Friday, 30 January 2009
office opening today :D
and i got into TP marketing!! (:
had a managers session at 12plus before that. my first managers session and it was pretty cool :D hahas. management team talking and such. hahas.
then after that had a distributors session! company launched new incentive!
TRIP INCENTIVE!
for every half-year's top personal sales, top manager group sales, top BM sales, top bgm group sales.
WAAAA! damn cool okayys :D
and then there was "BANG BANG" (like how mr dewey says it) which was pretty cool :D the lion dance! and i super love the lions okay it's like such a nice colour and when it flaps its ears it's SO cute. hahas. started off at level 3 and they gave boss some auspicious word placed using oranges. hahas. didnt get to see what word it was though.
then we went down to b1. the lions went to eat individual SAM, BAM and BGM rooms and cubicles to place an auspicious word with oranges too :D hahs. super cool! and darren tio K by a flying orange. HAHA. cos he stared at the lion LOL.
then went up to level 1 and managers had a phototaking session hehs.
shall wait for mr ivanteh to upload the photo online :D hahas.
oh yea, these are 2 pictures of the lions i took. one at b1 and one at level 1.
oh yah, myron was being super random. i went to find him after the managers phototaking and he was like "eh you know that girl anot? (the girl with the professional-looking camera). ask her help us take picture leh."
i was like ahhhh?
he's so super random LOL.
in the end mr ivanlim wanted to talk to him so darren and i went downstairs first.
then what happened next during that period of time was VERY hilarious okay.
cos there were alot of people at the lift lobby at level 1. so darren suggested walking down to the carpark at b2 then climb the stairs up one level to b1 (level 1 to b1 staircase was locked) but what happened was that the journey down to b2 was TORTUROUS!
the carpark floor was patterned such that there were alot of unavoidable depressions which i kept tripping over cos my heel would get stuck. so darren was like
*pats his own shoulder* "HERE! whats a man for!"
indicating that i should rely on him for balance. HAHA. super funny he. but i realised i really needed his help anyway. hahas. but well, in the end i got to b1 SAFE. haha.
and back to what i mentioned in the previous paragraph before i talked about the carpark. TAKE PICTURE. lol. stupid myron came to b1 and said he wants to take
"N picture" and it sounded like "END picture" so i asked him har? what END picture. in the end darren was like, "oh, N picture."
zzz. stupid myron. lol.
and in the end we went to the backyard wanting to take picture but realising that there was no one to take the picture for us HAHA. so we called cynthia and YEA, these are the NICER shots. haha!
this is supposed to be the replica of the one i have in my phone, only this time we're dressed in executive :D
another.
and the 2 of them decided to pose for an additional shot.
do you think theyre CUTE?
oh man, im so glad i got into the same course as darren also okayyy :D
first day in office in blazer. some people were like "OH huifang you hit MM already ah! when you hit!"
LOL.
i told of my glory at 10:32 pm
AHHH im tired! ): LOL.
but im like, so excited over tmr's opening at office! :D
went to buy a blazer today cos of the last minute notice from upline that i was to be in blazer tmr! =/
but IM HAPPY :D
cos i like my blazerrrrr WAHAHAHA!
and i tried straw poll today, IS FUN! thanks to E. haha. and damn freaking easy. HAHA. and i hit my quota way before time limit. haha. was given 4 hours but i completed it within the 1st 2.5hours. so for the next 1.5hours i was NUAH-ing away and chatting with yu ting cos E told me i could slack too. lol.. and apparently i was right! the 2 girls who never work already are crazy over E. HAHA. but well, he IS cute what. haha! im lucky to have him as project manager twice in a row :D
AIYAH, im tired!
off to play isketch! :D
should i?
some things, sometimes, should not be said.
and i know this is one of the situations whereby this has to be applied.
i cant risk losing what i already have.
control.. ):
i told of my glory at 12:29 am
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
today was a pretty interesting day :D
supposed to meet winston to go buy blazer but in the end i went to bugis to meet cynthia, liyun, and winston came later :D
went to walk walk around bugis street but it's like ARGH, so many shops not opened lah! but cyn managed to get a bag from there. oh well.
I BOUGHT NOTHING!
damn sad okay ): no shopping mood today.
but well, went to crystal jade for lunch. ahhh. the ramen is nice :D
and winston is like SO NICE lo he paid 50% the cost cos cyn and liyun were like
LOLs. oh well. *shrugs*
then we went to mr kit's place with the rest of the managers. but but but! at 3.40pm, when we reached sengkang, THERE WAS NO ONE IN SIGHT!
omg. when i called mr mengwee, he said he's still at home LOL though we're supposed to meet at 3pm! =/
so well, we went up with the mammoth managers cos everyone else from mako and falcon were late. LOL. hmm. played blackjack the whole afternoon until around 8 then we changed to playing "in between". haha. mr zhenting was beside me keeping quiet until he see me lose till he buay tahan and he started to teach me what he knows LOL.
overall.. i managed to recoup most of my loss through the games at night and overall i just lost about 10bucks =/
HAIS! NOT MY YEAR.
tmr going to james' house and well, more gambling!
