partner, whr r u?
y isit for some ppl, friendship without lust seems so distant to them?
some ppl cant get thru a sentence without a motive.
miserable idiots.
im too easily coaxed by bastards who r just plain talk.
y m i always so gullible?
n end up the one at the losing end?
bastards who r just out to lie to me, dont even think of trying. i do the nastiest things when i find out the truth.
im looking forward to 2nd june.
this particular person i last saw on syf. aww. i miss.
just when he left, u came. i felt so much better. but now im leaving u, for sm1 else who has just re appeared in my life :)))
i told of my glory at 6:54 am
Sunday, 27 May 2007
BOO! HEY GIRL! READ THIS ---> simon says we share fond memories too!
Hf - NOT alone in this world of MISTAKES. says:
fond memories of mayo between simon n hf = simon eating mayo n hf "eeee"-ing away
=D alright alright.
dont get jealous alright? u n him have ur FONDER memories. LOL.
huifang's logic:
dont ever rush into things. get deeper into the matter b4 making major decisions, or u'll live to regret y u ever did it. u'll look back into the past, n wonder y u nvr got deeper into the matter b4hand. if u'd did, u'd know how to handle it the best n most suitable way to ensure a smoother process throughtout. :)))))
i told of my glory at 1:54 pm
BOO! today felt NUAHHH.
morn went to college for GP test. j1s n j2s. so lucky my class was assigned to an air con tutorial room! :))) think the test was alright, but totally no idea if i'll pass or fail cos i dno if wad i wrote is relevant =/ aftr GP test had phoenix exco meeting. finally settled the planning of collar pin :D proposal next. aftr tt NUAH-ed in college with lawrence, chris mummy, zican n zijie cos they were waiting for me n mummy. :S they're crazy ppl when they play WORMS. =.=
then aftr tt went to kovan to bowl :D FINALLY!! wahs, today is quite ok de lo.
1st game: me 103, zj 91, lawrence 96
2nd game: me 115, zj 98, lawrence 108.
i stil win. hahahaaha.
it's so amazing i can play tt well cos i havent played for like a month or so, plus the concern of my NAILS. lol. woohoo!! =D 3 strikes + 1 spare in 1st game WHEEEEsSss. stupid lawrence said smth to break my concentration at the beginning of the 2nd game. wad a bitch he is ARGHSss.
but anyways, went to mac to eat aftr tt n the 2 idiots were bio-ing girls. =.= blahblahs. n they're... typical guys =/ n we gossiped! LOL. damn funny lahs. some guys r just SO unexpectedly _____. SHOCKING LAHS!! some look so innocent de, but actually. OH man, wtf. hahahaa. laughed til i almost died cos lawrence was damn cracked up lahs! =ppp
then aft tt tio ps by tt kukunabu lawrence :((( ARGHs. n zijie n him were like clowning at the mrt station when zijie's fren walked past. some more is an nyjcian. omft. hahaa. then they continued power-ranger-ing n another bunch of zj's frens walked past. WTH man. hhaha. the 2 of them can go bang wall alr :ppp maluficationssss. lol. oh n then u noe wad, aftr tt i wanted to go buy smth, so zj pei-ed me go. n anw he wld b too early to reach compass if he left then, then i queued in the toilet for like 19 minutes just for a less than 1 min in the cubicle. stupid heartland mall is deprived of toilets :S lol. but anyways, finally bought it :D hehehes.
28th!! 28th!! QUICK QUICK COME!! woohoo!!~ ^-^
to appease those who know abt it n kp bugging me abt getting my mind off him by getting someone new, OH FINE im gonna find a new guy soon, to get my mind of him. HA. come on ppl, gimme recommendations. HA. some ppl actually recommend THAT particular person. LOL-ed lahs!! =D
AS IF I CAN FORGET EVRYTHING N LET GO SO EASILY?!?! ARGHHHHHHs.
but anyways, my daily dosage of personal thoughts tt i blog openly like nobody's business. hahaa.
have u ever spared a thot for me when i felt the distress of being alone when i needed u most?
have u ever spared a thot for me when u moved aside cos ur closest frens were thr?
One look. One smile. One touch. One embrace. One kiss. One love. Two people. Two minds. Two souls. Two destinies. One road. One journey. One ending. Together.
But one day. One matter. One new beginning.
me n cel at mrt station ystd.
found this in zc's phone. look at kaiwen's smile, omg damn cute lahs! wad was gg on then? wahahhas. plus simon's sian-diao face, n yuyang's glam! hahaha. only normal looking person was qiao you. LOL. xD *just click for details :D
during the step down. wads derek doing looking at smth behind ming kwang ahhh?
2 emo shyts today. esp lawrence cos he cant get HER no. AHAHAASHS jkjk. :ppp
i miss my darling!! AWWW. he's gonna b locked up for ONE WHOLE MONTH in the dark n warm cupboard in the co room, without me!! ALL BCOS I WAS A MIN TOO LATE TO RESCUE HIM!!
awww. i miss my darling alr. n it's only been one day since i last saw him!!
my darling erhu :((((
i told of my glory at 11:45 am
Saturday, 26 May 2007
BOO!
today was handover, the day that the j2s officially step down. it was... more of sadness, plus some of happiness. happy for the new exco. though most of it was alr known b4hand thru one way or another, it was an indescribable feeling seeing each exco j2 passing down smth of relevance to their position, to the newly stepped-up j1. the new pres, vpres, SLs, QMs, secretary, scorelib, studcond, congrats to all. u all deserve it. lead nyco to greater heights even though thr's no more syf next yr. it was v touching to c the various j1 juniors give out cards to their various section seniors. ming kwang, derek, kaili, xiang feng (michelle absent) were happy to get their card. i cld c ming kwang was v gandongs, or wad expression was tt in his eyes? wingyan was touched, the ex VPs were touched, by cards presented to them by NYCO.
when they stood infront of us n said wad they wanted to say about being newly elected,
i felt so small.
so small.
i wanted to just disappear.
just hide bhind the conductor's music stand.
but wingyan got me to come out fr bhind the stand.
i thot to myself.
wad did i work so hard for?
i knew it was for the position in zhco.
but now?
i really dont know.
as my motivations r gone one by one.
as the j2s i so cherish leave me.
luo jun, simon, yiling, u all can not bother abt this issue. u've always been consoling me, lending a listening ear, n esp to simon LENDING ME HIS SHOULDER *freakshyt, someone gonna get jealous.* =.= im not worth the concern regarding this when im the one throwing myself into despair. despite the many times i try, i fail to overcome this emotion barrier. wad cel says is true. im an over-achiever, over-ambitious, u get the flow. it gets on my nerves so much i really felt like killing myself today. so much that i cant even cry.
so much so i went to consultation n kept being distracted and missing the points ms hazel mentioned. even she noticed that i was very very very distracted today.
why m i stil like that. i thot i'd thot it thru. to hell with co exco. i'll just concentrate on my house. my phoenix. but fuck this bloody indescribable feeling. irritating shyt. sucks alot.
im not unhappy that im not in exco. i just feel so unmotivated. thr's no obligation to push me on. now that the j2s r stepping down, tel me wads the purpose of chionging? im seriously considering transferring back to dizi. whr thr's dom, jiamin n peiling. i want to leave the memories of XYZ bhind n look back n b happy. not experience XYZ without them. but i cant let go of XYZ like that.
it will seem like im running away fr the place i canot lead, not that i dont have a chance to, nor m i saying i definitely have a chance to, but i took away any possible chance with a stupid bird.
much as i like the phoenix + dragon + pegasus + griffin exco, i want smth of my own.
i stil want the sense of belonging in the family.
the family of nyco.
n when you've found someone new, i've become insignificant to nothing.
leave me to die.
i aint referring to him. it's YOU.
