Monday, 31 December 2007
am i to feel the elation today?
a day started again, with nothing said.
the people looking on find it difficult to look on this way.
do you think i feel great having to live on this way?
cant you just for once create a good finish for this?
let me feel better at least..
i told of my glory at 12:42 pm
Sunday, 30 December 2007
BOO. today's sequence of events:
1. reached office at 12pm SHARP. and mr mw wasnt there yet o.O or rather, no one from my team was there yet. HUR. then realised the dumb doors were locked and garek and frens and i were outside waiting. zz. then finally managed to get in. oh well.
2. gobbled 2 softshellcrab handrolls, chiong-ed back to company to 2 awaiting girls from miss lois waiting for PP. *pants. b roll-ed then while we waited for upline to come up to do BP. then appeared nikki. didnt feel like doing PP for him so found my beloved downline huiqi to do it for me. HEH :)))
3. went to meet chester, maisy and kelly for dinner + drinks. went to grapevine and it was nice there! :))) but when we walked there from the bus stop it was raining :((( and chester was so worried about his hair. hee. though a little hot there after that lah. chester challenged some guy to a round of pool and he lostttt. awww. xDD he couldve won lah! zz. haha!
4. stuck at ME with 14400LV to go to hit MM. i guess i wont have the chance to stand on the stage with him next month. cos he's gonna hit his MM. i know he will.
oh well, today was really a great evening with them lah :))) though ahying couldnt join us. =xxx next friday, LIQUID KITCHEN!! AHHH. :)))
on the other hand, i finally understand what raine said on her blog that that is not a place for the faint-hearted. huiqi, siew hoon and i spent our day hiding. from mr mw, from upline. in conclusion, we were just helpless.
downline senses something not right between us. oh well. i cant deny anything.
it's time i let it all out. i've been feeling very horrible ever since day... 30.
plain water, martini, bloody shame. what a shame it really is- horrid drink.
kelly, me and chesterrr. ahhh why'd he close his eyes xDDD
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no no, nothing more. it used to be a different story. now i've become your obligation due to a promise you once made. okay. maybe i should leave when i you make clearer your point.
im not thinking too much.
i told of my glory at 11:23 pm
Saturday, 29 December 2007
BOO! OKAY I HIT ME ALREADY. :)))
EXECUTIVE EXECUTIVE.
HIGHLIGHTS: I DID A BUSINESS PLAN TODAY. ALL ON MY OWN.
(okay with a reminder from huiqi cos i couldnt rmbr what's next)
thanks ah mr mengwee dropped that bomb on me o.O called him after i finished pp and was told to do bp on my own. zz. like hello! i kind of screwed it up! HAHA! i almost forgot what's next at one point, and my planning's like, super messy! PARKER PEN! HAHA. oh man. somemore im that heng to do the bp for some guailan shit o.O zZzzzZzz waste my time and effort.
and yea, did pp 3 times today. talk till saliva dry up eh =xxx
MARKETING MANAGER!!!!
i got
help meeeeeeeeee!!!!!! I NEED TO HIT MM!!!!!!!!
i told of my glory at 11:32 pm
Friday, 28 December 2007
BOO! ahh oh well. im still an MA. PLEASE I DONT LIKE THIS NAME.
TOMORROW. I SWEAR, CONFIRM PLUS GUARANTEE HIT ME!
then i only got 2 more days to hit my MM. =x they push sales under downline 1, downline 1 hits ME. then break away temporarily. they push sales under downline 2? then how? i dont know about downline 2 cos she's still stuck at MAP. zz. oh well. im such a useless upline.. canot even help my downline. oh well. so im left with 9000LV to clear to hit MM.
oh and MR jinghui was SUPER FUNNY today
JH- ah fang ah! why you sit there "kiao kah" slack slack!
HF- haaaah? IM NOT EVEN SITTING DOWN! where you lah! haha!
JH- HAHAHAHA IM BEHIND YOU! YOU CANOT SEE ME MEH!!
*HF runs around office, doesnt see jinghui anywhere
HF- WHERE YOU LAH! eee. haha!
JH- IM BESIDE YOU LAH! CANOT SEE ME MEHHHHH! HAHAHHA!!
HF- eeee. yah yah beside me behind me is wall lei. hahha! xD
JH- ahhh hahahahha you cannot see me meh! im just here what!! HEHEHEH!
HF- WALAO EH WHERE YOU LAH!!
JH- HAAHAHA!!! OKAY LAH. come upstairs. im at level3 :)))
AHHHH MR JINGHUI IS DAMN FUNNY CANNNN. he was upstairs and he wanted me to go upstairs to make payment. LOL! then he called me and we had this funny conversation. xDDD
MR MENGWEE AH, YOU PROMISED TO HELP ME DE :((( oh man.
i realised, what my upline says is nothing but the truth. he said building bond is important. what huiqi said today led me to realisation. you see, when she joined, i was rarely at the company.. when my previous 8 downlines were in, i wasnt there.. i was rarely there cos i put in too much time into working at popular.. sms and calls werent sufficient to sustain any bond. until they ran away then did i realise the importance of building bond.
the main point: why did i remain? answer: the bonds i had with those ppl there. upline, upupline, upupupline, miss lois etc. the second point: why did 2 of my current downlines remain? answer: cos of the bonds. third point: why did i continue despite many setbacks i've faced? answer: my downlines, my upline, the team. the important of bonds there can actually be seen through this. VE group. such a great place..
cant i like someone who's caring towards me?
i told of my glory at 11:00 pm
i swear, i have the ability to:
1. see,
2. sense, and
3. feel.
i already know what's going on right from the start. you cant hide anything from me :)))
im a very sensitive person when it comes to discovering the feelings of one. i've been right 5 times this month. still doubtful? :))) im proud of this ability. thanks.
i told of my glory at 2:21 am
Thursday, 27 December 2007
BOO. OKAY FINE. OK NO, IM NOT OKAY.
IM NOT SERIOUS IN FIGHTING FOR POSITION.
IM NOT WANTING TO HIT ME THAT'S WHY I'VE BEEN STUCK AT THE STUPID MA POSITION FOR WHAT SEEMS LIKE 58420976879207689052 DAYS.
fuck.
1. she likes
him.
you want you take lo. i never said i wanted him. -.- it's just he's not aware of you and pushing you to someone else.
2. you dont understand that my market's dried up. you DONT. you dont understand. the calls i used to receive, nowadays gone.
3. you'll always be my prefect valentine.
4. as more leave me, as i lose more, i look at what i've gained despite what i lost. but i seem to have lost too much. i lost you. how i wish time could stop then and we wouldnt move on from the past. OH WELL,
5. learnt magnetic pp and debrief for the pablo&bruno video.
im on my way. wait for me..
the unbroken chain..
the one i always hear..
as an additional thought, i'd like to meet jason in person. or rather, this mr jason. cos he seems a funny character xDDD *ahem. the cute one. not the ugly one. :))) HEHE. here is the reason why i want to meet him in person:
Dreams are a big part of our Lives and
You must do whatever it takes to make
them a Reality; by the plans you make,
the course you take, and the things
you do. Don't dwell on past mistakes.
Leave yesterday behind, along with all
it's problems, worries and doubts.