I WANT TO GO BUY BLAZERRRR!!
i told of my glory at 10:53 pm
i just came home from river hongbao. i still gotta be a surveyor today. thursday then do straw poll. ):
i want to be lazy,
i want to slack,
and then money still come in.
E!! must let me slack! i dont care if the money is lesser HAHA :D
that is why networking is the industry for me :D
slog for 3 years, and enjoy for 30 years. -this is what upline taught me (:
tmr we're going to mr kit's house for visitation! YAY. more gambling? HHAHAHA.
EDIT:
now is 2.31am and OMG im like, playing chinese chess with W.
o.O
CHINESE CHESS. alamak.
i told of my glory at 1:09 am
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
i forgot to update my blog.
cos ive been talking to winston for the past 2 hours and 30 minutes.
he's such a poser. (JOKING LAH)
with a horrible blog address.
oh but he taught me how to play a guitar LOR :D HOR WINSTON? :D
unearned revenue.
HANDSOME PIG.
HAHA! :D
i told of my glory at 2:10 am
Monday, 26 January 2009
W has been fascinating me with magic through msn (:
and when he ran out of tricks, he turned to his guitar and held his own live concert online.
but with only one audience, ME. haha!
and well, how it even started was cos he wanted to show me what he'd copied down from what i'd just taught him on cal elements.
now THAT's a good student :D
and he's been entertaining me for the past uh... close to an hour i think. HAHA. :D
i told of my glory at 2:15 am
Sunday, 25 January 2009
i dreamt that was going for promos/a levels (whichever big-shot exam) h2 maths paper.
and i turned up without my graphic calculator cos mingkwang had borrowed it from me. (he'd lent me his scientific calculator when i was going for my o levels, resulting in him going for chem practical without his scientific calculator back then)
and i was barred from that exam in my dream cos i was bugging someone to lend me theirs. (very irrational behaviour)
i woke up and thought "F..." ive left jc, why am i still having this recurring dream?
probably i was so thankful towards mingkwang that up to now im still having this at the back of my mind.
ha.
and i friggin spent 3 HOURS tearing up notes and work from my past 3 years! GRR.
result of not keeping my stuff neat and tidy, therefore having to check, tear, check tear, today. GAHH.
tear till hand pain LAH.
im still contemplating whether i should go help endru today,
considering that he asked me if i could help out if he arranged for me to start late, with sponsored cab home :D
PROBABLY UPDATE MORE LATER!
i told of my glory at 4:21 pm
tmr there's reunion lunch with upline and downlines.
wednesday there's a gathering at mr kit's house for managers.
thursday we're going to jame's house for gathering also.
BUT today was a day that was kind of screwed. =/
activites in office screwed,
WHOLE EVENING SCREWED, cos my whole right shoulder is RED.
yes, red, all because of the person whose name starts with E.
that kookoo changed my schedule! HE PROMISED TO LET ME SLACK (cos i was okay with helping in this project) AND LAST MINUTE HE UPGRADED ME 2 LEVELS TO SOME HIONG POSITION WITH DAMN CHIONG PAY.
the pay is WOOT! but I DONT WANT!
i want to SLACK! and just get relatively-higher-than-market pay and slack slack slack LOL.
ANGRY WITH HIM.
but he was being nice and all, going through the training with me for like 40 min and kenneth had to cover my duties. HAHA.
from the sky being bright go through till the sky DARK.
lol.
errr, and i found that the view from the grandstand at the floating platform is really really nice :D
and i just found out, he's a graduate from SMU.
my dream school SIA.
TOO BAD HE'S TAKEN LAH (i think so :D), COS I COULD SENSE THAT THE OTHER GIRLS INVOLVED WERE KIND OF HEAD OVER HEELS ABOUT HIM :P
probably cos he's so adorable and so damn funny and says things like
"ehh, take care of you most lo, thats why i ask kenneth do for you then i sit here go through with you.."
"ehhh dont like that lah, how i know you so blur walk wrong place.. leave later lah.. later then bring you go eat supper.."
"best thing about this event? doing this survey for you lo."
but then again, i dont know, maybe he's just trying to atone for his SIN of UPGRADING my position so he has to be EXTRA nice to me.
WAHAHAHA.
at least now im well taken care of for now while im under his project!
IM GOING TO EAT MY DINNER NOW ):w
i told of my glory at 1:44 am
Friday, 23 January 2009
bahahhaa. it was a good day :D
i did good thingssss (:
being a manager rocks man :D
did a full pp and bp and cs today. haha. solid. myron's rec is coming down for training (: hope she really does! the rest... i dont care HAHA. i just do what i ought to do :D just that extra coffee for myron's rec cos he asked me to help him with it lol. now he owes me one lunch :D wahaha.