wads becoming of him?! blatant display of affection. shhucks. =/
i wanna be with u has ALOT of suspending cymbals parts.
no wonder he likes it, n i like it.
i told of my glory at 1:56 pm
Friday, 25 May 2007
boo. today was. a many-events-taken-place day. arghs.
main event~NYJC HOUSE EXCOs <3s started off with council investiture. n wow, kaiwen actually came to college only when i started duty, which is like 10.30am??! cos he walked in just when i walked down to the area i was supposed to usher at. =.="
anw, i did ushering at a uber ulu place whr i cld actually on music n entertain myself, talked to different ppl, been polite to the only few guests who came my way "good morning mdm, r u here for the investiture? .... this way pls" *n gives the signature smile. arghs. poser. even had time to tk some uber lammmme photos, *refer to end of post. n i got to know someone new! ahhhs. albert is a funny person. lols. stood at tt uber ulu n lonely place for an hour plus, with albert "floating" around occasionally, then went to move tables for the buffet. arhhhh. abit pro lei. then exco tk a v short time. i think 19 min? for a pioneer batch it's v good le k, considering the fact tt alot of info was either inaccurate or pure dumb n we had to figure evrything out using our smart brains. lol.
n we had bonding session! our own bonding session! lol. we sat arnd the table n discussed abt exco tee lo. but nice lahs, i finally know evry1 in the exco. :D then the food came, n smart smart us ATE some. serious! just some only!! then we unpacked the drinks. n even smarter than smart smart us decided tt those dented packages looked horrid so we shld get rid of them. n how did we get rid of them? by drinking them up :D
aftr tt we chiong-ed to C2 for our general meeting. thot wad serious stuff. in the end we played ice breaker LAHS. alamak. my new found fren was darren. lol. still have his name sticker with me >.<>.<
n kelvin, A UBER BIG SORRY TO U. sincere apologies. i attituded him when he called me up regarding some matter. in the end i chiong-ed back to college. arghs. wow i reached damn fast lahs, like fly like tt. n in e end i was waiting for him n dom, n saw someone i shouldnt c >.<
the standing broad jump mat. i cldnt possibly have jumped this far. :p
it dont look like me >.<
now tts me.
2 months it wld have been. if not for...
i told of my glory at 1:47 pm
Thursday, 24 May 2007
BOO! my 100th post on this blog.
i realised i've sort of bcome more sensible i think. i can handle some matters better alr. i didnt display my true emotions today. or at least i feel i didnt. cos no one commented on anythg odd. i've gotta tk things easy sometimes i guess. like wad yiling said "wads meant to b yours will b yours. if i wasnt meant to be, then let i go" it really made alot of sense to me. it wasnt right from the start when ppl who only knew each other for one day get tgt thru somehow. some stupid yet funny method which still makes me smile when i think of it. the only person who said smth odd was jessly, said i looked distracted. but at least i didnt emo. i think tts an act of maturity. hahaa. quote the leadership training trainer "emoing is an act of immaturity". hmms. but i definitely felt it was easier talking to someone else today, mayb cos he wasnt thr, or rather cos im free. i was really too tired of maintaining smth so underground esp with constant prompts fr ppl like zijie n luojun to open up. felt hurt initially, but i managed to let go more alr. i have such great frens n seniors around me, y shld i harp on smth that saddening?
well so today!! raised the flag in the morn. arghh. stupid rope is twisted here n thr, in the end the flag stuck in between the pole n rope. then canot fly. kukunana. =.= lessons were as usual boring, BUT!!
today i paid FULL attention during chem lecture n i understood evrything taught!! MAN3 ZU2 GAN3 LAHSs.
heavy blows do the weirdest things to ppl, or isit just me?
so had the jc combined orchestra today. practice was DEAD boring. arhhh, n me n lester r having alot of probs lahs cos must chgn alot of gong1 fa3. farkkk. i hate having to chgn gong fa aftr so many months of playing it this way. arghss.
oh n lame lame, me n idol were walking to mpr today n i was telling him abt.....
idol "y dont open up?"
hf "im tired of it alr lo"
idol *tries to open the cca room 2 door"
hf "wad u doing?!"
idol "open up ma. so i open the door lo. HAHAAHA"
=.="""
oh well, today during chinese on the way to toilet i walked the wrong way n saw him. he walked past me. i ignored him. n i he ignored me too. well, that's how the situation is now.
n of cos thanks so much to those who care. love those nice frens arnd me i have who keep me smiling n laughing.
it's no use apologizing now we've made the decision. u agreed, i agreed, so no regrets abt it.
we're just not meant to b in an rs tgt.
i told of my glory at 12:02 pm
Wednesday, 23 May 2007
boo.
i dont feel good at all.
not at all.
1. im not informed of ANYTHG.
2. i failed my maths test despite having studied so hard for it. i can say out loud I FAILED cos i know i definitely tried my best. couldnt even bring myself to cry. i failed by just half a mark. i got a miserable S instead of even just a pathetic E. I FAILED. FUCK THIS BLOODY FACT.
3. our 1-min challenge cancelled. just like that??!
4. im seriously ill, yet im laughing away like some mad shyt at nthg major.
5. it's the end of us.
im so disappointed in this. wad happened to the strong-willed hf evryone once knew. this really sucks big time. failure aftr failure, i know i didnt put in my best for my chem n chinese n econs. but i did my best for maths. wad the bloody hell happened? wads wrong with their system, have they ever considered wad time ppl sleep? wad if i slept early tonight? then i wont even know ANYTHG. wad if he nvr told me? ALL U BLOODY USELESS EXCO PPL. FARK OUT OF MY LIFE.
im not stating wad exco. infer urself.
n it's definitely the end. i need a break.
from you. you tire me too much.
how i wish it was someone else.
im not afraid to hurt u now.
fuck this life that sucks that much.
i hate this.
it hurts so much i just stare blankly. i cant even cry now.
listening ear?
i told of my glory at 1:34 pm
Tuesday, 22 May 2007
boo. some randomness from me. wad we did today.
done n taken by weijian
written by me n drawn by me n designed by me. awww. im proud of myself lahs. :)))
but aiya, wadever lo. thanks yiling for being a listening ear :)))
oh n wednesday. so looking forward to wednesday. =D CO + 1-min challenge by ME + phoenix.
i have listening ears thr, yet it cant seem to lighten my load of stress. m i stressing myself so unneccessarily? i dno i dno i dno!! i want to go to the top of the mountain n scream my heart out. scream shout wadevrr wadevrr. i hate this double-life im living. it feels so out-of-body. not some holy thing. but i feel so off-track, so disorganized. in class im like that, in nyco im like that, at home im like that. FARK. it's not even double-life. it's triple-life. feels damn sucky. someday im gonna split into threes. shyt this.
which is me in front of him?
i told of my glory at 1:59 pm
BOO!
had ltc briefing this morn. arghs. wasnt a good start to the day. lessons today were as usual kuku-ish boring. aftr lessons wanted to go i.nno with zj n class new i.nno ppl. wahhs. i.nno now has 3 of my class ppl in it. cooooool. but in the end weijian msged me just when my lessons had ended. to go do the co stuffs. so i went to meet him.
n the 2 of us wasted so much of our life away for like dno how long, chatting away. then talked abt the co exco stuffs. apparently he feels the same as me towards some particular person. no ill feelings, but far too realistic. sometimes it just sucks so much.
arghs. sometimes personal feelings get the better of one n leads to..... unhappiness.
aftr the co stuffs, weijian n kelvin were nice enough to pei me go the coffee shop dabao b4 gg to tk bus, thanks alot lahs!! :)))
someone used my name to tag at derek's board "i love u!! muacks!!" HAHAHAHAA. such a big joke =D ok now im laughing. laughing. n laughing again.