Realize you can't change the past, but
you can start a new tomorrow. Don't
try to do everything at once; take one
step at a time. Don't ever be afraid
to try the Impossible no matter what
others may think. Remember you are
Unique in your own special way. Don't
ever stop Dreaming! Don't ever stop
wanting what's right for you
i told of my glory at 11:51 pm
Wednesday, 26 December 2007
BOO! today i was pretty stressed up in front of everyone i guess. upline said "eh huifang, negative ah?" and huiqi kept asking if i was alright. OH WELL =x but i think i did what i ought to have done. but i still havent hit my ME position. i still havent.
im annoyed, im pissed, im irritated. i feel like giving up each time i feel this sense of loss, feeling like im not contributing. im not contributing. im not contributing.
cos it's a fact. it's a fact.
i know no one sees results even after having joined for so long.
NO RESULTS. okay. i myself know it.
"if you're not fully truly totally committed, you will not create the wealth you want."
this sentence. i wont forget okay. i will never.
my mvp valentine~
totally suits my thoughts..
your gentle heart beneath your cold desposition. im still touched by how forgiving you are towards me.
why did you always seem to be the one by my side when i felt lost, when i felt alone. you helped me think positive many a times. times when you changed my tears into a smile. all with your small actions, one smile, one calm look, one complete you.
i told of my glory at 11:47 pm
BOO! did PPs today. *yawns. im 342LV away from ME. OH SHIT. you know, OH SHIT.
i want to hit ME TODAY!!!
i told of my glory at 6:29 pm
Tuesday, 25 December 2007
BOO! ahh. oh well, i found out something new.
about myself. it's freaky. but well, i was too blur/hyper/over in the wee hours to notice though i knew something didnt seem quite right. HURHUR. oh well.
when i slept this morn (around 7am plus)
i had a dream. a very clear one. surprisingly it was that clear. cos i hadnt seen you for so long. it was kind of like a flashback, to the longest period of time i spent with you. ahh. no doubt there were always others that said otherwise of our friendship. but well, that happens all the time. it's impossible to go back to that period of time ever again, but yea, study is what i think of when i think of him. and the fun times :)))
i miss him.
the friend who was always there, a listening ear, now in ns. oh man.
i told of my glory at 11:07 pm
BOO! went out for christmas celebration with VE team. MR mengwee, MR longjun, MR jinghui, MR shawn, MISS lois, MR adrian, MR joseph, MISS zhen li, MISS chelsy, beloved downlines huiqi and vivien, and IT WAS FUN YEA :)))
left office at 10 plus and arrived at dhoby dhaut. the guys and miss lois went to speedy so me, huiqi, miss zhen li and miss chelsy went to eat at macs. haha. then mr shawn came over :)) saw so many ex-zhss rians there. omg =x those from huiqi year. omg. =x then we were stil eating when miss chelsy alr happily went to arcade. LOL. then after that we joined her and YAY. PIAO YIII :))) omg i managed to piao yi nicely yesterday. ah fark, the sense of achievement xDDD omgggg. then when miss zhen li played, omg, i wanted to bang the wall and DIE cos her PIAO YIII is nicer than MINE!! :((( OMGGGG she's damn pro xDDDD i so love her PIAO YIII!!! ARGH. then me and downlines walked to cathay cos we were bored of arcade alr, and miss chelsy and miss zhen li were still playing! OMG. lol. then went to watch I AM LEGEND with the rest. omggg damn nice show. but kept having the urge to puke =x cos we were at the 1st row and it REALLY FELT HORRID o.O OH WELL.
after the movie, walked to orchard with mr jimmy (and his sis), mr longjun, and downlines. long long walk. lol. then the kuku mr jimmy ps us!! ZZ. his chauffeur (spelt like that?) came and he and his sis went home. ZZ. so left with mr longjun, me and downlines. so yea, went to macs to eat and talk and ZzzZZzzZZzz. esp upline. haha. the other 3 of us were mostly talking instead of ZzZZ-ing. then went to take bus at 6 plus. ahh. reached home in 15 min. record holding time for me- take 54 from orchard home only 15 min. lol. i boarded the bus to see like 3/4 the people sleeping please. lol! everyone's out for a late night celeb.
not being pessimistic, but yea, me and huiqi both think very very hard about it and she finds that i can hit manager but she cant. but why in my mind am i thinking she can but i cant cos she'd have broken away from me? oh man. this is getting such a headache. im still like, 15k from manager please. im not saying that's out of reach. but im not saying it's little either. for upline to hit BM, for mr mengwee hit his CAR, i have to hit MM first! it seems, the power of networking comes in.
also, miss zhiying asked me that day in the lift "ME already anot? i heard it since last week lei!". oh well. i've been stuck at the 792LV to ME for so long =x ZZ. im not putting in enough effort..
on a sidenote, i took this off ying ying's blog. oh well, ah ying, i try. haha.
"I love all the part timers! We rule right! Droolzzz. HAHAHA. Huifangtheljungreat: Don't feel so bad about it, i'm sure he didn't mean it and anyway, you guys had alrd known each otehr for a month or so, so yeahhhh. Don't start being hostile to each other, not a good to have resentment. GOGOGO go for your ME then BM! Pikaaaaachu :)"
upline was that tired. LOL :)))
LALA. i left my other presents opened already. LOL! xDDD
i told of my glory at 3:30 pm
Monday, 24 December 2007
BOO. it was sudden. he never told me in advance. i had to find out myself. through such a crude way.
so crude.
today was a really once-in-a-lifetime experience for me. imagine, managing a cashier counter with only $50 notes, $10 notes, limited $5 notes and NO $2 notes, NO $1 coins, NO 50c coins, limited 20c coins, 10c coins and 5c coins. WTF!! FOR MORE THAN 2 HOURS I ENDURED THAT. omg. giving customers $2 worth of 20c coins, 10c coins. OMG MAN. =x oh well, no choice lei. and customers were like "i've heard of cash-only payment. but i've nvr heard before of card-only paymetn! haha!" hello customers, I'VE GOT NOT CHOICE O.O the smart DM of ystd didnt change enough notes lah. please, today is SUNDAY and bank isnt open o.o ZZZ. oh well.
I never knew for a LOng time what i wanted in life till i joined Venture Era. until i met YOU and yoU helPed me so much and i feel Like I Never want to brEak away. thank you upline.
till the end, u're still the same..
i told of my glory at 12:07 am
Sunday, 23 December 2007
BOO! got this off zhenwen's blog. interesting~
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew.
I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.
I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.
Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.
My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: "I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart."
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters.
These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage. Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.
We teach some by what we say. We teach some more by what we do. But we teach most by what we are.
i told of my glory at 2:17 am
Saturday, 22 December 2007
BOO. oh man. too many things have happened today..
1. upup
2. downline- a chain reaction event which makes me -.-
3. 792LV to executive.
seems like a whirl today. everything happening. went to tn and got accused of doing smth i didnt. like wtf can. who is the big mouth who said im telling him to do smth of mine. wtf. wtf. wtf. spoil my reputation for all i care. im going back to thomson no more after this year. no more work there. im done with that place. and i thought YOU were nice, david. i kinda have been blind eh. FINE AS ALWAYS. super annoyed when i left tn.
went to office and then did calling, calling, calling. calling calling calling.. no recruits today = no pp to do. haii. abit bored. how i wish i could conjure up people to work for me. or conjure up $20,000 then we can all be happy..
then just after mr mw submitted the single MT for downline, he msged me.. the whole situation was a blur.. im sorry miss lois.. im sorry mr mengwee.. im sorry my other downlines, if i scared you all..
i felt really really annoyed. i was confused. patsy called. and i got so irritated that even mr mengwee asked "zhe me ji dong zuo shen me". i really really really hate it when someone else spoils what good i have so painstakenly built up. 3 years. it took me 3 years. yet just a phone call to spoil all i had. im not prepared to face eric tmr. im not. im not. im not. sorry..