AND AND AND, stupid mr mengwee cant stop ga jiao-ing me about the myron and me issue. GAHHH. then even worse was that when i went back to office with mr mengwee, diming and jingwen after lunch, myron asked me for update on his recruitment that i handled for him earlier on and they couldnt stop disturbing =/ zz. oh well. suan le. hahas.
but poor myron, dont know why he said his left kidney area was hurting =/ so i gave him supplements. see if it'd help. hahas. not alot, but well. at least.. :D
and oh yea, damn funny. i was really racking my brains and killing all my brain cells over how i should fill up my promotion letter, cos i totally had no idea on who i over-rode on for my ME to MM during dec 07! =/ ends up james and eric were like "NO LAH HOW YOU COUNT ONE! should be ........!" then im still like huhhhhh??! LOL. then they were like, explaining like 5 or 6 times and i still didnt get what they said HAHA. in the end somehow or other, after like half an hour of madness, I COMPLETED MY PROMOTION LETTER :D
haha. and it was DAMN funny really. the whole confusion and such. then they were like "AIYAH HUIFANG, NO NEED PROMOTE LIAO LAAAA HAHAHHAH"
GAHHHHH!
I WANT TO BUY BLAZERRRRR!!
oh yea, gonna do another cs tmr for a 24 year old. HAHA. im gonna appear in tshirt and jeans okay. LOL.
in this month, im gonna:
i. help nat hit SE
ii. help amanda and sarah to SE
iii. achieve my first MPS this month
iv. assist diming in his journey to hit MM
v. nag at M to rest lest he falls ill
vi. it's a secret (:
all the above mentioned will contribute to a good journey from MM to BM! :D
i told of my glory at 8:43 pm
Thursday, 22 January 2009
my first day in office as an marketing manager :D
mr steven called me into his room and congratualated me, talked to me about some stuffs, updated me on some managers' plans, told me to buy blazer blah blah. hahas.
after CNY we're gonna have a grouping on mr steven's teachings and he's gonna inculcate in us a new way of teaching and wants us to pass this down.
cos we're gonna make falcon BIG! :D
mr mengwee said he'll propose to mr steven to organise a bbq at BOSS' house! cos mr mengwee was saying that managers get to go to mr kit's house during CNY, so i was like "YAYYYY" and saying i've never been to BOSS' sentosa cove house and he said he'll ask mr steven! OMG. lol! damn cool okay.
miss gem congratulated me and im like "HUHHHH? how you know!" lol. power of word of mouth =/
oh yea, i was having difficulty filling up my promotion letter. LOL. result of not doing daily homework on sales submitted ha.
happiness found in organisation- thanks to upline for teaching me that. i found happiness in training my 3rd generation downline today :D
i told of my glory at 9:52 pm
officially a marketing manager :D
AT LAST!!
i received this unexpected shock this afternoon at 1pm, 5 minutes after the tired me woke up.
cos you see, i have a habit of checking my email daily when i wake up.
oh anyway, i knew it was impossible that upline'd help me when his msn yesterday read "No way means no way" and i knew that i had to depend on myself already.
but..
and i thought that probably theyd made a mistake, cos the admin is like
my thank you speech?
i want to thank my upline mr longjun. (:
i told of my glory at 1:24 pm
names changed to protect indivuduals!
* says:
i got a friend dunno whats LV
* says:
-_-
HF says:
errrrrh
* says:
then he say my cufflink is BUtTon
HF says:
BUTTON
HF says:
HAHAHAHHAHHA
* says:
sad sia
* says:
he thought my whole shirt is from LV
* says:
-_-
HF says:
ERM...
* says:
he dun even know whats lv
* says:
he only know its a brand
LV is pronounced loui-vi-tton not LOUIS-vitton.
mont blanc is pronounces as mont-blonc not mont-blanc.
chanel is pronounced as sher-nell not SHA-nell.
agnes b is pronounced as ar-nia bay not AGNES-BEE.
gucci is pronounced as goo-chi not goo-SEE. (thats damn idiotic really)
HAHA :D
i told of my glory at 1:53 am
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
upline reminded me of one thing today:
success 8 main pointers, 8th pointer: SELF-REMINDING.
this month has been a slack month really, which exlpains why im feeling how im feeling today. shucks. hate this feeling really. oh wells. i still have a few days left.
full force please.
i must show im worth the position.
i must show that i really want it.
i must show that im worth helping.
cos like what mr mengwee has said, i got the knowledge, i got the skills.
i just lack the effort.
for that simple reason, that they believe i can,
i will still hold on and push forward.
it's tough. but i believe i will hold out and emerge victorious.
it's the final chance man.
oh yea, at welcome forum today, mr miao hua came to talk to me from behind. ARGH. omg. remembering the last time i even talked to him was when he was still an MM. now he's a car achiever. aww man. time to catch up!
i think im really deluding myself.
i feel like even though im in the physical world,
my mind is living in this virtual world.
cos when im in this virtual world,
im happy, im with the person im with, and i can be the real me.
but then again, it's just an illusion.
back to the physical world, we're like two worlds apart, we're so different, yet we're so similar back to the virtual world.
totally hate this feeling cos i really know im deluding myself but i want this world to belong to us.
i told of my glory at 10:28 pm
Monday, 19 January 2009
POSITIVE DAY,
POSITIVE ATTITUDE.