arhhhs i miss him i miss him i miss him.
i miss best fren i miss best fren i miss best fren.
i miss idol i miss idol i miss idol.
i miss all the kukunehnehs i miss all the kukunehnehs i miss all the kukunehnehs.
i miss nyco i miss nyco i miss nyco.
i feel so sucky lahs. so loserish. he feels the same way as me cos we have the same aims, the same thots, yet he gets smth else, i get sth else. tts so much of a bullshyt. we're equally disappointed. :(((((
i told of my glory at 11:21 am
Monday, 21 May 2007
boo. went to tn just now. it doesnt feel right anymore. nothing feels real. nothing seems familiar. i didnt even want to walk in. now tts a very great change.
i miss him. but i didnt feel like gg in to c him. why?
his post just makes me feel worse.
i hadnt even agreed. evrything just started like that.
we hadnt sorted out our thinking.
we hadnt known each other well enough.
wad did we do right?
nothing? i aint doubtful of that.
i told of my glory at 2:54 pm
BOO!
im such a boring person today. i woke up at 1.45pm n started doing hw fr 3.30pm-6pm.
or at least tts wad i feel abt this today. cos im so NUAH nowadays i dont even do my hw regularly.
it gets so much on my nerves that when ppl support me, it's in something i canot achieve cos im tied to smthg else. it brings the word regret into my mind, yet is an irreversible process. it mattered so much to me tt they who were willing to vote for me. it sounded like crap to me in that situation that day. but my crap actually gave them the reason to waste one vote on me. n they were serious abt it. it may not have been many votes combined, but definitely significant enough to grant me one chance. otherwise y would the someone have asked me tt qn? this may seem insignificant to others. but it means alot to me that ppl place their faith in me. esp ppl who r not obliged to vote for me, ppl who r just acquaintances with me. it gets so irritating i feel im wasting away.
wad i wanted was for others to place their confidence in me. yet now tt ppl place their confidence in me, my hands r tied bhind me as i watch this chance slip by.
house exco really sucks alot at times. im sorry.
i wanna b with u
ai ni hao xin fu
xiang yao he ni jian zao yi ge ai qing de xiao wu
i wanna b with u
ai ni hao man zu
xiang shou zui tian me de shu fu
you ni de ke hu wo bu zai gu du
i thot this is supposed to b sang by a girl to her guy? :p
it's such a nice nice nice shhweeeet song.
i told of my glory at 9:32 am
Sunday, 20 May 2007
BOO! im just back from baoyu's chalet. at 3am, here i m blogging away b4 off to sleep.
spent ystd morn doing phoenix board in college. ZZZ. some unpleasant stuffs happened, shant elaborate. made me n shipei DAMN hellofa pissed. but anyways, i think it was pretty productive n mr yeo, ms ong n mr v tan dropped by to comment aftr the college day ended. mr kwek was even nice enough to ask us go tk food fr the buffet too. lols. n awwww. something nice happened lahs! made me doubly happy happy. though it wasnt entirely...... successful, but it's the effort he puts in that matters! n i can c the effort!! jiayou lahs k, heeheehee. *oops. :)))
aftr tt went to orchard to meet zj, cel, bird, mun for gai gai. zzz. bran left by e time i reached lahs. n cherny didnt join us bcos he was too tired fr training. think it was quite fun today lahs. laughing away at silly stuffs n walking til our legs wana break. n we watched ethan ong, talent at age 7, drummer, winner of drumfest 2007 under-12 category. impressive boy he is! c the way he paly drumset, it might mk luojun wana go bang wall. HA :ppp *jk lahs idol :D but really, c the way he play n *faints* LOL. cool seh!
then aftr tt went to far east n MET ELISA thr!! omft lahs. she was with her husband, so yahs, cldnt talk much. lol. then jiu go meet nicole + ryan for pool at paradiz, then headed to pasir ris for baoyu's chalet. nothing much though :(((( n im so tired fr today's business lahs.
oh n anways, think i dont wana b bothered with the misunderstanding of doink doink's identity. she can blabber all she want to her imaginary fren n i shant waste my time accessing her blog anymore to read funny stuffs. wheeees. im nice lahs! WOOHOO~ =D
i've had enough of EVIL laughter. im gonna laugh HAPPY laughs :))))
he gives me evry reason to laugh happily when i have him, MY guy to MYSELF. unlike the self-tortures n self-denial of having to admire in the dark, n being happy when u get close. aww. those were my past.
I LOVE THE PRESENT!! =D
off to sleep.
i told of my glory at 6:10 pm
Saturday, 19 May 2007
BOO!
AWWWWW. SHE FOUND OUT ALR!! private blog le! awww. sadness lahs!! AWWWWW. SADNESS LAHS. NO MORE LAUGHTERSSS. boooooooo :ppppp
at least idol n i got a kick out of it laughing away at her mistake >.< s
ometimes it just seems so normal that i'll just sit thr n stone. stone. stone. till i fall aslp. out of the 10 times i stone, i fall aslp 5 times. how horrible can that b. i seem to b turning into another person when im alone. oh hoho, but that dont mean im fake. i just seem to b so lazy this moment, typing away ranting away to nobody's business, then i'll b such a mugger the next, forcing tutorials on myself til i wana die. or even just laughing like no tmr n being seen in an unglam state, being unconscious abt my own surroundings, doing the things i shldnt ever b caught doing, not doing things i shld b doing, being fickle-minded, undecisive, regretful, irritated, farkedup attitude, rmbring things i shldnt, forgetting things i shld rmbr, being sarcastic to ppl, i shldnt b failing tests, the jealousy i feel at the slightest things, the things that i do as a result of the jealosy, things i do which harm no one else but myself.
sometimes i feel so out of place even in a place i seem to blend so well in. i just want to shut myself at a corner n die by myself. let me just rot thr like nobody's business. good job. it's a vicious cycle. i once did it to someone unintentionally. now it's happening to me doubly. fark this life i lead in the jc. wad used to b the happy huifang has bcm just a strong front put up to convince u that she's happy n not having mood-swings. yes yes yes, thats the noisy n cheery huifang u c. once in a pink moon u c the emo her. but that's just cos she's really breaking apart.
the rubber band of her life is stretching so much it's hurting terribly alr. tugging at my heart like a timebomb waiting to go off. when it breaks, thats it.
a listening ear is wad i alr have. thanks alot to fren. for listening to my rants for more than an hour n making me feel so much better.
wads gonna happen?
i need.... a shoulder to cry on when tt day comes.
but not his.
i told of my glory at 2:12 pm
BOO!! HAHHAHA. im stil laughing away. alright. think im really darn evil. wth lahs. cos it's really damn funny can. ahhahas. even luojun laugh til siao lahs. HAHAHAHAA. wad the kukunaden. n oh since it aint copyrighted i shall quote some make-me-wana-laugh-n-pengs part.
"but too bad i still have to go through the sufferings for the rest of my jc life in co because of some stupid people--the J1s."
-> r u smart? i dont think so lei how ahs?
"really cant stand their fake looks" >.< -->fake=plastic surgery? OH NO!! aiya, then sit their real looks lo.
"i hate people who are not truthful to others, and most imptly to themselves."
-->howd u know wad they think to themselves? oh ic, u're versed in mind-reading!!
"why must they always put on different masks when they see different people? hypocrites."
--> aww. come on. ppl have a reason for their actions, even if they dont share it with u, n sometimes it aint up to passerbys to judge! HURHUR.
put smaller font cos i c no point in putting such kukunaden things SO BIG for the world to c n tk up space in my blog, since my blog aint dead. ha.
left college alone today cos had phoenix exco meeting. aww. sadness lahs :((( but!!! i walked out damn slowly, n thot abt some stuffs while listening to an EMO song (uh, shyt. simon influenced me alr) n i thot of myself n how i've been treating the ppl arnd me.