JH's not taking calls, not replying msgs. where'd he go? upline went to his house but no one was in. was talking with downlines about it and we were kind of worried. oh well, after all he was someone who treated us well too (:
anyways, mr mw was being funny mimicking upline's "k lah k lah k lah" and "ok de" and the you know, kind of act-cute voice. hurhur. was pretty funny. we all thought he'd gone abit weird up there eh. lol.
792LV to marketing executive!! then im on my way to marketing manager already!! GOGOGO!! (:
the tears, the rants, turned good?
the happiness, the laughter, turned chaos?
i dont know.
you seem different already.
i told of my glory at 11:26 pm
boo. in conclusion, i will smile in my sleep. but cry when im awake. today was really a mess. want to know why? read on then. dont want to? dont then.
was with junfeng when miss lois talked to him. cos i came down after doing a presentation. he bought a single MT, full cash. FARK. i almost died from a moment of happiness. miss lois said "if junfeng hit MM, huiqi hit MM, qiu lian hit MM, congrats you can become a BM this month lei!". this sentence can make me smile in my sleep, yes. cos i couldnt stop laughing and smiling after she told me this sentence. but it led to realisation. it led upline to realise if i break away from him after i hit BM, he's left with no one at all to help him fight car, cos i break away bringing along my organisation he raised. so yea, i kind of told xian qing that i dont want to break away from upline cos he's always been kind of like, my mental support? and really lah, everything. but know what XQ said? "beloved ______" (upline name) instead of "beloved upline" like hello, i quote mr mengwee. and just because of that, oh well i shant elaborate. like you know, zz.
left office only at 10.30pm with them to go eat, and reached home only at 12.30am. zzz. realisation, realisation, realisation.
some things will never remain. maybe all along i'd been seeing what i want to see, then just before i know it, it turns into a different story. people change so quickly it tends to get on my nerves. grrr. oh well,
oh upline says he'll buy us blazers who hit MM this month. oh well. :)
mazda 6 and honda 2008 accord coupe are nice cars. damn cool please. they take my breath away (though mazda 6 has been released for a couple of years according to limzijie). 2008 accord coupe costs 125,800$ though. omg.
adrain.
i told of my glory at 12:58 am
Friday, 21 December 2007
BOO! OH WELL!
1. instore cashier whole day- almost died.
2. david's such a bitch
3. the cute small boy who went "jie jie! jie jie!" AHHH!!! :))))
4. talking to eric about getting off was much easier than expected
5. emo talk on the bus on the way home. HAHA!
and and, I LOVE MY PART TIMERS (: YES YES ALL OF YOUUUU. they were still there when i'd finished my settlements today. gandong can!! (: they were like, sitting and standing around chatting! LOL. then wah, hehes. really happy to have them around me lah. hehe. then also waited for justin and eemain to finish talking to eric. then we all left thomson tgt. then took bus home with eric. hah! oh well, pretty emo situation on the bus eh =x he was talking about us part timers, his thoughts on managing tn and such.. blah blah. oh well.
david can be nice when he wants to, but yea. he was telling me that he read asterix (dont know how to spell) comics when he was still a student. LOL! okay that's the thing when both of us are bored at the counters. heh. OH WELL. but we're still turned off by the fact that he flashes his butt crack at any chance possible. LOL!! AHHH. please im not a pervert. EVERYONE THINKS SO TOO =x
tmr marks the start. OH WELL :)))
i told of my glory at 12:03 am
Thursday, 20 December 2007
im really, really, really lost. it's really a time to trust or leave.
loNG JuN ™ ... When the mind is willing, sometimes even the greatest obstacles can be overcome says:
this 3 days can guarantee 20 people to come down?
loNG JuN ™ ... When the mind is willing, sometimes even the greatest obstacles can be overcome says:
overnight 1 day to learn if u want
loNG JuN ™ ... When the mind is willing, sometimes even the greatest obstacles can be overcome says:
if got this much people i dun see why u and i cannot hit
loNG JuN ™ ... When the mind is willing, sometimes even the greatest obstacles can be overcome says:
if he hate u and u hit MM u want?
HE made me feel much better. thanks so much SHAWN (:
Snake Eater says:
so long as you trust, believe in meng wee, follow the planning he gives you accordingly, you can do it.
Snake Eater says:
Firstly, you must believe you can do it. Company's CA's didn't believe that they can hit AFTER they hit. They believed in themselves & their uplines before they hit
Snake Eater says:
seriously FIGHT for something in your life for a change
HE told me this story.
there was once this man
he was married happily with two children
he & his wife were both working
one fine day
his wife came down with hepatatis, and her boss gave her the sack
being the sole breadwinner, this man realised that his family now depended on him, along with his wife's rising medical bills
he worked very hard to prove himself for the next few mths
but little did he reap
one day, an opportunity presented itself
he had recieved a call, for a freelance job
i could definitely take up another job, he thought
so he went down to the office
after looking through, he realised that this opportunity, could actually help his family
throughout the weekend, he was immersed deeply in thought
finally, he quit his former job to take up a lowly position in the company as an MAP
he fought hard for the next 8 months, & he became a record
within a period of EIGHT months, he had risen from an MAP to a CA, simply because in his belief that the system worked. He understood that he would have to start all over from scratch to hit where he is today
he is our record-setter, Mr Helmy from Blue Panthera, an 8-mth Car Achiever. though shawn said he made up the part on the wife =x
Snake Eater says:
huifang
Snake Eater says:
dun give up your dreams and beliefs
Snake Eater says:
don't you EVER let anyone take them away from you
Snake Eater says:
so long as you believe, here in Venture Era™, dreams can come true
Snake Eater says:
oh yes
Snake Eater says:
dun show any sign of giving up or weakness 2 ur dwnlines
Snake Eater says:
you WILL regret it
Snake Eater says:
show them that they have a good upline 2 look up 2
Snake Eater says:
show gd example, fight hard
Snake Eater says:
they see their upline fight they sure fight
DOWNLINE, i've done things the wrong way. but im sure you're strong enough.
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
which path u want to choose?