ahhhh, fuck.
today was an interesting day. was chatting with winston and ernest while mr ivan did BP for my sidedown-line's recruitment. winston is SUPER funny okay. but he's really not a person who likes to show off. lols. LV cufflinks, LV belt, Mont blanc watch, Armani bag, blah blah.. but oh well. he doesnt boast about it. hahas.
and theyre like, super funny. when we went downstairs to b1, stupid upline gave me attitude just cos i hadnt set up a kit for him. but it's alright. probably my fault.
but when i was about to bring the stuff up to level 1 to set up for him, winston helped me to take the sales kit :D nice of him right. and somemore he's like, so gentlemanly.. falcon should have more guys like him.
and now he's entertaining me on msn by errrrr, nudge toolscript and his emoticons! :D
haa....
i told of my glory at 10:31 pm
Saturday, 17 January 2009
today wasnt that good a day, but nevertheless, good.
thanks to ernest who texted me asking if i want a lollipop and in the end he came over and gave me one :D
BUT,
You're one in a million, Oh now
You're one in a million, Oh
Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me
im so tired over some issues like people running away from their own responsibility and im supposed to take over. C'MON MAN, who are you trying to kid. once is enough, twice is one time too many. thrice? more than that? FUCK.
it's not that im unwilling to help but these kinda people spoil my great day =/
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
but then again, im glad some issues are settled.
i hate it when friends around me are in a dilemma, facing problems, feeling stressed etc.
when i've done what i can to help them but still seeing them in an emotional turmoil.
but bro, im glad for you (:
I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me, Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me
sometimes some things get me thinking.
sometimes some things are there in my mind but im unable to do and im so tired of it.
sometimes some things i want to say but i cant say it out.
so many things i want to do which im restricted from doing so.
but i know im doing all these for my future (:
if it will happen, it eventually will, no matter after how many years.
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
No one could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart
thanks for all those things youve done for me, thanks for all those laughters you gave to me.
thanks to you for being you,
and thanks for never leaving my side.
probably, probably.. it's my turn to be irrational..
i wish youd see this blog,
i wish you could know what goes on in my mind.
maybe it's just asking for too much.
but why do i feel like youre really one in a million..
darren, it's your turn to help me now..
i told of my glory at 10:34 pm
today was a really eventful day.
1. i learnt how to do hiromatika
2. i experienced true happiness from my downline
3. i was never so excited in my whole life in this company
4. upline never ever taught me so nicely before
5. omg DIMING IS GENTLEMANLY!!
today was the first time i was involved in conducting hiromatika. the setup itself was LONG.. lol. mr jianzhi was like SO BAD LAH! cos me and mr mark were conducting our day 1 BT together, so he suggested that after debrief we put our guys for hiromatika with mr jianzhi. so this conversation took place:
mark- "erm, falcon also blend in one hor."
jianzhi- "har? falcon ah. falcon one THROW AWAY LAH.."
hf- "WHY!! OMG MR JIANZHI YOU DAMN BAD!"
jianzhi- "hhaha okay lah okay lah. joking ma.."
HEYYYY KTA + SHA GOOD FRIENDS RIGHT..
like that treat me. BAD LOR lol!! but anyways, they did teach me and help me in the end :D was fun! and interestinggggg :D
and well, my downline was really having fun with the rest of the guys, preparing to sleep in the MT and sleeping in the MT. heh. im glad they had so much errrm, fun together :D hahas.
and seriously, MR JIANZHI IS SO DAMN FUNNNNNNYYYYYY!!!! :D kept making me laugh luh lols. oh well!
then then, weets. i chiong-ed around from 5.30pm until 7.30pm. within this time, i did a water presentation, i went to chinatown for training, and i came back to office. and i RAN from the mrt station all the way to office. damn it. pant like siao. to help diming do his 7pm recruit water presentation. GAHHH. lucky the girls were okay, so that i could use this situation to kid around with them.
BUT SUDDENLY, TIO BOMBED!
another downline texted me telling me his friend is interested in getting the calwater cartons for his shop. ZOMG. had a quick dinner then zoomed down to haji lane near bugis. and omg, i went to take train with diming and azura and i was complaining about the sales kit being heavy and diming took it for me!! WAAAAA. THAT IS RARE OKAY :D CONSIDERING THAT IT'S DIMING. lols! but well, im glad he's beginning to really wanna fight.