-wad zj says is true. i may c it as being friendly, but he may c it as being too intimate with a fren. though a dumb way of thinking, but i finally thot it thru, n i shant argue back.
-i've been stoning n sleeping at just the wrong times in the day. in tutorials, in lectures, got caught twice today alr. i should start staying AWAKE in lessons.
-start balancing frenships :)))))
-laughed at a girl who had this major misunderstanding abt me, thinking i like her guy. oh correction. not HER guy. it's her eye candy. :))) too bad she just misunderstood DOINKDOINK's identity. aww. doink, dont b sad alright, she's nthg lahs! =D oh n abt this, mayb i shld stop being so evil =D DONT LAUGH AT OTHERS LA. very bad lei!! :ppp
it's a new beginning aftr the syf. walk along the corridors, seeing the same few seniors each day. waves hi to derek, waves hi to ming kwang, waves hi to samantha, n waves + scowls + BLAHS at simon (aww. someone ENVIOUS of me? AHHAAHAH. shyt being bad bad agn.). this is such a different life. rushing tutorials, chionging econs, calculating maths, crapping gp, sleeping chinese, n of cos, passing tests. PASS PASS PASS!! GOGOGO!! WOOHOO~
some things that happened in nyco made me chgn my perspective towards many things in life.
tts y im that attached to nyco =D
I LOVE NYCO ^-^
okok luojun, now i know how u felt last time. HA. but seriously, i think it's really a different situation lahs! WOOHOO!!~ *im stil laughing away.
laugh laugh laugh, n laugh til i mk myself forget him. let him go b with his frens. i go home study. study my foot lahs. kukunaden u are. lols. SHOO! doink doink doink doink n doink. lalala. I LOVE HIM n HE LOVE ME, u enVIous? AWWWW.
i told of my glory at 10:02 am
Friday, 18 May 2007
HEY LUOJUN, YOU KNOW WAD, U'RE REALLY MY IDOL THAT I LOOK UP TO!!
aww. smart luojun told me of how he located my blog last time. n i tried smth similar to look for A's blog, only to end up somehow at B's blog cos i saw a related topic! n here's the catch, IM MENTIONED IN B's BLOG!! woohoo!! n not only in ont post! oh n since im pretty sure B reads my blog by hinting tt she "read between the lines", HELLO THERE, YEA IT'S U. I KNOW IT'S YOU. DONT WORRY I DONT BITE.
MY DOINK DOINK AINT YOUR EYE CANDY COS IM 100% BLOODY FARKING BET-MY-HEAD-MY-ASS-MY-FACE-N-ANYTHG-ELSE SURE YOU COULDNT HAVE EVER KNOWN HIM B4 COMING TO NANYANG.
when he aint fr ur sec sch, aint fr ur pri sch, aint fr ur kindergarten. nor fr ur mom.
n dreaming to b a preS? dream on. a pres is supposed to b holy. :))))
if u're holy, im a genius. n i aint one :))))
so u aint one either!
feels so good to b sarcastic without a single tinge of anger within me.
COS IM FASCINATED AND TICKLED BY HER CONFIDENCE THAT SHE'S RIGHT!! awww. alright i shant b that bad to laugh at others that badly. but seriously, i was laughing my butt off.
dont make funny inferences which r OH-SO-OUT. it makes me wana laugh till i die!!
cos MY TASTE ISNT TT GOOD TO GO FOR THE SAME GUY AS YOU DARLING. n i alr have MY OWN GUY YEA. it's SO obvious who's YOUR eye candy now girl, i aint stupid. one toe off the line n BOOM, thr goes ur blog entry to the CO!! WOOHOO~
n YOU, dont have the right to call him doink.
if u think by origin of that name, u're wrong too.
smart girl.
thanks for the misunderstanding though. n i didnt know u actually think i appear cute thank u.
oh n last point, think i fancy u? nono. im just being nice to EVERYONE by putting on a smile.
i might bite you someday! *oh wait a min, i think i mentioned earlier that i dont bite, well, that was a lie. i do bite.
do watch out yea.
WOOHOO!! SUDDENLY I APPRECIATE MY IDOL ALOT =D THANKS ALOT IDOL!!
i told of my glory at 2:53 pm
BOO! today finally took maths test. like FINALLY lahs. for once i think i can pass a test in jc. mayb even do slightly better than a just past? but arghhs. spent the whole day xin1 bu4 zai4 yan1 lo.
1. during the 1.5hr chem tutorial today, i suddenly thot of wanting to eat mix in a bowl for break just 45 mins into the lesson.
2. kept thinking abt some really personal stuffs that i'd nvr EVER think of during lessons.
felt so vexed. lucky with ppl like sher, ivy n weiyi to mk me feel better.
sometimes im thinking. y is it so much in human nature to b the first. he can tel me straight in the face, that he's wants to go over just so he can take the first seat. how realistic he can b. when he knows im fighting for that seat too, yet he can just tel me in such a casual tone. is that a challenge or wad. i myself know that i canot beat him in that if we really do compete for that seat. that's y im not gg to fight for that alr. fr the day i stepped into ny n i knew he was coming too, i'd given up hopes to b in that seat ever again. arghs. i hate being second. i admit. esp in an area whr i've invested so much of my time in, put in so much effort in, n worked so hard at. sometimes it gets so tiring i want to give up, yet i hold on with the hope n aim of being the ultimate leader someday. now that can no longer come true for nyco. n now even the hope of taking that seat is dashed. wads gg on. nthg has been gg right all the way for me since my entry to nyjc. i dont deny i tend to put myself b4 ppl sometimes just to give the typical good impression. im being honest with myself now. being reflective. but no matter wad i do, i stil have my frens' interests at heart wadevrr actions i take. i dont do things to harm ppl physically or mentally. yet he's dg this to me now. him- my fren, my buddy. im beginning to think too much abt co.
alright, i aint emo lahs. just thinking abt some stuffs. if only we cld go back to the past, whr u werent thr to give me the stress. just how i targetted at minghan until he bcame the student conductor, then i took tt seat. felt that good.
that's all im gonna rant abt.
oh ahhhs. simon sucks lahs. kukunanabanana.
"den play mi emo songs... end up huifang v emo... dunno go toilet cry how mani times... haha..."
ahems. I DIDNT CRY LAAAA. go toilet also wrong >.< :'(((
"after tt went J8 subway for dinner... chitchatted... haha... i'll let hf off this time... can use something in my hp to black mail her... "
ehhhs. i dunchh caree :D just some mildly unglamm pics lo. whees~ LALALA
saturday, saturday, saturday.
im happy we made it thru.
i told of my glory at 10:30 am
Thursday, 17 May 2007
BOO! I JUST REACHED HOME AT 1030pm!! LOL.
qing gong yan today for NYCO!~ whooos~
abit disorganised lahs! LOL. many ppl were stil MIA at 3.10pm. zzz. balloons were burst even b4 celeb started. ARGH~ zi-highness. hahaa. but arhs, ALAMAK. kenna assassinated by BALLOONS. kuku zhinan, ruilong n weijian lahs! AIM at my face. eee. then some more so zhun de derek come out of store just to c me kenna bombed by a balloon he stand thr n LAUGH lahs. BOO. i dont fancy balloons bursting in my face. lol. but it was fun lahs =D then thr was this 5kg cake woohoo!! weijian kept gg back for more choc. LOLs. chose CO EXCO. think... abit joke. alot of girls intro saying they want secretary or score librarian or wadever. lols. I WANT TO B PRESIDENT!! I WANT TO B VICE-PRES!! I WANT TO B SL!! ARGHs. actually managed to convince a few ppl to believing im gg for percussion!! N THEY PUT MY NAME DOWN FOR PERCUSSION SL LAHS!!? lol. i aint even thr yet lahs. boo. first i convinced, lester, then i convinced rui long, then i convinced qiao you, kai wen n etc those percussion ppl who were thr. ha. DAMN FUNNY LAHS. they didnt believe i wanna go percussion at first.
erscoosh meee arhssh! bluff u all got $$ tk arh?! LOL. but they wrote my name down lahs! LOL. laugh til wana pengs~ woohoo.
studied maths with jessly yiling lester with help fr simon =D I GOT MY MI IN MY MIND LE!! WOOHOO!! :))))) n just when i was emo-ing away while listening to some emo songs fr simon's phone lahs.
