Saturday, 21 February 2009
"nothing gold can stay"
i wonder how many of us actually remember this quote from Ponyboy in The Outsiders.
was it him who said this? i cant really rmbr either.
i only remember i learnt this quote from my literature text in sec 2.
nothing good can stay forever.
nothing is forever.
what is forever?
how long is forever?
天下无不散之宴习 (is my xi2 correct? lol.)
whatever good memories, whatever happy moments,
we dont know if they'll stay,
or how long can things stay this way.
it's such a beautiful picture,
so flawless,
but it will never be forever.
we move on to different phases in life, forget part of the past,
move on to a higher level.
we all aim to be the best, aint it so?
and i find that ive moved to another level.
i finding myself turning for the better recently.
maybe the people around me dont feel so,
cos they already see the better side of me.
they dont know i was like in the past.
no one ever knew of what kind of ideas i had in my mind...
the mindset of a person who will go far in life, will do well in life, who will make a difference in many people's lives.
no i havent achieved that, but im working towards that.
it's a subconscious thing.
but im glad i feel the difference, sense the difference, and i really see the difference too. (:
take for instance,
what happened today.
i was at orchard mrt station. a place where tourists are a sure-sight cos they'll be really lost on what to do with their standard tickets.
what happened was, i wanted to top up my card due to extremely low value.
so there was this caucasian couple whom were in front of me at the machine, figuring how to recover their $1 deposits. so being helpful, i offered to do it for them, rather than most people whom id seen, shun from that machine.
then appeared a bunch of social rejects, who came over and saw me helping them, stared at me, then decided that theyd wait for the machine i was at. but when i was taking a call, the caucasian guy kind of made a wrong selection or smth liek that, then one of the social rejects actually walked to the front and helped him. nice enough, but the other guy who was with him said "OI. YOU THINK YOU SERVICE PEOPLE ONE AH. GO LAH. GO OTHER MACHINE." and his other social rejects also said "HANAR!"
i was totally wtf at this situation. okay. but the caucasian couple turned around and thanked me for the help i rendered them. felt glad. was just a favour that took me another extra 2 minutes only, though i was really in a hurry, but i felt happy at that that id helped someone, rather than those social rejects who acted like they were major fucktards. whatever suits them.
winston told me that theres smth smth i dont know how to describe, but it's just that in Christianity there's this smth about helping people who need help but not in return for some materialistic gain. probably this is why i got to know about this religion and actually took interest into finding out more about it, wanting to learn more about it. (:
im taking a really long time to post today,
but i know it's a meaningful realisation (:
i told of my glory at 10:49 pm