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
but paths also have their pros and cons
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
u reallt have to make a choice
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
but some sacrifices really have to be made
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
u can't have the best of 2 worlds
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
decide for yself ba
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
but remember it is yr decision and u have to live with the consequences
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
den be committed and dun regret lor
Goh Huiqi 2e5 says:
jiayou ger!
thanks to all of you..
i told of my glory at 1:03 am
Wednesday, 19 December 2007
BOO. today went to office, did product presentations, talked, and thought. kind of shocked when i walked into the cubicle and this guy said "hello huifang" when i dont recognize who he is =x then realised that he's shawn. oh man. hadnt seen him for like, 1 month? lol. he actually remembered my name :) and he's damn funny lahhh. so he's like one of the only reasons why i could even smile today.
pp went ok. the 2nd was better than the 1st. if take test sure fail though. dont know why but i feel my language is still horribly lousy. talked, taught my downdownline how to call her aunt. and yea, she called. quite a stable one (: but what about my other downlines? if i depend only on huiqi's, i will definitely miss MM. cos once huiqi is an MA, the end of me. im still stuck at MA you know.
but then again, who can i depend on? so what if i recruited alot of people? what if they all run away again? what if they all lose interest and leave? then i can go fuck off already. really. and i really mean fuck off already.
and i think i really didnt sound like myself today. talking to huiqi's frens, and shawn's recruit. i think i was really.. putting on a front? i dont know what you'd call that. but it feels uncomfortable. and the way i talked to mr mengwee today, felt.. impolite. but i didnt know what to say. im just.. egoistic lah please.
im getting weaker. physically. the air con feels cold. the air con feels cold. the air con feels cold.
add oil to fire. nothing's making me feel better. i'll be honest. the increasing no of recruits mean a higher possibility of me being replaced. substituted. eliminated. when that moment comes, you'll no longer see this huifang you used to see. what's on your mind? are you really out to eliminate me? are you out to do so? to replace me? ARE YOU? ARE YOU?! ARE YOU??!!
TRUST. BELIEVE. FOLLOW.
?
DID YOU CONSIDER HOW I FELT?
ARE YOU CONSIDERING HOW IM FEELING SEEING YOU TREAT HER BETTER?
DO YOU KNOW IM LOSING THE SENSE OF SECURITY I ONCE FELT?
do you know... for the second time?
there's a reason behind every drastic action of mine. frens around me would notice. either cos im feeling horrid, or i feel im losing smth. today, i realise im losing smth. smth too important to be lost.
i never want to leave, and the reason is you.
but now you're giving me all the reasons to leave.
i told of my glory at 11:11 pm
Tuesday, 18 December 2007
BOO! david's dumb. please. i was on the line with longjun when he said "WHY YOU SHORT 100+ DOLLARS DE?!" FARKKKK. he keyed $1594.00 nets as $15.94. no brains or what. not once has he ever done a smooth closing for me please. and he went upstairs and pissed ying off. he's really really really brainless. =x though he's nice at times, he tends to do things which make people upset lah. like i received stock for him and he didnt even say a word of thanks.
kinda guilty cos i sabo-ed ying to go upstairs while i lavish in the busy-ness of popular staff. LOL! ying ah, sorry!! but once. once is enough. cash exact today. the feeling is accomplishment! OVERWHELMING! AHHH. thanks alot man i still think i havent lost my touch of the busy life. hahha!
TMR HOW HOW HOW?! AHHHHHHH.
haha..
i told of my glory at 11:03 pm
Monday, 17 December 2007
BOO! today was. ah. a fruitful day :))) recruited 5 people. 3 of which are junfeng, cel and weiyi. hehs! YAY. whole day was recruitment, recruitment, recruitment. no time to do calling at all! AHHH. but oh well, saturday there's justin and ben coming down, and 2 more recruits. OMG! AHHH. i wanna pon work tmr. but feli's not working. ZZZ. haiis. i wanna commit commit commit = MM! AHHHH!!!! oh well. =x i feel so. AHHH. im so sorry my beloved downlines! not that we want to pressurize you, but we're really.. AHHH!!! i wanna hit MM, longjun wants to hit BM, mr mw wants to hit car!! AHHHHHHH. we wanna chiongggg. omg mann. im so gonna need ALL YOUR SUPPORT! downlines jiayou jiayou! PERSEVERE ON!! hold on. when ur MA is there, it's gonna be an easy path. trust me. i've been thru it. suddenly the path im walking seems so hopeful. i'll definitely hit ME le. but i want to hit MM!
could what junfeng be saying be true? im wondering :)))
someday, i will be a car achiever! and omg man it's such great kick looking at pictures of nice nice cars xDDD
an encouraging pat from you was all i needed to feel great :))) just a few more minutes later to go home is worth it. haha!
i told of my glory at 11:32 pm
Sunday, 16 December 2007
BOO! no doubt a fun filled day. kinda got awkward at some point though. due to my inability to deal with my largest setback ever since i joined VE. =xxx
longjun was telling me about his plans for MM under me and me hitting MM this month. then blah blah and i started talking about my mom being sarcastic to me this morn. no doubt im still holding on. but the fact that my dad keeps quiet when i get shot by my mom is an unbearable fact! really very upset over this. so i kinda got emotional and.. ahem. cried =x i was holding back and holding back. but no use. oh well, im still kinda.. weak =x ZZZ. hate this. but oh well, i was kinda surprised he's kind of cool about it. haha. usually guys freak out when girls cry =x but he was ok de. haha. yea. ok de. lol :)))
seriously got down to doing calling today. effort paid off :)))
tmr jun feng, cel and weiyi are coming to office! OMG OMG :))) HAHAHA. longjun say must go BUILD BOND. LOL!
movie today was GREAT (: damn funny. was on bus 30 when tvmobile had this warlords the movie ad. then someone cheered! LOL. PUBLIC BUS LAH! haha. damn funny. then saw LJ and MW sleeping so sweetly and unglam-ly =ppp LOL. LJ was like, lying on MW's shoulder?! LOL. me and huiqi really took the time to catch up on one another. talk about jc, talk about life.. :)))
after movie, went to the top level of vivo and had group session. talked about our targets for this month. MM, BM, CA, BGM etc etc. red falcon may be small. but we're pretty close i guess? hahah :))) the right team :)))
took mrt home and i was like half ZZZ le. haha. mr jimmy was like "eh we take go marina bay lah ok?" cos i complained of the train being so packed at dhoby ghaut. LOL! someone who's as lazy as me when it comes to taking train xDDD mr jimmy is funny!
it wasnt solely because of my parents. i misunderstood what you said. the way you said it, it seemed like you placed her above me. for the split second that i thought so, i really felt.. broken =x oh well. but after your detailed explaination i understand le. i understand your intentions and your goals for us :))) thank you so much..
i told of my glory at 11:26 pm
Saturday, 15 December 2007
BOO! EXTENSION HOURS ON WEEKENDS SUCK BIG TIME!! ARGH!!!! you know, from 9.30pm onwards i was STONING cos there was NOT A SINGLE CUSTOMER walking past the roadshow. like ZZZ! kinda like wasting my time. HAHA! but i dont get more money but get more time wasted. BLAH!
and eric is like, you know, FUNNY (:
HOURLY UPDATES. yawns. parker pen. bleh bleh. hahahs. TMR MOVIEEEEEE (:
i told of my glory at 11:27 pm
Friday, 14 December 2007
BOO! today was AHHH, another rotting day hhaha. but i was happily reading "happiness now" by andrew matthews, making notes, and taking down hourly what-i've-done :))) hehehs. SL rotated shift with me. and he was so bored he wrote a poem. haha! and i wrote a reply and after that when i came back what he wrote was gone! haha xD funny guy.
had my yakun breakfast this morning with junfeng. ben was there too but he didnt eat. and i finally found another person who fancies butter sugar toast above kaya xD wahaha. and i thought i was pretty dumb. OH WELL :)))
and my phone was being a pain in the ass today morning when i couldnt charge it despite having only 17% of batt power left =x so i went to work like that. and what's worse was i kept msging alot today and received a couple of calls. BLEH! hurhur. but it's alright lah, i reached home with 1% left. HEEHEE :)))
sooooo, tmr is RS chiong again. saturday. SALES MUST HIT ONE THOUSAND!! nabuays. tmr nvr hit thousand can die. last last sat i hit thousand, last sat feli hit thousand. tmr MUST MUST MUST! whoo!
sunday go watch movieeeeeeeee yay!!! :)))
the price to pay for having the best..