"Hope you're not too sad and continue to contribute to nyco. A true leader is one who believes in doing what is right and beneficial for the masses whether he or she has a title."
ok i understand. i'll stil love NYCO as much =D
alright. i expected it. but i cant help but keep my hopes high with the encouragement from the frens n seniors arnd me. thanks ppl for the support, but AIYA. saddd. no regrets i shall say. bullshyt lahs. lament to lj a few days ago n he mentioned tt i shldnt regret now tt im in the house exco. :(((((
dinnered with simon n yiling at j8 subway. sorry arhs, emo shyt at night. small misunderstanding. n yea thanks alot to simon for lending me ur ears. n literally lending such that i hv to return =.= zzz. wadevrr lo. felt BRIGHT lahs :))) heeheehee~ but really thank the 2 of them for their concern cos i was.... emo-ing? ok tts how they put it lahs. but aiya, jst minor quarrel again lahs, nthg big. lol.
OH n THANKS IDOL!! i've cheered up le, cos one thing was also that i was tired. n i'll stop DAO-ing u le la k!! =D
jialats~ keep unglamming infront of weijian!! WHY WHY WHY!!?? shyt lahs. evrytime i laugh or scream in an unglam way he's always in front of me. BOO. jialats. hahaa.
celeb @ st james powerstation on 28th may!!
aww. no probs. i know how it was today. we were just talking n someone came over n said we're wadevrr alr. lol. im alr used to the fact tt ur frens matter more at times. since u've known each other for so long. n i know at times im not being nice either. but i hope u'll jst give me more attention at times alright. market equilibrium= when price demanded for the quantity demanded is at a stable condition. *self-rephrased.
it felt good when we chatted openly, we dont have to b like janice n luojun, but definitely much better if u even tk the initiative to talk at times :)))))
im stil a happy girl today.
i told of my glory at 2:59 pm
Wednesday, 16 May 2007
BOO!
TMR IS THE DAY!! *luojun wad u thinking of? IT's THE DAY OF THE QING GONG YAN!! wheee.
arghs. started off abit anti-social today. heavy rain makes me feel so relaxed n my mind feels so much at ease. it felt so lonely n yet so peaceful. n oh im really feeling so sick. sneezing like nobody's business today. think i sneezed the most no. of times in my life within a day today. felt so WEAK lahs. idiot me lo, jacket in locker, lazy to take. so sneeze away at the freezing cold LT4. oh n anw really alot of thanks to brandon's stupidity that made me feel so..... =.= today lahs. arghs. lessons today were ok, nthg much. went to study at cartel aftr school with chloe n cel. plus joyce, chris mummy, lawrence n zi can the zi cai who came ltr. chomp chomp-ed n home to sneeze away.
pls pls pls let me recover by tmr morn 7am pls pls!! sNEEZINg is HORRIBLE. oh n shyt, weijian saw my unglamness today cos he was at the next table in the canteen n he saw me laughing like some mad girl when ruolin tolf me abt the "neh mind" joke. :ppp oops. freakshyt lahs.
sometimes i really enjoy myself in class so much i can choose not to think abt co, co n co. saw derek, kaiwen, kaili, yuyang n blahs. awww. i love the seniors lahs xD ehh shyt, that emotiface is not usable lahs. wahahaas. :)))))) but i c the drumsticks only arhs, HAIIIIII.
co exco tmr. GAH. alr hopeless yet stil hanging on to that strand of hope. vote for me? =D
there comes the day when i'll b the one u'll say
it's gonna b me.
i told of my glory at 11:45 am
Tuesday, 15 May 2007
boo. it feels great when u have frens arnd u who bother to listen, n hear u rant on n on abt ur own problems, giving u advice n making u feel so much better. or even just one. just one such fren is enough.
abi n zhenwen, i miss u 2 so much.
i miss the days in zh whr we crapped n talked abt guys n such.
im glad i have at least one such fren in ny now :))))
who helped me c wad's wrong, n wad i can do now.
thanks so much.
i told of my glory at 2:12 pm
BOO!
I MISS CO LAHS!!
i miss the pracs can??! today no msg of "wad time dismiss? 4.30pm co room ok?", no laments abt co today (which weren't laments aftr all).
looking out for seniors i so miss looking at, n i only saw ming kwang n yuyang once arnd the college today. looking for fellow j1s whom we fought alongside with, n i only saw a few others. such a disappointment. i cant believe im emo-ing over the lack of co prac. WTF lahs. wads wrong with me. today, huifang was an overly-sad-turned-crazy girl. ate chicken, chicken, n more chicken. my meals today were--- CHICKEN. shyt.
i nvr ate so much chicken within a day b4.
someone came n sarcastic me. wad u know is that i know nthg abt percussion. wad u dno that i know abt percussion might just scare u out of ur bananas. n mind u, it's CHINESE ORCHESTRA percussion. IM A CHINESE ORCHESTRA PLAYER.
it's such a bad day im having. not once during the chiong-ing period did i ever encounter such a day, other than when i was scolded by tcher.
if u'd just recall the 52 days of happiness we've shared.
u'll know not once did i ever regretted choosing u
i'd rather not go for greener lands, yet it seems so inevitable at times.
ppl romancing away, shwweetnesss.
apologies for breaking her heart, apologies for emo-ism.
i want no sorries. i want the acknowledgement of my existence.
JI DE AI IS A NICE SONG~
i told of my glory at 1:43 pm
Monday, 14 May 2007
boo.
i feel so lost. some part of my life is missing.
why?
IM HAVING POST SYF SYNDROME.
im missing co pracs, im missing my kukunehnehs, im missing my other seniors too.
im missing that suspending cymbal.
im missing that dirty floor (that's now clean all thanks to derek), that oh-so-"romantic" storeroom, im missing the lame jokes, the bluetooth sessions, the eye contacts, the guessing of y tt person kp tou tou miao the other person, n the cheeky smiles.
no motivation, tts wad i said abt nyco last time cos i was always harping on someone from the past tt i thot was my only motivation. i was wrong. the motivations were all thr. great frens, great seniors. the nervousness i felt last yr during the dsa audition until a senior made me feel more assured by talking to me =D (u noe who u r! :)), all the fun at the chalet though i was PS-ed by lester, all thanks to great seniors who were thr, a kuku misunderstanding which made me wana die from the embarrassment, which was settled thanks again to another senior, all the fun n laughter n jokes n tears this year, all thanks to the greatest seniors i can ever have.
stil no motivation?
i'd b bullshyting.
the past was nthg. it's the present, n the future i cherish.
i told of my glory at 2:34 pm
Sunday, 13 May 2007
BOO! some pics i realised i didnt upload!!