☠ 我是----Miingツ <(｡◕(o o)◕｡)> Label 0f Miing!** says:
mayb we can go MM tis month together
☠ 我是----Miingツ <(｡◕(o o)◕｡)> Label 0f Miing!** says:
hahaXD
HUIFANG so disappointed in everything. says:
not maybe
HUIFANG so disappointed in everything. says:
we have to
wahahas. AND WELL, IM SO PROUD OF MY DOWNLINE!
he managed to get some pending deals le, and also closed more stuff ALL ON HIS OWN!
oh man, im gonna reward him with more brochures and a product booklet! hahas.
c'mon mannnn mm is coming mm is coming!!
then went back to office after my appointment and well, had night training with upline :D
so sad please. falcon only two of us. lucky got makos and others :D
IM TIRED!!w
i told of my glory at 2:12 am
Thursday, 15 January 2009
been long since i did a long blog post cos ive been so absorbed in online games.
today there're a few issues that i keep thinking back about. somethings around us in typical SG that we dont even bother about, somethings about myself i dont even really think much about.
in office, i realised so many of us often fall out of this competition whereby only the strongest survive.
the strongest are not those who are rich,
the strongest are not those who are very free and have the luxury of time in the world,
the strongest are not those egoisitic people who are out to prove people wrong..
but
the strongest are those whose mindset are strong and steady.
the strongest are those who are willing to sacrifice more than what they think possible.
the strongest are those who wont be shaken by realism of the world.
the strongest are the ones who can forgo some, to gain some..
bit selfish, yes. but i realised. if we harp onto something that has a sentimental value, yet holds us back from success, we're doomed. probably it's "body over mind VS mind over body" this thing i had yet to master. but im glad that i've realised so many things over the past year that has made me a better person, a stronger person.
in office, this is HF.
out of office, that is HF.
as long as i leave the building 190 changi road, im a different person.
when i was at the backyard of office talking to someone i could consult in, there was this overwhelming feeling of lethargy. in 190, it's difficult to find someone that i really could trust with all my heartfelt feelings. and it's really tough when i have to stand strong.
no one to ask for help,
no one that i can plead with for help,
sometimes..
but i know, that i will not be alone. cos there are others just right beside me who need me just like how i need them too. that's what i call friendship. when there's really trust beyond words, trust beyond all barriers..
its this that makes us strong.
when we know there are people there for us.
people around me,
friends around me,
theyre telling me the same thing.
but im persistent, cos i know he knows what's best for me.
i believe that ultimately he wont harm me.
cos after all this time, he hasnt given up on me.
if all he did was to harm me, why has he stayed with me till now?
but seeing those that i love, drop out of this race, it hurts even more.
so much more.
and i cant even stop it from happening..
but then again, that's life. where we're not in control of so many situations..
the second issue..
i didnt get to friggin have a peaceful dinner cos i was distrupted by some crazy asshole who came and invaded my food.
i was happily eating my mashed potato, pondering over some stuff and drinking my mushroom soup when this crazy person came over and sat opposite me and said "UGHHHHH UGHHHHH!" and waved this piece of paper in front of me so i promptly ignored him.
at that time, my plate had half my mashed potato serving and one full coleslaw serving. and you know what, when i turned to my mushroom soup, HE FREAKING SNATCHED MY PLATE OF COLESLAW + MASHED POTATO. of cos, i wouldnt let my food go to some
FUCK!
then after eating my coleslaw and mashed potato he stared at me and walked away. i was stunned okay. totally stunned, and traumatised. i practically swallowed my whole bowl of steaming hot mushroom soup cos i was afraid he would come and snatch my mushroom soup too.
this kind of things scare me, really. when someone i dont know comes and "attacks" me. im really sensitive at times, which explains my attitude towards even friends who attempt to tap me from the back. it's really really intolerable that in wealthy SG, there are people like that who go around snatching people's food off their table just cos they dont have the $$ to eat.
it's a realistic world. either you have $$ and survive, or you dont have it and die.
chinese new year is round the corner. my mother is there nagging away that i havent bought new tops for the new year and there are people out there who cant afford to even keep themselves full.
do charity? people?
but then again, i feel that that charity is useless. there are so many people out there who arent even reached out to. and no one seems to be able to reach out them. whatever the reason, i dont know. but the world is just like that.
the whole fucking world is just like that.
and what is the world coming to?
everyone is absorbed in their own pursuit of happiness yet there are people being left behind.
probably they left themselves to be dumped into self-pity, but then again, that incident gave a fright that left me terrorised.
i looked at my jelly after that i couldnt even swallow it.
i ate only half of it, though it was with a initially happy mood that i bought the cup of jelly cos i hadnt eaten jelly in what seemed like 99185984832 years.
what a realistic world we're living in.
i gotta fight for my own success...
the different kind of rush of happiness through me when i see you is that of different compared to the rest.
it's this daily dosage of laughter and smiles from you which keeps me going further and knowing that there's you who will always make me smile..
i told of my glory at 10:26 pm
Wednesday, 14 January 2009
i was shocked by a discovery today.
something i never expected that would happened,
has crossed her mind.
mr mengwee guided me today on how to "whack" her tmr.
i dont wish to, but i dont have a choice.
it's the kind of life i have to live.
like what i told someone today,
i have to lose in order to gain. if i want to harp on r/s and kinship and hold on to what im supposed to lose, resulting in myself not moving forward, i will choose to lose it. it seems to be cruel, it seems like im heartless. but then again, i dont have a choice. it's for my future.
im just glad i had a chance to make a choice to go to TP marketing with darren and kaili :D i just hope kaili gets in toooo!
but well,
sometimes being in ve has its bad points. today you wont know what will happen tmr till the time comes. it presents it's surprises and adventure but maybe im still getting used to it. i believe that after accomplishing my task tmr, i will become very "heart-of-steel".
just pray hard for me.
im gonna go beyond my limits. really.
cos you know, each time you smile, it makes the world feel so right and i could just smile on..
Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes
If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true
When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light
That makes my darkness disappear
When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
More and more
I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side
When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When I hold you in my arms
I know that's it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go
'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
(It's all right)
When you're right here by my side
(By my side)
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
i told of my glory at 10:43 pm
Tuesday, 13 January 2009
i spent my whole afternoon keng-ing a 35 year old guy.
he may be the deciding factor towards my MM/BM.
oh man..
im so exhausted.
oh yea, mr jiuyuan is such a nice manager :D
i was asking james if he had an extra copy of MT brochure for me and you know what, james said he doesnt have extra and mr jiuyuan said "oh i think i have. wait uh i check for you." so definitely.. ve culture made me say "oh okay if you have extra i buy from you.."
BUT GUESS WHAT,
mr jiuyuan said "no need la.. give you.."
waaa he's like so nice please! aww. someone's gonna go crazy at that again hahs!
but well, he's such a nice car achiever! to think engwei said he's dingdong O.o damn.
i told of my glory at 10:01 pm
i received a msg from upline at an unearthly hour.
it was pretty lengthy, probably the longest msg he ever sent me,
but at the same time, it replied what i'd sent him earlier.
i was already in dreamland when he sent it to me,
and it proved one thing.
im no longer alone.
and i know i wasnt alone, since nov 08.
and then again, this answers why im blogging at this time. 5.45am, which is a totally unearthly hour for me.
i told of my glory at 5:43 am
Monday, 12 January 2009
i know that after these 3years of hard work, i will look back to these times and smile..
we're very serious about what we want.
we will go all out.
we're just waiting for me to be prepared.
with or without you, we'll strive.
well.
i told of my glory at 10:23 pm
Sunday, 11 January 2009
all those yesterday....
because i havent tried hard enough.
i told of my glory at 1:36 pm
Saturday, 10 January 2009
i have to keep doing what im doing though it's tough.
i have no choice because this is what i commit myself to do.
even if i fail, let me fail having tried my best.
cos i know i HAVE to hit mm by this month.
if i miss, i dont know what will happen..
because i know, i cannot miss it again.
miss and miss and miss.
FUCK.
no wonder SOME people are -ve about huifang.
$100,
in addition of a $32,
how much more can i hold on?
we had a deal, $2000 to hit mm..
i told of my glory at 10:08 pm
Friday, 9 January 2009
i went for TP open house today.
today really has been a better day than yesterday.
my activity rate SUCKS.
but im working at improving it..
i reached office just when they cut the cake for upline.
well.
i like TP's culture :D
and im tired. gahhh.
i told of my glory at 10:55 pm
Thursday, 8 January 2009
sometimes i wonder what im doing with my life.
when i told myself i'll protect myself, a few days later im harming myself all over again.
it wasnt a good day today.
but i saw someone a few times,
the guy who inspired me to say, "tmr shall be a better day.."
he smiled at me seeing those tears in my eyes.
he understood, without me saying anything.
i really will thank him on stage when i hit mm.
one CS he did, which created the world of an impact on me.
but then later on, i sat there crying for what seemed like hours, but was probably just one hour put together.
thanks lifung, for always being there for me..
but yes im weak, so what.
so probably thats why i havent gotten what i want.
i chose to run away rather than think rationally.
i shouldnt let that be my excuse to defend myself cos it wasnt what was expected of me.
but then again, when i ran away,
i found back that feeling,
of being free....
for those short few moments..
why did he still thank me.
it makes me feel worse.
no, please dont.
please dont make me feel this way.
both people thanking me despite my own mistake.
why?
why?
im afraid of myself.
i hate this,
when i dont know what's my next move gonna be.
am i gonna ruin my r/s with upline?
am i gonna ruin my r/s with mr mengwee?
am i gonna ruin my r/s with lifung?
or with diming?
it's alright.
when 12am comes,
it'll be a new day.
im sorry mr darren, im sorry upline.
i've realised my mistake.
i told of my glory at 11:26 pm
Wednesday, 7 January 2009
i believe fighting for MM does not warrant such an activity rate like today.
FUCK.
i was so fucking free please.
to the extent that i was pissed with myself that i msg-ed upline telling him so.
HAIS.
but i didnt get to see upline today cos he was having meet-the-parents session today :(
but then again, the people around me make me feel so much better :D
mr ivan is like so SUPER CUTE please.
he called me and "HELLO HUIFANGGG!!!" wanting to borrow some stuff from me.
so i went downstairs to b1 and there he was, welcoming me at the b1 entrance HAHA!
he is like OMG-damn funny.
AND AND AND! myron was being very nice today by helping me :D
because my lovely car achiever mr mengwee ill-treat me okayyy, told me to push the trolley of 12 cartons of calwater down for him :( (usually GUYS push 10 down at one time)
600ml per bottle X 24 bottles per carton X 12 cartons = 172800g = 172.8 kg!