Before I Fall In Love- Coco Lee
My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be
[Chorus:]
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
[Verse 2:]
And I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
[Bridge:]
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say...
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
i told of my glory at 10:27 pm
Thursday, 13 December 2007
BOO! can you believe it? i actually left pop early just to go to VE office. and it wasnt an urgent matter. hurhur. *yawns. and im damn tired now. missed out on CPB today cos it was held at 11am. oh well! as what longjun says "ok de!" LOL. but what i have to do is take hourly tabs on my life. hoho! oh well. running between 2 places. haiis. then just now heard from junfeng that there was smth wrong with settlement. so i msged feli and she said.. short of $10. WHY??! never in my 3 years of cashiering has something like that ever happened to me. why oh why? but oh well, we pay half each then. no choice =x
ahh, longjun says maybe there'll be night training this weekend. YAY. i got off on sunday xDDD wahahas. hope it gets confirmed ASAP!! cos im kinda looking forward to it!! :)))
and oh yea! i guess my blog kinda is a mood detector of mine. cos when ppl read my posts and dont laugh or find anything interesting, something's wrong with my mood. OH WELL. sui bian lo. wo ok de :)))
the sense of insecurity sank in again. felt neglected yet left to train to be independent. i guess i gotta get used to it.
some things we hope to never take place, some things we hope could become reality. what a human irony. i've been wishing we'd become reality..
the moments when ur eyes meet mine, everything seems to stop around me. i dont listen to what you say, and i dont remember to breath. evrything comes to a standstill.. if you will realise someday, i'd be more than glad.
i told of my glory at 11:09 pm
random rants at 12.30am-
honestly, the past few weeks have been a blur. what have i been doing? i've been wasting my time on work, work, and work. what have i gained? friends, money. i really wonder. it's weird how i can bury myself in work. and at night, feeling emo over some stupid phone call, getting upset over some unimportant bitch, getting jealous over the slightest things.. it's amazing what work can do to me. when stock comes, it's habit that i'll chiong. just like today. and then i'll end up being so irritated with my own work-less state after that and sit there reading storybooks and magazines. i admit. im a workaholic. i'll do anything just to keep myself involved. just like that day, i could have gone home. but what did i do? i helped jenny sweep stationary dept with her. "asking for more work only. stupid." that's what i expect to get. but have you wondered? when im alone, i dont like it.
I DONT LIKE BEING ALONE.
i shall openly say, i feel neglected when the person who actually cares for me suddenly has one more person to look at. i feel the insecurity when left to work independently. no doubt feli has said im independent cos i can manage the roadshow on my own. but have you considered what goes on in my mind? the insecurity, the desperation for someone to talk to. that's why when longjun or mr mengwee called me recently i'd be more than glad to talk longer if not for someone else's existence there once in a while.
VE. why did i join? why did i remain? why do i want to commit? the answers are the same as in popular. it shouldn't have been so. im just afraid i'll regret in time to come.
initially, i thought i could be independent since this is already the 3rd year back to popular. but no. i was dependent on the same people. i dared not go socialise. until judy introduced kelly to me. then it sparked off the flame in me. i went around, befriending them, joking, flirting, whatever you'd say. they keep me happy when i'm with them. when i go upstairs? no more. it's only felicia, eric, maisy and me. nonono. this shouldn't be so! i belong to a place where i'm surrounded by many. happiness engulfing me every minute..
im being.. that's a question. hmm. a sucker. yes i know.
back to being the emo huifang? i dont know. like what ernita said, yes, i have changed. i'm no longer the huifang you know. i called HIM today. to ask about something. i felt no emotion. no emotion from me, no emotion felt through his voice. yet at my side, there's someone else there already. but totally unstable. =x
i dont want to reach the point of no return.
i told of my glory at 12:38 am
Wednesday, 12 December 2007
BOO! WAHH. today was errh. another day of rotting. *yawns. today feli, ernita, eric and maisy all off. so i solo. as in, REALLY solo. so i got sui loong to take over me. like ZZZ.
me- "can u come upstairs now?"
SL- "canot! dont want!"
ZZZZ. ultimate funny (: and jun feng brought cafe cartel food food us today xDD mostly chicken wings. LOL xDDD had a nice dinner with maisy, ying ying and jun feng in the office. lols.
tmr im gonna leave at 3pm. wtf lah haiis. i feel so sian of roadshows cos i have to solo. feel so FUCKING BORED LAH.
yesterday night i had a dream. of you.
sad, worried, sad.
someone to have and hold with all my heart and soul.
i need to know, before i fall in love. but i didnt know anything. you didnt tell me anything. you didnt show anything. it's been so hard for me, but i would give my everything just to hear you say...
if you could just stand by my side for all the time i need you. and it's the whole journey. but i know im already losing you.
not even needing more, but just a friend i can confide in.
with all my heart and soul.
i know you'd wouldnt read this. someone else might.
but im not referring to the one im scandalised with. thanks alot.
bloody hell fucking gay shit. useless to the core and fucking hell inconfident of oneself. a thorough weakling who gives up without fighting. what the fuck was i doing asking you to join in the first place. what the.. fuck.
i told of my glory at 10:40 pm
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
BOO! today was ok ok. cos i woke up at 11.30am and reached thomson at 12pm. i actually woke up at 9am, 10.30am, and fell aslp again. HAHA! and today there was maisy to slack with me upstairs, so yea, kinda fun i guess. wrapping staplers and putting newsletters in plastic bag. lol.
emo mood cos the scene kept replaying in my mind. or rather, that statement.
fuck lah.
and maybe i was wishing you never appeared. then i'd still be typical huifang. not the huifang i am now...
i told of my glory at 10:29 pm
i dont fucking care if mr AMW reads this cos im really feeling the kind of true worry. really scared. as i was ranting away to mrlimzijie, i really felt like i was about to cry it all out already. why did this happen to me just when i felt like i was reaching the 100% already. suddenly the pretty picture seemed ruined just when i thought i was on my way to completing it. the one big missing piece will always be there already. cos you made me lose my faith and trust in you for that one split second. the disappointment. zijie reckons im thinking too much and nothing wrong will happen. oh well.
it just had the kinda family kind of feeling and i was beginning to think i was right to remain. though longjun became an MM in a month and im still close to MA only. but just that the kind of trust that keeps me leeching there.
i was talking to shu ying just now. she really had the trust in mr meng wee already. after she heard him talk about why she should remain in our company. but just within one day, with one sentence from someone who mattered, my close to 100% trust was gone in that moment (not at you mr mw, if you do read this) suddenly i felt the urge to just do something drastic.
im over-reliant. this problem is revealed once again and i feel the sense of lost.