@ SCH,
yifei looks weird cos he's wearing NY PANTS with co top,
yuyang looks weird cos he's wearing NY TOP with co pants,
n kaiwen n qiao you look normal cos they're wearing co top with co pants. LOL x)
DINNER! @ KFC~ *simon's expression...??? :))))
wow. rui long trying to imitate the GONG FU the action SIA!! =D
simon n derek r so LOVING in public when simon sat on derek's lap on the bus!! xP
derek seems headless when taken fr this angle bcos of the sunlight fr the other end :))))
I LOVE CO KUKUNEHNEHS~
I WANT PERCUSSION~
I LOVE CO SENIORS~
I LOVE NYCO!! :))))
i told of my glory at 2:43 pm
BOO! went to college early in the morn!! for leadership training lahs. not for co. :((( *SOBS.
no co = one empty place in my mind, felt so lost. walked into the college n didnt meet my usual dosage of co ppl. :((( i want the practices to go on. i want to go to percussion. wahs, saw kaiwen's nick "Percussionist forever" when did he bcm so dedicated to co??! LOL. not being sarcastic lahs, but then. LOL. I WANT TO B A PERCUSSIONIST TOO!! pls pls pls? ystd's session was FUN FUN +FUN = FUN FUN FUN!! i want i want i want DRUM + SUSPENDING CYMBAL + WOODEN FISH + BLAH BLAH BLAH = I WANT PERCUSSION!!!! i want co!! i miss co alr lahs. just 2 days without the songs is alr so buay tahans tt i kp listening to our recordings :))))
I WANT MY EYE CANDY I WANT MY DARLING I WANT MY NICE NICE NICE SENIORS I WANT THE PRETTY SUSPENDING CYMBAL I WANT THE BIG BIG DRUM I WANT THE MAOMAO BASS DRUM STICK I WANT CO I WANT MUSIC SCORES I WANT THE SMILES I WANT MY SENIORS I WANT THE LAUGHTER I WANT THE JOKES I WANT EVRYTHING IN CO I WANT NYCO I WANT I WANT I WANT!!!!!!!!!!
drum sticks drum sticks DRUM STICKS!! SOON!! when im allowed to go to percussion, i'll go get my own!! somehow. hahhahah. =D
shhhh!!
i tend to tk love slowly?
NO LAHS. like so damn hell fast. woohoo!! *zj think go whr lers. lol.
all it took was one sentence to get me going :)))
NYCO FOREVER. =D
KUKUNEHNEH HUQIN o7 LOVES~
great seniors + splendid juniors, THAT's US!! WOOHOO!! bhb-ness~
that's wad i did during the training.
the real me-im locking myself up by preventing myself from doing wad i want to do at times, n im breaking the box to release the music in me. :)))))
followed by the me i want ppl to c- the huifang who leads a colourful life, n mainly orange cos orange is a happy colour. the big smiley + small words which canot b seen which state "caring, loving, happy n music".
I LOVE HIM!!
i told of my glory at 7:23 am
Saturday, 12 May 2007
BOO!! PICTURES!!!
today 2 main highlights- dinner with zijie, brandon, chernron, cel, n bird. n PERCUSSION AT CO ROOM!! hahahaa. damn FUN lahs~
waited like kuku for cel in college with other pae24ers when jessly called me n i ran to co room to WOOHOO with her, yiling, veron n simon!! FUN~ i think i seriously need to practise alot if i really get into percussion. cos my lun zou is OMG lahs. nan ting~ ha. but i managed to recall a little the band style of it lahs. oops. ha. then zijie also came, then the few of us were..... murdering the percussion instruments lahs. :D but it was fun, fun, fun plus fun :)))) hehehes. seriously considering gg to percussion lerr!! I WANA GO!! I WAN PLAY PAI GU!! I WAN PLAY SUSPENDING CYMBAL!! =D yay-ness~ i love percussion lahs, too bad last time zhco tt time i nvr join cos gotta learn yangqin b4 percussion n i DONT LIKE yangqin last time. HA!
then aftr tt went to dinner at chomp chomp with the ppl! mentioned abv. hahaa. shared food again!! WOOHOO~ yum yum yum. but arhs, aftr tt shi eat not full de lo. but we talk talk talk then laugh until full lerr. LOL. pengs~ n we were damn noisy lahs seriously :D love them so much!! BIRD N CHERNY!! MISSES~ bird n cherny r stil as lame lame as ever. =D
n OH YAHS, saw luo jun n janice when i was outisde college with bird n zj. stuuuuupid idol say "5 days more to open lahs." walao ehhh. stupid zj stil side with him. BOOO. we then dowan like lj n janice arhs. LOL. ltr kenna shoot by ppl. I SHY!!
oh yahs, moe syf concert 10 july. woohoo!! WE'RE TAKING PART!!! =D
me n derek ACT CUTE shot ZERO!! =D
me n derek ACT CUTE SHOT ONE~ :)))
simon looks pretty eh? :p shot thanks to jessly
me n simon LAHS~ :)))))))
KUKUNEHNEHs ACT CUTE!! :D *lk at derek's face.
aww. cute no matter wad u do. u were unglam today lahs. so diu lians n i saw!! LOL. oh shyt.
i told of my glory at 1:54 pm
Friday, 11 May 2007
BOO!! today was FUN lahs. =D
NYCO GOLD!! woohoo!! though thr were small mistakes here n thr, n thr was a quite obvious mistake, WE STIL DID IT! GOLD!! aftr all the late nights, all the efforts, all the YAWNS n LAMENTS, IT'S A GOLD!! though when we came down fr the stage n evry1 was disappointed, we knew we'd done our best. hiccups r inevitable on stage. tts wad happened to zhco this yr too. to make up for it, we had good music sense n tai2 feng1. i really felt like i was running with the orchestra. running towards the ending point. though other jcs may c us only under the light of WALAO EH ONE BIG MISTAKE STIL GOLD. but i dont care!! :D we played as an orchestra, as a team, as one family. it was great. it was splendid. IDOL LJ was so greatly discouraged aftr our competition. IDOL, FAN ALWAYS SUPPORTS U NO MATTER WAD LAHS!! =D he said get bronze lahs! GO N DIE LAH kuku nana!! but it was really, an emotional process while we waited for the results n ppl who had to go back to college actually PIA down in cab!! =D n surprised tt qiao you, kaiwen etc etc were the first to reach??!! LOL. but they cldnt come in lahs, due to limited places :(((( whole team not tgt physically. but when we heard the GOLD, CHEERED, CRIED, HUGGED. WE DID IT!!
our 3 cheers cheer was like damn loud lahs. hahaa!! LED BY YOURS TRULY in a so unglam way seen by all ppl at the reception hall. shyt. cos i led it damn loudly. woohoo!!! hahhaa. diu lians lahs!!! =.=
n RJ's shanghai sui xiang or smth like tt, sounded nice!! their guan yue + percussion is woohoo!! plus the big big bells thingy. hahaaa. then SA's self chosen song also nice lo, sound like sm tibetan song. heard it smwhr b4!!! I LIKE IT!!! n of cos AJ, their gong zhu is...... WOW. seriously, u can c the marked difference between the GOLD n the SILVER.
my parents say kaiwen's action looked abit unnatural!! LOL. when i told him he =.=""" lahs!! the FARMER THING!!! :ppppp n my mom said the big white drum player (referring to qiao you) -(wahs he looked damn anxious to know wad my mom said abt him when i described his bass drum. LOL) looked PRO n luo jun looked PRO n suona WOOHOO!! hahaa. oh n BASS. my mom actually commended them too lahs but dont want tel zijie ltr his head big arhs, then uh-ohhhh. LOL.
plus plus plus, me n derek zi lian-ed n acted cute using heidi's phone today. WOOHOO! we're cute lahs!! WHEEEES. upload the photos some other day!!
ming kwang our dearest SL was super nice today too, gave us each a block of hershey's dark choc as form of encouragement!! =D
but anyways, saw 3 ppls unglamness!!