FREAKING HELL i didnt even know i was pushing such a heavy load. i just knew it was heavy. and plus 1 carton of toothpaste and 1 pillow which made the total weight heavier! GAHHHHHHHHH.
and when i went to b1, i was like TIRED already lah! but myron was nice to help me move the cartons off the trolley :D
YAY. he's like, so kiddish but so nice today :D
and,
darren is so careless :D
i told of my glory at 9:52 pm
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
it was an emotional-filled decision to stay. (:
but it has always been the right choice.
mr ivan saw me while i cried,
so did winston.
but then again,
it's alright.
i'll pick myself up and do it all again. (:
it's not 'can' or 'cannot',
but 'when?'.
and probably mr mengwee should stop speculating who is my bf. i cant believe he actually thought it'd be wenbin. lols.
myron is very funny :D
*edited at 1.19am, 7/1/09*
yay miss lois is like, so sweeeeet! she called me to happily tell me that "DONT MISS YOUR MM ANYMORE!!" when he she knew about the quota reduction :D hahas. aww man. so totally miss her!!
i told of my glory at 11:59 pm
Monday, 5 January 2009
NOTHING CAN EXPLAIN MY HAPPINESS NOW (:
quota reduction extended for one more month (:
WAHAHAHAS.
upline and CA both got plans for me IMMEDIATELY. lols.
it was announced at Company Updates, which i did not attend.
cos..
today in the evening my mood was totally ruined.
it had nothing to do with the incident whereby i scolded someone so badly.
it was because of.. a personal emotional barrier i have yet to overcome.
probably can call it..
inferiority complex
ARGH. whatever.
but mr ivan brightened up my evening a WEEE bit by being so funny at the lift.
he was like "NO! dont let huifang go! make her go for Company Updates! heehehee!" and dropped his pen at the same time haha! DAMN CUTE LAH HE!
darren's gonna kill me if i dont hit mm this month.
then he wont get his present :D
GAHHH. DARREN, I WONT LET YOU HAVE THE CHANCE TO EVEN PLUCK A HAIR OFF ME :D
shall be going for a hairdo makeover tmr at miss lois'.
WAHAHAHAS :D
i told of my glory at 10:20 pm
after that chat of 2hours with him,
i've realised,
he's different from the others.
very different.
so different to the extent that i envy him for his dreams, for his goals, for him.
i cannot choose to hang on to something which i know will never happen again.
it makes me wonder, what will i be doing 10 years from now?
besides choosing to be a successful businesswoman in ve.
what else?
i told of my glory at 1:58 am
Sunday, 4 January 2009
i seem to have nothing to update about on days that i do not go to office.
probably this shows where my passion towards life lies in..
i told of my glory at 11:08 pm
Saturday, 3 January 2009
it was a great day :D
highlights of the day was the meet up with my ATS 6f 2002 classmates in the early afternoon.
met up with those classmates of mine from ATS 6F 2002. so long since i last saw so many of them :D the normal-looking ones became handsome/chio, the used-to-be-handsome ones became so... disappointing, the used-to-be-handsome ones also became better looking. HAHA.
gahhh. cos of shona who had to remind me of my crush since 6 years back LOL.
totally anti-climax.
and i dont know why i kept getting shot today! GAHHHH.
i became a "suspicious looking item" at the mrt station, i became the... i cannot remember what else. but well, it was HIGHLY ENTERTAINING.
went to do my own IMPORTANT stuff after that before going to office.
upline praised me today :DDD
IM VERY HAPPY OKAY.
it's rare that my upline praises me.. (:
but then again, somehow i can see the change in myself too.
im really fighting this year and i know it.
i was even talking to zhanyuan over flashy and noisy sports cars :D
hehe. decided that i shall get my license by this year, and my car incentive by this year.
and i will GO ALL THE WAY :D
COS I KNOW I WANT IT AND I WILL DO IT!
and in fact, went to SG flyer to eat popeyes. i know it's kinda dumb to go all the way there for a meal from office at eunos. but then again, I LOVE IT :D
cos when in jimmy's car, woohoo! the feeling of speed.
SHIOK AHHH
i shall be a speedy driver in future :D
DARE TO BE ONE! :DDDD
loves M so much for his adorable smile :D
i told of my glory at 11:37 pm
Friday, 2 January 2009
today wasnt that great a day at office, but it was very good for me, very beneficial for me.
had a talk with upline today.
he said so many people are concerned over my position.
he told me that ultimately he believed that he has to still help me and worry over me cos im his downline, despite SOME people telling him to give up.
true enough, when he had people like jacqueline and franklyn when he left me aside he produced results. but he said he decided that he couldnt give up on me.
im really thankful he ever thought that..
he said that when they went bowling that day at the chalet, darren asked him about my position, and for the rest of the game, upline's mind wasnt on the game. they were planning how i could hit my position if that personal sale came in. upline's mind was on how to push me up to MM and he just.. anyhow played. =/ but that sale didnt come in in time.
hais.