i told of my glory at 1:02 am
BOO! today was slideshow and badge presentation. WOOHOO! lol. ok that was sudden. but it was pretty interesting! seeing those MEs and MMs get their badges. ahhhs. and jing hui and long jun went up to get their MM badge and they were both super... jing3 zhang1. ahha i forgot what's that in english. OH WELL, a problem with my language xDD did a successful PP today. ok self-proclaimed. but i found that i mentioned the should-be-mentioned points le. haha!
and yea, at that particular moment i wished time could stop and we'd be sitting there forever... but...
i wanna be up there next month!! i want to take a MM badge. but i feel so... jue wang? :( cos i just saw someone who will take him away from me.
what the fck. i guess i wasnt supposed to know that. ok i shouid have realised, guy's instincts. but anyway, what the fck. u know, if it was someone else i wouldnt care one fck.
what sort of person with sense would dress this way in office. call me jealous. i dont care. i just dont fancy whore-like girls.
i told of my glory at 12:08 am
Monday, 10 December 2007
if you havent realised, im feeling very much neglected by you :(
NOT YOU MR AMW. -.-
i told of my glory at 6:06 pm
BOO! today was just another normal day. LALA. had breaks with yingying. hmm. pretty alright day today i guess, only interesting happening was this cute little boyboy lahhh :))) total cuteness. and his mom's super friendly. he was happily pulling along the trolley thomas and friends bag. then his mom was following behind him. as in, he was REALLY smiling and runnning luh! along the length of my roadshow which was like, only that short! LOL. he ran back and forth a couple of times (: then picked up a winnie the pooh ball and kinda kicked it xD suddenly my mind drifted off to ... just within a spilt second. as i smile at him and he smiled back at me, a wide goofy smile sweet like honey, you know. the face just came into my mind that clearly... OH SHIT AH, what is happening to me?! and somehow i suddenly tried to imagine him on the field? but i couldnt imagine, cos i'd NEVER seen him on the field before. hmm. WHY??! is what chuan said REALLY coming true?! OH WELL, tmr shall prove itself. =xxx
and i realised, i like to call jun feng "boy ah!" maybe cos he's really that kiddish! xD seeing him, ben and justin move the tables today, i almost wanted to bang the wall and die. they're SUPER "no-coordination"!!! LOL.
CAL ELEMENTS I WANT! ZZZ.
MAGNETIC BRACELET I WANT! ZZZ!
i'm still feeling so happy for my OMMM and TPSM :)))
yay. i feel the elation from you (:
i told of my glory at 1:30 am
Saturday, 8 December 2007
BOO! BIG NEWS! LONG JUN TELL ME TO COMMIT! COS HE'S ON HIS WAY TO BM THIS MONTH AND NEXT MARCH TO A CAR ACHIEVER!! GOGOGO!! ahhh. how i wish the period of "1st 3 months" can be longer so i can pon school to go and commit more. LOL. cos he rich= i get richer also. LOL! ok today! highlights of the day was having a coffee session with red falcon SBGM mr steven ho, plus today i did my first ever PP in my whole life, and i think i kinda "got serious" with something i never thought i'd ever think of, so im kinda affected yea.
hhahas. so the coffee session. omg lah. i was super inspired by mr steven. and long jun said that mr steven was once a xiaohunhun! LOL! cant imagine that man! but he really speaks logic! just a question from me and it triggered off his explainations of why this happened, how this happened, and the solution to tackle this problem. OH MAN! im really REALLY motivated all of a sudden. but like what i told mr meng wee today, LI4 BU4 CONG2 XIN1!! haiis. i remember mr steven mentioned:
"are the millionaires a minority or a majority?"
"are the people who hold an unsteady 9-5 job a majority or a minority?"
totally cool! i quite agree that in the society today, people are like running a rat-race in their careers. it becomes a competition to see who gets the job COS they want a lower salary, unlike in the past when it was a competition to see who had the highest qualifications. high qualifications has kinda become a neccessity such that it isnt that impressive as before. OH WELL. and he recommended me a number of books which are of successful businessmen and I'LL DEFINITELY LOOK THEM UP TMR!! hahahs! oh well, mr steven is such an interesting person! he's the SBGM of red falcon, and such a person of great speaking abilities! totally salute him man... his parents had objections like my parents do. EXACTLY! and he's such a successful man today. SOMEDAY I WILL!!! :)))
ok and today my first ever PP. OH SHIT LAH. i did the product presentation to yingying and her friend shu ying. AND I SCREWED IT UP! though jun was nodding at what i said, i kinda missed out some important points. LOL, cos seeing him nod gave me this kind of false security which made me kinda complacent and overlooked some points. cos i even had to look at him for the last property and ask "what is this one about ah?" in the end he even had to say quite alot for me cos i missed out those points.
HURHUR! I WAS ANXIOUS PLEASE! cos his presence there was... AHHH!!!
but then the funny part and IDIOTIC PART came. after that when me, mr meng wee, long jun and jing hui and ms lois were at the cubicle, then LJ wanted to tell me smth about my PP just now and mr meng wee and jing hui started saying that i should sit in to C's PP someday so i can learn from him and then he'll patiently teach me cos he's the best at doing water PP. KNS LAH~ then the 3 of them say say say, until i kinda got DIAO-ed lah so i said "hey whats up with you all today hur? like excessively publicising C hur?" o.O
LIKE HELLO, I DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR MIND DARLINGS, but what gave you the idea that he and i should be together? LOL! and mr meng wee shouldnt be on long jun and jing hui's side! AHHH!!!
and LJ was being bad today (: he laughed at mr mw and said his house doesnt have a toilet cos he always comes to office to .... LOL! stupid mr mw lah proclaim out loud that he wanna go toilet to .... YOU KNOW!
and mr mw is super ga jiao one luh! he exchanged long jun's parker pen ink for his own cos he thinks LJ's one works better. haha! but i palto him lah. HEHE. but LJ's shiny shiny parker pen is kinda an object of envy i guess? heehee :)))
so now i realise, looking at my organisation, i guess there's a price to pay for having the best upline one could ask for, cos my downlines are... ARGH!! I NEED YOU ALL TO HELP MEEEE!!! today i just recruited yingying and her friend, hope they're at least better than my other 5 downlines who ran =x and my 1 other downline left who's not really optimistic about his career o.O ZZZ.
so yes, what's going on in my mind now? the way you treated me today was really nice i guess, i kinda had all the attention from you i wanted. :))) but if you meant what you said as an extra pointer, i guess i might be disappointed yes? yes i will have the chance to indulge in such pleasures too, but i have to share them with someone and that is NOT something i can tolerate. imagine me being treated this way, im happy, and then behind me you're treating someone else that way too.
i'd rather have you to myself just like how it has been for the last month.
i told of my glory at 10:45 pm
Friday, 7 December 2007
BOO! ok today was a day of roadshow again. ZZZ. but today was still ok. i read 2 nancy drew books. LOL! imagine how free i was. early in the morn reached and only SL, ernita and patsy in the office. LALALA. then yingying came and we were like chatting away. i even attended briefing! LOL. without eric, life seems so... out-of-control? hhaha xD had lunch with eemain, jun feng and yingying. and dinner with eemain, yingying and SL. lol. as usual SL was... doing small actions which made us o.O and laugh. hahahs. oh well, that's him what xD then today closing was horrible. cos we had to wait for ernita to finish closing downstairs b4 she could come up to close for me. wah sian. feli, jun feng and i were NUAH-ing upstairs for like 10 min lah! and we had alr taken our own sweet time moving the stuff! OH WELL. then *yawns. super tireddddd. oh yah, was talking to kelly for close to half an hour before closing. hah! SIAN LAH CAN?! zzz.