1- ming kwang banging into the wall :p well, tt sounds bad. actually is cos walk under the stairs, then he raised his head n CONK! lucky only i saw, but now many ppl know thanks to me!! =D
2- yiling's merlion stunt at dinner
3- jessly running aftr simon n ended up her slipper left bhind :)))) LOL
oh n kaiwen is plain KUKU lahs. was sending arnd the recording of our syf today.
hf- how big is the file size? *looks over at his phone n sees a thousand plus KB.
kw- 1 gig.
hf- oh ok. *having the idea in mind of 1MB.
*3 seconds ltr,
kw- eh? y i say 1 gig arh? then u stil arh until so shuang?
hf- ..... OH SHYT LAHS!!
lunch was nice, VEGETARIAN FOOD. hahaha. damn big joke abt it lahs. stand with heidi n zijie talking with some of the perc guys, then also talked to des n sarene + one of their fren. yay-ness!! =D SAW XIAO BAI!! he's in YJ now, but stil as joker. hahaa.
went back to college n wanted to let mr kwek know of our good news, so we walked in to college calling "MR KWEK!" LOL. then walked on way to co room announcing to the world tt we got GOLD!! hahahaa. chao ai xian sia!! we're proud of ourselves!! WOOHOO!! =D
dinnered with jessly, yiling, kelvin, dominic, xiangfeng, rui long n simon. amk hubbed but no place for 8 ppl at food court, so we went to kfc. BOO. 2 PIECE CHICKEN IS UNGLAMNESS. hahaha. jess took a few pics of pretty simon =D wahahaas. they were being crazy by playing hai3 dai4 n xi3 shua1 shua1 in kfc!! LOLs. oh n was arguing with kelvin abt wad instru i noe how to play. hmms. got snare drum, suspending, the doink doink thing, THEN, dizi A,B,C,D,E,F,G, erhu A,Bflat,C,D,E,F,G, gaohu + zhonghu diaos so i win!! SO MANY!!! hahaa. but he arhs, TSK. small drum, big drum, 4 timpanis, gong, blah blah blah all the percussions! BOO!!! I WANNA GO PERC!!!
QING GONG YAN ON WEDNESDAY!! VEGETARIAN!! HAHAHAHA. jk jk jk. it's co's private joke!! hahaaa.
problem with blogspot!! I CANT UPLOAD MY CUTE PICS WITH DEREK!! I CANT UPLOAD THE PICS OF PRETTY SIMON!! I CANT UPLOAD MY PIC WITH SIMON!! I CANT UPLOAD MY PIC WITH HUQINO7!!
luo jun, we're announcing our engagement next week at qing gong yan!! LOL. JOKING LAHS. as if we'd open up tt soon lo. shy lahs :))))
anyways, it aint ur fault. it's a team effort. nyco goes up as a team, goes down as a team. no one left bhind. mistake? no probs, u aint the only one. nyco dont blame u :)))))
oops, lj knew like ages ago, but nvr mind lahs. he's my idol mahs!! :))) oh n good job done today. u were great on stage (who cares wad my mom said abt u) n we've gotten the gold. but no engagement! not tt easy a job for u =D who cares wad idol said :p but now u all r leaving co in 2 weeks time. co's gonna b so different w/out u.
i told of my glory at 2:53 pm
Thursday, 10 May 2007
BOO! 10 hours of co today!! WOOHOO!! n i spent about a total of an hour in total on sleeping =D
8am-12.15pm n 1pm-6pm. co totally blew me away today. omft lahs. was running away at some point in time cos my shoulder really ached like WAT THE FARK. zzz. lucky is left shoulder. if is right, then i REALLY give up. boooo. went to co room to slack cos evry1 else was at MPR on 2nd level. ha. only percussionists at co room. so it was PEACEFUL lahs. booo. really wanted to toot off alr can. zzz. thr was this time aftr lunch when alot of ppl were sleeping at MPR. using their chairs as table. then sit on floor. lols. the AIR CON is shuang lahs. (lj, air con arh, not "air con") =D
think i was quite slack in the morn till early aftrnoon.
morn was spent revising our actions n blahs, then aftrnoon was combined at lt4.
oh b4 that,
IDOL LJ IS A BIG KUKUNANA NANANA!! idiot lahs go read my inbox msgs!!? idiot me also lo, left my hp on the chair aftr waking up, then walked away leaving it thr. ltr when i saw him at the chair bside my hp, i took it away!! BUT TOO LATE!! OMFT!! lucky.... deleted.... or saved other place... inbox nthg much left. hahaa. only got idol's msgs n other frens'.
but he's like damn bad lahs! AIYO. but he's honest enough to admit lahs :)))))
so I DID MY PART FOR CO TODAY!! i brought the suspending cymbals to the lt4 along with my erhu n stuffs. I LOVE SUSPENDING CYMBALS LAHS!! it's SO NICE!! i love the sound!! then carried it, put it on stage, started spinning cymbal, for watever reason! ahaha. then suddenly heard
*AHEMS. SUSPENDING CYMBALS NOT FOR U TO PLAY DE. (in mandarin)
wahs, wana give me heart attack. couldnt find the source of it so ignored, until when i realised tt simon was upstairs. ALAMAK. unglamness. the kukuness of me spinning a suspending cymbal??!! ARGHs. hahaa. but anyways, aftr prac I ALSO CARRIED THE SUSPENDING CYMBAL BACK TO CO ROOM!! WOOHOO! n i forgot my own jacket at the lt4. booo. diu lians!! lucky janice tk for me. hahaa. thanks ar thanks ar!! WOOHOO! chao diu lians~ :ppp
but anyways, lester says it's gaohu for him aftr syf. so it's most prob i wana go to percussion alr. go for the big drum! but most importantly the SUSPENDING CYMBAL!! shyt shyt. now im so crazy over the suspending cymbal lers! NO MEANING TO IT k. :)))))
oh n anw, suspending cymbal player was scolded til very jialats today. lol. im evil lahs stil laugh at him.
TODAY'S BIGGEST JOKE: of myself.
ming kwang told us this morn, that if tmr anyone's erhu xian broke, DONT PANIC n just play on FAKE lahs. then i was like thinking tt tt wont happen de bahs cos it's abit kua zhang if the gong actually flies tt high when faking. but FARK. THAT HAPPENED TO ME ON LT4 STAGE WHEN IT WAS THE FAKE-COMPETITION!! N I PANICKED!! i was like laughing at myself cos i c my hui2 tiao2 floating infront of my face cos the xian alr broke n twisted lahs. wad the FARK. damn stupid situation. i laughed n played the rest 2 mins of da gui. hahaa. then when end n stand, i laughed n ding scolded! ARGHs. damn diu lians. ming kwang almost went crazy nagging at me aftr tt. BUT DAMN FUNNY N DIU LIANS LAHHHH. some more at tt time got band ppl thr alr! then guo lao shi had to chgn xian for me cos i was fretting so much tt i cldnt seem to fit the xian in. hahah!! SHYT.
cause of breaking of xian-
`hui2 tiao2 turned far too tight, making it easy-to-break.
`2221612 notes played ended too violently n my gong hooked the xian tts wad caused it to break.
arghs. i feel so stupid lahs. bang the wall n die. boooooo.
i've done wad i shouldnt, stil doing things i shldnt, n wil do things i shouldnt.
im too easily coaxed into believing in giving u a second chance.
but 4 hours ltr, u throw it away.
not into the bin. but down the drain.
no more. no more. no more.
we're frens now. good frens.
but the feelings r thr n we know it. how?
as the man, how wil n manage this matter?
or r u stil just a boy?
SYF TMR. I SHANT LET MYSELF BE AFFECTED BY WADEVER. I'LL B THE "PRO PRO" N OH-SO-DAMN LOUD LOUD ERHU PLAYER U C DURING PRACTICES!
6.45am tmr. it's the last day they r syf o7 batch seniors hanging out with us. i love them so.