i know they care. but it took me too long to understand, too long for me to realise and too late for me to start fighting. thats the reason why i missed MM. it's alright anyways. this is january 2009. upline's plans for me are to hit MM and get my 1st share of MPS.
i will hit BM by march,
be a car achiever by jun/jul,
and hit my BGM position by dec.
seems far too much?
probably. but upline says that we gotta aim for the sky, only then will we land the clouds. if we aim for the clouds only, we'll land on the ground.
i want to make myself a talking point, create a legacy for me, and let my upline be proud of me.
it's not just talk this time. it's gonna be action.
i told of my glory at 10:25 pm
Thursday, 1 January 2009
i didnt blog yesterday cos i was stuck at the chalet :D KTA + SHA chalet. rawks big time man. all thanks to mr steven and mr kit that we have this chance to get-together! had a really crazy countdown outside our 3 chalet units.
REALLY CRAZY!
ernest from red mako gave me a bottle of crazy ribbon to protect myself from the mayhem but DAMN IT. mr keith snatched it from me amidst the MESS- the mess being:
1. POURING OF CHAMPANGES (between the BGMs)
2. POURING OF CALWATER AND TAPWATER (between KTA and SHA all)
3. SPRAYING OF SNOW FOAM & CRAZY RIBBON (between KTA and SHA all)
4. screams, shouts, vulgarities.
HAHA. but it was fun. definitely the most memorable countdown i ever had in my whole 18 years of my life. even the countdown with falcon last year was just a movie at the point of 12mn. but yesterday, everyone ran out of the chalet units and shouted and counted down at the grasspatches. was a very very splendid scene :D
then we bbq-ed food even at 3am, passing out butter toast and garlic toast :D what a homely feeling. well, mako + falcon = FUN! :D plus i got to know so many new people from mako's side too :D really nice people (some not too nice) LOL.
then today morning, we went to macs for breakfast after a very noisy event of games. be it in some uhhh, memory game or some weird dare game. HAHA. dares which are weird man omg. then we went to arcade, had fun, took pictures in neoprint booths not using the machines but using our handphones, and after that we went for the 2pm fun-event :D
damn mood-spoiling cos of the rain! but we walked as if there was no rain anyways. LOL. first game was some water bomb and mummy game whereby the total climax of the game was the 2 times "sand hairwash" that justin gave to me. hahas. stupid justin. i still remember he was very +ve about our product cos i was the one who did the presentation when he first came to our company. well. he's getting cheekier uh! neh. and kept threatening me with balloon in the chalet GAHHHH. then the second game was some step on balloon thingy which i did not participate in cos i got balloon-bursting-phobia :D hehe. was funny looking at the guys jumping around avoiding getting their balloons burst LOL.
well, then we went to wash up and that kinda wrapped up our 2day stay at the chalet cos tonight there was to be a BMs outing so we didnt stay on.
BUT!
kind me lent myron my towel yesterday past midnight cos i thought i wouldnt be bathing today le. you know, going home after activities. but i NEEDED TO BATHE AFTER THE WATER GAMES! damn. essence of MYRON. erughhh!! but well. i had no choice. HAHA. shiyun kept laughing at me. =/
the whole chalet made me realise alot of things. alot of unexpected realisations which i feel i will prolly tell my best fren which is my trusted blog.
1. the impromptu CS with mr darren.
due to the msg from my upline which i didnt know how to reply to, mr darren brought me to another end of macs to talk to me about it. and i realised that maybe the quota reverting back to the previous may not be a bad thing. i'll use this extra 5k lv added in to find my own style of talking, style of retaining people to fight under me, and style of convincing customers. i felt that one thing which darren shared was to tee down yourself as a typical student, but then again, doing a silent tee up to yourself when you start benefitting the prospect with the product through the presentation itself. it's really very impactful. BUT disappointingly, prospect said i look like im 20 years old anyways. DAMN.
2. i never did well in 2008. and i never really tried to either.
like what upline shared during our 4am grouping, he mentioned "my bm group has had more downs than ups in the year 2008. but i believe we have all learnt from the mistakes we made." but then again, in the whole group there, this statement only applied to me, and him. but really, i found that in 2008. upline change alot. from a super fucked-up not-a-leader leader (i really used to think so) to a leader who is always ready to learn and ready to teach. i found that it's time i learnt. and after the whole busy school term, i thought back, and realised how much networking had changed me.e i was able to motivate others. i was able to think about things from a different point of view to make life so much better and easier. and i was able to influence people to think like me. but i hadnt discovered the true beauty of networking, until it struck me sometime in nov/dec when i realised that with trust and belief, i could learn much more from my upline who was gaining more and more knowledge at a rapid speed. and when i finally come to with that thought, i relocated my PMF, fought stronger than ever, moulded my own style of talking to new agents, and started to have people under me.
but then again, maybe it was too late. but an addition 5k lv to my current leftover is nothing. cos i know im prepared for a fierce fight this time round.
2008, ended with a loud bang.
hello 2009 (: im turning 19 this year. AWW MAN!w
i told of my glory at 9:54 pm