ok enough of today. i really thought alot today i guess, and i found myself smiling to myself, glad of what i hold today.
and i realised, it's not only me thinking this way. today something happened which made me realise, everyone has their breaking point. he may have been "the more sensitive kind" quote from someone. but in my opinion, he cared too much about how others saw him. just like what ms hazel had said about me before. oh well, looking back, it didnt take a stupid customer's complain to make me cry for the first time in tn. but him. funny as it seems, i get too egoistic at times too. in front of some particular people. haha! oh well, that's ME LAH can?! but i really felt damn sad when he cried today! OH WELL, a kinda da jie's over-protective instinct i guess? just now after dinner i was pondering over it. i treat jun feng, benjamin, and justin really like juniors lo. maybe cos they're the more "look vulnerable" kind in the batch this year. but somehow, i feel a joy when i see them smile and laugh. kinda like a kiddish feeling when i see them. maybe cos they're too cute! xD though we're just a year's difference, it's really this difference lo. like in eemain, yingying, chester, maisy, i find i really can talk to them. cos they're pretty matured as compared to those few boyboys xD hehs.
so in conclusion, this year i went back to a place where my feelings had left. much as i see her and reminisce about the past with him and the others of that clique, i know the times will never be the same. i saw weiming that day. yet i did not acknowledge him. i dont know what held me back either :) but things just aren't the same without cyrus around.
yes, like what kelly said, without him around, i've subconsciously gone to "the other side". but have you considered, i never considered myself a "cyrus gang" person. if i was, i wouldn't even be talking to eric, feli etc since 3 years ago. but i've been neutral. hasnt anyone noticed? im always in the middle. it's just something which drew me to be PHYSICALLY more to the "cyrus side".
so now, feli says eric will be training up a new cashier. i gave my opinions, reccomendations, whatever you call it. i dont know how true would it be, but i hope the person who has my confidence in them will be the cashier and overthrow me and take over as the roadshow cashier cos SERIOUSLY IM ROTTING! ZZZ. wow.
ok cyrus can go. but im still here. i promised last year would be my last year at tn. yet im back this year. without the necessary, yet im surviving, and happily at that. next year when i go back, there may no longer be feli there. no more yingying, eemain, justin, junfeng, benjamin, chester, maisy. but i know, i've learnt to survive on my own. i know i can and i know i will :)
such great people to meet in my life, just like in the past when i first got to know ryan, joyce, huiting, baoyu, chris. so while we're together in this month, let's make the best out of it. i dont care if any of you say im old ok! (though im just one year older?!) im not feli (who's like 5 or 6 years older than me). LOL! :)))
MY GUARDIAN ANGEL (:
tmr~
shall be the first month since you came into my life...
i told of my glory at 10:49 pm
BOO! today. WAHAHA. eric and feli and ernita NOT WORKING! YAY! so i was like, you know, kind of the head of roadshow le since i was the only "old bird" left at roadshow. LOL! wahahas. then maisy and me take turn lo. hehs. think i kinda bullied her into it =x so for the 1st half of the day i was with TEXT lo. and AIYOH! no wonder chester EMPHASIZES that he and benjamin they all belong to the diff side of maris. LOL. ben is SUPER CUTE LAH CAN?! like what ernita said, "soft soft" de. LOL! damn funny. had breaks with patsy, radhaa and saripah. OH WELL, not entirely YOUNG, but they're damn funny! and especially patsy with her "stupid dog". LOL!
then today i went to help SL at cashier. AIYOH! he's super comical. so ACT PAISEH. dare not ask customer come infront. hurhur. haha! then he ran away halfway to talk to supplier! from text, to packer, to cashier. LOL! STUPID SL LAH. :)))
so i was upstairs at roadshow for the second half of the day and ZOOOOOM! the sales shot up yea! $400 plus which is good for a weekday le! me and maisy were still saying if got $300 today good le. cos when i took over form her the sales was just $200+? LOL. and it was alr 4 plus then. hahahs. BEING A POPULAR PART TIMER REQUIRES GOOD ORAL SKILLS TOO! I HAD TO TALK TO THE CUSTOMER FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES (suggesting appropriate presents and deco ideas) BEFORE THE CUSTOMER BOUGHT ABOUT 50 BUCKS WORTH OF STUFF! and not one customer, but 3!! that's how my sales shot up :)))
ahhh. and closing. OH MAN. that david again. haha! one more funny guy. the way he talks to his wife on the line is entirely different de LUH! SO GENTLE! OMG!! xDDD
but that lousy kookoo LAUGHS and GAJIAOs me everyday. BOOOOOOOO!!!!
oh yah and i bought long jun's parker pen today le. OMG. such a great contrast with mr meng wee's hehehs. PAISEH LAH! xDDD
*yingying just said that i like to "oh well". oh well, my style LAH! xDDD
OH YAH! TMR "T.T" IS COMING TO STORE! OMGOMG. as if i care. LOL!
i told of my glory at 12:01 am
Wednesday, 5 December 2007
BOO! co today was. AHH. nothing much ok. but anyways, i REALLY enjoyed my time at office today. well, cos i attended the Company Power Bulider (CPB) seminar today. today's session was on the Car Achievers. i must say, i really felt the confidence all of them emitted to us all. the standard "mr simon hao3, mr glen hao3 etc etc" and "VE GOOD! GOOD! GOOD! GOOD! GOOD! GOOD! ROUND OF APPLAUSE!" really had me realise what a closely bonded company i'd joined. i was really impressed with the car achievers. mr joseph, him being the typical play-a-fool guy, a car achiever! mr kit tan, mr steven ho, mr dewey ho etc etc. and they're all GREAT speakers :))) MR ANG MENG WEE ALSO WENT ON STAGE!! he was SUPER serious lah, and well, the previous speaker before him (i forgot who) asked how many people does mr mw have under his organisation and long jun, jing hui and i rose our hands. oh well, 3 people. and mr mw admitted that he'd need help from the managers. and they were all willing to help! OH WELL :))) there's this guy who sang well too, hmm the mr something lah. LOL. he sings DAMN WELL! xDDD
and today... ahhhhh. somehow. was raining heavily just now. and i was like pacing around, anxious to get to company but didnt know how cos i didnt have any form of shelter with me and i didnt want to walk in the heavy rain. so i walked to the other bus stop of eunos mrt station and ALAS, there was no shelter. so sad and helpless me walked back to the mrt station thinking that i'd have to either go home or what lo. cos STUPID MR MENG WEE DID NOT REPLY MY MSG WHEN I HAD ALREADY MSG-ED HIM WHEN I ALIGHTED FROM 24 AT LEAST FIFTEEN MINUTES AGO!! o.O ahems. oh well, then i msged long jun and i was so glad he actually replied like immediately lah! then i was still walking and suddenly he appeared in front of me! AHH!! i was shocked yes, cos i thought he was at office already. then suddenly, the feeling of helplessness was gone! YAY. then in the end managed to reach office DRY!! YAYYY!! oh man, no one can ever understand that feeling of hmmm, happiness? i dont know. lol. but anyways, he was wanting to go home first lo. hurhur. so lucky of me that he was at eunos then. though i dont know HOW HE WAS THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE. lol. but really omg lah. :)))))) somehow. hmm. hahahs.
then the joke: when i went to office, mr meng wee and jing hui were so shocked to see me, cos they sent calvin to pick me up. and they tricked him! jing hui said that it's his downline hui yun who's stuck at the mrt station. then just at that moment calvin called my phone! LOL. then i told him im huifang and he was like WELL, you know. lol. in the end mr mw and jing hui were laughing like WTH lah LOL xDDD WHO ASK THAT STUPID MENG WEE NEVER REPLY MY SMS TELL ME!? lol. oh well! and mr meng wee's gonna give me a titanium bracelet soon. YAY. as long as i settle te 6 cartons of water. LOL!
CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS!!
oh and you know, schools have school song, we have COMPANY SONG!! LOL!
We Will Get There- Stephanie Sun
Remember the days, we set out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine, when we thought that
Nothing could stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same, the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
A world of hope forever after
Chorus:
Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long, long way to go
With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there
So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must
Be possible to overcome anything
There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love
We will start again anew
So why don't we try? If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world
A world of hope for ever after
and long jun told me sing along too, cos "sing le will succeed de lei!" LOL! HE DAMN FUNNY LUH :)))
i told of my glory at 11:34 pm
Tuesday, 4 December 2007
BOO! today was another day of rotting upstairs. LOL! OH WELL, at least i got a french toast treat from maisy's mom. xDDD heehee. had lunch with chester the chestnut and maisy. haha. chester is SUPER CUTE!! xDDD he was so irritated with the "uncomfortable" and we were happily gossiping about her. LOL and yea, maisy's mom gave us sprite! hehe! :))) then we had dinner with david. HIGHLIGHTS.
i got shot by daivid and chester. OH MAN! david is such a bitch LAH! keep saying i slow! dumbshit. LOL.
then he REALLY LAUGHED AT ME LAH! please, i've never seen david laugh so much. and especially at ME?! ZZZ. smack him lah. then at night closing also. he, feli, chester and justin came up. and chester tried to be FUNNY HOR, say we slow, then said "two aunties and one uncle, please hurry up" SMACK HIM LAH. and when he left, david called to him downstairs to "shut up lah you!" LOL. saw a FUNNY side of david. hahha xDDD roadshow= OT. extend hours= OT. this whole year end full of OT. OH WELL! :)))
long jun told me i have to rebuild my organisation. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT. please tell me which SINGLE ONE OF YOU can i depend on? OH MAN. when im already unsteady. WTF.
i told of my glory at 10:51 pm
oh and i just remembered something. mr meng wee taught me a SMART money-making method today. and all it requires is just a little shrewdness and customers :)))
YAY. my manager rocks lah :)))
i told of my glory at 1:27 am
Monday, 3 December 2007
BOO! today i woke up at 1pm! LOL. and only until someone called my hp then did i wake up. haha! oh well, so it was another day spent at office. and wahaha. ok maybe that's just pure psycho-ing me, but long jun actually told me that im the only one he sees with potential to become his first marketing manager. and then today mr meng wee was telling me about his organisation. and OH WELL LOL, im the only downL long jun has left :))) BUT AIYOH! that means his sees the potential in me is BULLSHIT LAH! LOL. cos im like, the only one under him le?! ZZZ. stupid simon lah. nabuayyys. at first so enthu then left le. ZZZ. then now without chuan ru and simon, and i think shahrin and saiful also, i only got jinghui, long jun and mr meng wee left. OH WELL. at least there's still calvin there also. hurhur. but... still left with so few of them :((( ZZZ.
went to sit in at a PP today cos long jun wanted me to. jeremy was the one presenting. hahahs. took down quite alot of notes! HMM. xDDD then james came up for the BP and LAZY ME decided to sit in too. oh well, he's cute too. xDDD LOL! oh by the way, i think ACSI girls are fucking bitches lah can? ask those fucking dumb questions and make jeremy damn blur o.O wanted to just give her a tight slap cos she is like, so ACT SOPHISTICATED. hurhur. i hope she doesnt join lah, no offence. cos she's like, WAD THE FARK?! seriously... worrying about your body becoming too alkali is pure dumbshit. LOL. when she and her friend were openly insulting the way jeremy presented, i got so irritated that i did something COOL. know what? i poured the leftover iodine-added cal water into the iodine-added tap water. LOL! then she got so stunned by it! HAHA! should have taken a picture of that shocked/stunned spastic look on her. LOL!
and AIYOH, my new schedule sucks big time can?! i dont get to see SL on so many days! AND IM IN DANGER OF BEING TRANSFERRED!! AHH!!! MAISY DONT LEAVE!!!!!
tn's gonna collapse soon. LOL!
tending to become flirtatious after not seeing one another for too long? LOL. xDDD
i told of my glory at 10:43 pm
Sunday, 2 December 2007
BOO! today was again another rotting day upstairs. OH WELL, roadshow lo. thank you. solo kia. NEHNEH LAH. then somemore got the news that maisy is QUITING?! AH THANK YOU AH. WHICH MEANS I GOT TO REPRESENT TN TO GO SUNTEC BOOKFEST FROM 14-23 DEC LAH! nabuay. i'll never forgive her if that ever happens. (even though SL will be going there for the 1st 3 days to help out in the set up :))))
and todays BREAKS! alamak. really LOL. i had lunch with SL and eemain and dinner with SL, eemain and josephine. THANK YOU LAH. like that's the best combination. lol. i like breaks with eemain. and any other part timers if that matters! but OMG with SL i could DIE LAH! xDDD he can make me laugh half the meal away. LOL. and at dinner i thought why he didnt laugh at all! though he did crap, then suddenly he LAUGHED OUT LOUD when my hp dropped into my miso soup. THANKS AH BOY! then he was trying to be funny eh. he's like, youknow, shorter than me, then he said his water comes from the mountains and for the tall people to drink de and he was like tiptoe-ing when we were walking. SUPER FUNNY. oh wells.
i told of my glory at 11:28 pm
BOO! i woke up late. roadshow staff to reach at 1015, i woke up at 1045. went for work late. reached at 1130. lucky thomas was not in. BLAH BLAH. *warning- vulgar post.
"you're no longer the huifang i once knew"
FUCK YOU LAH. another person who tells me this. so you two have been talking about me when im not around eh? or rather, when you're not around. he shows it, you say it. FUCK YOU LAH. i dont want to be involved, not in this manner. the way im supposed to be involved is like last year- im the 1st, you're the 2nd. just because i left off for studies, you have become 1st. FUCK YOU LAH. and now im supposed to SURVIVE with YOU. and you're my BACKER. WHAT THE FUCK. i'd rather be an individual. cos there are others WAITING to back me. DAMN. DAMN IT LAH. NABUAYYYYYS~ am i supposed to thank you that im back? WHAT THE HELL, NO! have you helped me? WHAT THE HELL, NO! have you landed me in shit before? WHAT THE HELL, YES! oh man, you can jolly well fuck off thank you.
im VERY VERY VERY ANNOYED. oh man. another month to go. OH WELL, at least there are happy-s that make ma SMILE- ben, jun feng and sui loong that crazy kookoo xDDD
i told of my glory at 1:22 am