ALL OF THEM.
i told of my glory at 2:04 pm
Wednesday, 9 May 2007
BOO! co today till 9 plus. zzz. left college when it was alr dark.
prac today was pretty ok. sounded nice. i dont know y i was like... so high today lahs. i dont know y. DONT KNOW WHY. ok. no big deal. i went to co late today cos had dinner til 6.3o pm. made not much of a diff. im insignificant anw. some idiot who helped percussion, then left kaiwen's sticks on the floor bside erhu. n idiots who saw it nvr did anythg either. lucky i saw n brought it over to him, just when he was being scolded by ding for losing his sticks cos he couldnt find it when it wasnt at lt4 n also not at co room. which idiot was it? ok tt was just me being a nice person despite myself being insignificant anyhow. so co was like that. used counterpain cos yoko yoko was locked up at co room.
* i deleted the rest of this post cos i feel it aint relevant anymore.
i told of my glory at 2:30 pm
Tuesday, 8 May 2007
BOO! IM BACK!! did smth kuku taken fr yiling's blog. LMAO AT THE RESULTS!!
What You Really Think Of Your Friends |
 Ming Kwang is your soulmate. You truly love Kai Wen. You consider Celestine your true friend. You know that Luo Jun is always thinking of you. You'll remember Derek for the rest of your life. You secretly think Lester is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. You secretly think that Jessly is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. You secretly think that Zijie is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Zijie changes lovers faster than underwear. You secretly think Weijian is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Weijian has a hidden internet romance. |
I ENTERED THE FOLLOWING:
for the following, enter who they remind u of.
YELLOW- LUO JUN (cos i rmbr him wearing tt yellow orientation tee)
ORANGE- CELESTINE (cos i rmbr her jacket)
RED- KAI WEN (cos he has a red shoe bag n red bag =.= )
WHITE- MING KWANG (i duno y, just felt tt typing his name)
GREEN- DEREK (i also duno y!)
CHOCOLATE- LESTER (cos he always eats chocs)
VANILLA- JESSLY (cos she has fair complexion?)
SALTINE CRAKER- WEIJIAN (cos he tk my biscuits today)
MEAT SNACK- ZIJIE. (LOL.)
IT'S WORTH THAT MUCH LAUGHS!! =D
hahahaha! DAMN CUTE LAHS!! :)))
quite true, yet quite a joke for some!!
i told of my glory at 2:43 pm
BOO! it's now 11:11 pm. woohoo. i've just reached home lahs. like UH. so late. hahaas. cos was at co room PLAYING till like 8.45pm then left college for dinner with derek, yiling n jess at srgoon garden macs, whr we chatted n gossiped aftr our LONGGGG dinner. HAPPINESS LAHS. :))))
this is my perfect cca life- going crazy in co room with the PERCUSSION instruments. oops. sorries to perc ppl who'll read this :ppp ur instrus r still alive. wahahas. jessly, yiling, derek, ming kwang, dominic, weijian n i were actually just playing more NORMAL instrus. but b4 leaving me n jess dcided to try our mo4 qi4 agn!! so now with additional ppl, we cld form the percussion section le!! WOOHOO!! so i played the doink doink thing, jess played the PIANG thing, yiling played the pai2 gu3, ming kwang played the bang1 zi3, derek played the mu4 yu2, then dom n weijian duno wad they were doing lahs. hahaa. FUN K!! woohoo! it actually sounded like da2 gui3!! =D
uhs. so back to the co prac today, was a syf rehearsal at SCH. left lesson at 11am so god bless me, im supposed to attend makeup SPA revision with ONG tmr. wth =.= n stupid zj ps me lahs. kns. booo. hmms think today's prac was pretty jialats. with the changing in seating arrangements n all tt, GAHHHs. zzz. n i think i was abit UNNATURAL at prac lahs. n oh i tk kaili's words as a compliment, cos he said he can only hear gaohu, derek, n me when playing onstage. thank u thank u. lol.
at SCH, saw AJ n TJ cos they were having their rehearsal thr too. WOOHOO!! saw kwan chiu, wan chin, joel, marwin, wei quan, xi en, rachel yang n vanessa!! so odd, we used to PIA tgt, yet now we look at one another in different costumes. boooo.
morn i went to co room at 11am, played guan1 huai2 fang1 shi4!! SO LONG NVR PLAY ALR!! =D rui long started it. lol. FUN LAHS!! play the xylophone n etc etc. even tried to use yun2 luo2 to play. LOL. wth. lameness :))))
n im like damn kuku lahs, i always wanna snatch derek's zhonghu cos his case is hard unlike my erhu, so his can hug de. :))) then today we were snatching it on the bus, that IDIOT let go of it n it conked my nose :((((((((((( KUKUNANABANANA!! pain lei :((((( booooo.
then on the way back to college jess n weijian played canon in d on zhongruan n daruan respectively, SOUND DAMN NICE LAHS. envious lei. i canot play!! bahss. then aftr tt became a singing session of yiling n weijian's. wahs. yiling can harmonise very well!! sounded so nice!! woohoo~ n we, as co, decided to wait for the 2nd bus ppl cos their bus broke down or wadevr blahs. hahaa. =D
DOINK! I LOVE TT INSTRU!!
oh n saw the kuku guys desperately polishing the suspending cymbal today!! HAHAHA. but it's shiny now =D nice nice!!
they'll step down 2 weeks aftr syf ends. awwww. i love all of u so much!!
I WANT TO RUN FOR CO EXCO!!!! can i? :)))
nag nag nag. so like my mother lahs u. ok ok i admit i was out til late today =D sorrriessss~
morale's getting low. GET HIGH LAHS!! woohoo! mayb someday i really shld lead a cheer in co. hahahahaah :)))))
i told of my glory at 2:34 pm
Monday, 7 May 2007
BOO!
one by one, the frens arnd me meet probs with their relationships. some small probs, some major probs.
but dear frens,
HUIFANG WILL ALWAYS B HERE FOR U.
anythg u want to say, or u just want to cry, i'll b there.
just an sms, just a call away.
give me a call n i'll b thr for u. :))))
i'll lend u my shoulder, or even just hear u talk.
i may not give the best advice, but i'll b a great listening ear.
no names to b mentioned as to which ppl im referring to.
u noe who u ppl r =D
HUIFANG LOVES ALL OF YOU HER DARLINGS!! :))))
n she assures u, she'll definitely have time, no matter how much time in the world u want, for u. =D
i told of my glory at 1:23 pm
BOO! SYF REHEARSAL AT SCH TMR!! I CANT WAIT!!! WOOHOO!
oh n i heard mr kwek gg with us!! ARGHs~ stresssss.
tmr we're all gonna put the same colour of eye shadow. HAHA!! n ystd when we were told,
someone- eee if all put green how? like ghost lei
someone2- good wad, then we go da gui lo.
LOL.
TAKE PHOTOS TMR!! go find the other section ppl take!!
tt day tk with ming kwang, derek, sun mei mei, heidi, so tmr tk with. hmms let me c, IDOL!! mickey mouse (though dno if he wil want anot), zj, jess, KOK teng, ley ying etc etc etc!! =D
woohoo!!
tmr like nvr go sch like tt, cos only go for 2 hrs of GP then CO we whooosH!! :)))))
IM LOVING THIS!! WOOHOO!!
just when evrything starts, it's about to end. booo.
can all of u stay?
i told of my glory at 9:24 am
Sunday, 6 May 2007
BOO! some nice pics fr previous days-
do re mi height. emelyn, brandon n lawrence.
sherr the ghost.
weijian the zi lian-er who used my phone to tk this pic when he distrupted my peaceful dinner w my class. =.=
ming kwang, always cute. =D *nice fringe.
sun mei mei, heidi n me!! IN TOILET DURING CO PRAC. :)))
i told of my glory at 2:02 pm